Characters:

-Kai

-Venom

-Jay (at the end)

-Lloyd (at the end)

Words: 1000

Pairing: Kainom (Kai x Venom)

Warning(s): Uhm, strong talk of panic attacks n junk, a bit of cursing, OC x canon,

Notes:

-it's 5am whenever i wrote this so it's probably gonna be a bit messy, oops

-the gang ended up having a sleepover practice at Kai's house, which explains why they're all in the same room with each other

-turns into fluff at the end bc I wanted to write some material for these two

-i'm actually, hella proud of this for the most part, wow

-they're like, i wanna say 15? 16? in this one. idk, but they're older than what they usually are (aka 13)

-ahahaha.. angst

-as usual enjoy ig

2020 Notes:

-Like I mentioned in the previous chapter, this oneshot (and the one before it) was written... a decent amount of time ago.

-I tried my best getting out a, 'decent' portrayal of anxiety and a panic attack back whenever I first wrote this. Unfortunately, despite what my younger self says, I'm not so sure that I did a "good job". If I ever rewrite this however, I'll be sure to fix it.

-Back when I wrote this myself at night, I was having a bit of a panic attack myself, and this was my way of helping me calm down. If things are jaded or don't make the most sense, that's most likely why.

-I don't know if I'll write anymore "shippy" oneshots or anything for this book (Hell, this wasn't even originally going to be put in here), but if I do, there's probably not going to be any more like this.

With that out of the way, enjoy (or, at least, try to) the oneshot.

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She woke up rather suddenly, thanks to a ball of panic that was starting to form in her chest. The teen sits up from her place on the couch. A hand ends up going through her hair, as if she was trying to cling onto any remaining bit of control she had left.

At first, it hadn't been too noticeable. But thanks to the sudden icicles of fear and panic stabbing her in the heart, it had been noticed rather quickly.

The icicles soon ended up stabbing her more and more. Her heart, was racing at what felt like 100 miles per hour. She could hardly breathe as soon as the thoughts had starting swarming in like a bunch of bees.

Then everything started kicking in:

Her head; starting to pound against her skull.

Her heart; still beating rapidly like she had just ran a marathon.

Her breathing; seemingly not working, as she wasn't able to get in a decent breath...

'Oh my god...

I'm going to die...'

Thoughts began swarming around in her head violently. Her eyes began to dart around the dark garage rapidly, trying to see if anything was somehow... watching her. Face going pale, she begins shaking a bit, grabbing her arms. Just trying to get ahold of any grip of control that she could get.

'...Fuck!

...I'm not ready yet!'

In the mist of all of this, she hadn't even noticed that her hyperventilating had woken up her best friend, and the bandleader...

"...Venom?"

He rubs the sleep out of his eyes, while he goes over to the panicking girl. Stepping over their sleeping bandmates while he did so, not wanting to disturb them.

He now stood near her, watching as she sat there with tired, yet worried eyes. The whole time, he could hear her murmuring things underneath her breath. Mostly things like how "I'm not ready to die!" and "oh god, oh fuck,". His facial expression turned into a worried frown after he had noticed that tears were starting her go down her face.

"Venom...", he mutters out, worryingly.

She could feel Kai sitting down next to her on the couch, but wasn't able to say anything. Her body tenses up as he pulls her into his arms. The continuous sobs escaping her mouth begin to slow down some.

Kai sits there with her, combing his fingers through her hair, which calms her down a bit more. And after a bit of this... she finally manages to at least snap out of that hell.

He smiles at the slightly younger teen when he sees that she's beginning to snap out of it. Venom's sobs evenutally quieted down, before they had become nonexistent. Finally, she had calmed down.

"You feeling better now?"

The sudden voice made the girl jump, not expecting it in the slightest. She nods, biting her lip as she looked around the garage nervously.

"Uh, yeah... Sorry for suddenly waking you up, or whatever... It's just, I felt like I couldn't get control of my body for a moment and I just kinda—"

"Lemme guess, shut yourself down mentally and almost get into a Panic Diary Mode like how Nya does sometimes?"

A laugh escaped her mouth at his response. She playfully rolled her eyes before she gently pushed at his side. He smiles at her, laughing as well, before he suddenly got a bit worried again.

"But in all seriousness though," he starts off, receiving a high eyebrow raise from Venom. "Are you at least feeling okay now? I got worried about you once I heard the panicked sobs..."

The brown-haired guitarist was hardly ever serious, unless it came to things like the band, his friends...

Y'know, the people he cared about.

Venom raises herself out of his arms, running a hand through her somewhat spiky hair. She bites her lip, looking up and around the garage once more.

"Yeah, I'm fine.. Like I said, I just woke up, kinda lost my grip of reality and my emotions, and yeah..."

"Do you wanna, I dunno, talk about it?" Kai jabs a thumb at the garage door, a small smile on his face. "I doubt that I can go back to sleep at this point, and it would be kinda nice to just have a bit of time to ourselves..."

She raises an eyebrow at him, before she suddenly catches his drift. Her mouth forms into an 'O' shape. She nods, smiling.

"Y'know what? Yeah! I mean, why not? Right? Besides, it's not like Jay and Lloyd are up right now..."

That was enough for Kai.

He beams at her, standing up and grabbing her hand. She stands up right after him, smiling back.

The two of them quietly move around the sleeping bags on the floor, making sure not to wake up the stepbrothers. He opens up the garage door as quiet as possible, turning to Venom with a smirk. She smirks back, grabbing his hand and leading him outside.

They find some trees in his frontyard. Sitting down by them, they face each other and begin talking. The smiles on their faces never leaving the entire time.

A quiet click goes off in the garage. Jay and Lloyd watch the two, taking pictures with a camera Jay had invented.

Lloyd looks down as a picture comes out of the camera, his eyes going up to his brother. He smirks, receiving a smirk back.

"We're never gonna let them live this down, are we?"

"Oh, absolutely not."