It was the beginning of first year and Rey was pissed over everything. People were mean but few were good enough to hold conversations.
Rey can only tolerate Rose but nobody else's crap she would take.
She was at Jerome party he was the star player of their school. Blonde, beefed up and build.
But Rey was exhausted. She was upset because she was missing her mom. she just wanted to hit the bed. But Rosetook her to this party. She heard few people talking about the Knights being in the party...
They were dangerous, mysterious but hot and untouchable.
Well she never gave a damn.
She felt suffocating and slipped through the door avoiding people she really need to relax. She really want a drink or cigarette. She flinched when she heard the flick of a lighter to her side , and she turn to see someone sitting in a dark corner, lighting the end of what she want the most right now.
A cigarette .
She can ask for one.
"Hey," she said to the guy with a black hoodie drawn over his head. "Can I have one of those?"
The pack is tossed at her , and next comes the lighter. Is he almost drop them and scowl at the thrower. But he's still letting her have one of his cigarettes for free, so she guess she couldn't complain.
She ignited the lighter and watch the flame for a few seconds before touching to the end of her cigarette and inhaling. It's a menthol, and it feels cool going down her lungs after the burn of the weed from before. The minty taste makes her smack her lips and smile to herself.
Rey holds the pack and lighter out for the guy to take, and he leans forward to retrieve them. His fingertips slide over her wrist when he does, and her skin breaks out into gooseflesh. His touch was like fire and electrifying, she shiver and stare at his hooded head curiously.
"Take your hood off," she said , tilting her head at him.
He leans back at the wall and continues to smoke his own cigarette. "Why?" he replies in a smooth deep thick voice that adds to his mysteriousness.
"I want to know who to thank for this," Rey say, holding the menthol up and exhaling a cloud of smoke toward him.
He adds to the haze with his own exhale and stands up. He's almost a foot taller than her, and she back away, slightly intimidated. He joins her at the patio rail and leans against it.
Rey did the same, and they smoke in silence and stare out at the pool.
"Why aren't you inside?" he mutters, blowing smoke through his nose. It's the only thing she can see of him, and it's pointed but not too saw a preview of his chin when he takes another pull from his smoke, and it's slightly stubble and leads to a pair of full, pouty lips.
She was instantly attracted to him, and she hasn't even seen his whole face. His body build is lean and strong, athletic, but not too bulky. He's like Poe, but taller and less frat boy. His shoulders are broad, and his chest is magnificent, his sweater is pulled tight across it, and she wanted to rub her fingers over its surface.
She was high enough to think dirty naughty things about the stranger who just tossed her a joint..
"Why aren't you inside? " Rey tease him instead of answering his previous question.
"I asked you first," he chuckles, flicking the butt end of his cigarette into the bushes below them.
Rey lean on her side to face him, "What is your name?"
"You ask a lot of questions for someone who refuses to answer mine," he replies, and she watch the tip of his tongue wet those glorious lips of his.
She huff and turn back to the pool. "I'm waiting for someone," she mutter, smashing her cigarette into the wooden patio. "I'm starting to think he stood me up."
Rey was waiting for Jacon. That guy was supposed to be her date tonight.
"Who is he?" his voice was dangerously close to her ear and a spark of recognition hits her.
Rey closed her eyes and breathe through her nose. "No one important right now,"
She whisper and waited for him to speak again. She was almost positive she know who is beside her right now.
She felt fingertips slide up her arm and across her collarbone, "Who the fuck would be stupid enough to keep someone like you waiting?" he asks no one, and her eyes fly open to stare at the shadow of his face.
"I guess his loss is your gain, huh?" she reply boldly. "Take off your hood."
"Why?" he challenges her.
And he lightly touched her face and she leaned into his touch. Recognizing it. He was one of the Knights.
Dark, Dangerous and scary.
She remembered about them and he was definitely the one.
She placed her hand over his fingers on her skin, "Take off your hood, Kylo Ren," she demand.
Without protest, he pulls the hood from his head, and her eyes move to his messy hair and dark smoldering eyes.
"Hello, Rey ," he smirks.
She blink in surprise. "How do you know my name?"
He smirks and touches her cheek with his thumb. "I know everything about you, Rey…"
She gulped and turned her head. "How do you know my name?" she repeat, practically growling as she push his arm away from her
"Shiro," he says in defeat and leans against the rail again, but this time his side is pressed against her.
