This morning I am severely pissed and in more ways than one. I woke up almost 2 hour earlier than usual. I would go for my morning routine of basically being lazy but today I was just pissed. I went out for a jog instead. I jogged all the way to the school then jog back and by then komachi was up.

Komachi: "Oni-Chan is everything ok ?"

Hachiman: "Yeah...it's fine."

Komachi: "Oni-Chan you woke up early... that usually mean something is going on."

We stood there silent for a while. She suddenly notice the tag on my neck.

Komachi: "Oni-Chan are having nightmares about that day again ?"

Hachiman: "No...not exactly."

Komachi: "Then what is it ?"

I decide maybe she should know about the questioning today

Hachiman: "The service club found out about my career. They want to know more. In return they promise to keep quiet about this."

Komachi: "Oni-Chan... are you sure. This has always been a heavy topic with you."

I can't really reply with something else can I ?

Hachiman: "I'm more worried about what if someone else knew about me. What will happen to you guys. Mom, dad, you. I can't risk that."

Komachi: "oni-Chan i feel this might actually help you at least a small part of it."

Huh ?

Hachiman: "Huh ? How ?"

Komachi: "Oni-Chan how long have you kept this burden to yourself ? 3 whole years and you can't even bring this out for the accomplishments you did."

Hachiman: "Komachi... I've killed people and tore apart who knows how many families. I did not accomplish anything back then. I'm a monster."

She walk up to me, even though I a few heads taller than her she just cup my cheeks and look me in the eye. Her eyes were somewhat angry and pouty at the same time. How do you actually do that.

Komachi: "Hikigaya Hachiman. You are not a monster. You may have killed people but you also have saved countless lives when you stopped V2. You've liberated a whole nation, oni-chan you may be the demon lord but your not evil. I know that ."

She continue to pinch my cheeks awhile saying it. Man I really did have the best adoptive sister ever. And not in the perverted kind.

Hachiman: "I guess for one it'll be ok."

Komachi: "Yeah give them a chance..."

Hachiman: "And if they betray me ? You know what happen with Pixy."

Komachi: "Then... I don't know."

Hachiman: "That's what I'm worried about."

We both stood in silence and for good reason.

Komachi: "Listen oni-Chan just go ok we'll figure this out later."

Hachiman: "Ok I'll grab my stuff I should be heading out soon."

Komachi: "Ok...hey Hachi."

She called me by our pet name ? What's up with that ? She suddenly walk up to me then just flat out kiss me on the cheeks.

Komachi: "Don't push yourself too hard ok?"

So I went upstairs and grab my usual things, school bags and such and grab a few extra things. My service tag to the polish Air Force, my old squadron patch, and finally my classified service records. If they want proof then here it is. After a short shower and dressing up I walk outside the house and see hiratsuka sensei and her sports car outside the house. She was wearing her usual lab coat and for some reason she had this super smug grin on her face.

Shizuka: "Hey there Hikigaya I see you've got some dark past eh ? Should call you shounen boy now."

Hachiman: "real funny sensei."

Shizuka: "hey at least you have a interesting story to tell, I'm here being the hot single teacher."

Hachiman: "you want me to hook you up with my old squadron mate or something ?"

Unsurprisingly her eye sparkle.

Shizuka: "really !? Can you actually do that ?"

Hachiman: "sorry to break your dreams sensei most of the squadron was married but the biggest part is that it was only me and another guy in our squadron."

Shizuka: "that seems really understrength I though there would be more."

Hachiman: "Poland is not very wealthy they can't effort a lot of mercenary. They can effort the planes mainly because both superpowers were giving them planes left and right."

Shizuka: "that seems odd. Why would put so much into helping them ?"

Hachiman: "well Poland is not much noting other than the fact that it's a buffer zone and they'd rather have it be independent than under someone's thumb. Besides during the war some geologist found a decent amount of rare earth metals and some uranium last I heard."

Shizuka: "made sense that they didn't want that falling into anyone's hands."

Hachiman: "yeah obviously after seeing what it can do."

