Hey guys! So this is a slightly shorter chapter and there is not nearly as much Sarah in it as I would like but it was necessary for the story. Hope you still enjoy guys. Also thank you so much to everyone who has alreay favourited and followed this story. It's amazing to see so much suuport. Thanks my lovelys
Henry sat on his sisters bed staring at the room she had once occupied. The pair had spent almost everyday together for two years and not having her there made life really quiet. Henry loved his sister. He wanted to be like his sister, how was he meant to just carry on like she had never existed.
"You okay?" Josh questioned as him and Sam entered the room.
"Just thinking," the boy said sadly.
"She will be back," the raven haired boy walked over to sit next to Henry.
"What if she doesn't?" Henry questioned. "What if she doesn't want to?"
"Why would you say that?" Sam asked, sitting the other side of their young friend.
"Because she's not happy," Henry explained. "She hasn't been happy here for months."
Sam felt a pang of guilt as he remembered the fight with the teen. "She's been going through a lot," Sam agreed. "But she loves you and her family. She wouldn't leave us."
"He's right," Josh agreed. "Sarah is as loyal as they come. She will always come back."
Henry gave a slight nod seeming to cheer up slightly. Sam and Josh gave each other a look, they just hoped they were right about the teen.
Sarah sat on a log in the clearing thinking over the last few days. "Calm down Sarah," she spoke to herself trying to find a sense of calm. "You have just been kidnapped by peter pan who apparently knew you from your past adventures in Neverland that you have no memory of… no big deal."
"Talking to yourself?" Pan questioned, joining the teen.
"Well it's better than talking to you," Sarah grumbled, not bothering to look round at the boy.
"You know you can ask me your questions right," he took a seat next to the girl, picking up a stick to draw patterns in the dirt below.
"The only problem with that is I trust Rumpelstiltskin more than you and that's saying something," she scoffed.
"When you first came here I was the only one you trusted," Pan didn't look at his companion as he drew what looked to be a crib. "You wouldn't let anyone else pick you up without crying."
"See, that's the thing. You keep saying I came here… so how did I wind up in the other world?" Sarah was doing her best to remember something, anything, but none of it made sense.
"We had to let you go," he stated simply.
"Well that explains a lot thanks," Sarah rolled her eyes looking back to the darkness in front of her.
"Whether you want to believe it or not, you belong here with us," Pan insisted finally looking at the teen. "You and your magic. When are you going to see that the family you are desperately waiting on don't care about you."
"That's not true," the teen insisted.
"When was the last time you felt loved by them?" This soon silenced the young girl. "Maybe we should treat you as they do," the boy sneered. "Felix!" He yelled. "Tie her back up."
Emma was trying desperately to sleep but to no avail. Every time she closed her eyes all she could see was Sarah looking at her the way she had a lot this last year: disappointed. She had let her down and she didn't know how they were going to come back from that. First things first she had to actually find the teen in the never ending jungle. With that she got up deciding to take a look around for something that would point her in her daughters direction.
"You're Emma, right?" a voice behind her caused her to jump.
"Who are you?" the blonde questioned the teen in front of her.
"Oh, did I forget to introduce myself? I'm Peter. Peter Pan," he smiled.
Without warning Emma dived forward, pinning the young boy against a tree holding her sword to his throat. "Where's Sarah?"
"You've got fire. I like fire," the boy continued to smirk having no sense of danger. He was in control, Emma would learn that soon.
"Where's my daughter?" Emma shoved him harder against the tree.
"Sarah's still alive, if that's what you're worried about," Pan thought about the girl tied in the cave. She definitely got her mothers attitude.
"Why the hell did you take her?" Emma yelled losing the little patience she had left.
"She's a very special girl, Emma," he smiled softer than before.
"I know. That doesn't answer my question. What do you want with her?" Emma could feel her daughter near and it just made her more desperate to have her back.
"I came here to see who I was up against. The "Saviour". Gotta say, I'm not disappointed," after being reunited with Sarah he guessed she was raised by someone with a fire inside of them, turns out he was right.
"What do you say now? You going to tell me how I'm never going to see Sarah again?" The blonde didn't even want to consider that option.
"No. I'm going to help you find her. I'll give you a map. A map that will lead you straight to your daughter," he felt Emma loosen her grip slightly.
Emma hesitated for a moment. "If this is some kind of trap…"
"I may not be the most well behaved boy on the island, but I always keep my promises. The path to finding Sarah is on this parchment," Pan explained.
"Why are you giving me this?" Emma questioned feeling like something was off.
"See, it's not about finding Sarah. It's about how you find her. And, Emma you are the only one who can," Pan had a plan for the teen and once he was done she will see Neverland is where she belongs.