She snort, "Of course." and shaking her head. "Well I hope you know that he and I are not friends anymore," she snap.
"Really?" he teases her . "Hard to tell, what with the way you each act like the other one doesn't exist and all," he mutters sarcastically.
Rey turn to tell him to mind his business when she heard Lisa and Link voice.
"Shit," she curse under her breath. "You have to hide me." she looks up at Kylo and clutches his sweater in her hands. "Please," she beg him.
His face hardens in concern. "Is someone bothering you?"
She pull on his sweater and start for the stairs. "No! Just come on! I don't feel like pretending to be sweet, little, nerdy Rey right now, okay? Can you understand that? You look like a guy who plays a role. Don't you ever just want to be your fucking self sometimes?"
He removes her fingers from his sweater and links them with his own. "There's a pool house around back," he replies.
She grinned at him. "Perfect, let's go." Rey yank him along with her.
X_X
Rose was shocked and angry. They were best friends or more like sisters. And when she heard Angel threatened Rey about the night she was with Kylo Ren. She was frozen. Rey never told her what happened. She always denied any kind of connection with the bad boy of the city.
Rey was frustrated from the fucked up situations. Rose was giving her silent treatment. Rey knew she would not understand , but she would not listen why she lied to her at first place. Rose just keep driving after leaving the hell party.
Rey was scared of angry Rose so she didn't dare to ask anything. She she kept going on with stony face.
They were in the loneliest part of town near the harbor. Barely seen any more human beings at this time. Rey saw Rose slowing down her car.
Time to face the trial.
"Okay," Rose says, turning to Rey "I get Rey-Rey, why you're too scared to admit to everything that happened that night. You're probably embarrassed because he's an experienced guy, and he probably made you do things that you normally would never imagine doing..."
X_X
"Take off your clothes, Love," he says.
Rey pressed her hands against his chest and pushed him away. "Excuse me?"
He laughs, "Come on, babe . Don't act like you don't want this." He takes Rey by her waist and lifts her up and put her on counter.
Rey knew nothing about Kylo Ren except he was dangerous violent and a guy her daddy always forbidden to follow. But she just wanted to explore the side of life she never experienced. And he was better option. They are strangers after all no strings attached. And she was attracted to him. There was no deny of the fire of seductive attraction between him and her.
"What are you doing?" Rey gulped and stare up at him in amazement.
Kylo's grin makes her tremble lustfully. "You wanted a distraction."
He traced her cheek and whispered softly, " you want to forget everything. I'll even make you forget yourself tonight."
X_X
"Rey-Rey," Rose says, sounding irritated, but Rey was still stuck in her memory of that night. She felt that her heart is beating faster, and she is breathing harder.
"Rey" Rose shouts so loudly that Rey jump and bang her head on the window.
Rey curse underneath her breath and rub her head with her hand. "What?" she mumble crossly.
"You see," Rose smacks the steering wheel and points at her. "That right there? That zoning out thing that you do? That's what's I'm talking about when I say you need to get your head out of the clouds. When you're not in the present, you're in the past, or you're in whatever la la land you come up with inside your head. You're missing out on the little details that you really need to focus on, Rey. If you didn't have lied to me. Look you need to clean and clear all the mess with that Kylo. Didn't I say that to you?"
Rey didn't liked the way Rose accused her and something snapped when she heard her best friend tell her to stay clean and clear from Kylo Ren.
"I'm glad you feel the need to lecture me right now, Rose. Really, I am. Because at least I know you don't have anything to do with that second Kinght, Kato. Right?" Rey glared at Rose"We need to focus on you right now, not me, and most certainly not Kylo."
Rose laughs bitterly and gives her a shaming look. "Don't try to bullshit a bullshitter, Rey . I'm way better at it than you. Don't lie with me right now. You're avoiding what happened that night. I just don't get why you feel the need to hide it from me,of all people," she explains, sounding hurt.
It pains Rey to know that she has hurt her. Rey sighed and ran her hands through her hair. "It's embarrassing," she whisper to Rose and avoiding her gaze.
Rose waits a few beats before speaking. "So is my problem with…" she pauses and takes a breath, "my problem. But I still talk about it with you. Come on, Rey," she feel Rose's hand on her knee, "if the tables were turned you'd be all over me to tell you what happened."
She's right.
They finally make it to where she's been driving, and she start to laugh softly. They're at their secret spot in the woods between Korriban and Home.
ROse smiled at Rey . They got out of the car and both start walking, and gazing at the stars. She links arms with Rose.
