"I am so sorry. So so sorry. I lost control of myself. I am so sorry I ran away so fast. I am sorry for everything. For making you leave A-ling alone. For making you leave A-cheng alone. I have so many regrets. I am so sorry shijie. I still miss your soups. I am so sorry A-ling would never taste your food. I am sorry Jin ZiXuan for separating you from family. Sorry that I did not trust you." Wei Wuxian started crying.

He held his heart tightly as he repeated sorry again and again. He could not get out any other words other than sorry. All the memories of losing his control. The moment when Wen Ning stabbed him. The moment where Jin ZiXuan pleaded for his wife. Every moment from the battle from qiong qi path stabbed him like thousands of knives. If there is anything he regrets from his previous life, it was truly the events of Qiong Qi path and there after. If only nothing had gone wrong that day, maybe things would be different.

Sniffling up he continued, "I am sorry for coming to you so late ShiJie. You must have been waiting for me right. I am so sorry for mourning your death so late ShiJie. Please forgive this Shi-di that you protected all your life. Please forgive me." Remained in the kow-tow position, clutching his heart.

Jiang Cheng's and Jin Ling's faces were full of heartache. They were speechless, as much they had hated him for it. After the events at the Guanyin temple, they understood Wei Wuxian had his side of the story too. Overtime, Jiang Cheng just wanted his brother back and get over all the in between. After the multiple times of saving from Wei WuXian and Wen Ning, Jin Ling forgave them. He knew they had their intentions in the right place and misled by the various situations. Meanwhile, Lan WangJi gave a forlorn look towards his husband. This is the Second time since he returned that he is having a break down and recounting his past life.

"Jiang Cheng, I am sorry for forgetting all the promises. I am sorry for not sharing with you what happened. I am glad that you were my brother and I never regretted the transfer of golden core. No matter how many times, i revisit the situation in my head, i would have done it for you to live well. I am sorry, i left lotus pier with no one to look after you. I am so sorry that you were so lonely all these years" He apologised profusely and kowtowed.

Jiang Cheng froze. He never saw this heartfelt apology coming. He thought after their talk, he would just let bygones be bygones. He realised how deeply Wei Wuxian is also hurt by the events. He just never displayed it. He has no idea how to react to him after all the series of apologies. He lifted Wei Wuxian up from his shoulders and patted him on his back. Hoping that the pats were to pass him all his love and he yearning for his brother to be back.

"A-Ling, I am sorry. For saying your never mother's education when i first saw you. I am sorry for all that you had to endure all these years. I am sorry I am the reason you were bullied." continuing his kowtow now towards Jin Ling's direction.

"Uncle Xian, I may have lost my parents because of you. But you have made up for it in many ways. I used to roam around with no one to call my friends. Now I have reliable Sizhui, idiot Jingyi, the romantic ouyang. I gained many experiences from your night hunts. Uncle how about you make it up to me, by teaching me my mother's good character? Uncle Xian, compared to the last time at a tea stall, I have learned how to say wholesome words. Do I still sound gross?" Jin Ling said some serious things and tried to end it in humour.

Wei Wuxian looked up and saw a tear-stricken Jin Ling face. "You have learnt well" he said and gave a weak smile. "Jiang Cheng, if you don't mind. Can I stay here a little longer?" Jiang Cheng gave a solemn nod. "Lan Zhan, I will meet you at our sleeping quarters. Give me a while more."

Though very reluctant to leave, HanGuang-jun understood Wei Wuxian's needs. "Take your time. I will wait" Jiang Cheng led HanGuang-jun and Jin Ling back to Lotus Pier. "HanGuang-jun, I offer you my apologies as well. For making WeiYing cry. For speaking mean words, when you were at the ancestral hall the previous time. Looks like my parents really gave Wei Wuxian blessings. Seeing how you have ended up married." Jiang Cheng said.

"It's not your fault that he is crying. He needed to let out his regrets of previous life and the only place that ties him to it is Lotus Pier. His greatest regret would be leaving your sect. He missed both you and your sister very much. As much as you guys wanted him, he wanted to be with you all too. He just…. He just could not find other ways to protect his principles. Thank you for allowing Wei Wuxian to let it all go." HanGuag-Jun gave a deep bow.