With that, the boy handed over a map which Emma cautiously opened keeping her sword tight in her hand. Once open she realised it was blank. "It's blank," she stated her anger building once more.
"You'll only be able to read that map when you stop denying who you really are," with that he disappeared leaving Emma alone once more.
Emma explained to the group her encounter with pan. She had no idea what he meant about denying who she was but she was willing to try anything to get her kid back.
"My name is Emma Swan," she stated slowly.
"I'd wager the solution to Pan's riddle is a bit more complicated than that," the pirate commented.
"Don't hold anything back," Mary Margaret added.
"I'm Sarah and Henry's mother. I used to live in New York," Emma carried on thinking of any fact about herself that she could.
"Right near the best co parent ever," Zac interrupted from Emma's side gaining a hit to the back of the head by the blonde. "See maybe it's this kind of behaviour that's the problem," the man moaned rubbing his head.
"I was a bails bond person. I'm now the sheriff of Storybrooke," she relayed the facts but the map remained blank.
"The election was a sham," Regina piped up. "Are we really doing this?"
"Don't you think maybe you're leaving some things out?" Snow questioned hopefully.
Emma sighed giving a slight roll of her eyes. "I'm the daughter of Snow White and Prince Charming which apparently makes me the product of true love. I was born in the Enchanted Forest and I was sent through a portal in a tree so that I could break the curse."
"And you were able to break the curse because you're the…" David motioned for his daughter to finish the sentence.
"Come on. You don't need to be embarrassed to say it," Mary Margaret pushed.
"They are practically spoon feeding you," Zac piped up.
"Say what?" Hook asked confused to what they were all talking about.
"The 's' word," the mayor explained rolling her eyes.
"I'm the saviour," Emma sighed but the parchment remained blank. "I don't get it. I said I'm the saviour. There's nothing I've denied more than that."
"What about…" Zac began.
"Zac! Not helping!" The blonde snapped.
"No, it's okay. We'll figure this out," her mother spoke calmly trying to think of a plan.
"No you won't," Regina grabbed the blank map from the blonde.
"Regina!" Emma scolded.
"But I can. I'm beginning to think there isn't a map on here," Regina inspected the parchment in front of her. "That doesn't mean it can't lead us to Sarah."
"I thought we decided that using magic was a bad idea," David quickly stepped in.
"What the hell are you doing?" Emma took a step towards the brunette.
"The locater spell," the mayor explained. "This parchment belonged to Pan. It'll lead us to him.
"So it appears we will be venturing into the dark jungle after all," Hook sighed.
"You mean the place you told us never to set foot," Emma couldn't believe how quickly everyone was changing their minds.
"That's the one," Hook nodded.
"Well that sounds safe," Zac sighed.
Regina closed the distance between herself and the sheriff. " Well, Emma, you said you wanted to be the leader. Lead."
The gang began to make their way through the forest following their new guide. However, the trails got darker and the woods became thicker with no sign of Pan or Sarah. "No one's here," Mary Margaret sighed as they trekked through the deserted forest. "Maybe your spell was wrong Regina."
"Yes. Blame me… again," the mayor hissed.
Emma paused hearing a noise. It was faint but she could have sworn she heard her daughters voice. In the distance a hooded figure appeared and this time Emma was sure it was her child's voice she was hearing. "Guys… hold on. Is that… Sarah!" she yelled running to the figure. Just as she reached the hood the stranger turned round revealing the one and only Pan.
"Hi Emma,' he wore his signature smirk.
"Where the hell is Sarah," the blonde yelled.
"You broke the rules. That's not fair. Bad form," he shook his head. "I expect more for you Captain," he motioned towards Hook.
"Aye, and you'll get it," Hook was ready to take the kid out.
"Give Sarah to me," Emma almost pleaded.
"Sorry. Can't. Don't you know? Cheaters never win," with that the lost boys appeared shooting arrows and wielding knives.
As the fight commenced Emma raced forward to Pan but one of the lost boys soon tackled her to the ground. She managed to pull her self up pinning the child to the ground. "Where's Sarah?! Where is she?!" She screamed at the boy but soon softened. That look. She has seen that look before. She quickly got off the boy letting him run back to his leader.
"Remember what I told you," Pan began to speak as him and the boys retreated. "The map will show you where Sarah is… only when you stop denying who you really are. I'll make sure to send Sarah your regards."
Sarah didn't know how long she had been locked away in the cave. It didn't allow in any light so days and nights soon merged into one. Felix stayed with her most the time, he didn't say much, just stared at the wall. "Any idea when your masters going to whistle for you," Sarah grumbled.
"You realise things don't have to be this hard right?" For the first time Felix looked at her.
"And that's my fault?" the teen questioned.
"You have enough magic to get yourself out of this cave anytime you want to," he stated like it was obvious.