"You are the best thing happened to me Rose-Bud. You are my best friend."
"There is no need to remind me how awesome I'm Rey-Rey," Rose replied.
Mom! I think you sent Rose for me. I'm glad and I promise you, I'll not do anything to ever make you feel ashamed of me.
Rey leaning her head against Rose's shoulder. Closed her eyes again remembering the night which changed her innocence and life. The night she met Kylo Ren.
-x-
Rey never dreamed of doing something like this with a stranger she just met. But here she was with the most sexy but dangerous guy in whole town.
Rey looked as he lit another cigarette and looked at her.
"Want?" He holds it up and looks at her expectantly.
She wanted to shake her head and say no. But she was still high from the drinks she had sort of buzzed but she didn't want to look pathetic like a wimp,.
But he looked at her and changed his mind. Rey felt disappointed. He gave her mischievous smirk.
"You know you can't escape from here without having fun tonight. The excitement you never felt."
"But I want to know how it feels to smoke." she pouting that he took her opportunity to feel it.
He doesn't say anything in response, and for that she was grateful. Instead, he puts one end of the blunt to his lips and ignites the other end while he inhales deeply. He holds his breath so that the smoke can fill his lungs, and he stares at the red ember at the tip of the blunt. Rey watch him exhale a little over the end so that the ash falls to the ground. He pushes the rest of the smoke into the air, and it's so small in the room that she bet can hot box it.
Rey knew he was into weed, drugs and joint. He was bad influence. She wanted to touch the dark side of the night.
She snatched his Joint and took a puffs. But regret eventually when she started to cough. His joint was the strongest one.
Then he starts to chuckle. "You're going to be so fucked up in a few minutes."
Her body was trembling from her somewhat traumatic experience, and the good daughter of a respectable man, don't even care that she was clinging to his chest.
She make him stay there while she try to tell her body to calm the fuck down and convince it that they're going to live.
"I just wanted to feel what was like to smoke strong weed." She still wants it.
Kylo takes a deep drag and then turns his head to her; she look up at him curiously, and he points to his mouth with the same hand that has the blunt held between two fingers.
Rey don't really think she understand what he's trying to tell her, but if it's what she think it is… she licked her lips and push up to her tip toes. She angles her face so that her mouth aligns with his, and she parted her lips slightly. He swoops down, and his mouth is on her His tongue barely touches her bottom lip as he exhales his smoke into her lungs.
It's the hottest fucking thing ever.
Rey shiver and pressed her chest into his, and his arm slides from around her shoulders down to her lower back. She pull some air through her teeth to push the smoke deeper into her lungs, and then she exhale away from their faces. When her lungs are clear, she lick her lips and stare at his mouth.
"Do that again," she tell him.
He takes a smaller hit and leans over. Rey brings her mouth to his again, and this time he presses his lips very softly to her like a lover's kiss. When she open up he exhales into her mouth, and Rey in return inhale whatever he gives her. But in the process, his hand slides down to cup her ass, and she gasping in surprise, but she have no room in her lungs to do so.
"I think we're done smoking," he breathes into her ear as Rey exhale behind his back.
Rey knew there was no turning back. She was the good girl once belong to elite society. Other side Kylo Ren was not one of normal shenanigans.
Drugs, sex, drinking, smoking, fighting was casual to him. No heart or sentiment for him. But she was not thinking straight herself. It would be just one night stand.
He is best option to lose her virginity. Then they won't have to see each other again.
Kylo pulled her closer and Rey knew there was no turning back. She thought he was going to kiss her Instead, he raises his free hand and sticks his index finger between her lips.
"Suck," he murmurs. "Swirl your tongue around it."
Oh. My. God.
Normal innocent nerdy Rey is supposed to tell him to go to hell. Good girls do not behave like 50-cent hookers. But when he wiggles his finger over her tongue, she found that she was doing exactly as he says. Rey know he's turned on because the look in his eyes is predatory, watching her make out with his finger.
Rey was ready to be wild, shameless for once. And she was not denying that she was under the influence of him.
"Stop," he commands, and she did. "Open," he says, and her lips part. He pulls his finger out, her saliva all over it, and licks his dry thumb before he presses both wet fingers to the lit end of the blunt, and it dies out.
Rey don't even know that she was panting until she see that he was staring at her chest, and it moves up and down very fast. She press a hand to her collarbone, and she felt heart banging away like a little monster screaming to be let whimper unconsciously when he steps closer and looms over her .
