"No, actually, I don't get it. Ed, why is this girl any different? Because she's a decade younger than you? You had more game than this when you were in college." He throws his hands up as the waiter comes up to refill his water.
I wait until he leaves to respond. "Jasper. I...I don't fucking know. She's...I don't know." I run my hands through my hair and set my elbows on the table. I exhale heavily. "Maybe it's because I at least knew that the other party was at least interested. I have nothing to go on here."
"I doubt that."
I shoot him a look. "Okay. Honestly, you either say something helpful right now or you're paying for dinner." I run my fingers through my hair continuously, gritting my teeth. This is why I have a therapist.
"Edward, I love you man. Despite you being a fucking weirdo, I don't think you'll actually have an issue with her being your grad assistant for the semester. Besides being an asshole when you don't know all of the variables of a situation, you're a pretty fun guy to be around when it comes to your work." With that, Jasper goes back to his water, just as the waiter comes to give us fresh bread. "You also have more self-discipline and self-awareness than most people I know."
Right, Jasper. Right.
Honestly, I know I can control myself around her. I've done it and I don't give in to temptation that easily.
But God, her ass and her smell and - no. No.
I digress.
She has a great reputation. She's never slept with Professor Hakleman - and if she did, I don't want to know - and she seems to actually have some sense. Everyone Angela mentioned would be a great fit, if I'm being real with myself. However...
I'm not going to be that person that pretends that I don't have feelings for someone - see Samantha, Beverly, and Amber.
But I also won't kid myself into thinking that I won't be able to get my head out of my ass long enough to be professional.
Even though her ass is tempting, not getting sued and losing my job is more important.
Just by a little bit.