He wanted to burn it down to ashes. He wanted to scream until there was no more air left in his lungs. But he did neither of those and instead tried his best to reign in his anger.
He could not give in. He could not loose control. Lucy would no longer be there to stop him.
What was her problem?
Lucy had always been angry at him before and he always paid it no heed. She was never really angry for long and she always forgave his antics. But this time he felt that everything was different.
The anger she saw on Lucy's eyes was no joke. It wasn't the same as when he broke into her apartment or touched her boobs... by accident of course.
It was a lot similar to when he had accidentally burned her book*. However, this time it was more volatile than sad. At that time, Natsu had known he was completely at fault and he felt so guilty about it that he had cried along with her when he found out what his words had meant to her. But this time, he really had no idea what was ticking her off.
He trudged back into the small forest he was in before. The walk calmed him down a little. He came into a stream and decided to stop. Cold water, that was exactly what he needed.
But someone was there before him. A hooded figure sitting on the ground with his back resting on a large rock.
Natsu had a good sense of smell so he knew exactly who it was without seeing his face. "I see you have wandered here again. You must have a lot of free time."
"It's not like you to be sarcastic Natsu." Jellal took off his hood and raised a brow at Natsu.
Natsu ignored the comment. "Are you here to see Erza?"
"No." Jellal answered. "I have a mission in Fiore and I was just passing by."
"So you are here to see Erza then." Natsu sat down on a spot beside the stream.
Jellal seemed to be startled at Natsu's words. Then he accepted defeat and smiled. "I suppose I am. Although I am not sure I would get to see her at all." Then he glanced at Natsu. "Where is all this brilliant deduction coming from?"
Natsu shrugged. "I have been thinking a lot these days. I suppose it's sharpening my brain."
Jellal laughed at that. "Is this about Lucy and that new boyfriend of hers."
This time it was Natsu who was surprised. "You know about it?"
Jellal smirked. "You think I don't do background checks of every new member of your guild? You guys are too lenient, it's like you are asking for trouble."
Natsu shrugged once more. "It's not necessary. But I guess you worry about Erza, so if it makes you fell better to do that, then go ahead."
Jellal shook his head in amazement. "An insightful comment after another. You are not doing a good job of impersonating Natsu at all. That guy is an idiot."
Natsu scowled. "I am not."
"So did you snatch Lucy from Ark yet?" Jellal was really curious.
Natsu started feeling angry again. "She's being unreasonable. I told her I would be glad to be her boyfriend instead of that guy, and she got really mad. It would have worked so much better that way. But if she didn't want to, then she could have just said so."
He expected Jellal to understand so he was unprepared for the disdain in his voice. "Natsu, you need to grow up."
"What did you say?" Natsu stood with both fists clenched. "Are you looking for a fight?"
But Jellal didn't budge from where he was sitting. "Being someone's boyfriend is not something you offer for convenience. It is something you want to be regardless of how impossible it seems. It is something you crave from the bottom of your heart that being unable to be so tears you apart every single time."
Natsu unclenched his fists and watched Jellal with a frown. "Is that how you feel for Erza?"
Once again Natsu surprised Jellal. But he looked Natsu in the eye and told him the truth. "Yes. And if that is not how you feel for Lucy then you should not even ask her, else it would simply be an empty gesture that can bring her pain."
Natsu sat back down into the ground dejectedly. "But I don't even understand what is so great about having a boyfriend. Lucy and I, we look out for each other. We share our happiness and sorrows." The he turned to look at Jellal. " What more is it that you want from Erza?"
Jellal blushed crimson. "I... I..."
Natsu shook his head and looked away. "Even you don't know."
"I do know!" Jellal exclaimed. "That's why I told you to grow up. I don't know how to tell you this... but..." Jellal had just turned into a blubbering mess and his cheeks were still tainted red. "I mean... don't you want to kiss her at least." The words burst out from Jellal as if it took all his willpower to say it.
It was Natsu's turn to blush. But then he became unexpectedly honest that Jellal felt like evaporating to thin air. "Of course I want to kiss Lucy. I want to touch her and hold her and..."
"Okay, okay." Jellal interrupted raising one hand up in supplement. "You don't need to tell me anymore."
"But she will kill me if I do that." Natsu continued. "What does kissing have anything to do with our conversation anyway?"
Jellal felt his heart would crumble in shock as well as the innocence of his words. "I don't think Lucy will kill you." He finally managed to say. "Why don't you ask her?"
"What?!" Natsu looked at him as if he had gone insane. "She blows me away every time I touch her boobs, what do you think she'd do if I tell her I want to kiss her?"
Jellal felt like his eyes would pop out from their sockets. He stood up with the intention of leaving. He was not going to listen to this anymore. "Just do me a favor and ask her. I need to be going now."
Natsu looked at Jellal's retreating back thinking the guy had gone insane. Maybe he was missing Erza too much. That must be it. He could not even think how it would feel to be away from Lucy all the time.
Natsu shook his head at the thought.
.
.
.
.
*refer to Coca-Cola omake