But Rey changed her mind. She didn't want to have her first time like this. Suddenly she felt his hands on her waist.
"I'm not having sex with you," she insist, her voice hoarse as it cracks nervously.
He chuckles, the sound rumbling deep within his chest. "Good. Because I'm not having sex with you, either."
Rey flinch in surprise. Usually she have to hear whining after this. She felt little self conscious and offended. She can bet he had super models and perfect skinny girls under him but she was not seductive diva but not that ugly either.
"Why not?" Rey mutter, offended. "I will have you know that there is a roomful of guys in that party that would love t—"
His hand presses over her mouth firmly. "Tonight," he says, his eyes boring into her as if making a promise. "We're not having sex tonight."
Which mean he intends to have sex some other night.
Rey don't want to interact with him again. She removes his hand from her mouth. "What makes you so sure you have more than one night with me, Kylo Ren?"
He grins and plays with the top elastic on her panties. "I've been waiting a very, very long time for this moment, Rey."
Rey gulped at the intensity in his onyx irises.
"I guarantee you will give yourself over to me before the night is done." He's challenging her , and Rey never lost game for playing along, but goddamn, how do you go against a master like him? His face moves closer; he nuzzles her nose with his and then buries his face in her neck, inhaling her scent. "I'm going to make you come so hard, baby…" he breathes across her throat.
Rey knew she was gone.
She wanted him so badly that she can't breathe right. She feel something inside of her snap, and suddenly her hands are tugging at his sweater and tearing it over his head. Placing both her hands on his face, she pull him to her and smash her mouth against his. Neither of them holds back after that.
Fire met the gasoline
His hands are hungry, and his mouth is aggressive. He bites. Her lip. Her tongue. Her neck. Her shoulder. Rey whimper every time she feel his teeth touch her skin. She want him. Everywhere. His hands bunch the flesh of her breasts between his fingers, and she was so glad that she didn't wear a bra tonight.
Instinctively, her hands go to the back of her neck, and she pull apart the strings that hold her top together.
He doesn't need her to say anything. He pulls it over her head, and then his mouth was on her before she can react. She cry out when she feel him pinch and knead and suck on her puckered nipples. she stick her chest her out and hold him to her.
Kylo Ren was the air she needs to breathe to stay alive tonight, Kylo slips his fingers inside her panties and caresses her highly sensitive clit. She clutch his well built shoulders.
"Oh God!" she moan. "Oh my God, Kylo!" Rey pull his hair between her fingers and start whimpering into his shoulder.
"Don't call me Kylo," he sounds like a angry hell devil before mauling her lips with his. "And take these off," he growls. Rey hear her underwear stretch and rip as he yanks them down her legs.
"Then what should I call you?" Rey squirmed under his touch.
"Call me Ben." He kissed up her leg.
"Ben , I need you," she cry out. She wants him everywhere.
It was the first time she called him by his name.
He pauses and stares at her. Rey almost ask him what's wrong, but then he blinks.
"Say it again," he demands, his words husky and full of want.
Her body is trembling as she sat naked atop of a counter. She reach out for him and slide her hands up his shirt. "I need you," she whisper onto his chin and slowly start to pull his shirt up his torso. "Ben…" she said his name again.
"Fuck," he pants heavily, "just hearing you say my name…"
Rey don't let him talk anymore. she stick her tongue in his mouth, and his shirt hits the floor. Her hands wander down his muscled chest and his tight six-pack, and then her fingers are pulling at his belt. He watches her undo his pants and push them down over his hips. He looks completely vulnerable right then, and Rey finds that she feel a pull inside her chest that's not only lust. She push past it and ignore it.
She slip her fingers into his boxers. "I want you," Rey replied , putting her hand over his fully erect cock.
He's fucking huge, and she had to use both hands to fully appreciate everything he has.
She only follows her instincts and she was liking every part of Kylo Ren, Ben, he's hot and ready to go.
She slick the juice from his tip and palm his head, "I want you…" she say again, "in my mouth," she say against his chin and nibble him there.
He shudders, and his hands tighten on her waist. "And I will be," he growls, "but you come first." His eyes open and stare into her. He puts his palm over her bare pussy and rubs it up and down the middle.
Rey moan and whimper and tremble in his hands.
"I want to kiss you," he whispers in her ear, and Rey turn her head so he can, but he shakes his head. Rey blink at him, confused, and he smirks before lowering down onto his knees.