"Like I already told your idiot friend," she moved up the wall slightly. "My magic doesn't work like that. I don't normally have control of it and right now it doesn't seem to be working at all."
"Your magic wants to work, it's you denying it the chance," with that Felix turned his back on the teen clearly done with the conversation. Why should she give magic a chance? It always came at a price… didn't it?
"Emma please talk to me?" Mary Margaret followed her daughter through the jungle.
"There's nothing to talk about. We had our chance and we… I lost," the blonde kept storming ahead.
"Then you have to keep fighting," it was meant to be comforting but Emma only quickened her pace.
"You heard what Hook said. Pan is a demon," and her daughter was with him.
"And you are a…"
"What?" Emma interrupted turning around to glare at her mother. "A saviour? Because if that were true, this map would of shown us the way already!"
Mary Margaret takes a breath, realisation coming over her. "Maybe who you think you are isn't who you really are."
"What do you mean," the blonde could feel her guard going up.
"Sometimes we think we know ourselves, but we need a push to show us the reality. That boy- you stopped fighting him. Why?" Snow took a step forward.
"Cause he was… just a boy," Emma didn't know where her mother was going with this.
"No there was something else. I saw it in your eyes. Why did you stop," the brunette whispered softly.
"Because when I looked at his face I saw me. I saw Sarah when I first met her," Emma felt tears begin to form.
"Go on," the teacher encouraged.
"That look in his eyes…" Emma took a deep breath to continue. "The despair. I had it back when I was in the foster system. Just a lost little girl who didn't matter and didn't think she ever would. A little girl who cried herself to sleep at night cause," with that her voice broke into a sob. "she wanted her parents so bad. And could never understand why they gave her up. And that's what I saw in Sarah. She was alone with no parents to love her… I couldn't let her turn out like me. I just couldn't."
"And then you found us. It was too late," Mary Margaret tried to keep it together as she looked at her broken daughter. "You and Sarah already made a family by yourselves. It was too late for you both to try and let more people in."
"It's just on this island… I don't feel like a hero or a saviour. Just feel like what I've always been. An orphan," the blonde sniffled.
"Emma," Snow stared down.
"What?" the blonde questioned.
"Look," the teacher whispered as a map began to appear.
"What happened," Emma didn't understand what was happening.
"You accepted who you are," Snow nodded.
"I'm sorry," Emma knew it wasn't her parents fault… they were hurting too.
"It's okay," her mom spoke softly. It's the truth. You were an orphan. It's my job to change that."
Pan entered the cave to see the teen in the corner. "You finally remembered you have a prisoner did ya?" the teen glared at the young boy.
"You are not a prisoner here Sarah," Pan explained.
"I'm not?!" The teen exclaimed looking at her tied wrists. "Then what am I?"
"You are like all of us. You are like your mother Emma. You are a lost girl. An orphan," he said sadly.
"I'm not an orphan," the brunette scoffed. "Neither is Emma, we both have parents."
"Maybe," Pan nodded. "In theory, but you both have been abandoned. Think about it. Emma's parents left her to grow up alone and you…" he took a step forward. "Your dad chose drugs and prison over you. Regina decided you weren't worth as much as revenge and Emma… well you thought she was different didn't you? But if you are really honest with yourself, didn't you lose her the second Henry knocked on your door."
"How do you know all this?" the teen questioned, not as confident as she was before.
"I know everything about you," he made his way back to the entrance. "You are a lost girl Sarah. A lost princess to be more accurate. Just know we are here for you when you are ready to accept it," with that Sarah was alone once more.
She stared around the dark cave thinking about everything the boy had said. He wasn't wrong. Her parents had let her down. These last few months she had to deal with so much and she had to deal with it alone. Maybe she really was lost.
The group quickly headed on their new path feeling a new sense of hope. Emma broke away from the rest when she spotted berries growing near by. She was starving and it was the first time she didn't feel sick to her stomach.
"Don't eat the blue ones," she spun round to be greeted by Pan. "Congratulations. You did it… orphan. You don't mind if I call you and your daughter lost girls do you?"
"Call us what you like. It won't stop me from finding Sarah," Emma smiled a determined look in her eyes.
Pan chuckled to himself. "Oh, I'm counting on that. There's a reason I tested you."
"Really," Emma raised an eyebrow.
"You haven't forgiven your parents for abandoning you. Don't deny it," he quickly added as Emma went to protest. "You haven't. And that's good cause when you find Sarah you'll understand her."
"What's that supposed to mean," Emma's smile disappeared, worry taking over.
"She hasn't forgiven you either. By the time you get to her, she'll never want to leave this island," Peter began to walk away.
"We'll see," Emma called after him.
He paused for a second turning back around. "And as for you Emma… when we're finished, you won't just feel like an orphan. You'll be one."
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