**Rewritten 6/5/14
Hey again,
Sorry I didn't write in you last night. Things were..interesting. So, what happened to me from the last time..
I walked in on Beck and Jade. Not the first time (and something tells me it won't be the last). I didn't run like normal. I kinda froze. Well, at least until Jade held her hand out to me. Then I turned tail and tried to run. Jade stopped me though and made me talk to her.
I kinda blurted out that I was raped and she didn't run away. She confirmed what I thought, that they knew and this morning she told me it doesn't make a difference to them. I don't believe her. Not really but I'm going to try to.
This morning when I woke up with my head on her chest & Becks arm around my back neither of them let me freak out. Beck kissed the back of my head then climbed outta bed and into the shower. Jade and I spent the whole time he was in there just cuddling. Whoever thought that would happen? Her skin is so soft though! It felt good to have someone hold me.
Jade tried to get me to talk, she said something about going to the police but I ignored her. I couldn't bare the way they'd look at me and having to talk about it. I mean REALLY talk about it. Go in detail and stuff..I can't. No way no how. If I do ever go to the police maybe I can just hand them this journal. I'd have to rip some pages out though, no reason they need to read about how soft I think Jade's hair is or how much I love looking at Beck's smile.
Oh, Jade is pulling into the school parking lot. I'll write more later.
For some unknown reason I wrote two journal entries to go in between chapter 9 and 10. This hasn't been seen by my beta so any mistakes are all my fault.~Nikki