Her breath hitched and eyes widen when grabs her ankles and jerks her forward so that her sex is right in front of his face. "I want to kiss you here." He kisses the inside of her thigh and her head lolls backwards. "And here." He kisses the inside of her other thigh. "And here." He takes a deep breath of what lies between her legs, and Rey moan and quietly start to beg him to continue.
"Ben," she said breathlessly, "Ben, please…"
She expect him to comment on how wet she was most guys would. But once again, he surprises her, saying nothing of the sort. Instead, he wastes no time in slicking his whole tongue over her so that she feel every part of him run over every part of her. Rey screamed and buck into his face as he spreads her legs wider apart.
He doesn't just lick her or tease her with the tip of his tongue on her clit.
Rey quickly learn that Ben is quiet talented with his mouth, in so many ways. She wonder what she taste like, because he seems to be enjoying the fuck out of himself down there, and she can't help but start to see stars.
Rey knew she was going to come soon. His tongue twists and turns and teases and flicks and—oh! She tighten her hold on his shoulder and arch her back.
"Ben," Rey start to cry, like actually fucking cry. "I want you up here when I come," she whimper, and he asks her how close she was. She tell him to get up here, and he wipes the back of his hand across his lips before they're on her. His fingers go back to between her thighs, and she squeeze her arms around his neck. Rey tasted a little of herself on him, and it should be gross, but its not. It's so, so not.
"Come on, Babe," he says in her ear, "give yourself to me. Say you're mine, tell me..."
Rey feel tears in here yes , and she dug her fingers into his shoulders, "Yours! I'm yours, Ben!" she cry out as she come so fucking hard that she sob into his shoulder and slap his hand away when he keeps touching her. It's too much, she was too fucking gone, and it feels like her entire body is lit up like gasoline
"Kiss me," Rey pants, and hold him to her. She wrapped her legs around him and feel his shaft between her legs. She was still shaky and sensitive, but she rub against him anyway.
He hisses and bites her shoulder. He curses out loud several times and tells her to stop or he's going to fuck her on the counter.
"Do it," she challenged to him and beg him to make love to her. "I want you too."
He shakes his head and steps back so they're not touching down there anymore. "Your first time isn't going to be in a fucking stranger place , Rey," he snaps at her.
It was the first time he sounded angry with her.
Rey flinch and wonder if it's just common knowledge to everyone around town that she was delicate innocent nerd Rey and she is a virgin. It pisses her off,
" So what if I never had sex or experience. You do not have to remind me that." she screamed at him. Even she knew it wasn't his fault. He was just being sincere which was rare things for a guy like him. He should not be bothered by her feelings.
"Shit!" he yells, pulling her close in a hug and staring at her with wide, guilty eyes. "Fuck, I'm sorry."
Rey don't know why he's sorry. She is the one who blame him. Rey shake her head. "Don't be. I lost myself."
His face falls, and he kisses her forehead, "Don't rush this," he says to her. "Our chemistry is more than just a one night stand Rey…"
He takes her hand and puts it on his still hard cock. "I need you, Love," he whispers and breathes deeply. She stroke him a few times, and he's putty in her hands.
He is mine right now. He was the wild Ferocious guy and now on her mercy. Rey likes it. It's a very thrilling feeling to have; it turns her slide off the counter When she was on her feet, she press her palms against Ben'snaked chest and kiss every inch of his skin.
He closes his eyes, and she but in his chest, giggling when he curses under his breath and his dick twitches and jerks in her hand.
Then she drop to her knees and use his sweater to keep them from hurting too badly while she do take him back into her hands and look up at him so that their eyes lock.
Rey lean in and lick the underside of his shaft. He breathes harder, but his eyes don't leave her. He puts one of his hands in her hair and fists a handful of it tightly.
It hurts, but it's a stimulant, and without hesitating, she take him into her mouth.
"Sssshit! Oh, fuck!" he shouts in the room. He thrusts his hips forward, and she end up taking in more of him than she comfortable with. She was about to gag, but somehow she get my reflex under work her way back up and then back down.
Rey was nervous it was her first time experience. She need to watch a YouTube video or something; she was not sure if she was doing this right thing. But judging from the sounds he's making, she was sure she was doing okay. There is just no fucking way she can handle deep throating his entire cock, so she use her hands to twist and squeeze the part of him that her mouth doesn't touch. His hand in her hair pulls her back and pushes her forward at whatever pace he wants her to suck him off at. Rey allow him that control because she want him to feel as good as he'd made her feel just before.
