Tori and Tris - Chapter Nineteen - Good for the goose
Tris communicated that she had been sincerely affected by my expressed sentiments and convinced by my argument. I pointed out that it was not my intention to convince anybody, least of all her, but was simply explaining my position. Tris agreed, but nevertheless was determined to commit, likewise, to the resistance of tyranny. She had decided to return to life in the compound, return to training, to her cohort and her preparations for the initiation examination. She faltered when she asked if we would continue to be together.
"Life in Dauntless is less regulated and less orderly than Abnegation and relationships can be impermanent and somewhat erratic," I explained. Triss avoided my eyes suspecting a great disappointment. "Tris, look at me," I lift her chin, "I love you, Tris, I love you more than I thought it was possible." "But?" Tris asks shakily, unable to bear the anticipated heartbreak. "No but," I am anxious to reassure her, and her eyes are seeking an explanation in mine.
"I will have you in my life, in my bed every chance I can get, Tris." I tried to reassure her. "Tori, you are both drawing me in and keeping me out with that kind of talk. Just speak plainly," said Tris. "I thought I had made it plain. I want you, I love you, Tris. It is you who are unsure about our being together. Tris, you are young, your life is just beginning, you're considering defecting from Dauntless - there are many possibilities and I don't want to be the reason that you don't…"
"Tsk," Tris hushes me, frowning. "Oh, you poor old lady, such a burden," she says taking me by surprise, and digging her finger into my chest "We only have a few years left together," now poking me randomly, "then you will die of old age and," tickling me, "I will finally be free to run amok! To have endless lovers." She is laughing, thinking herself very entertaining. Adopting a solemn pose, raising her hand, "I hereby promise that if you linger longer than convenient, I will snuff you out." She plants a kiss on my cheek, bursts out laughing, and runs into the training area to grab a pair of fighting sticks.
Returning with speed Tris ambushed me, whacking me about the shins and taunting me. Still in my underwear and needing to defend myself, I bring my legs up to my chest and try to catch the fast whipping sticks with my hands, but she is showing no mercy. I charge her, springing forward and wrapping my arms around her waist, pinning her arms to her sides, I push her up against the wall trying to restrict her movement. She is still swinging the sticks st but is not satisfied with the limited range, Tris drops her knees and slips through my arms to the floor, tackling my legs and bringing me tumbling down to the floor, by her.
Tris is fighting both against her pain and restricted movement, as well as me, and we both know that even disregarding injuries, I am fitter, stronger and far more highly skilled than Tris. Tris is thrashing about like a wild animal trying to evade capture. She alternates between trying to flip me and then wriggling out of my reach. I take pity on her and end it quickly before she really does herself some serious damage. I pin each of her ankles to the floor with my strong feet, her hands have been secured above her head she is still bucking beneath me so I lay my body over hers and slowly press her into the floor until she is immobilised.
"Do you submit?" she asks arching her eyebrow. "Do I?" I ask incredulously, "I have you," I remind her. She raises her lips to mine and kisses me, softly, several times, when she deepens the kiss I relax my hold on her - fully anticipating her to arc up! She did not, but continued to kiss me. "Not such an old burden after all?" She says and moves her lips to my jaw, my neck and up to my ear. I was so distracted by her lips and feeling her breath on my skin, my voice was husky and I rasp out "I don't recall saying I was old?" "You're right, Tori," she said returning her lips to mine, "I'm right? Oh, This is a trap." She brought her hands down to frame my face, her fingers tracing my skin and driving me crazy.
Looking into my eyes. "You said the Abnegation could not be taken out of me and you were right. I am a simple girl. I don't need multiple lovers, Tori, I am perfectly happy with the one I have." She gives me a few more convincing kisses, "And believe me I have no intention of cramping your style - you have your job, your Leadership, your friends, your resistance." The last word she says a whisper, but not irreverently. "I will go back to the compound, to my own friends, I will pass the test, get a job and learn how to resist."
She looks at me while she kisses me. "I know you said that there was nothing for you but resistance, Tori, and I know I don't understand everything about being lesbians but I want to be with you. The way other couples are together, to come home to each other, to love each other. Not now, maybe, but in time. Is it possible? Am I wrong, Tori?" "No, Tris, not wrong at all. I want you so much," She traces my bottom lip with her tongue which makes me shiver, she slides it into my mouth and I moan deeply, "and you love me?" "And I love you very, very much Tris."