~Chapter 9~

She was doing it again. Why did she always write in her diary without giving him at least a hint as to what she writing about? Or at least thinking about? It was perfectly normal for her to write in it, but recently she'd been wearing her pencils out. It was writing, not drawing. That much he knew. It was at times like this that respecting Sam's privacy became hard to do. He loved her...but...seriously...? And each time he would ask, she'd just shrug and smile. The ol' shrug-n-smile. And he hated it. Alot.

He was starting to get a little worried though... She'd only started this up a few weeks after she'd discovered the secrets of his notebook, the one that contained all his hopes for a future family with her. It was mortifying at the time, and he'd even gone invisible because his face was so red it would put a tomato to shame. It was a good thing Sam didn't mind too much. He really should've thought twice about putting in the extra baby though. In retrospect, it probably wasn't the best idea to want another child when two twins weren't old enough to talk yet. Well, aside from Lilith, but she had always been advanced for a baby. She'd started walking at seven and a half months, was now climbing on everything she saw, and mimicked a few words here and there. Junior had taken his first step two weeks ago. Unfortunately, Danny was at school when it happened and Junior refused to walk after his daddy got home. Stubborn little fella. Just like himself, he mused.

"Doddy," Lilith said, looking up at him as she grasped his pants leg.

He smiled warmly and picked her up. "Yeah, sweetie?"

She never, ever called him 'daddy'. Nobody knew why, but it was always 'doddy'. He supposed the one thing these twins had in common was a stubbornness issue. Junior didn't often walk in front him, and Lilith called him 'doddy' no matter how many times he and Sam corrected her. But sure enough, Junior would walk for his mama. And sure enough, Lilith called Sam 'mama'. He knew it would soon move on to 'mommy', but until then it was just 'mama' and 'doddy'.

"Doddy," she repeated. "Doddy."

"What is it, huh?" he asked, his voice barely above a whisper.

She nodded her head and looked the other way. "Dump. Dump!"

She meant to say 'jump'. While she could talk, she was still a baby and couldn't pronounce her words very well. Her version of jumping was just him bouncing her in his arms a little. When she was older, the new trend would be piggyback rides. And a little older than that, horsey rides. And maybe just a tad older, those special rides that wore out the parents...the foot rides. There would come a time when the twins would sit on his feet while he walked, with their legs wrapped around his ankles and their heads leaning back while they laughed. He could easily imagine them commanding him to 'go higher'. He would be stomping around the house wearing children for shoes.

He jiggled up and down for a little bit, stopping every few seconds to see if Lilith was getting tired of it yet. She tended to change her mind about what she wanted alot. Just like her mother...

Junior crawled up to him and yanked on his pants leg. He couldn't speak, but most of the time he wanted to be with his sister. It was very cute, the way they acted around each other. Lilith was extremely independent for a baby, but she loved the company of her brother. Junior would scream and cry if he was separated from his sister. When Junior got upset, so did Lilith. She would immediately come looking for him. If Danny was lucky, sibling rivalry would be kept to a bare minimum.

Lilith smiled and even went so far as to giggle. He bent down to pick up her brother and continued bouncing them. Junior didn't really like to be bounced, but he didn't hate it either. He just wanted to be by his sister. They did almost everything together. They got a bath together, they ate together, and when one of them got changed, the other had to be in the room. They were literally like two halves of a whole, always gravitating towards one another.

Sam came in from the lab to wash her hands, smiling at Danny as she passed him. She always had this...weird smile... She only revealed it when she looked at him though. Why? What did that smile mean? There was no way he could be in trouble, he didn't do anything wrong! Maybe she was trying to relay a secret message to him. But God forbid he should know girl code. He sighed. Sam was acting so weird lately, and he had a feeling this all had to do with his notebook. Stupid notebook...he should've never let her see it. But then she'd have convinced herself that he was cheating on her, and that had to be far worse than any notebook.

Lilith, deciding she wanted down now, leaned over. It nearly gave Danny a heart attack and on impulse, he leaned backward to keep her up. Junior was using his other arm, and he was trying to hold Lilith with the arm wrapped around her.

"Uh...Sam, little help!" he called out.

Chuckling, she came up to him and took Lilith. Junior suddenly got restless and began to struggle in his father's arms. Danny set him down and he crawled up to Sam, eyes locked into his sister. Sam set Lilith down and the two just sat there, as if speaking in a silent baby language.

He mulled that over for a second. Like Sam... Maybe if he just stared at her for awhile...? No, then he would just look stupid. Sam was his girlfriend, he didn't really want to look stupid in front of her...even though he already had. Many times, in fact. He sighed. And so he continued to live up to his nickname of Clueless 1.

Sam walked up to him and gently pecked him on the cheek before walking away to wherever. She did that sometimes...came up to him, kissed him real quick, and left. It always had the same effect on him...he was always left stunned. Not to say that he didn't appreciate the affection, but in a relationship, didn't the guy really only get kisses when he did something the girl liked? Had he done something like that? Something good, something that Sam liked? Maybe it was just him being there with her. It would make sense. He left early in the morning, stayed away from home all day, came back only to do homework and eat dinner, and was pretty tired when he went to sleep. The only days that cycle was broken were Saturdays and Sundays.

