She wasn't able to function. She was getting anxious with every passing second. She wasn't able to sleep last night even it's been a day only but Rey was getting paranoid. His lock screen password was her name. He was dangerous and scared the shit out of her. But some insane part of her body want to be punish by his harsh love as he take her in different ways..
Stop it Rey. Your mother did not raise you to be this shameless. And his phone was vibrating non stop. She did not dare to look in the private life of Kylo Ren. She didn't want to be in more mess.
But the problem was she could not leave his phone anywhere. If her father finds out hell would break. He was the attorney, a man of law and Kylo was someone he would definitely hate and won't let his only daughter mingle with bad boy like him.
She decides to ditch the school taday and rest at home.
Around noon Rose messaged her about the party at Carla's house. She still need return this crappie junk mobile. But she was afraid if this got out that she is attached to Kylo. Her peaceful life would be over.
Nice, pure and quiet Rey does not hang out with loud and violent assholes like Kylo Ren, which was why she didn't like the way Kato Ren looked at her best friend Rose. She won't let Rose meet that idiot.
Zzzzzz Zzzzzz
But right now she looked at the vibrating phone over her table. Suddenly she remembered the party. She should get ready.
X_X
Rey was frustrated she couldn't move or enjoy her time. Afraid if someone find out the reason why her ass on constant vibration tonight.
"Rey-Rey! Why aren't you dancing or enjoying. It's a best place to get laid. Here take this." Rose gave her red plastic cup.
"What is this?" Rey looked at the drink and hope nothing is in there. Because you can't trust party drinks.
Rose rolls her eyes . "Don't worry, it's not spiked."
Rey laughed hardly and was about to drink when a vibration hit again
Zzzzzz Zzzzzz.
Unfortunately, that's when Rose decided to put her hand on her waist for a side hug when she felt it and took out Kylo Ren's phone. "What the hell is this?" she shrieks at Rey .
Rey tried to pull back but she's freakishly strong right now. "Let go," Rey grimace and yank herself free of her rock solid grip.
"Ouch! Rose-Bud. That hurt!" Rey scowl at her and cradle her injured wrist to her chest.
"Whose phone is this?" she demands to answer her truthfully.
Rey can't lie to Rose and she knew she would find out one day. So she decided to tell her. "It's Kylo Ren's phone."
"I knew it," she scoffs and with her hands on her hips she stares me down. "How long?" she replies through gritted teeth.
"Huh?" Rey asked confusedly.
Her face grows red, "You and Kylo," she growls impatiently. "How long have you been fu—"
"It's not like that!" Rey nearly screamed at her accusation.
Rose looks around if someone heard them.
Nobody was looking they were safe.
Zzzzzz Zzzzzz.
"Are you still a virgin?" she blurts out before Rey can do or say anything else.
Rey's mouth drops open in shock. It's so something she would say but she wasn't prepared to hear it outright. She like to beat around the bush while Rey always so freaking forward. How they are best friends, she will never know.
"Well?" she shoves Rey's shoulder to get her to start talking.
"Do I look like who had sex? Huh Rose?" Rey questioned her.
She pulls her bottom lip in between her teeth and chews quietly, "Then why are you and Kylo…" she pauses, "you and Kylo Ren?"
Rey want to scream right now because she was questioning the same thing over and over why him. She wanted to take all the anger out. "I am so fucking confused, Rose . I don't even know where to begin." her voice grows shaky at the end.
Zzzzzz Zzzzzz.
She's almost ready to throw this fucking thing into the deep end of the pool in front of her. Seriously she can't believe someone could be in such high demand as Kylo Ren.
Zzzzzz Zzzzzz.
"Have you guys…" Rose trails a fingers over the arm of her chair, "done anything else?"
Rey breathe through her nose really loud, "Not really? I mean, we've kissed and touched but—" Rey stop talking when she thought about where his finger had been a few hours before she was sitting where she was now.
She look up to meet Rose's intense stare, and decide she would not tell her anything more until she finds out where she stands with Kylo. "But that's it," she finish with a mumble and stare down at his phone on her lap.
"When did this start? How long has it been going? Does anyone else know?" she blurts out question after question before gasping and sitting up straight in her chair, "Oh my god! Is he the reason you were so fidgety about Poe?"
She wants to skip talking about Poe.
Rey groan and shake her head, "No."
She frowns and tilts her head. "Then what's going on, Rey ?"
