Chapter 18
Flashback Continued
"Lucy! No! Stop!" her mother screamed, tears streaming down her cheeks
"I love you"
With her eyes closed tight, she quickly pulled it towards and struck her neck but something wasn't right she grimaced as something came out of her body and then she felt something slam against her
After that a loud scream
Though, It wasn't her screaming
Wait a sec! No! Please! MOM! Don't tell me y-!
But her sight and conscience faded and all was black
XxccloOXOolccxX
"...Lucy..."
"Lucy sweetie"
"Are you awake?"
Lucy's mind slowly came back to the world, she thought it was her mother calling her and that the knife, her mother, and the stabbing was all a nightmare
Her eyes trembled as she cracked one of her eyes open
Why does it smell...like I'm at the doctor's office?
"Mnn..." she moaned in pain
Pain seared through her skin, it felt like the side of her neck had been bitten by a cannibal or a ferocious animal with sharp fangs
"Oh, you're awake!" a female voice said
"M-mom?" she croaked
But it wasn't her mom it was a nurse
"I'm not your mom Lucy but your mom is here," the nurse said
Her eyes widened "Where? Where is she?! I need- to speak with her"
The nurse looked hurt she averted her eyes away from her and stared at the floor
Lucy started to panic, her anxiety level was going over the bar
"Where. Is. My. Mom"
"Your mother is in the ICU ward," said the doctor who had been standing outside of the door
He entered the room and took off his glasses in haste
She couldn't believe it No! That must mean... the screaming!
The bloodcurdling scream she had heard before she fainted must've been her mom
Her mother had screamed in pain
"How did it happen?" she asked her hands quivering
"When you tried to... take your life. Your mother had leaped in, while you had survived with one major cut and a few slits"
"She had a large piece of metal sink into near her throat and-"
Lucy shivered and was shaking her head "I've heard enough, please"
The room was quiet
"Who brought us in?" she asked
"A person who was passing by saw something red leaking out of the door," the doctor said grimly
"Blood," the nurse said gravely
"Is my dad here?" She questioned the two of them
"We've informed him, he should be here soon," the nurse said
"Um...Is it okay if I see my mom? Please?" she asked timidly curling her hair with her fingers
The doctor and the nurse gave each other a look before nodding
"Alright but for only a few minutes," the doctor said pulling the nearby wheelchair towards the cot
Beep! Beep! Beep! Beep! the monitor beeped
The wavelengths rising and falling
Showing that Lucy's mother was still alive
Oh, mom... she mourned burying her fingers deep in her hair I'm so so sorry...
Her eyes started watering with tears
"Lucy!" someone barged into the room with a slam
Lucy turned around to see her father, eyes all red and bloodshot
His hair a tangled jungle
His shirt showed signs of sweating and his tie had slid off and looked askew
She wheeled herself towards her father and embraced her father
"Oh Lucy..." her father said stroking her hair
"Daddy!" She cried like a little child in his arms "It's all my fault!" She screamed
"Your mother... is she okay?" He asked her pulling her away from him
"I don't know Dad," she said looking down at the dirty white tiles "I don't know "
"Doctor? Anything you can say about my wife's state?"
"It's hard to say anything definite right now," the doctor said, finally exhaling.
He looked like he was holding his breath for a long period of time
"We need a few more hours if she wakes up..." and then he stopped
"Wakes up?"
"She might have more problems to deal with"
"What do you mean?"
"Well, there can be some issues that we can only check out after she wakes up," The doctor said scribbling on his notepad
Lucy looked at her father and lightly put her hand inside her father "S-Such a-as?"
"A sore throat, perhaps some damage to the larynx and such" he listed and then looked up at Jude
"If you want to the know the worst scenario it would be the inability of the use if her voicebox permanently"
Lucy gasped "No, Please! I don't... No!" her hands covered her mouth
Jude looked at his daughter with pity and said: "Anything else we should be worried about?"
"At the worst of the worst, you might have to look out for throat cancer"
"Oh, dad! That won't happen, right? Please tell me that it won't happen!" her voice muffled by her father's shirt
He patted her comfortingly "Thank you, doctor," he said
The doctor seemingly nodded and left with his nurse tailing behind him
XxoOoHHHoOoxX
After many weeks of Lucy and her dad surviving on processed food and bland food that he would make.
Jude wasn't...exactly a cook.
Sick of all of the daily visits to the hospital and back.
And when the days where a dark cloud hung over their little apartment where she would barely speak with her dad.
Except for that one time she opened her heart to her father and had a little momentum together.
After all of those cold and bleak days
It was finally over
"...*crk* Hello Sir, Is this Jude *crk* Heartphillia"
"...Your *crk* wife"
"...*cerrrrk* Your wife *crk* woke up"
Even though it was an old phone which had been creaking and would suddenly lose service
Jude heard what he wanted to hear
"Your wife is awake!"
"I have to tell Lucy!" he said, his face slowly brightening for the first time in weeks
"Lucy!"
"LUCY!"
"Your mother!"
"She's awake!"
XoOoVOUuXXuUVoOoX
Even though a year had passed
Even though she was supposed to change and be happy
She just could not be happy
The guilt, the depression, the pain, the loss of another best friend and especially the thoughts
None of it left
Probably because she wanted to change them but she felt that her parents expected changes at the end of each week
She remembered the look on her parents face when they would go as a family to the counselor
Especially her mother who was slowly recovering from the wounds
Her face of happiness, relief and glad that Lucy was finally going to be happy again
She was already a very reserved person due to the trauma she'd faced in the past
And she needed time
But with her parents who (she thought) looked like they wanted her to ace a test
She kept it up
And when she finally thought she was growing slimmer into a healthier weight and was getting that normal life
Natsu had just...
He just ruined it
Yes that's what he did
He kicked it into the fires of hell again
Like Michelle
You know Michelle right?
What was she again? Oh! Now I remember!
Your Bestie, wasn't she?
Three years
Three precious years wasted on her
And what else
While you tried to murder yourself
You brought your mom into your mess
'Typical Lucy'
Lucy had been resting in one of the hidden areas of the park,
And it was snowing like there was no end
She felt nothing
She felt as if she was a shell and there was nothing inside her
The blizzard was slowly making her its possession
She was becoming part of the snow
Not only her body but she herself was turning colder in her heart
But
She was still visible
*Crush* "Stomp* *Crush* something was coming towards her at a fast pace which was also slowing down
"...Lucy!...Lucy!..." the voice came far away as if she was in another dimension or something
"Luuuuuucyyy!"
Natsu had come right in the nick of time
Even a minute later would have wrecked everything
He knew what to do
Because her thoughts were taking control of her and slowly killing her
He knew it because he was there when Simon died
He had jumped off a three-story building with an expression just like Lucy
And the guilt, oh man... the guilt he felt was unbearable
The thoughts in him was also rising inside him
But his friends were there to help him
Once he had rebuked to speak with his friends because the guilt and pain was overpowering him
But they didn't let go
And then he truly knew how important friends are
He quickly removed the snow that had covered her body and spoke into her ear.
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