Chapter Five: Beauty Through Darkness

As we returned to camp everyone was silent. Not a single person cheered when we entered through the gates. Once Octavia saw us she came running, wrapping both of us into a hug. She looked between the two of us and asked the question that was the object of everyone that had arrived minds. "Where's Murphy and Charlotte?"

I couldn't talk about this, it was still too soon. I took my hand from Bellamy's and began to walk to our tent. When I looked back I saw Octavia and Bellamy watching me. Bellamy took Octavia's arm and turned her back around to look away from me.

The tent seemed darker than usual, but maybe that was just my mood. I laid down and covered myself up, letting everything come out. I sobbed into my pillow and tried to contain myself for the sake of everyone's tent that was around ours.

Bellamy came into the tent a couple of minutes later. He sat down next to me and cleared his throat, then he stayed silent. I kept the blanket over my head and tried my hardest to stop crying. If he hadn't cleared his throat I would never have known he was there. After I had calmed myself down enough where I could talk I slowly moved the blanket off my head and met his sympathetic eyes.

I gave him a weak smile and he leaned down and kissed my cheek. He laid himself down next to me and stroked my hair, pushing it behind my ear. "I guess we have a lot to talk about…."

I took a deep breath. "Yeah, we do." My voice cracked with each word.

"Clarke is the only one with medical training other than yourself, we have to tell her, which means the two of you are going to have to try to get along better." I nodded and he continued. "And we're going to have to figure out what we can do, there's no way we can raise a baby down here Skylar."

I closed my eyes again. "You think I haven't thought about that Bellamy? We don't really have a choice here do we?"

He moved himself closer to me and pulled me into him. "We'll figure it out. We'll have to tell Clarke about this is the morning."

I buried my face into his chest, taking in the familiar scent and within minutes my exhaustion from the day overpowered me and everything faded to black.

Hours later we were awoken by a loud noise and people outside the tent hollering. The first person that we heard was Octavia. "Bellamy ! Get out here!"

We ran out of the tent to see a streak of orange going across the dark, night sky. Everyone around us began with theories on what it could be. Bellamy looked down at me with a panicked look.

The group of guys that followed Bellamy everywhere began to get dressed and all got ready. Bellamy ran into our tent and put on a shirt and his jacket, waiting for everyone to make their way into it. I sat down on the bed and watched as they all spoke.

"If it cleared the ridge then it's probably near the lake." Jones spoke first.

Octavia looked at Bellamy. "We should get moving. Everyone is ready."

"No one's going anywhere." Bellamy crossed his arms. "Not while it's dark, it isn't safe." Everyone started to pack their things back up. "We'll head out at first light, spread the word."

Once everyone was outside the tent Octavia stepped in front of Bellamy when he went to move. "Everyone for a hundred miles saw this come down. What if the grounders get to it first? Bell, we should go now."

"I said we wait until sunrise."

Octavia scoffed at him and walked away.

Bellamy sighed when she left the tent and put his head in his hands. I stood up and walked over to him. I took his face in my hands. "I know what you need to do." I closed my eyes. "Go. Take care of it. I need you when the baby is here, not to have you shot when the Ark comes down." He looked me in the eyes and nodded, grabbed his knife and the gun and left the tent.

I laid back down and closed my eyes, hoping that sleep would come again.

Just as I was about to drift off I heard the tent door fly open and I sat up, hoping it was Bellamy. Clarke stood in front of me. I slowly stood up. "Ever hear of knocking?" As I finished my sentence Finn came running in behind her. "Anyone else want to come in?"

Clarke clearly wasn't messing around. "Where the hell is Bellamy?"

"He took off a little while ago."

Finn looked around. "The gears gone."

Clarke and Finn began to talk, forgetting that I was even there. "He told everyone to stay. Whatever is in that thing, he wants it. We've gotta get there before he does."

Clarke and Finn left the tent and I sat back down. "You're welcome!" I hollered as the left and then covered with the blanket again.

Clarke returned to camp as daylight broke with a new person. A young girl with brown hair was hooked to Finn's arm as they came through the door. Once again Clarke made a beeline for me. She didn't even say hello before speaking. "Is he back yet?"

I shook my head. "He hasn't been back all night, what's going on?"

The young girl spoke up. "Whoever it is has something of mine."

Clarke put her hand on my shoulder. "I really need you to come with me, he listens to you better than anyone else."

I swallowed hard. "On one condition…."

She took a deep breath. "What?"

"Come with me." We walked a little while until we weren't close enough for anyone around us to hear. "If I go out there he's going to be pissed. We have something going on that's going to hinder me in future… adventures…"

Clarke wasn't following me and looked very confused.

I tried to explain it in another way. "I have to be very careful about what I'm doing because I could hurt not only myself."

Her expression didn't change. "What the hell are you talking about Skylar?"

I tried to keep my voice low. "I'm pregnant Clarke. You're the only one down here other than myself with any medical training. I'm gonna need your help." I paused. "Help me with that and I'll take your side over Bellamy with whatever the hell he did this time."