When her jaw gets sore, she pop him out of my mouth and tongue his balls. He slaps a hand onto the the and the bang echoes in the room. She alternate between the two, and then he says he's almost there and tells her to stand up.
Rey shake her head no, and he yanks on her hair until she was on her feet and then crashes his mouth onto her.
Rey shove him away from her and pull his hand out of her hair. "Stop," she said and move back to her knees.
"Rey ," he warns her, but he doesn't pull her back up either. So she suck him until he snaps that he's about to come. Rey don't swallow, not yet anyway.
"Come on me…" she say and look up at him through fluttering lashes.
He's gasping and gripping her hair. "Huh?" he sounds confused and hazy.. Aww he looks adorable and Rey felt jealous of those bitches who had been with this adorable hunk.
"I want you to cum on me," she licked her lips and look down at her chest. "Right here," she whisper and bunch her breasts together in front of him.
"Oh fuck," he pants, "that is the hottest fucking…" He doesn't finish because his face twists up, and Rey now know that he kind of look cute when he cums. It spurts out right where she told him to, and it runs down her chest.
"You are so fucking hot," he says in total disbelief. He bends over and grabs his shirt. Rey move to take it and clean herself off, but he shakes his head and does it for her. Gently.
"You didn't have to do that," she mumbles as he concentrates on wiping her body clean, apparently.
"I wanted to," was his answer.
He stops wiping and cups her face. "C'mere," he whispers, and they kiss, lips touching softly, tongues barely touching. It's sweet and sensual, and she has never experienced a kiss that literally makes her toes curl.
They dressed each other. They don't talk or share secret smiles as they do this, either. She raise her arms over her head, and he pulls her halter on, and then he turn around, and he ties the back. He doesn't put his shirt back on because,eww.
Instead, she help him pull his hoodie over his magnificent model body, and right before she pull it down over his torso, she press one last kiss over his left abs., but she swear she didn't mean for it to be so movie-esque. Rey worry that he might think she was too girly and that she was going to be clingy now. Because she was not that girl , he can relax.
He pulls on his own jeans , but she zip them up and button them. She loop his belt and pull it through the buckle. Rey search the room for her panties before she slip on her jeggings, and she can't find them anywhere. She look behind the counter , and when she bends, Ben slaps her bare ass.
Rey yelp and throw him a dirty look, and then she see that he has her underwear dangling on his index finger. She reach for them, and he raises them high over her head.
"These are mine. Love" He has the audacity to slip them in his back pocket as if they were a handkerchief.
Then he leans down and holds her jeggings out for her to put her legs through. Rey glare at him as she put each foot through the pant legs. He pretends like he doesn't see her disapproval and hikes the skin tight jeans/leggings up over her hips.
"These things leave nothing to the imagination," he comments and slides his hands over her now covered ass. "Do you wear these all the time?"
"Only when Rose makes me," she admit truthfully.
He smirks and pulls her face up to kiss her again. "Come with me to my home. I promise I will be nicest guy you ever met," he asks softly. And there was no joking. His Promise was sincere.
She completely taken back. "W-what?"
"It's my place. No one will be there, just you and me," he adds as if trying to convince her. Rey was curious as to what he means by 'his place' and ask him as much. "It's my place , how does that not compute?" His eyes narrow. "I have my own apartment, Rey."
"But what about your parents?" she ask dumbly, "Where are they?"
"They are dead. Mom died when I was born and dad died when I was around ten. Two years I've been with fucked up foster. Since I've been on my own since I turned twelve," he replied .
Rey was beyond shocked that he would offer up such personal information, and judging by the look of utter surprise on his face, she was betting he wasn't expecting to say that much either.
His thumb slides over her lips delicately. "I'm not ready to end my night with you. Come home with me," he asks, almost like he's begging.
"What will we do there?" she was totally playing hard to get with her suddenly innocent act. He sees right through her though.
"I'm sure we can think of a few things," he sighs.
She smile, "Okay."
X_X
"Okay, um… wow." Rose runs her slim fingers through her silky black hair.
Rey continue to pull the petals off of the little purple flower in her hand. Rey should feel ashamed for the way she acted with a guy she didn't know. But if asked, she would never take back that experience with Ben. She felt confident and sexy and herself.
Did that mean she was a whore?
