Shit.

Shit. Shit. Shit.

"Uh…"

She looks at me in confusion and slowly backs away. I panic.

"Wait! No! I'm sorry. That...was not supposed to come out." My eyes pinch shut. Clutching the bridge of my nose, I…

Shit, I can't breathe.

1, 2, 3, 4…

"Dr. Masen?"

Why is the room so hot? Is it spinning?

Why can't I breathe?

Somehow I end up on the floor, on my knees.

And then I feel her. And hear her.

One hand on my shoulder.

One hand on the back of my neck.

Her voice. Telling me to breathe in with me, breathe out.

After a few minutes I realize my head is in her lap, and my hands are on her thighs.

Not exactly how I pictured touching her there but I can cry about this later.