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Chapter 4
I gasp sitting up in the bed. I glance at the clock, 2:41 a.m. Great, I slept an hour. Flopping back down I stare at my ceiling. Before I can over think it I reach for my pearphone and text Jade.
I can't sleep.
A few minutes later my phone beeps.
What do you want me to do about it? Sing you a lullaby?
Before I could type a reply I hear another beep.
Sorry, be outside in 15. Don't make me wait or I'll wake up the neighborhood.
I lay there for a minute and debate texting her back. Finally I get up and start gathering my stuff. After making sure I have clothes for in the morning, I quietly make my way downstairs I write a note to Trina saying I caught a ride with someone else and leave it in the kitchen before heading out the door. The last thing I need is Jade waking up Trina.
I hear something move in the bushes and jump. Watching Cookie, my neighbors cat slink out of the bushes I roll my eyes. Stupid cat. I've been sitting out here for a few minutes, and Jade still hasn't shown. Kicking the pebble I had been playing with I stand up. I turn to grab my stuff and head back inside when I hear a car pull up. Grabbing my things, I head towards the car only pausing when I notice its not Jade but Beck.
"Hey" he backs out after I'm in and buckled and starts heading towards his place. I sit stifly holding my stuff in my lap, trying not to show how uncomfortable I am. "Nice pants." I look down at my fuzzy blue pajama bottoms and touch one of the penguins.
"Thanks," I glance at him quickly before going back to staring out the window. "Not that I'm not thankful, but…"
"Why am I driving Jade's car?" Beck finishes. I nod. "I wake up faster then Jade, takes her a bit, so…"
"Its safer for you to drive."
"Yep."
I open my mouth before quickly closing it and biting my lip.
"What?" he pulls up to a stop sign and looks over at me.
"It's just…If I would have known…" I let out a little huff, "If I would have known she was spending the night I wouldn't have texted."
"Why? We were just sleeping. Jade spends most of her nights here." I look up to see him pull her car in behind his truck. "Come on." We get out and head towards the RV. He opens the door and motions me inside.
Walking in I see Jade laying in bed. She looks asleep. Beck stops behind me, standing near the couch. I look at him before glancing back at Jade. She is holding the blanket up, her eyes still closed.
"I can take the couch." I walk towards it.
"Get in Vega. I'm getting cold." I look back to Beck and he nods towards the bed. I sigh and climb in. I can feel some of the tension leave me; I feel safer here. Rolling onto my stomach I ignore the tear that falls. I hear Jade shift and she starts rubbing my back. I shift closer and tensely put my arm around her. After a few minutes she starts to hum a lullaby and I can't stop the snort that escapes. She freezes then goes back to rubbing my back, quietly.
Rolling over I stretch, not wanting to wake up. Turning my head I look at Jade who is still asleep. I sit up as I hear the bathroom door open. Looking over, I see Beck walking out wearing a pair of jeans and a towel around his neck. I look down at my hands and try to figure out what to do.
"Showers all yours," he says after he sits down on the couch.
"Thanks," I make my way around Jade and go towards my clothes. "Does Jade need to use it?" The last thing I want to do is be in Jade's way first thing in the morning. Something tells me she is not a morning person.
Beck checks his watch before answering, "You have thirty minutes." I nod and head into the bathroom.
I know the thirty minutes have to be up. I rush getting dressed not even caring that I'm not completely the door I pause when I see Jade and Beck cuddling on the bed. I will never have that. Who would look at me the way he looks at Jade? I shake my head, trying to free myself from those thoughts. Walking over I sit down on the couch.
"You done in there?"
"Yeah," I nod.
"Good." Jade lifts Becks arm off of her and at that moment I realize I'm going to be left alone with Beck. My breathing starts to pick up and I pull my legs up wrapping my arms around then.
'This is Beck. He would never hurt me.' My fingers curl up, nails digging into my hand. 'Just Beck. We've been alone together before.' That last thought doesn't help and I start little gasping.
"Becks going to go get coffee. Tori? Tori!" I tilt my head at her but refuse to look her in the eye. "Beck's going to go get coffee." I nod and my breathing slows a little. So busy trying to get my breathing under control I miss the look they share. Beck heads to the door as Jade goes to get ready for the day. The doors slam and I jump a little. Closing my eyes I start reciting the lyrics to "Make it Shine".
~~Thursday, lunch~~
Jades POV
"Hey, did Tori seem any different to you?" I look up from where I was playing with Beck's hands.
"No." Beck answers quickly. Looking around I notice none of the others notices his slightly high then normal voice. Its how I always know when he's lying. His pitch is just a bit higher.
"Well, she did lean away when I tried to hug her." Robbie says.
"Man, everyone pulls away from you. I know I would if I could." I can't help the smirk that forms at Rex's response. If Robbie would just ditch the puppet and let his "inner Rex" out I wouldn't mind hanging out with him.
'This is boring.' Leaning back into Beck, I start spelling out: "Janitors closet. NOW!" over and over on his arm. Depending on how long this takes him I just might give him a surprise. I feel myself getting excited over the thought of him in my mouth and I squeeze my thighs together.
"I asked if she wanted to hang out after school but she said no." Cat pouts.
'What is she talking about?' I look at her blankly as I continue repeating my message on Becks arm.
"Well, Tori did stay home sick Monday. She might-" he pauses and I smile. 'Good boy. That didn't take long.' He clears his throat before continuing. "She might still be feeling sick." He stands up pulling me with him. "I just remembered, I forgot to get a book out of my locker."
As we walk away from the table I hear Robbie, "Isn't his locker the other way?"
~Friday Afternoon~
"Hey Tori!" I look up from my lunch to see Cat heading towards me.
"What's up Cat?"
"Wanna spend the night? My parents have taken my brother out of town for a doctors visit."
"Umm..sure" I bite my lip wondering how I'm going to make it through the night. It's Friday, meaning its been a few days since I've had a good nights sleep. Last night I woke Trina up with my screaming. I'm going to have to find a way to stay awake at Cat's. No way I could do that to her without having to explain. They've already commented about how jumpy I've been. Although, I've gotten slightly better around Beck and Andre. The bell rings and Cat and I head towards Sikowits' class.