"Okay," Rose says, trying to find words again. "I wasn't expecting that,but okay."
Her flower has no more petals, so she grab another one and start her assault.
Rose turns to her, "Do you… like him Rey?" Her eyes show worry, but she's maintaining a blank face otherwise. If it were anyone other than her, she'd appear as if whatever answer she heard wouldn't matter. But I'm not anyone, and Rey know that her answer will change lives.
It sounds dramatic, even to her, but damned if it isn't true.
Rey gulp and pull a petal. "I, uh… it doesn't…" she fiddle with the stem. "It doesn't matter," she huff and throw the flower as far as it will go.
"Shit," she mutters under her breath. "This is so much worse than you feel Rey."
Rey cringe and look away from her.
"Rey-Rey ," ROse takes her hand, "look at me."
She hesitate to turn her face. She sighs and squeezes her hand, and Rey feel her bottom lip start to tremble. She was so right; she should have never kept this from her. She didn't realize how much she was holding back until right this moment.
Her chest is heavy, her eyes are welling, and she want to cry and throw up and scream all at the same time.
"Look at me, Rey," she tells Rey as she starts to rub her shoulder to comfort her. When Rey finally do get the courage to lift her gaze to hers, she smiles and says, "It's going to be okay."
She's lying .
And not just about her. She's lying about herself, too. Now Rey really feel like crying. She doesn't know how to handle this. Rose is the one with the answers, not her.
How was she supposed to deal with the hurricane name Kylo Ren and and watch out for Rose? Making sure Rose doesn't stray off her path is a full time job. She's emotional, and any little thing could set her off.
"Just admit that you like him, and we can go from there," she says, bringing Rey out of her thoughts.
Rey go to pick another flower and hesitate. She sigh and close her eyes. "I like him," I mumble very softly.
She was hoping the breeze will carry her confession away with it. She don't want to admit to anything. She want to continue her charade with Poe because if she keep that going, eventually she going to start to believe it.
She really does like Poe, she does.
But he's not Ben.
Shit.
"It doesn't matter," Rey say. She shake her head and pull her hand back from Rose. "He's just like any bad boy who crush heart of girl like me " Rey shrug. "I'd be an idiot to fall back into that trap."
Rey hate how well Rose and she know each other. They can't even fucking lie to each other without the other one knowing its bullshit. Rey covers her face with her hands and groan.
She don't want to be her right don't want to be the girl who has the perfect guy and wants the shitty one. This is real life; Kylo will hurt her. Poe won't.
"So what now?" Rey laugh bitterly to herself . "Angel has me right where she wants me, and I'm not even sure if I care anymore."
"I'm thinking," Rose mutters.
Rey turn her head to see her staring out at the stars view in front of them. She wanted to escape from everyone and everything.
She think about today in the parking lot. Kylo's face was blank, but his eyes were calculating. It's always in the eyes. The truth.
Rey wonder what hers look like that time.
Rose clears her throat and then looks at her. "You know Rey," she says, "it all really depends on which life you want to lead, Rey."
Rey touch her throat and slide her hand down to her chest, where she can feel her heartbeat beneath her palm.
Thump.
Thump.
Thump. It's level right now. Normal.
"What's that?" Rey reply, her heart picks up one extra beat.
Rose takes all her hair in her hands and holds it on the top of her head while she looks out at the sky. "This life," she says as she lets her hair drop, "or that life ." Her eyes shift to lock with Rey.
"Which would you choose?" Rey start to chew on my lip nervously. Her heart rate is no longer normal; it's gaining beats and thumping faster.
She sighs, and it's like there's this huge weight on her shoulders. "I already made my choice," she says and looks away from her again, "but this one is yours to make."
Rey gulp and nod her head. She was not really sure what she means about making her own choice, but she too mixed up in my head to ask. Easy or hard? Rich or poor? Clear or confusing?
Kylo or Poe?
Rey drop her head onto her knees, which she had pulled tight to her chest. She shouldn't have to think about this shit. She have a calculus quiz tomorrow in fifth period and a 500 word essay due in her economics class. She should be at home writing and studying.
"It's an easy choice," she mumble. "Guy like Kylo obviously just wanted a side piece," she snort and roll her eyes. "Poe just wants me ,no one else, so I choose Poe."
Rey drop her hand to the ground and clench her fingers around a clump of grass. She pull it up by the roots and chuckle because she feel like Kylo has done the exact same thing to her.
