Adam's P.O.V

I can't believe I said that my brother is an annoying pest. Yeah I admit Joe can be annoying with all his questions about everything and anything and always following me around everywhere.

I was dead wrong when I told him that I couldn't wait to go to college so I could be away from him. To be the honest that is one of the things I hate about leaving. I love spending time with my kid brother especially when we go fishing and camping.

One of the things I'm gonna miss is those camping and fishing trips. I still can't believe that I lost my temper with him. When I saw my knife I completely lost it and jump to conclusions.

Sounds like something Joe would've done. I guess we're not as different as we think we are. I wish I could take it all back; the things I said out of anger. I know I must've hurt him I know I would be if someone yelled at me like that.

I know he didn't mean to break my knife I hope that I have a chance to tell him that and to talk everything out.

When did our relation become so difficult and hostel? I remember back to when we use to be so close. How we use to talk about anything from talking about trouble in school to how funny it is to watch Hopsing yelling at Hoss for stealing cookies or pieces of dessert.

Those are some memories I'm gonna miss. I think everything I do with Joe and with Hoss I'm gonna miss. Even though sometimes Joe gets on my nerves I couldn't be more proud to be his older brother.

I hope we can work things out like Pa said I would hate to remember spending these last few months arguing with Joe.

I wonder if he feels the same way. He had no trouble telling me how he felt before. Maybe he's just getting bigger and doesn't want to share his feelings especially to his older brother.

I can understand that but I hope that's not the case cause that's what has made our relationship so special us sharing our feelings no matter how mad we are or how dumb they may sound.

I'm sure am gonna miss my curly hair-green eye little brother something awful. I hope when I do come home things won't change between us.

Ben and Hoss had gone to town while Adam was riding around the ranch checking fence and contemplating about his argument with Joe.

Joe on the other hand was in his room. He had finish packing and was now writing a note for Adam.

Joe's P.O.V

If Adam doesn't want me around anymore then that's fine with me who needs him. I don't need him not when he's glad that he's gonna be away from me when he's at that stupid college.

I do feel bad for saying that I hope he never comes back. I still feel that way especially after hearing him talking to Pa.

I bet Adam won't care that I ran away. I bet he'll be grateful that he won't have to be around me anymore. I do feel bad leaving Pa and Hoss but I don't want to be here not when Adam hates me.

I know Adam hates me and there's nothing anyone can say that can change my mind. Besides I'll be doing Adam a favor by leaving at least he'll get his wish.

I'm gonna go to a place where no one not even my stupid big brother Adam can find me. It'll be great I get to do whatever I want and I wouldn't have to listen to my brother talk about going to college. What's so great about college anyway it's just a big school with lots of people.

I don't know why anyone would want to go to college. If it were me I would rather be home than to go away to school.

Maybe we would be better off if there was distance between us at least we wouldn't be fighting but I still can't understand why would Adam abandon me?

Joe places the note on Adam's dresser and quickly walks down the stairs and sneaks out of the house hoping that no one would see him.