"Hahahaha. I guess after all you understood him the best all these times. Come let me show you the sleeping quarters I have prepared for you." Jiang Cheng said dryly.

HanGuang-jun gave one last look at the trembling figure of his Wei Ying before following Jiang Cheng in. Jin Ling gave one look and prayed to his mother. "Mother, Father, please forgive Uncle Xian. Help him let it all go." he whispered.

Wei Wuxian went to the sleeping quarters after a few hours. Lan Zhan was waiting calmly reading a book. When he saw Wei Wuxian walk in with slumped shoulders, with his classic mischievous smile missing,Lan Wangji's heart felt the pain. "Lan Zhan" he said as he walked towards Lan Wangji with red puffy eyes. Unable to bear the scene anymore, Lan Wangji wrapped Wei Wuxian and carried him to bed.

"Wei Ying, you have apologized to everyone. It's time to forgive yourself. Time to let go of your regrets. Sleep" he coo-ed silently beside WeiWuxian's ears.

"Lan Zhan, it hurts. No matter how much I apologize. It hurts. My heart hurts. Help me Lan Zhan!" Wei Wuxian let out all his true emotions. "If it hurts so much for me, how much more will it have hurt them?" he snuggled into Lan Zhan hoping it would take his heartache away.

Somehow, his hands opened the lapels and went for burnt scab on Lan Zhan chest. "I even hurt you didn't I? I should have just listened to you from the beginning. Lan Zhan should have just confined me in Cloud Recesses. Why didnt I listen to you?" He started slapping himself.

Lan Zhan immediately held his wrist. "It's fine Wei Ying. You came back to me. You are with me now. You are not allowed to hurt yourself" He held Wei Ying tight around the waist disallowing his hands for moving. Wei WuXian cried more pitifully than before and cried himself to sleep.

It was not a peaceful night for Wei Ying and Lan Zhan. Throughout the night, Wei Ying woke up screaming. Sometimes he tried to slap himself or knock his head on something. Lan Zhan woke up to stop Wei Ying from hurting himself, he hugged Wei Ying and gave him many kisses to let him know Lan Zhan was there. He is not alone. He kept asking Wei Ying to forgive himself. Wei Ying only constantly screamed "What have I done? Tell me how to put things right. I am the one who created Wen Ning. How can I blame him? I am the only one to blame. ME! ME!"

The night passes.

The next morning, Jiang Cheng wakes up to find Lan WangJi carrying a large bowl of water. He follows him to see Wei WuXian lying on the bed and murmuring in his sleep. He has a towel on his head and Lan WangJi changes it out with colder water he just brought in.

"What happened" Jiang cheng asked with concern

"He did not sleep the whole night. He kept crying and waking up with the dreams of the past. I think the nightmare got to his head and he is having a terrible temperature now" Lan WangJi said in an unusually strained voice. It was a whole night of screaming. The various feelings that had tortured Wei WuXian until his death. He had re-lived every moment of Wei WuXian since the Qiong qi path last night with Wei Wuxian. Lan Wang Ji was horrified by the self doubt, the amount the self questioning. He had no one to hold onto. This might be the very reason why he lost it. He regretted not going to Wei Ying earlier.

"WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? WEN NING TELL ME WHAT SUPPOSE TO DO!" came the shrill scream. This time Wei Wuxian's hands were wrapped around his own neck. Lan WangJi has no time to think and lunged for Wei Wuxian prying his hands away and trying to hold Wei WuXian down.

"Wei Ying! Wei Ying! Wake up! It's a dream. It's the past. You don't have to go through this anymore. Look, your family has accepted you back. You have apologized to them remember. Wei Ying Come Back!" Lan WangJi was whispering in Wei WuXian's ears. His eyes red and wet. Unbearable at Wei Ying's self-torture, yet very helpless in this situation.

Jiang Cheng was thrown into a frenzy. Tears started welling in his eyes. Moved towards Wei Wuxian and held his hand. " Wei WuXian. Remember you are my only family left and if you leave me like this I would never forgive you. Come back! Didn't you say you will teach Jin Ling ShiJie's good characteristics? Did you not ask me to leave the things in the past? WHY DID YOU GO BACK THERE? Wake up Wei Ying! Wake up!" Jiang Cheng started with slow whispers but started raising his voice.

