"So… I may have saw a thing…"
"You're going to have to be more specific, Ruby."
Ruby readjusted her pillows to lay against the headboard of her bed so she could get more comfortable while on the phone. "Fine, Weiss. I was going downstairs to get a snack. You know, like when I'm over at your house." Ruby said.
Ruby could hear a sigh on the other end of the phone. "I'm well aware. At least you're getting better at not making crumbs when you do."
"You're welcome!" Ruby said with cheer. "But that isn't the point. When I went down there, I had forgot about Blake being over here."
"What's your point?" Weiss asked. "Isn't she there all of the time now?"
"Well yeah, but that's normal. The main thing though, is that I may have accidentally walked in on them… making out…" Ruby finally admitted.
"Oh." Was all Weiss said.
"Yeah… didn't know they were together like that.." Ruby said.
"Wait, I thought you saw them cuddling together all the time though?" Weiss asked. "You never put it together from that?"
Ruby felt a little anxious now. "Well.. I thought they were kinda like me and you, Weiss." Ruby pointed out. "Since we spend so much time, like, together. We're always holding each other when we hang out now and hold hands and when I get sad you're there to help and I come over to your house because you get lonely over there and…"
"Ruby!" Weiss interrupted, nearly yelling through the phone. "You always ramble like this when you're nervous. So what if they're dating?"
"Because they're doing everything we do but then I find out that they're actually more than just friends hanging out on the couch." Ruby tried to explain terribly. "I think it just kind of surprised me."
"Well, sometimes that's just how things end up, Ruby. From what you've told me, they had already been friends for a while already." Weiss said.
That statement made Ruby stop and think to herself. A small amount of anxiousness welled up within her chest as she thought about the implications of what Weiss said. It was just a simple question but even Ruby felt a little hesitation despite how close her and Weiss had become. She couldn't leave it alone though. Ruby took a deep breath before finally breaking that small silence. "Is that what we are, Weiss?" Ruby asked, already pulling her shoulders up like she was bracing for some kind of impact. Weiss, on the other hand, seemed to be taking some time herself to answer that. Each second left Ruby to mentally panic at the idea of her screwing up what she and Weiss had built after so long. If it went the wrong way, that one night of vulnerability would be for nothing.
"Do you want us to be like them, Ruby?" Weiss asked.
Ruby wasn't actually ready for a return question. She was only thinking about how to deal with being met with denial. Instead, her indecision frustrated herself. "I don't really know."
Weiss hummed through the phone. "Then maybe it's best if we just continue on like we've been doing and see how things end up. I'm actually willing to admit that being with you the way we have been lately makes me happy and I don't want to lose that."
Ruby knew Weiss wouldn't lie about this kind of thing. That fact alone made affection bubble up into her heart knowing that she alone was able to make someone like Weiss happy. "I don't want to lose that either, Weiss." Ruby admitted. "Thanks for talking about this with me."
"I told you I wanted to be there to help you. You're able to talk to me about anything, don't forget that." Weiss told Ruby without hesitation. "I don't go back on that kind of promise."
"And I'll be there for you, Weiss." Ruby replied.
"I trust that you will." Ruby could almost imagine Weiss' smile when she said that. A smile that made Ruby's heart feel like it was lit aflame. While she wanted to enjoy the feeling, Ruby felt a small bit of pain when she realized that maybe she did know what she wanted. "Ruby?" Weiss interrupted. "Everything is okay, right?" She asked.
Ruby swallowed her emotions enough to speak. "I'm okay, Weiss. I was just thinking a bit."
"I could tell." Weiss joked. "I need to get back to my homework though. And I know you have some to do so you should probably get some of it done before you eventually ask me to help you."
Ruby lightly laughed. "You've got me figured out so well. Okay, okay. Enjoy your boring literature essay, Weiss."
"You know it's my favorite." Weiss playfully replied.
"Bye, Weiss. Stay safe." Ruby said.
"Same for you, dolt." Weiss said before finally hanging up.
