A/N Hey! here is part two, I hope you enjoy it and please leave a review if you did or didn't, your reviews really help me to continue this story so to everyone that has reviewed so far, thank you, I read all of them and they mean a lot to me :) I am probably going to start posting every two weeks because school starts in a week for me. A song that I recommend for this chapter is 7 by Catfish and the Bottlemen -boundless

Chapter 5 Part 2

After about ten minutes, Piper realised that she was still holding Alex. The brunette had already started to close her eyes and Piper felt something she hadn't in a long time. The feeling of being contempt. When Piper was holding her she only realised how worried she had been for Alex but by holding her she eased some of that dread. Piper was confused about what she was feeling. She had only met this woman four days ago. The last time she was feeling this way she had let down most of her walls, Piper was determined not to get hurt by someone else again. So, against her wishes, she let go of Alex and pulled up the brunette's blankets, brushing a strand of dark hair away from her beautiful face.

Piper went to bed feeling like there was a rock sitting in the bottom of her stomach.

Alex's POV

When Piper left her bedroom, Alex felt the air change. It was like she felt safe with Piper around. Which was crazy, right? The last time Alex can remember feeling completely safe was 7 years ago when she was 19 years old, right before she joined the drug cartel. She joined the cartel at that age because she couldn't afford to go to college and wanted a job that gave her a thrill and provided her with enough money to make sure that she and her mother would never go hungry again. The side effects of joining a cartel included paranoia, a risk of being sent to prison, and sometimes death. Alex would have done anything to keep Diane from working her life away.

Alex spent the rest of the night mulling over all of her old decisions.

In the morning after breakfast, Alex decided to go for a small walk to help regain her strength. Piper insisted for her to rest but eventually caved and gave her a stick to lean on as she walked. Piper was busy working in her office/reading room so Alex was left by herself.

Alex hobbled out the back door towards the backyard. She stopped by the flowers that were planted and admire them. There were violets under a small apple tree, roses on a trellis next to the house, some small shrubs of azaleas, and one lonesome dandelion in the middle of it all. Alex wondered why the weed was there between all of the beautiful plants and went to pull it out, as the weed left the ground it left a bare hole and the dandelion had long, thick roots. She wondered how much the weed had affected the flowers. She looked at the spot where it once was and noticed the baren soil it left behind, one day it would need to be replaced by a flower so that the hole would be covered up.

Alex left the garden and shuffled to the shed that was at the end of the lawn. She managed to get there fine but was in need of a rest so she went into the shed and sat down on an old wooden chair. The shed was small. It's wooden panels looked about five years old and the chair was well loved. As Alex looked around she noticed some old photos and a worn book on the bench, she got up to look through the items. Picking up one of the photos, Alex saw that it was of Piper and a soft looking man about the same age. They were standing outside of the house with huge smiles on their faces and Piper was leaning in to kiss the man's cheek, she assumed that he must be Piper's boyfriend. He was the same height as her, of medium build, and he had short, dark curly hair with brown eyes. He looked like a total mama's boy, definitely not someone who Alex thought would be Piper's type. She flipped the photo around and noticed that it had been taken four years ago, presumably when they had bought the house.

Alex then looked at the worn book on the table. It intrigued her. Its spine was worn with love and the pages inside seemed to be filled completely at the first half yet empty in the second half. She picked up the book and turned to the first page.

'Property of Piper. E. Chapman '

The brunette thought that the book must have been a diary and looked out of the shed to see if Piper was nearby before she continued reading. Seeing that she was alone, Alex turned the page and read the first line.

'I'm really sorry Polly, but I had to do it'

Why was this addressed to Polly if it was a diary? Alex needed an answer, so she kept on reading.

'I know that you have been the best friend you could have been and I am thankful for that, but sometimes that's not enough. Don't get upset, it wasn't your fault, I had to do it, I didn't have a choice. I love you and will look out for you in any way I can. Thank you for sticking through this with me.
To Larry, I love you. I will always love you. Thank-you for being the best partner a girl could have. I know that you left me because I was being distant and I'm sorry about that, but I can honestly say that I loved you, and you deserve someone better than me.
Mum, Dad, Cal, and Danny. Thank you for being there for me as I grew up, I'm sorry that our time together ended so shortly but I really did love all of you and thank you for giving me an amazing childhood.
Lastly, to grandma, thank you for being a second mother to me. I love you and I will miss you.

To all of you, please don't blame yourselves, this was all on me, there is nothing you could have done to stop me.

