"No Brooke, it's pie square!" Haley exclaimed as we continued with Math.
"Uggh! Tutor girl, I don't get it!" I was frustrated. Correction. I was beyond frustrated. First go through countless hours of school, then deal with Theresa and her attitude in cheer practice, only to find Haley waiting for you with school work and lets not forget the homework that school gave us anyway.
"Tutor girl? That's a funny nickname." She remarked, finally looking up from her book.
"Yeah. Well, it sticks." I joked.
"Okay. Lets take a break." Haley budged.
"Finally!" I yelled raising my arms and looking up towards God for emphasis.
"Wow, I didn't know I was that bad a tutor." She joked. "Anyway, so what exactly happened? What's with the fleeing and sudden appearance? You know Nathan used to talk a lot about you when you were gone. He was so frazzled as to where you went, he even called your brother up. But, he didn't say anything. I did remember seeing you around town, but we never spoke."
"Well, that is none of your damn business! Your job is to tutor me. That's it!" I yelled furiously. Haley was surprised seeing my wrath as she cowered with the fire blazing through my eyes.
"Brooke... I really didn't mean to upset you. I was just curious. I really want to be your friend. Nathan always spoke very highly of you and said that you were the most loving person he knew. So, I was hoping we could be friends too." She explained.
"Well, you thought wrong. I'm not here to make any friends. I'm better off without them." I spat bitterly. I was convinced. I didn't need anybody. Having people only meant getting your heart stomped on. And having no one really to pick up the pieces. In one moment I lost everybody.
My parents were actually never around and they hated me. I was just learning to live with that when Lucas ripped me up shred by shred. Nathan wasn't much help and Clay just abandoned me.
"Everyone needs friends Brooke. You can't go through life without friendship, without love." She spoke with a twinkle in her eyes.
"Well Love is nothing but a bunch of crap. It's stupid and it gets you nowhere." I chided.
"Hey Brooke! Hales! The door was open so I came in." Nathan spoke up as he walked into the kitchen where we were currently studying.
"Oh great. Session over. Bye. Have fun on your date or whatever." And with that I ran up the stairs and slammed the door.
"What the hell was that?" Nathan asked his girlfriend aloud.
"I really don't know. One minute we were getting along and then I asked her why she was gone. And then one thing led to another and she was fuming. Nathan, did I hurt her? Because I really didn't mean to. I told her I wanted to be her friend, but she just snickered about how friendship is stupid and useless. I don't know what happened." Haley explained the situation.
"Hmm... Hales you don't mind if I go upstairs to check on her right?" He shyly asked her.
"No. Of course not! Go help her. I'll wait here for you." She replied.
I heard a sharp knocking on my door.
"Go away Nathan. I'm fine." I yelled.
"No, you're not. Now open the door. I have broken it down before and I'm not afraid to do it again. So no point of you being stubborn Penelope." He yelled.
I just huffed and unlocked the door. With that I quickly ran to myself and buried my head under the covers.
"Aww Brookie Cookie! What's wrong?" He said getting into bed with me.
"Nothing." I yelled from below. With that he shuffled around with my duvet and got head from below. I just grumbled and pouted at sudden presence of light and air.
"Aww, there's my ray of sunshine." He mocked sarcastically.
"Don't. I'm not in the mood for your comments Nate." I answered while laying my head in his lap and pulling back the duvet over my head.
"So I see the B. Davis transformation wasn't only restricted to her wardrobe. Her room got pink too. Honestly, I preferred the older room." He commented.
"Of course you did. You and Luke picked out the wallpaper!" I yelled.
"Yup. And it was a good wallpaper. Better than these flowers and feathery things." He replied while playing with a dream catcher hanging on the side of my bed.
I didn't even bother replying. I was too comfortable in his lap. Just then it hit me.
"Don't you have a date to go on? Haley must be waiting." I spoke quickly, jerking myself out of his lap. I couldn't get close to him again. It was hard the first time and I didn't have the energy for a do-over.
"Yeah. But she doesn't mind waiting. B, you are just as important to me as Haley is." She spoke with sincerity, but all it sounded like was a formality to me.
"She is your girlfriend. I'm not. Don't keep her waiting. I'm fine. I promise. This whole outburst was nothing but sudden memory flashbacks. You know. I'm still not used to being back in this house. So. But I'm fine Nate. Go. Be with your girlfriend." I gave him a smile.
"Brooke. Are you sure?" He asked me skeptically and I couldn't blame him. I had fooled him once before with my famous fake smiles, when in fact I was drowning and he realised it much much later. And sadly, I was still very much under water.