Chapter 26
Not sure if I've already said this. But this fic will be ending at Chapter 30
It had been three days. Harper had come down from their own hospital to over see Clarke's care. Clarke had wanted Dr Kim off her case since she woke up in the hospital.
Clarke was too unstable to be transferred, so that meant everyone had to come to her.
"The baby is healthy." Harper smiled as she finished her exam. "There hasn't been anymore tearing, your heart is strong."
"Check again." Bellamy demanded.
He'd been in a bad mood since he'd stormed out of the hospital room that first day. He was overbearing and down right demanding. Clarke had gotten her way, but Bellamy sure wasn't making it easy on her.
"Sure." Harper smiled at him, she was use to the demand by now.
But Clarke stopped her. "Bellamy she just said everything was fine."
"Well it isn't. If it was we wouldn't be sitting in a hospital in another town. We'd be at home in our own apartment. So, check. again."
Clarke crossed her arms, but lied back so Harper could take another look.
While the ultra sound was gliding over Clarke's swollen belly, the monitors started to go off.
Bellamy jumped to his feet. "What's wrong?"
"Just give me a second." Harper said, putting the tool down and going to the medicine cart.
"Ah!" Clarke gasped in pain.
She knew this feeling, she'd heard about it and saw it in her own patients. braxton hicks contractions. They were no big deal. unless your pregnancy was already compromised, like hers is.
"Harper!" Bellamy shouted, wanting to know what was happening.
"It's okay, I'm going to give her something to slow the contractions." She explained.
After the injection, they all stood still until the machine slowed and went back to a normal rhythm.
"Clarke."
The desperation in Bellamy's voice made Clarke pause. He was scared, all he could think about was the possibility of losing her. Losing the girl he loved and fought so hard to keep safe, and now she wasn't allowing him to do that.
Clarke's eyes began to sting as she fought off her tears. She'd been so blinded by the thought of her baby being taken away. She didn't think about the possibly that by putting their baby first, she would be hurting Bellamy so deeply.
She thought he'd get over it. He'd over react but then he'd come to see it her way. But he hadn't. He hadn't because he was so sure he was going to lose them both. He was use to being in control and here he had none. His girl, his baby and he had no say over anything.
"I love him." Clarke sniffled.
Bellamy sat down on the side of her bed, a hand on her blanketed thigh and the other going to her cheek.
"I know." He told her softly.
Harper and Octavia have each other a look, silently leaving the room to give the couple some space.
"I love you." Clarke sniffled. "I don't want to hurt you."
Bellamy leaned forward, his forehead connecting with hers.
"I don't want to live without you Clarke."
"You won't have to." She told him.
He smiled sadly, "I'm having a hard time believing that right now."
Clarke nodded against him, "I know."
There was a soft silence between them. They both thought about their life together. It hadn't been a full two years since they went away to that bunker. Now they were expecting a baby.
"I'm scared." She confessed.
Bellamy's grip on her tightened. "Me too."
"I want to wait till the baby is to term-" Bellamy sighed. "But I want you to be on board with it."
"Clarke."
"I don't want to spend these next few weeks sitting across the room from each other. The two of us not looking or talking to each other. I want to know that your with me."
"I don't want to loss you. Clarke I can't."
Clarke smiled, "I don't plan on going anywhere."
"It might not be your choice."
"Hey. Look. I've been stable since I got here. As long as I stay stable I want Nate to stay inside. The moment I'm not stable I will have to be taken into the OR anyway. So I can promise that when that time comes, I'm going to fight like hell to be there with you to watch him grow up. I know it's scary, but I need you to believe in me."
Bellamy exhaled. "Princess..."
"Please." She whispered to him.
"I swear to god if you die on me."
He pulled her lips to his, kissing her for the first time in a week. She kissed him back just as softly.
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The wait was long, nerve racking. After another three weeks, baby Nate was strong enough to come out. The only problem now was, Clarke was pushing for the non surgical approach.
"We can have the surgeon on standby."
Harper shook her head. "Clarke I know you'd rather a vaginal birth, it's just not the safest option."
"But it is an option." Clarke pushed.
Bellamy ran a hand down his face. "Clarke we did what you wanted. We waited. Can you please just listen to Harper, get the c section."
"I can do this naturally. I'm strong enough." Clarke tried to reassure him.
Octavia bit her lip, she'd watched Bellamy go along with what Clarke wanted for almost a month. He didn't like it, but he did. She could tell he was about ready to burst when Clarke said she didn't think the c section was what she wanted to do, against doctors orderders.
"Clarke maybe you should listen to the doctor this time."
The blonde shook her head. "You all know I'm a doctor too right."
"We know." Harper rolled her eyes. "Doctors make the worst patients."
"I let you get your way for 3 weeks, and even before that. Clarke I'm saying no this time and I mean it. Get the damn c section."
Clarke sighed loudly in frustration. "C sections risk infection and it's going to take me months to heal. I'm not even going to be able to pick up my own baby."