She went silent realizing the implications

Shizuka: "y-you were there ? On t-"

Hachiman: "yeah i was flying interception on some bombers heading for the allied ground forces. We got intel suggesting that they have nukes. What did not know it's that it was not the bombers but the missiles that set them off. All 7 of them."

She stop at the door of the car standing in silent while i move to enter the car. I didn't have to say much she knows what it means.

Shizuka: "was it as bad as they say ?"

Hachiman: "well I don't know I was too high up to see what happen on the ground but I did see the fire balls."

Shizuka: "I'm sorry for remind you about it."

She just look sheepishly to the ground. Seriously if I was here she I would ask her out on the spot.

Hachiman:"sensei lets go we'll be late and if other saw us it would be weird."

Shizuka: "r-right e-em just put your stuff in the back of the car."

I place all my gear including my bag in the back then I notice that sensei was constantly blushing and looking worried at the same time.

time skip to the end of class and start of the service club inquiry

Japan, Chiba, Sobu highschool march 2019, 35.615922N , 140.104414E 15:30 local time

the service club room as set up for this inquiry and logging of importance to this club, all request are canceled for today and all members are present including 2 guest.

Hachiman: "what is she doing here?"

the person in question is the sliver haired delinquent Kawasaki Saki.

Saki:"I heard the things from yesterday and Yukinoshita wanted me to be a witness."

I just look over to Yukinoshita with my best glare. what the hell are you thinking Ice Queen.

yukinoshita: "Hikigaya you are scaring me please stop. i'd rather have more witness and possibly carry you home after the story telling."

saki:" wait what ?"

'BLAM !" a wild sensei suddenly appeared.

shizuka: "oi hikigaya I got the drinks for you to get started."

Saki: "what ? why are you trying to gert him drunk ?!"

Hachiman: "basically she is not a therapist and try to use alcohol to compensate."

Saki: "How in the seven circle of hell is that a good idea ?" she immediately look over to me.

Hachiman:"Don't look at me, it wasn't my idea."

Shizuka:"Don't worry i can drive him home if things go bad, anyway hikigaya i got beer, whiskey and vodka."

Saki: "why do you have that stash in the school ?"

Shizuka: "i don't brought this from my house over just for this occasion."

Iroha: "that's good we don't want students getting a hold of those things. the past thing we need is a bunch of drunk students."

yet you guys are trying to get me drunk. hello ?

Yukino: "anyway we should start with the inquiry."

everyone took a seat and instead of doing anything he grab the evidence of his patch, and service record.

Hachiman: "here is additional evidence being my combat files and records along with my squadron patch."

Yukino:" that is very much appreciated hikigaya-kun although most of things are already acquired by isshiki-San."

Iroha:"most of the information was quite classified but the only thing i can make out was the pictures and profile which is yours but other than that is your combat and that you are a part of the JSADF and that you are already a part of a squadron here in japan after high school."

Hachiman:"explain those as well."

Yukino:"well then lets start."

Yui: "so hikki how did you end up there ?"

Hachiman: "i guess it start with my 1st car crash and how i came to realize that I'm adopted."

yui: "you're adopted ? so you and Komachi."

Hachiman: "yes we are not blood related at all. in fact that's where i found out that i'm half European specifically, Belarus."

everyone: "What ?!"

Yukino:"you are half belarus ?! and you fought and killed your own country men ?!"

Hachiman:" 1st off i maybe half related to my enemy, but I have no sympathy for those bastards especially if one of them was the one who left me for dead."

Yui: "what ?"

Hachiman:"my real biological father was a belarus citizen but my biological mother was Japanese. however once my mother was pregnant with me the bastard left my mom and never returned."

shizuka:"what about your mother ?"

hachiman:"she gave birth to me fine but she put me up for adoption and then left me. I'm less mad at her mainly because she was the one who named me."

Yui:"so that is where you got your name. so did you find her later on in life ?"

Hachiman: "during recovery from my 1st car crash I was told apparently I was adopted by the doctor mainly because my genetics don't match up with the rest of the family. at that point obviously I felt like crap and I was 13 so I came down hard my own mind about my identity and who I am as a person. the doc gave me clue being that I'm half Japanese so that was some sort of identity but the other half was European. the doc did manage to find my old birth certificate from the orphanage that took me in and that lead to my mother."