She sounds so concerned that it makes Rey feel really bad . But what the hell she was supposed to say? She don't know anything
Zzzzzzzz Zzzzzzzz Zzzzzzzz
"Stupid fucking phone!" Rey scream, and she was just about on the verge of tossing it.
"Rey-Rey this time it's your phone vibrating." she pointed to her purse.
Rey was officially super pissed, "What?" she asked to the caller harshly.
"Whoa," Poe exhales with a whistle, "what's up with you?"
Rey didn't don't need this right now. "Oh, hey Poe." Inwardly she groan, and outwardly she just closed her eyes and shook her head.
Why me? Why now?
"Hey," he sounds much more cheerful than she had expect from someone who has just lost the first game of the season. "So, uh, where are you?" he clears his throat and she hear someone coughing in the background followed by soft laughter. No wonder he's so fucking calm and aloof. He's high.
"Babe?" Poe questions her silent end of the line. For some reason it really irritates her that he Calls her babe when for the past three years he barely paid attention to her. Now all of the sudden she was 'babe' and 'baby' and 'sexy.' she never thought the day would come where she didn't want to hear those words come out of his mouth in regard to her.
"REY!" Rose suddenly slaps her leg, and it stings, because it's cold outside and she still in her black shorts.
"Oh," she cleared her throat, "um.. what?" she asked him. she'd completely forgotten what the hell he asked her.
His soft laugh is raspy and it sounds kind of sexy, but then she gulp because it reminds her of the way Kylo laughs at her. Or when he taunts her or tries to intimidate her. When she shiver and bite her lip to keep from moaning and he laughs from deep in the back of his throat and she can feel it in his chest because it's pressed against hers and—
"Where are you?" Poe asks again.
Zzzzzzzz Zzzzzzzz.
"I'm ah…" Rey clear her throat a second time, "I'm at Carla's house. You know. At her… party?"Fuck,I'm a such a shitty mess. Why do I feel so damn guilty? And who do I feel guilty for? Poe or Kylo?
"Sorry I'm not there," he explains, and he actually sounds sorry, "but a lot of us guys just didn't feel like celebrating much tonight. 'Cause of… you know." Now he sounds embarrassed and angry at the same time. Wow, I didn't even know that was possible.
"But you can come here," he says hopefully.
Rey chew on her lip nervously, "Where is 'here'?" she asked him warily. Why it is that she's even asking him this is beyond her. She had been warned to stay the fuck away from him, per a sexily psychotic Kylo.
"Uhh…" he trails off and for as minute she think she lost him to the dark side of marijuana. "Fin's house." she turn to see Rose bobbing her head up and down. She wants to go. It's fucking boring here without the guys anyways.
Zzzzzz Zzzzzz.
"Yeah," she bit out uncomfortably, "yeah alright, I'll see you there. I've got Rose with me."
"Alright then, I'll see you in a few." Rey can feel his grin from where she was now.
Rey starts to fidget even more, "Yep. Okay, uh… bye."
Click. She don't even give him a chance to respond. She stared at Rose with big wide eyes as she puts her hands first on her arms, and then on her shoulders, before she suddenly slaps her upside her head. "Get it together, idiot !" she shouts in her face and yanks Rey up to her feet with her.
Zzzzzz Zzzzzzzz.
Oh, for the love of sweet baby Jesus! Does he even know that many people? Wait, he's a dealer. She snorted to herself and shake her head of course he knows that many people.
57 miss calls, 677 fb notifications, 345 messages.
Christ.. He got a huge friend circle.
She only had his phone for close to 18 hours.
"That's in-fucking-sane," Rose comments over Rey's shoulder.
Zzzzzzzz Zzzzzzzz
Rey rolled her eyes as yet another text message pulls up and for about 30 seconds the screen shows us a preview of the message.
It reads: U want 2 ignore me after last nite? FINE! But don't come knocking my door at 3 am bcuz ur lonely bcuz I am so over it!
Rey was frozen and she blinked and entered her name to see the sender name it was Phasma.
Kylo was with a girl last night? What were they doing? It was late. What did I think they were doing? Playing cards?
How stupid and naïve can I be? Rey thought with anger and shake her head and give the phone to Rose who just looks at her in confusion.
"hoe messages," she said to her.
She frowns and looks down at the device in her hands, "Maybe…"
She snort and shake her head, "This is exactly why I was being such a bitch about the very idea of you and Kato."
