Chapter 2

It's my first day back to work. I feel as though I am on auto pilot. I shower and get dressed eat breakfast pack my lunch. Adam throws off the Routine. He is in the way always trying to make sure I'm Ok. I guess its sweet, I just am not sure how I feel about it. I want to try but it's just a reminder of what we lost.

I am still in a fog as I trudge up the back steps into the bullpen. I want to avoid Trudy as long as possible. She will just ask me how I am doing and I can't handle it if another person asks.

I saunter to my desk after leaving my bag in the locker room. No one else is here yet. I guess another conscious decision on my part.

Voight calls me into his office.

"Hey Kim, I'm sorry again for your loss."

"Thanks sarge."

"You ready?"

"Yes, sir. I just want to get back to normal."

"Good, we will ease you in."

Kim walked back to her desk as the rest of the team filed in. Everyone pats her on the shoulder as they make their way in. She sees Adam out of the corner of her eye. She is glad he doesn't attempt to comfort her here.

Adam went straight to his desk while giving Kim the side eye. He knew going up to her wouldn't earn him any points. He has finally admitted she has shut him out. He doesn't know how to reach her.

Adam's gaze goes unnoticed,to everyone but Hailey. Adam feels someone watching him and he looks to Hailey. She gives a small smile to him. He smiles back. Screw it, Adam thinks. He shoots hailey a message from across the room.

"Your offer still stand to talk?"

"Of course. Where and when?"

"My place, tonight around 7?"

"See you then."

By 9 am they caught a case, thank god. The tension was so thick in the bullpen you could cut it with a knife. Everyone wasn't sure how to act around Kim and Adam.

Adam could tell Kim wasn't loving easing into it. She was stuck in the surveillance van with Voight while everyone else was out in the field with guns out.

Kim hated this she just wanted to be normal. She wanted to go big or go home.

The case wrapped up relatively quickly for a change. It was 6 and some people were wrapping up paperwork and getting ready to head out. Kevin, Jay and Rojas headed out first talking about Molly's which left Kim, Adam and Hailey.

Hailey finished handing her files into Voight and gave Adam a look saying she would meet him at his place on her way out. Leaving just Adam and Kim alone.

Kim was stuck compiling all the case notes from the individual reports so she would be there later than everyone else.

Adam left Voight's office and checked in with her one last time before heading out to meet Hailey.

"You did good today." Adam says as he perches himself on the corner of Kim's desk.

"Yeah, great. Sitting in the van watching all the action." Kim says avoiding his eyes.

"You ok?" Adam asks one last time.

"Yeah." Kim replies

"Ok, I'll see you later." Adam squeezes her shoulder as he gets up to leave.

He pauses mid air as Kim speaks again.

"Adam, you really don't have to keep staying with me."

"Do you want me pack my stuff up?"

"I think I do. I am ready."

"Oh, ok. I Will grab everything this weekend. I'll stay at my place tonight."

"Thank you, for everything." There is so much meaning in that everything. Allowing that life to exist for the short time that it did and for being there for her even while she pushed him away.

"Sure, When you are ready, I'm here Kim."

Kim just nods. The guilt of not letting him in eats at her. She just doesn't know how to explain it to him.

Adam left her staring at all the case files.

He walks back to the locker room just drained. He scrubs his face with his hands. He gets his bag and heads down the back stairs to his car.