A tone sounded off, signaling the end of Ruby's conversation with Weiss. A clear separation between them that she could feel with every inch of her being. At this point Ruby knew she was in trouble because of how much her chest hurt. It was new to her. Ruby couldn't shake it off no matter what she thought about. Every train of thought she had led back to when she saw her sister and Blake together. It wasn't like Ruby had a problem with Yang being with Blake like that, but it kept bringing up a tempting thought. What if it was her and Weiss instead? Everytime she thought about that it was like a sledgehammer trying to destroy her chest.
She already had lied to Weiss it seemed. Ruby realised she wasn't confused in the slightest about it. Weiss was becoming what she always felt like she wasn't getting from her own family. Someone she could actually open up to without someone simply trying to fix her. Her sister and father always wanted to make Ruby happy but that wasn't what Ruby herself wanted. Of course Ruby wanted to be happy, but she didn't want to ignore the rest of the feelings that came along with that. Sometimes, she just wanted to cry. Whether it be about a dumb, sappy movie, or maybe a news article that would hit too close to home for her. Maybe she would have a day where some small annoyance would bug her and she just wanted to be mad about it without someone trying to downplay it. Weiss didn't try to fix Ruby on those days. Instead, she listened, talked, and was simply there for when Ruby was flying through the spectrum of emotion. Ruby trusted Weiss to not treat her differently just because she wanted to shut down and couldn't do much more than stare at a television for the rest of the day. Ruby knew if she really needed to, she could grab Weiss' hand and know that they were connected even if Weiss was paying attention to something else at the same time.
As she sat there in her bed, those thoughts kept bouncing against her skull to the point where she wished Weiss was there next to her so she had something to slow her mind down just a little bit. Although, that thought was enough to convince Ruby that she did in fact want things to be more with Weiss. This revelation made it a good time for Ruby to pull a stray pillow over her face and scream into it in frustration. Everything had to be more complicated for her it seemed. How was she supposed to tell Weiss this? What would she even say? "Hey Weiss! Turns out I do in fact want to make out with you vigorously and without abandon!" It just seemed all very ridiculous to her. Unfortunately, she had agreed to talk with Weiss when problems like these came up in Ruby's life. Though, maybe Weiss didn't expect some of those problems to include her. In the end though, her promise to Weiss meant more to her than potential embarrassment that this could bring. Ruby had time to figure out what and how she would say it though, so she was glad for that.
Ruby needed advice desperately to figure this new situation out. It was scratching at her brain constantly every time she was around Weiss now. She loved nothing more than when they shared their moments together or when Weiss would gently try to correct her when she made mistakes on her homework. In other rare times, she enjoyed when Weiss wasn't gentle about it but Ruby was determined to only worry about one issue at a time and that was a whole different can of worms that needed to be put on hold.
It could have been torture to some people. Ruby was painfully aware of Weiss now. She knew how soft Weiss' hands were because of how often she held them for comfort but now she kept wondering if the rest of Weiss' skin was just as soft. Would she feel the same burn in Weiss' cheeks like the heat in her own cheeks when they were tangled together under a blanket when they had nothing else to do? She desperately wanted to know these things, but she felt guilty about it. They had already talked about it and Ruby had told Weiss that they would just continue on like they were already. She couldn't go back on that so soon, but Ruby needed to talk to someone about it so she could maybe get advice on how to handle this kind of thing. Yang was out of the question though. Yang wouldn't be able to keep herself impartial to what was happening. She knew Yang would try to coddle her and attempt to convince her that she was wrong about her own feelings. Ruby knew she wasn't wrong. She just wanted help to figure out what to do with what she already had. Someone that would probably be impartial.
The only person she could think of was Yang's girlfriend, Blake. They had talked a few times about things they've read and small snippets of actual life but Blake didn't seem to be super open about anything else. Yet Yang seemed to love the girl. Actually, she probably did considering what Ruby saw. If Yang trusted Blake that much then maybe her last ditch hope wouldn't be so bad.