"SHI JIEEEEE" Wei Wuxian bolted upright. With sweat covering his face, with eyes open wide, he brought his hands up to his head. "Ahhh. My head hurts." He looked around and saw the worried faces of Jin Ling, Jiang Cheng and Lan Zhan. "Ahhh. Why are you all here? Let me sleep. My head hurts." he said in whispered with laboured breathing and turn around to sleep.

Lan Zhan let out a breadth of relief. "Is it over?" Jin Ling questioned. Lan Zhan felt the forehead and shook his head.

"He has yet to break the fever. I am afraid. This is going to happen again"

A fast shadow flew past the window and there was some herbal soup left by the window. Lan WangJi walked towards the herbal soup.

" Wen Ning!"

" Lan er gong zi, i do not think i should be here." Wen Ning replied meekly and looked at Jiang Cheng and Jin Ling in a remorseful manner.

"Is this what he went through when the core was being transferred?" Jiang Cheng questioned. It slipped out his mouth before he could even stop it.

Wen Ning shook his head. "This is much better than core transfer. He had to awake two nights and one day and feel the pain of the core transfer for it to be successful. He will be better after he breaks through the fever. The herbal soup has sleep draught. It will help him sleep longer. If my sister was alive, she could have frozen his limbs until the fever is over. But I am not as skillful as her and I did not inherit the knowledge before death too. This herbal soup is all how I could help. Sorry. Lan er gong-zi" He bowed deeply and flew away.

"WHY? WHY I CANT CONTROL IT? WHY? WHY ARE YOU NOT LISTENING TO ME?" the screaming had started again. When they turned around, Wei WuXian was clawing himself. His neck and chest had been scratched till blood was oozing out. He looked like he was about rip off his heart.

This time Jiang Cheng hugged Wei WuXian.

"Stop it, Wei WuXian. Stop suffering. I am sorry I never understood you. Let's restart again. Please stop hurting yourself. Have you forgotten your only relative?"

These words finally reached Wei wuxian. "Jiang Cheng, How have you been living? Are you well?" Wei Wuxian whispered. The true words that he wanted to ask Jiang Cheng since he was forced into Mo Xuanyu's body came out.

"I have lived well." Jiang Cheng replied.

"Hao (good). Very good." with that Wei Wuxian ruffled Jiang Cheng's hair. Jiang Cheng hugged him tighter. Wei Wuxian's arms went limp and his head slumped on Jiang Cheng's shoulder.

Lan WangJi watched the scene as soon as Wei Wuxian head slumped he rushed over. He pulled Wei Wuxian away from crying Jiang Cheng and gave him wipe down. He slowly fed Wei WuXian the herbal soup brought in by Wen Ning.

"Lan Zhan…." Wei Wuxian whimpered with a pained expression.

"I am here."

Feeling the comfort of Lan Zhan, his expression smoothen. Unconsciously, he scooted neared to Lan Zhan and tried to curl around his leg.

"Don't move." Lan Zhan scolded as he straightened his body. He looked at Jiang Cheng, trembling.

"You should not fret over it. He will probably be fine when he wakes up. He will probably think it's a dream. I will take care of him, you should continue your Sect leader duties. Allow us to stay a while more" HanGuang-Jun said.

"Yes of course. You should stay until he is fully recovered." Jiang Cheng said wiping off his tears and walked away.

With Wen Ning's effective herbal soup, Wei Wuxian recovered fast. By sunset, he broke through the fever. He woke up to Lan Zhan holding him close himself. One hand wrapped around the head and the other wrapped around his waist. He tried to snuggle his way out but failed in being discreet. Lan Zhan woke up too. First things first he felt his forehead.

"I am alright. I am sorry for making you take care. Did anything happen? I only remember walking into our room." Wei Wuxian asked hoping he did not cause too much trouble. He remembered trashing Lan Zhan's Jingshi in a fever where he remembered the past. He really wishes that had not repeated here.

"Don't worry. I was here. I will be here always" Lan Wangji rubbed Wie wuxian's back in circles.

Wei WuXian chuckled at Lan WanJi's statement. "There is no one but you for me" Wei Wuxian said with the biggest smile on his face.

"Wei Ying, you finally smiled" Lan Zhan said with a softening gaze, hugged him tightly and gave him a slight peck on his forehead.