Clarke took my hand. "Deal." She smiled at me. "And congratulations, you two picked a hell of a time to do this."

I sighed and followed her.

After twenty minutes of walking Clarke had caught me up on what was going on and informed me that our newest editions name was Raven. Suddenly I spotted him in the distance. I tapped Clarke's shoulder and pointed. Clarke took off at a run. "Hey! Where is is?" Clarke grabbed Bellamy's arm and spun him around.

"Hey princess, you taking a walk in the woods." He smiled charmingly at her, not realizing that I had come along as well.

I spoke as I stepped forward. "What the hell were you thinking….. or were you not? They're getting ready to kill 300 people up there to save oxygen."

"Why aren't you back at camp?"

Clarke brought his attention back to her. "And I can guarantee you it won't be council members. It'll be working people." She jabbed his chest hard with her finger. "Your people."

Finn came up from behind Clarke and shoved Bellamy backwards. "Bellamy, where's the radio?"

Bellamy went right back to him and shoved him as well. "I have no idea what you're talking about."

Raven spoke up after being silent the whole time. Bellamy Blake? They're looking everywhere for you."

Bellamy looked over at her. "Shut up."

Clarke was intrigued. "Looking for him why?"

"He shot Chancellor Jaha."

"That's why you took the wristbands and needed everyone to think we were dead." Clarke looked over at me. "Did you know about this?" I stayed silent and closed my eyes.

Finn got closer to his face. "And all that 'whatever the hell we want'? You just care about saving your own skin."

Bellamy turned around and started to walk away and everyone followed. Raven ran up in front of him. "Hey shooter! Where's my radio?"

"Get out of my way." He was clearly agitated and the way she kept bouncing around in front of him was making me agitated too.

As Raven jumped in front of him again I walked over quickly. "Where is it?"

As she spoke I got close to her face. "Back off Raven."

Bellamy took me and moved me behind him. "I should have killed you when I had the chance."

Raven taunted him. "Really? Well I'm right here."

I pushed Bellamy out of the way and grabbed Raven, throwing her up against the tree next to us and holding her by the neck. As I held her I saw a flash of silver in my line of view and I knew that it was a knife.

Clarke knowing what she knew instantly stepped in. "Enough, stop it."

Bellamy walked closer. "Skylar, let her go. Now."

I reluctantly dropped my hand from her neck and she dropped the knife. Bellamy and I began to walk farther away as he spoke. "Jaha deserved to die. You all know that."

Raven gained her footing back. "Yeah, he's not my favorite person either, but he isn't dead."

In unison Bellamy and I spoke. "What?"

"You're a lousy shot."

Clarke walked over to him. "Bellamy, don't you see what this means? You're not a murderer."

I turned and grabbed his arm, I had to get him to tell them or Clarke would never help us.. "You always did what you had to do to protect your sister, that's who you are. And you can do it again, by protecting 300 of your people. Where's the radio?"

Bellamy licked his lips and then spoke. "It's too late."

"What do you mean it's too late Bell?"

"It's in the river."

We all walked through the river in search for the radio. I watched Bellamy as I walked. He was so different, coming down to earth had really changed him. The Bellamy that I had known on the Ark had wanted to be a member of the guard, he had wanted to change people's lives, he wanted to protect the people of the Ark…. now he went out of his way to make sure he never saw them again.

Jones shouted from a place in the river. "Hey! I found it."

Raven ran over and grabbed it as we all circled around her. Clarke was anxious. "Can you fix it?"

"Maybe. But it'll take half a day just to dry out the components to see what's broken."

Bellamy crossed his arms and held his ground. "Like I said, it's too late."

Clarke got right in front of him. "Do you have any idea what you did? Do you even care?"

"You asked me to help, I helped."

"300 people are going to die today because of you."

Raven got everyone to be quiet as Bellamy and Clarke bickered. "Hold up!" Clarke turned around. "We don't have to talk to the Ark, we just have to let them know we're down here right?"

Everyone looked confused and Finn said what we were all thinking. "Yeah, but how do we do that with no radio?"

Raven smiled, clearly she had a plan up her sleeve. "You'll see."

As the darkness crept in and night was upon us Raven's plan was put into motion. The group had collected rocket fuel from the ship that Raven had come down on and her plan for giant flares was a go.

When the sky was filled with stars we all gathered around to watch the three flares we set off. As the lights flew through the sky it was kind of beautiful. I stood next to Bellamy and laid my head on his shoulder. I knew he would never admit it, but he was, in a way, glad that we were trying to contact the Ark.

Bellamy kissed the top of my head. "You think they can see it from up there?"

"I don't know." I looked up at him. "I hope so." I turned around to face him. "Can you wish on this kind of shooting star?"

Bellamy snorted. "I wouldn't even know what to wish for. Everything I want is down here already." He smiled at me and kissed my nose. "What about you?"

I let him pull me into a hug. "I just wish that everything goes right and that we can be one big happy family."

I could feel him chuckling by the way he was moving. "I like that one."