NCIS and SHIELD Divided c33

After the shower Sam followed Bobbie into the lounge her eyes were darting left to right and her whole body was tense, she seemed more on edge then when she first woke up. Bobbie tried reassuring her but she knew that nothing she said would help…As she moved about the kitchen getting her some food and making her hot chocolate Sam stayed with her back against the wall watching her as she moved around but Bobbie also knew that she had the rest of the room in her sight. Once the food was ready they sat on the couch, Bobbie sat across from her but Sam was still tense. She only ate a small portion of the food Bobbie had made her but she didn't push her to eat more. She sat holding the cup in her hand resting against her arm, she seemed to be lost in thought as she stared ahead of her.

"Is there anything you would want to do?" Bobbie asked but Sam shook her head her legs pulled up to her chest. "I could put on a movie?" but Sam only shrugged in response.

"Did you get Garret?" Sam asked after a rather long silence

"He was not there when we came, the others are still looking." Bobbie stated carefully watching her closely. However Sam did not react she just sat there.

"Was McGee? Is he alright?" Sam asked

"He is healing."

"Nine days…I need to do something." Sam said getting up

"What?" Bobbie asked also getting to her feet

"Anything…I can't just sit here, it's so quiet…I can't. I need to move." Sam stated

"Sam you went through something, you can't just shrug it off. You need to take some time to deal with it."

"I am fine, is that not what we are trained for to deal with shit and come out okay after just shrug it off…They tried to break me, and I don't know if they succeeded but I will be damned if I let this define me, that bastard does not get to win." Sam stated her voice cracking by the end of it as she tried to steady her nerves. "I don't want to be broken…if he has…I-I need to fix it. I can fix it." Sam stated Bobbie by this point through her ranting had moved over to her and took hold of her hand.

"You do not have to do it alone. I am here, I am not going anywhere." Bobbie stated as Sam looked up at her and actually held her gaze Bobbie let her move in for a hug as she wrapped her hands around her she let her cry into her shoulder. They ended back on the couch Sam was leaning into her they had spoken for a while but now had drifted into silence and they were fine with that. Sam ended up falling asleep finally relaxing as Bobbie ran her fingers through her hair, only for Bobbie having to wake her up as she was having a nightmare. Sam was once again tense under her touch as she got her bearings. "You're safe, it was just a dream." Bobbie stated trying to reassure her.

"I'm sorry." Sam mumbled sitting up

"You have nothing to apologize for."

"This last year I have put you through the ringer. You deserve better." Sam stated turning to look away from her.

"Sam, we are soulmates. For better or worse I will be here for you always and forever." Bobbie stated they had this conversation 6 months after their bond was sealed.

"Stronger than marriage." Sam replied a small smile pulling at her lips as she also seemed to remember that conversation.

"Officially or unofficially you are mine."

"And you are mine, my Amazon Warrior." Sam stated now turning back to look at her. Sam moved over to her and pulled up her shirt Bobbie froze as she watched Sam first trace over her soul mark then her gaze moved to where she had been cut by Sven. Thankfully there was no scar thanks to their healing capabilities. "One way I could tell you were fake, they always had a scar here…where there shouldn't be one. This year has been hard."

"It has been a challenge." Bobbie agreed as Sam lowered her shirt back down

"There is a leak in the navy." Sam stated getting up and walking away from the couch heading to the lab.

"What? Sam you can't just drop something like that and walk away." Bobbie stated following after her in the lab she saw her move over to her station where she began fiddling with a different hand prototype.

"I need something that can withstand a punch." Sam stated as she began working Bobbie moved over to her and had to take her hand before she could place her other hand on.

"Sam, what makes you think there is a leak in the navy?"

"Garret had military knowledge, giving it to Cruss how else was he getting military grade weapons." Sam stated turning back to look at her work station. "I need to be ready, something is going down soon. It is George's birthday…Garret is dying. What should I get George? Maybe I should borrow AIMEE I know I gave her to Fitz but I could use her now…Quin is back in the states need to track him down too. Socks? no to simple…"

"Sam." Bobbie stated a little louder getting her attention so she was once again looking at her. Bobbie was worried not only Sam was speaking more to herself than Bobbie but she had also called Leo Fitz she only calls him Leopold.

"Yes?"

"Slow down, what were you saying…"

"I know a getaway for two, he can use a break from the kids they both can…"

"Sam? Not about George, Garret?"

"Is dying, that is why he wanted to know how I survived. I couldn't exactly disclose Project W017."

"No, him and Cruss were planning something? DO you know what?"

"No, they never told me." Sam stated turning back to the table she took her hand back and picked up the hand and connected it to her arm so she had two functional hands. "I need to recalibrate…"

"Sam, what about the Navy?"

"NCIS is investigating." Sam shrugged "it is there jurisdiction…I should ask Ellie what she got him." Sam stated picking up a screw driver. Bobbie watched as Sam started to work she now ignored her and was completely focused on her task even mumbling to herself. Bobbie knew this was her thought process, but usually it was internal how her mind moved from one problem to the next it always somehow helps her solve most of them. It did not stop Bobbie from worrying about her, she could also feel Maria's concern not to mention the rest of the pack. "How long have they given us?" Sam asked she was still fiddling with wires in a different prototype.

"Who?"

"The others? I don't want them to see me yet but they mostlikely want to…see me that is. It is their anxiety I am feeling no? I am not fine I know that, but I can't stand the looks I had enough before after I lost an arm…now I might be losing my mind. Nat and Maria are here but have not come to see how things are going. They are giving us space but for how long?" Sam asked

"You aren't losing your mind."

"NO? Can't lose what I already lost right?" Sam joked finally turning to look at Bobbie who did not look impressed with that statement. "It's the only plausible explanation, I should want the pack near me, but now when I picture them I get angry. With this mark I should not be able to. Maria has dominance over me and I know she was the reason I am not a cabbage right now, that she was the one to keep me grounded but I feel a pit in stomach even thinking about her. A deep cold rage, one I felt when he entered my head…it is like he is still here even though I know I am no longer there, that this is real. You are real. Maybe he succeeded more than I thought" Sam stated as she did she moved the collar of her shirt revealing her shoulder and Maria's mark by time she finished she was looking away from Bobbie and down at her feet.

"You felt abandoned." Maria stated she had entered the room but Sam did not look at her, she went tense but kept looking at her feet. "Your wolf feels abandoned, you went through something horrific no one expects you to bounce right back. I did everything I could to try and comfort you through it, I failed you for that I am so sorry. I should have gotten to you sooner."

"You kept me in even though I asked you to get me out." Sam stated she remembered it took everything in her to ask Maria to get her out after she asked her to stay in to get more intel. That was when she felt her wolf falter.

"I know." Maria replied she had wanted to get her out but was out voted by the other Alpha's and Nick.

"You know?" Sam asked turning to face her angry at that response only to end up choking back a sob as her mark burned and her wolf went all submissive in her head. "It's not fair." Sam stated she was angry at Maria but now that Maria was in the same room her wolf wanted her to forgive her. She tried to hang onto the anger but ended up looking down and that pit in her stomach lessened. "You here to tell me to shake it off?" Sam asked only part of her wanted her to tell her to shake it off.

"No, I am here to check on you. We are all here for you, we just don't want to overwhelm you." Maria stated she went to take a step closer but saw that Sam went tenser so she stayed back by the door sharing a look with Bobbie. 'If you need anything I will be up in our room.' Maria told Bobbie over the link she nodded and watched as Maria left the room not wanting to distress Sam she knew that Bobbie was the only one that could help her right now.