Bellamy put his hands around the foot of Clarke's bed. "Clarke I'm begging you. I'll be around to take care of you and Nate after, but I'm going to need you there and healthy in order to do that."
It was then that they all heard a gush of water. Clarke's eyes widened as she looked down, lifting her blankets up to see her thighs were wet.
"Harper, there's blood in the amniotic fluid." Clarke choked out.
"That's bad?" Not sure if blood with the fluid was unnatural.
The doctor quickly took a look herself, hitting the emerge button on Clarke's wall.
"The tear must have gotten worse. We need to go to the operating room now."
Harper started preparing Clarke for transport, as nurses rushed into the room to help.
"I can still have the baby naturally."
"No." Harper snapped, stopping everyone in the room. "Listen to me. You risk pushing this baby out, you will tear your uterus. Look honey, I know you had a picture in your mind of what this day would look like. But it cannot happen that way."
"Okay." Clarke sobbed, reaching her hand out she called for Bellamy.
"Shh, you're okay." He kissed the back of her hand. "You'll both be okay."
"I- I just-" Clarke's eyes fluttered.
"She's free bleeding in her abdomen." A nurse announced.
"Clarke!" Bellamy shouted.
"She's unconscious. Let's move." Harper commanded, and in seconds Clarke was rushed from the room. "Someone call the OB!"
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"He's beautiful Bell." Octavia told her big brother.
Bellamy stood holding his son in his arms. He was less than an hour old, which is why he had to have a couple monitors hooked up to his small body. While he was a little earlier, Harper assure Bellamy that Nate was perfectly healthy, better than expected.
"He is." Bellamy nodded. "He had Clarke's nose."
Octavia smiled sadly at her brother. "They'll come get us when she's out of surgery."
Bellamy nodded. "We should call her dad."
"I already did. He's probably already halfway here."
"Okay." Bellamy let out a deep breath. "She didn't look good O."
"No one looks good under hospital light, besides Clarke's pale enough as it is." She tried to joke, to lighten the mood.
"She didn't come out of the C section with Nate. That means there were complications."
"They said she there was a tear remember. They have a couple other things to repair than normal. Harper won't let another happen to her Bell."
"Thanks for the vote of confidence." Harper said coming up behind her.
Bellamy turned, pulling his son close into his chest. He tried to analysis his friends expression.
"Can I see her?" He asked.
"She's being moved to post op now. But In about an hour or two they'll move Clarke back to a normal room, you guys can see her then." Harper smiled, liiking down at Nate. "She did great. We were able to fixer her up easy peasy."
Bellamy nodded, allowing himself to smile and relax.
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While Bellamy couldn't bring Nate to see Clarke yet, Harper assured him that after all the tests were done, she would bring Nate right back to them.
"He's so beautiful Clarke." Bellamy smiled, telling her about their son.
"He really is." Octavia agreed.
Clarke gave them a small smile.
"Harper said she'll bring him as soon as they run all their tests."
Clarke licked her lips, feeling like she had cotton stuck in her cheeks.
"Is the doctor coming soon?" She lazily asked of Bellamy.
"Uh yea... Are you in pain, O go get a nurse."
"No." Clarke reassured him, putting a hand on her stomach. "Nate hasn't really moved in a while, I just want her to check and make sure he's okay."
Bellamy watched her, now completely confused. He watched Clarke move her hands around her belly, like she was feeling for the baby.
"Clarke you already had the baby."
The blonde looked up at her boyfriend like he told her a unicorn was going to walk into her room any second.
Octavia stood slowly from her chair. "I'm just going to step out, see if we can get an ETA on that doctor." She smiled to hide her fear.
Before she could get out of the room, the monitors that were connected to Clarke started to go off.
Bellamy stumbled back at nurses and doctors rushed into the room. He subconsciously felt his sister at his side.
"What's happening?" Bellamy demanded to know, though he felt weak in the knees.
The doctor took a second, his hands pressing on different parts of Clarke's stomach. "Crap. Call up and get us an OR. She's rebleeding."
"Rebleeding!?" Bellamy asked panicked.
Harper stepped toward him, as Clarke was once again rushed away from him.
"It's really common in cases like Clarke's. I'm going to do all I can for her." Harper quickly moved to catch up, but Bellamy stopped her.
Bellamy narrowed his eyes. "She better come back from this."
Harper looked at him, her eyes widening slightly in fear. "I have to go if I want to join them in the operating room."
Bellamy let go of her, sinking back into his sister.
"She'll be okay Bell."
"How many more times am I going to have to wait. Unsure if the girl I love, is going to be around to love me back?"
"Bellamy, Octavia. I got here as fast as I could." Jake Griffin said, coming into the room.
Bellamy noticed the blue bear in his hands, before Jake noticed that there wasn't a bed occupying the hospital room.
"Where's Clarke?" He asked, looking to Bellamy for answers.