She rolls her eyes and makes this weird gurgling sound to show her she's frustrated. "Oh God! I told you there was nothing going on between us! So I checked him out and he caught me, and then he checked me out back! He's a beast. Rey. I can look, okay? I know I can't touch."
Rey nod her head because, damn her, she's right. She was the one who looked and touched. She touched too much and now she's fucked. But whatever, it was one night and it was one lost moment in a dark hallway at school. He's a pusher and a dangerous guy and he scares the hell out of her anyways.
"I'm sorry Rey-Rey," Rose links her arm with Rey and leads her to the back gate so that they can slip out unnoticed. She puts her head on her shoulder and she nod and touch her head to hers as they walk to her car.
He spent a night with a girl.
Rey hate that she even care about anything that has to do with that bastard. She have a perfectly good replacement waiting for her at Fin's house... Poe.
If Kylo can spend a night then she can get a guy also..
Rey couldn't forget that bastard was out hooking up with a girl. Well she don't care at all. He means nothing to her at first place.
She had taken the battery out from Kylo's phone so she don't have to hear it anymore. She figure out how to get it back to him later.
Right now she was going to take her frustration. Poe was sitting on the couch and dare to say he looked cute under the dim light of the room. He stood and approached her from behind. Snaking his arm on her waist. Her back is to his chest and their legs are tangled while he slowly plays with her hair and it makes her want to curl up into him like a kitten.
Somewhere upstairs there's a crash and she hear Rose's shrill laughter soon after Fin yells something and then there's more laughter. She only laughs like that around Fin.
Rey wished that Rose and Fin would end up together. They deserve to be together.
But deep down her heart wants the touch and feelings she experienced yesterday in school hallway.
Poe's hands are getting brave again. He keeps running his hands up and down her arms and casually his fingers linger a bit to caress the sides of her breasts. Won't lie. It feels pretty damn good when he does that but it didn't gave the same sensation as Kylo's fire touch.
Rey was going to forget him. She embrace Poe tightly he smirked at her response, because he gets braver with every stroke. Soon he's touching the skin between her top and her skirt. He pushes his fingers high and higher until the thing is bunched up under her breasts, and his breath is at her ear and then he's kissing her neck. Rey know What she have to do next.
Rose told her that guys like when the girl takes a little control. Not too much, but enough to seem sexy and spunky.
She was not sexy, nor she was spunky. But she had no complaints in the past—mind you, she only ever had four other worthwhile sexual encounters. Two were the best and both with damn Kylo.
So far, he's wiped out the competition.
She actually a little eager to see how Poe does in this department. Is he was nowhere near as experienced in this department as he is. He's been with Cora for almost three years and everyone knew she was a total freak nasty kind of girl. Oh great, now she made herself nervous.
She pushed him back in bed and straddling him. He looked like a kid in Disneyland. Rey leaned back and kissed him fiercely.
I will not think about Kylo when I am with Poe. Kylo is an asshole and a player. Poe is nice and loyal. He's adorable.
"There's a zipper in the back," she said softly, "can you…?"
"Y-yeah—yes. Yes, I will unzip it for you."
See? Adorable.
"I can't believe you are going to have sex with me tonight on your own."
"Mmm, mmm," Rey shook her head to tell him no. "We're not having sex."
"We're not?" he sounds disappointed, but he's trying to unhook her bra.
"No," she grab his face with her hands, "we're not. Not tonight."
This puts a smile back onto his face, "Are you…" he suddenly looks worried, "you're not a virgin, are you?"
"Shut up and kiss me, Poe. This is not social hour," she roll my eyes and he nods his head up and down. "Take this off, "she pull at his shirt. "It's only fair," she taunt him.
"What about if I take my pants off, too?" he teases her back.
Rey giggle and wiggle her eyebrows, "What if you do?"
But he paused for a second and bend to take something out of his back jeans pocket.
Rey looked at him confused. He chuckles and shakes his head, "I won't force you into relationship but would you accept this ring. Please."
He was totally opposite of Kylo, cute, polite and sweet but little clingy but that was ok.
Poe stares at her and she realize she haven't given him an answer yet. She know she's supposed to say yes. This is what she wanted, after all. He's Poe Dameron. Her future, life and everything will be secure. No scandal or mess.
So why she was hesitating?
"Stop it! I told you its just me and Fin that are here!" Rey heard Rose yell from upstairs. Her body stills and tightens.
Oh my god.
"Fin, tell him! She's—hey you can't just come in here!"
.
"I know she is here."
Deep gruff sexy frustrated voice booming from stairs.