ROse leans back and rests on the ground while she stare up at the cloudless night sky. "But what the hell does choosing Poe matter if you want Kylo?" She rolls her head to stare up at Rey.
Rey bite her lip and shrug. Her nose tingles, and her eyes sting. She shrug again, and Rose sighs and holds her hand out for her. Rey take it, and she pulls her down to lay next to her.
"It's fine," Rose laughs softly. "It's just high school anyways. It's not like you're going to fucking get married or anything, okay?"
Rey nod and press her forehead to her shoulder. She kisses the top of her head, and she feel a comfort after long time since her mother died.
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Rey was glad and excited as they made their way outside. Ben pauses and lifts her hand to his lips. He kisses her palm and tells her he'll be right back; he has to tell his boys that he's leaving. Rey nod her head and go inside, while he walks out the back gate to the front of the house.
When Rey walk back into the party, it's like she was seeing everything for the first time. Laughing teenagers, giggling girls flirting with horny boys. Someone's break dancing in the middle of the room, and everyone is circled around cheering. She makes her way through them, and she don't know what song is playing, but she love it. And love the way she feel right now.
Free and alive.
Ben was her freedom.
She had never felt this alive. Rey feel like she was fucking glowing. She could be a firefly for all she knows.
She run into Fin, and he tells her that Jacon is here, and he's been looking for her .Rey feel she owe Jacon an explanation as to why she was leaving the party without him. Then she pause because, hello? Didn't he make her think that he stood her up in the first place?
He was the guy Rose told Rey about for the blind date.
Someone shouts her name, and Rey raise her hand and wave because she have no intention of stopping. She want to find Fin and tell him she was leaving. But she could not find her friends.
"Rey Wait!" There's that shout again. Once again she raise her hand and wave in that direction, but then fingers clamp down around her wrist and pull her around. ", hey!" It's me, Jacon."
Her eyes widen. "Jacon! Uh, hey," she replied awkwardly.
"Listen, I'm really sorry about being so late. I had to pick up my little brother and his friends from the movies and then drive them all home. I tried to call you." His eyes are like two glass marbles.
"You did?" Rey say with a frown as she pull out her phone, and sure enough, there are missed calls and text messages. But they all occurred around the same time she was playing doctor with Ben. She smiled at her analogy, and Jacon smiles at her because he thinks he's forgiven.
"So, look I'm thinking we catch up on lost time." His arm slips around her waist. "Wanna go somewhere more quiet?"
Uhhh… no?
Rey laugh instead and shake her head. "Nice try," she laugh again.
He grins, and that baby face is just not doing it for her. "Ah, come on." His fingers touch the skin between her top and her jeans. "I don't bite."
Ben does. She touch her shoulder and press her fingers into the bite marks and hickey on her chest he left all over.
Rey started to push Jacon away. "I think I'm just gonna head home."
"What?" His face falls. "No! Come on, Rey . I just got here. I said I was sorry."
Rey glance back at him incredulously. "You made me wait here for like two hours, Jacon. I thought you stood me up."
"But I tried to call you," he insists as he puts his hands on her waist and leans in. "Come on, baby… let me make it up to you."
Rey scowl and slap his hands away. "I'm not your baby."
He rolls his eyes, and his good boy act melts away. "What the fuck, Rey? Why are you being like this? I blew off Yuki for you. The least you could do is—"
"Oh! I'm so sorry!" she gasp sarcastically. "Please excuse me. I didn't mean to cock block. I'm sure you can find Yuki around; she's been looking for you."
He snatches up her wrist, and it hurts. "Don't be a bitch," he snaps.
"Let go of me!" Rey tried to yank herself free.
He scowls, but then he looks over her shoulder and his body frozen, eyes full with fear mouth drops open just before a fist connects with his face.
Rey yelped and jump away from the scuffle that starts between Jacon and…. Ben?
"Ben, stop!" Rey shout at him, but it's like he can't hear her.
He hits Jacon over and over again repeatedly. There's blood, and she starts to feel queasy. She was shocked at the rage she see all over Ben's face, he was burning with revenge and raw hate. and she press a hand to her mouth. He looks terrifying, and when two guys shove past cross her to break up the fight, Rey gasp at how easily Ben fights them off. They both fell on the ground full in blood and broken bones. He looks possessed and not at all like the guy she spent the past two hours with.
Unable to take it anymore, Rey turn and run out the front door.
And that was the first time she decided to stay away from Kylo Ren.
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