Love for eternity,

Piper Elizabeth Chapman'

Alex read the page over and over but was still very confused, why was Piper saying goodbye to all of these people? She assumed that Larry must have been the man in the photograph, so why was she saying goodbye to him if they used to live together? Alex read through the rest of the book and all of the pages contained another letter, only the further she went through the book, the less sincere they got until the last one was a simple 'Fuck You'. Alex went back and forth, trying to find out what they were until it hit her. They weren't letters. They were suicide notes.

Alex had come to this realisation when she heard footsteps coming towards the shed. She quickly returned the book to where she found it and picked up the photo to look less suspicious. The door opened and the blonde came in. "Oh, hey Al. I was just wondering where you were."

Alex shrugged "I needed a rest and got distracted".

"Ok then" Piper looked around and saw that Alex was still holding the picture "That was first taken when I moved here, I was 19".

"19? How could you afford to move here?"

Piper looked a little embarrassed "My parents paid for most of it, but I also had Larry move in with me"

"Who's he?" Alex was curious about what she was learning about Piper's life.

"He is my ex-boyfriend" She sounded deflated and hurt as she said that.

Alex wanted to change the subject, she felt like she had crossed a line. She did, however, want to push Piper a bit about the book. "What's that book over there?"

Piper looked at the book and a flash of pain passed across her face, confirming Alex's suspicions "Ah, um, that would be a book... about... the finances for the house?"

"You don't sound so sure, Pipe-"

"No, I'm very sure" Piper then snatched the book and held it firmly in her hand. "Anyways, I came here to tell you that lunch is ready". Piper then helped Alex out of the shed, and into the house.

All through lunch, Alex felt like she was walking on glass, she had definitely pushed Piper too far. So Alex Vause did what she did best. Kept her mouth shut. For the entirety of lunch, Alex had not said a word except for the occasional 'thank you' and 'yes please'. Although, as easy as it was to say nothing, Alex didn't want the blonde to be mad at her, she didn't know if it was the coldness coming off of Piper's body or that Alex missed the light-hearted chatter whenever they were together, but Alex knew that she had to make things right.

After lunch, Alex sat in the lounge while Piper re-did her bandages, this was the best time for her to apologise. "Hey, Pipes"

Piper looked up from Alex's side "Yeah, Alex?"

"I'm sorry for earlier, I didn't know it was a touchy subject" Alex tried to sound as sincere as possible but when she looked at Piper she saw that she was laughing. "What? I'm serious, I really am sorry" Alex was trying to stay calm but the blonde just laughed even harder "What is it? is there something on my face? Why are you laughing?" Alex was concerned that she had done something wrong so she waited for the blonde to calm down.

"Alex!" Piper regained her breath "I wasn't mad at you, I was just brooding over my stupid ex-boyfriend"

Alex tried to make sense of it all "But why were you laughing?"

"You should've seen your face. Your eyes were all big and the longer I laughed the bigger they got"

Alex furrowed her eyebrows "I was genuinely concerned!" Her temper was slowly rising.

"Oh my gosh, Al. You're so cute when you're mad." Piper smiled, shook her head, and then continued to fix Alex's bandages.

Cute? Alex had never been described as 'cute' before and took advantage of the light mood. "How dare you call me cute, Miss Chapman" Alex was now in a more playful mood.

"Oh really, and what are you going to do about it?" Piper sat on the couch, accepting the challenge.

Alex leaned into her face, so close that she could see the small freckles on the blonde's nose "Take it back"

"No, it's true"

"Well then, you asked for it"

Before Piper could even react, Alex began to tickle her. Piper was squirming on the couch laughing, try to swat Alex's hands away but Alex just pulled her closer, the brunette loved the sound of Piper's laugh.

When they had calmed down, Piper was leaning on Alex's side with her head on the brunette's shoulder. They sat there together in their own little bubble. Alex could smell the flowery scent of Piper's hair and felt her chest turn into butterflies, she had never felt this before and assumed it was the pain medications, but the longer they sat there, the happier Alex felt. The brunette was about to lay her head on top of Piper's when the blonde turned to look at her. Piper's face wore a curious smile and she looked right into Alex's eyes, "Who are you, Alex Vause?"

Alex chuckled "I could ask you the same thing, Piper Chapman".

They looked into each other's eyes, blue staring into green, and forgot the world around them.

A/N End of the second part of chapter 5, I kinda wanted to continue this chapter but I thought that it might actually be best to end it here or it would've gone stale. Thank you so much for reading, please leave a review, I read all of them and I love hearing your feedback! If you want updates on what other stories I am writing at the moment or you want to give me any suggestions or ideas to help me with new stories or this one, go check out my Tumblr: boundless23
I haven't posted anything just yet but I will soon. Anyways, thank you for reading and I'll either see you when I post the next update or sooner! -boundless

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