Rey know it's Kylo the second she hear the pounding of his footsteps coming closer to the basement. She looked at her self thank God she only took her top off. She zip it back in record time.
"Get dressed!" she yell at Poe and throw his shirt at his face.
Her hair is a mess, her lips are swollen and her skirt is beyond rumpled. It's gonna take some serious heat at the dry cleaners to get these wrinkles out. Footsteps roar down the stairs just as Poe buttons his shirt.
"What the fu—" he doesn't get to finish.
Kylo is in the room and he moves so swiftly that he has Poe by his throat before she even comprehend what's going on. She screams and cry out just like one of those annoying girls in the movies would.
She slap a hand over her mouth and sob into it. Fin flies down the stairs and Rose is fast on his heels. She's at her side and pulling Rey into her arms in seconds.
Rey can't see exactly what's going on because the lights are dim in the room, but she does see Kylo's fist repeatedly hitting Poe, and she see Fin struggling to pull him away.
Then she watch in horror as Kylo throws out his elbow to hit Fin in his throat. Rose flinches, and Rey know that she wants to rush to Fin. But he's a strong guy, and even though he probably can't breathe right now he's back on his feet and trying to grab Kylo.
"Fin!" Rose shouts at him. "Kylo, stop!" she screams as loud as she can and then runs back up the stairs.
She don't know why the hell she would leave, but she can't bring herself to move and join her. Rey frozen where she stood, clutching her face with her hands and crying like a stupid bitch.
This was her fault. This is all her fucking fault. He warned her He warned her! Then suddenly she have her fucking voice back and Rey gained control over her shaking body. She ran to grab him.
"KYLO! —STOP!" she sob as she scream at him.
Her fingernails dig into his flexed bicep so hard she feel them delve into his skin. It doesn't faze him. He keeps trying to hit Poe and Poe keeps trying to hit him and Fin keeps trying to pull them apart. Rey wedge her arm between them and shove Poe as hard as she can, which isn't very hard at all.
He doesn't budge.
"Please Kylo.. Please." she begged for last time in low voice
Kylo finally snaps back into focus when they lock their eyes and she beg him to stop, but when he does, Poe's fist flies past her ear and hits Kylo square in his jaw.
"Shit!" Rey cry out and fall on her knees beside Kylo. He shoves her hands away and while he struggles to get back on his feet Fin grabs Poe and slams him against the wall.
"Calm down!" he yells into Poe's face. "Calm the fuck down!"
Kylo takes one step towards them with murder in his eyes and Rey slammed her palms against his chest. He's sweaty and he's bleeding and his jaw is starting to swell. He was burning with revenge.
"Kylo,stop!" Rey tried again. But Poe breaks free of Fin's hold and Kylo literally picks Rey up and throws her onto the couch just before Poe plows into him and they crash to the floor.
Rey hear them grunt and curse and Kylo keeps telling Poe to hit harder and Poe keeps telling Kylo to go to hell.
Suddenly the lights in the room come on and it's blindingly bright. She blink several times and see Rose standing with her hand on the switch next to Kato.
He moves just as fast and fluid like Kylo, only he's not blind with rage. kato makes it look so easy when he wraps his arms around Kylo's waist and swings him around to face the stairs.
Fin shoves Poe down to the floor and pins him down, yelling at him to calm down or he's not getting up. Rey watch kato struggle to subdue Kylo on the other side of the room, and flinch when there's a soft cool hand on her shoulder.
It's Rose.
Her lip starts to tremble again when she look around the room and see how much damage has been done.
"I fucking told your ass not to come here. I told you to stay with our gang but you're such a stubborn idiot.. fuck!" kato yells into Kylo ear. "No, I won't let you go. Not until I know you're cool. You're not cool."
"I'm cool," Kylogrowls angrily, "I swear to God Kato, I'm done."
"It's okay," Rose says to Rey and its then
She realize that she is trembling like she in the fucking arctic. "It's okay, Rey-Rey. Calm down sweetie, it's over."
But Rey can't stop shaking. She's so mad at Kylo Ren. She was mad at herself, the world and everyone. Rey feel her eyes start to sting and she knows she's going to cry again.
Rose tries to wipe her face but she slap her hands away and push away from her. She stumble forward, Kylo and Kato stiffen as Rey draw nearer but all she do is shove past them to stagger up the stairs.
"REY! !" Rose calls out for her, and she know she's going to follow so Rey don't stop or slow down when she reaches the top.