Yui: "so you did met your mother, how was she."

Hachiman: "I did find her after recovery, but turns out she was..."

Yukino:" something bad happened."

I guess this is where I took the 1st drink being a simple Asahi beer.

Saki: "oh here comes the bad part."

Hachiman: "she was doing treatment for the last stage of cancer that day was one of her last days actually living, when I did see her she off course have no idea who was until I told her my name, she smiled and from what doc said, that was apparently the 1st time she smiled in a very long time."

Hikigaya ended up with a distant look with his dead fish eyes. Yuigahama in her heart was broken, to someone she sees as a friend in such great pain at such age cause her maternal instinct to kick wanting to go and give him a hug but was still shock at the pain he suffered alone, Yukinoshita was wondering if the man in front of her was the same man that she knew. the amount of suffering he went through at that age. compare to her it was equal but the age seeing one's life shattered then seeing your own mother dying in front of you was much more painful negligence. Hiratsuka wanted to go in and hug him, her own pain was overshadowed by his pain. isshiki wanted to cry, her own senpai, someone she place a lot of burden on ended up with way more problems than herself, never felt more guilty than she is now, Kawasaki went silent, in her mind though she was screaming bloody murder, someone that young should never have to have their life torn apart by a single incident.

Hachiman: "I was able to talk to her for a few more days, just to know who I am and how I came to be in this world. one day I visited her and she gave me a picture and a name. I still remember her last words. It was "I'm sorry" and then she went limp. her heart monitor stopped and she was gone."

Hikigaya shed a tear. it's ok mom, this is the last tear I shed for you. everything's ok now.

at this point the most of the girls wanted to cry and for isshiki she was crying already.

Iroha:"(sniffles)..S-senpai why d-didn't you say anything about this ?" she ask while still crying, she couldn't bear the idea of seeing one's mother die, to see the last possible family member dying in front of you had to shatter a lot of dreams

Hachiman:" on that day I made a promise to my mom's spirit if it ever existed, if I will cry for then it's a good reason, I'll find my father somehow. if I couldn't then I'll need to do something worthwhile before I die. that's when I decide to go fine my father no matter where he was and if needed fight him, then I'll die fighting. at the time all I had my rage, I wanted payback. that's when I began to track where and who my father was. I track the DNA to Europe and particularly Belarus on the western borders near Poland. my adopted folks aren't happy as you can imagine, but in the end they let me go saying that from the day I learn about my adoption I was much more matured than anyone my age, but then again I was a 13 year old with a bloody vendetta so it's the best idea. Komachi begged for me not to go but I told her that at some point I'll be back. and with only a decent amount of money and a name and passport to traveled to Belarus. when I finally got there all I have is the picture of my father. at the time belarus was a democratic republic in a economic trouble and I ask around about who my father was with the picture. I ended up with the police when they see my father's picture. it belonged to a famous and ruthless business owner. he apparently was also a local scumbag. trust me afterwards I wanted to die. instead I ended with a grandma out in the wild and I lived with her for a while before I crossed the border to Poland."

Yukinoshita:" to think you went through all that at the age of 13."

Hachiman:" yeah well this is where I became a mercenary. I was walking around when I found a recruitment program for child soldier, at that point I was so low in terms of morale that I didn't care that I did have a living biological father. I join the group and trained with them for a better part of a year. That's when I found my talent as a fighter pilot. I had a good sense of balance and a good eyesight while also being quite smart for age, my trainer even said it would be a waste putting me in the infantry. on my 14 birthday I was assign to a squadron moving to the mountains in Germany. At that point it was when Belarus began to invade it's neighbors. the squadron I was assign to was called glam team. that's where I meet my team during the war."

Saki:" That's when the legends start ?"

Hachiman: "I Guess you can say that...…. It all started on a cold and Snowy day."

here is the second chapter and where the ace combat section begins. here I will try to follow the story of ace combat while intertwining with Oregairu story as well. for the 1st 6 mission it would follow the Knight route and every 6 the ace style will continue to become more darker and in process become more cynical and more becoming of Hikigaya in character. this is what I will try to do.