Wait, wait...back up, reverse for a second. He was tired when he went to sleep, and Sam would refuse to sleep unless he slept with her. But there were actually two requirements to getting Sam to sleep. First, Danny had to be in bed; that was the given. Secondly, though, his arms had to wrapped around her. And if he fell asleep without his arms around, her he would wake up with them around her, which meant either he did it or she did it for him. And lately, only a minute or two after he put his arms around her, she backed into him. At first glance, it looked like she was trying to push him off the bed, but that wasn't it at all. No, she was pushing her back against him, getting closer to him. He knew it meant something, but he couldn't figure out what.

"Girl code..." he muttered to himself.

He watched Lilith get up and start spinning around. Junior smiled, but didn't get up or do anything beyond watch his sister. Well...maybe when Lilith was older, she could shed some light on the secret language of girls...

"That by the way, guys can't figure out!" Danny yelled to Sam, wherever she was right now.

"Huh?" he heard her call back from downstairs.

"Listen, I need to get a shower! Could you watch the twins? They're up here!" he yelled down to her.

Lilith giggled and started saying something in baby language. Great, two languages he couldn't understand. As if just one wasn't enough. Was life this hard for fathers who were married, out of the house, and working at jobs rather than on schoolwork? He didn't mind being a father, he actually loved it. But it was hard. And to be honest, it was tiring. It was worth it though. He never knew he could love a person, or two people to be precise, this much. Then they were born and everything changed. He saw them for the first time and he'd never seen anything so beautiful, so perfect... Using the term 'magical' would sound like something straight from a fairytale, but it was true. There was no other way to describe it.

The sound of Sam entering the room broke his train of thought.

"Alright, I got the twins," she said, carefully stepping over Junior and moving Lilith from the bathroom doorway. Junior immediately got up and crawled after his mother and sister. After having positioned Lilith on her waist, she picked him up and took them both downstairs, where Maddie was probably waiting to play with them or feed them. Maddie said they were okay to have crayons, but Sam refused to let them have any. She didn't want them trying to eat the crayons, and she didn't want them to draw on the walls, floors, or furniture.

Danny hopped in the shower once everyone was gone. He made sure to keep a careful eye out for ghosts. They always attacked at the weirdest times...like when he was getting a shower. A few times, he'd been out on a date with Sam and what do you know, pop goes the ghost! They seemed to spring up out of nowhere. Almost like they were just trying to get under his skin. And frankly they were doing a good job. He'd fought off so many ghosts it was unbelievable! And worse, half of the time, he had to hide it from Sam. He was a dad, he had two kids and a girlfriend as well as a mother, father, and sister. It was his job to protect them all and making them worry wasn't a good idea...especially since the kids were only a year old.

And Sam...Sam would worry so much about his safety, perhaps even more so now that the twins were here. Maybe her worry would stem from something else though.

The water pattered against the shower floor. He leaned against the wall, letting the water hit him only to roll off his body and onto the floor, where it would join the other water droplets and travel together down the drain. Sam had done a ton of crazy and messed up stuff before the twins were born. He'd blamed himself all this time for all of it, even the things that "weren't his fault". This coming from the girl who was so utterly consumed by depression and rage that she'd sought a way to take it out on herself. And she had found one, unfortunately. Why did she do it though? She knew it was wrong. No matter how she felt, she still had a conscience that told her to stop. But she did it anyways. Why? It was the one question he could never stop asking himself. And it was the one question he could never seem to remotely answer. The guilt was still there. But at least Sam was better.

A/N

This is a bad place to leave off at, but it's all I got for now. Hm...what's up with Sam, I wonder...? :P Heh. More like you wonder.

Okay, well...THANK YOU! Just WOW! You guys are seriously awesome, I mean, going over the review quota AGAIN?! *whispers* You...guys...rock... No review quota this time! :) As a thank-you.

And now...a-hem, for your replies:

BrittneyluvsChrist- :D I LOVED writing that chapter! Danny and his creepy notebook in all its FLUFFINESS!

ShadowDragon357- I love that chapter, I am SOOOO proud of it! I've never done anything that fluffy before!

DXSGirl123- I thought it was adorable too. :D So fwuffeee!

Sammi- Thank you. :) Fwuff.

smallvillephantom14- XD Yeah, I thought I'd add a little humor to make a fluffy chapter even more fluffy. So Danny is obviously failing art class. :) He was embarrassed.

Harmony's Entropy- lol I...still don't really know what that means. But thank you! :)

Inuyuke- O.O Oh dear... PLEASE DON'T S'PLODE JUST YET! Not til the story ends anyway. :P lol Yeah...wonder what's up with Sam, huh?

TheNinjaKitty13- The notebook is completely creepy, but you have to admit, this story kind of had the feel of him wanting a family. And I do believe that in FWB I said he wanted to be there and help raise the twins with Sam. ;)

PlasticPencils- lol! It's creepily fluffy.

Lucifers . Angel . 93- Thanks. :) Wow...I over-fluffed the chapter... :P lol, Sorry about that.

ChristinCC- Thanks. :D I wuv Danny and his fwuffyness.

Codiak- XD Just the way you said that...!