Rey just want to go home. Her vision was blurry. She not sobbing or hiccuping like she usually do when she cry. She don't understand what the hell just happened. Rey saw a half empty bottle of tequila and snatch it up.
She make her way through the house to the front door.
Fin's house is fucking huge so it takes her a while to even reach the entrance area. Rose calls out to her one more time, and when she turn around she has her shoes in her hands. She fucking love her so much right now it's ridiculous.
But then Rey saw Kylo also follow right at her back, and shortly after him is a pissed off looking Kato. Poe and Fin are not behind them. Rey don't dare look at Kylo's face. She don't need to see how pissed he is at her for disobeying a direct order.
Rey can feel Rose coming up beside her; she tries to link arms, but she's not in a touchy mood right now. So, she speed up and leave her behind.
"Kylo, no," Rey heard Katoscold Kylo, "don't!" he shouts.
Rey don't have time to react to the tone of voice Kato had used to call out to Kylo, because suddenly there's an iron grip around her wrist. She's spun around quickly after and come face to face with a murderous Brown glare.
Her stomach muscles tighten up and she flinch as if he's going to hit her. It's when she do this that some of the color comes back to his eyes. His grip lightens and with his other hand he moves as if to touch her face.
"Don't," Rey cringe away from him. Rey tried to pull her arm away but his fingers clench. "Let go of me!" she cry out with wide eyes. "Get away from me! Stay away from me!"
She hate that she feel guilty when his face crumbles for a second, but it doesn't last long. He pulls his walls up just as quick and then it's like he feels nothing.
"Stop acting like you're afraid of me!" he growls out through his teeth.
But she was afraid of him. She'd like to be one of those girls who looks past the mask he puts on, but she can't.
Because all Rey see when she look at him? Is pain.
Dark, agonizing pain. And it's not because of her, and it's not because of what she have done. She doesn't know what it is, but whatever he carries with him is something she don't want to know about. She is not brave enough to stand up to him. She is not strong enough to take care of him.
Because that's what he needs. Someone to take care of him, to keep him in check and call him out when he's being a shit.
But that person is not her.
"Don't you turn your back on me!" he snaps when she try to leave. "Goddamn it, Rey!"
Rey was frozen on her spot. He always called her babe, love, doll face, or baby girl. It's the first time he's ever actually said her name.
"I have your phone," Rey reply with her back still facing him.
"I know you have my fucking phone, I don't care." He literally growls this out like an animal. She peak over her head slightly to see if he's grown fur. But that slight movement is all he needs to rush forward and spin her around again.
"Why'd you do it?" he drops her arm and asks very softly.
Rey scoff at him, "Seriously?"
His grimace deepens, "What is that?" he's confused.
"You have no right to act like I'm a piece of property! I am not your girlfriend, Kylo Ren! And after tonight? I never will be," Rey stare into his eyes so that he gets the point. He does.
"So it's like that, huh?" he laughs bitterly. As if he's been in this situation before with the same results. As if this comes as no surprise to him.
"It was one night," she shake her head.
"Yeah," he nods, "one night that obviously meant more to me than to you."
Rey closed her . That hurt. She feel like a bitch all of the sudden. She's really good at placing guilt onto herself . Rey was lying to him right now. That night did mean something to her. it meant almost everything to her. But then she remember his buzzing phone.
"Rose," Rey call out to her and motion for her to unlock the doors on her car.
Rey took out his phone "Here," she hand him two pieces. His phone and the battery she took out.
He blinks down at it confused as to why it's not in the same condition he left it in.
"You're a very popular guy," Rey tell him in the driest of tones.
He nods, "Yeah, I am." He says this in a way that's supposed to make her jealous. It's working.
Now it's time for retribution. Rose—who she's starting to believe is psychic or just really fucking in tune with her—comes over to the driver's side, slips in and immediately starts up the car.
Kylo's scowling again. She slink down into the passenger seat and shut the door on him. But then she roll down the window and look up at him. He's still staring at her with that intense hurt puppy look in his eyes. She have to remind herself that she wasn't his girlfriend.
"You want to know why this happened tonight? Me and Poe." Rey ask coldly. Her confidence is back and she's feeling really haughty right now.
"Why don't you check in with Phasma? She seems to be the one getting you through those lonely nights ."
His eyes widen in realization just as Rose peels out of the driveway. She pats her leg and tells Ren 'good job.' But all she feel is really, really…
Lonely.