Chapter 4

Saya felt the chill of the night and when she looked up, the stars were bright in the sky. She looked around and her heart skipped a beat. In the distance was the tree. Their tree. Hers and Bens. She lifted the skirt of her dress and began to run as fast as she could, praying he would be there.

Saya ran up the final sand dune and her heart soared. Her Ben was standing there. His back was facing her and he was looking up into the stars. Ben was dressed in his apprentice robes from the Jedi training temple.

She smiled and began to slowly walk forward.

Ben? Are you really here?

Very slowly, he turned and faced her. Tears of joy fell from her face.

Ben, I've missed you so much!

She ran and wrapped her arms around him. But he did not respond at all to her touch.

She looked up to see a look of hatred on his face.

Ben?

She took a few steps back and began to feel fear fill her.

"Why did you leave me?" He sneered at her.

Saya took a step back while he took a step forward.

"I said, why did you leave me!?"

She took a few more steps back and watched in horror as his robs slowly turned black and his lightsaber appeared in his hand.

"I gave you everything, and you left me!"

The more steps he took closer to her, the more his First Order uniform appeared over his body.

Saya trembled and cried.

Ben, please! I love you!

She fell backwards into the sand and his helmet was suddenly over his face and head. He ignited the lightsaber and lifted it over his head.

BEN, PLEASE!

Saya screamed as the lightsaber descended down towards her.

-!-!-!

Saya jolted awake in a cold sweat and began shivering. The dream had felt so real. Her heart was beating fast and she felt fear and dread fill her senses. But she knew this was not the time to dwell on it.

She quickly stood and took in her surroundings. She had been laying on a small cot in a very small room. Saya tested the door to discover it wasn't locked. She took a breath and exited the room. The ship she was on was about as big as the Millennium Falcon and seemed to be in good condition. Looking ahead, she saw the cockpit with a single seat. And in the seat was her captor.

Saya looked around. She needed something, ANYTHING to defend herself with.

His voice made her practically jump out of her skin.

"There's no need for you to run. I won't hurt you, Saya."

The man pressed a few more buttons and stood. He was a couple inches shorter than Ben but had short white hair and dark purple eyes. And radiating off of him was power. Almost the same as hers.

She took a step back.

Who are you?

He gave her a small smile, although she saw no warmth in his eyes.

"My name is Torin. And I've been looking for you for quite some time now."

She blinked, still nervous.

Why?

He held out his hand to her.

"Take my hand."

She stared at him for a moment, then slowly placed her hand in his. The moment she did, she gasped and felt electricity run through her.

She jerked her hand back in shock.

You… Your-

"The same as you. We come from the same race of people, Saya."

She stared at him for several moments, so many thoughts racing through her head. It was true. She could feel the same power inside of him that was inside of her.

Truly? We are the same?

He nodded.

"Yes. I've been looking for you for a long time. You and I are the same"

Saya couldn't help but feel excited and happy for the first time in a long while.

She thought of so many questions to ask him. Where did they come from? Why did they have such powers? How can they be used properly? But her thoughts disappeared when she remembered the situation back on the desert planet.

Wait… the Resistance! What happened!? She asked him.

He shrugged. "I think most of them got away."

Saya rushed past him to the controls of the ship.

We have to go back! We have to help them!

Before she could do anything, Saya felt Torin's hand close around her arm, rather roughly.

"They will be fine. You and I have another path to follow."

Saya jerked her arm away.

What path? Torin, please we need to help them! If you are the same as me, then please go with me and join the Resistance! Together, we can help finally end the war!

Torin now looked annoyed and almost bored with the conversation. He waved her off.

"They will be fine. As I said, you and I have another path to follow."

She gave him a confused look.

What path? What could be more important than stopping the war?

Torin gave her a hard look.

"Saving our race of people"

Saya blinked.

What? There are more of us?

"No. But there will be"

A cold feeling filled Saya as he took a step closer to her.

"Saya, you and I are the only ones left. I spent a long time looking for you. Together, you and I will bring our people back."

Saya realized she was pressing into the back of the pilot's chair, trying to step away from him but he was so close to her. He was practically pressed against her.

"Saya, we will repopulate our race. Our sons will rebuild the Jedi religion. Our daughters will bring back the Healers Order to glory. Together, we will save-"

Saya used all her energy to shove past him, wanting space from him immediately. She turned and glared at him.

Are you insane!? We may be the same race of people, but I hardly know you! And I've accepted a long time ago that I would never have children! I don't want to bring any child into this terrible world!

Torin looked at her, cold and angry.

"We need to bring our people back, Saya! It doesn't matter how we feel about each other! We HAVE to do this!"

She continued to glare at him.

No. If's that's the same attitude our people had, we deserve to go extinct! Take me back to the Resistance, NOW! I don't care if you don't want to help, but I need to help them!

Torin seemed to have enough and storm over to her. Before Saya could decide on a course of action, she was suddenly on the ground with him on top, pinning her down.

"This is not how I wanted things to go. I thought you would be happy! I thought you would be relieved! I thought you would help me save our race from dying!"

She struggled and tried to get him off of her.

Get off me! There's no way in hell I would just submit to you raping me and using me to bear children! I won't let you use me!

Torin sat up and smirked, but still pinned her down with his legs.

"Use you? You have been used your entire life! Not one person cares for you. Not truly. They have all used you in some way. I'm just being honest about it"

She glared at him.

That's not true! I have people who really care about me!

"Don't make me laugh. I've been spying on the Resistance for a long time now. I've seen you with them first hand. They have been using you for your healing and powers. The scavenger who thinks she's going to be a Jedi someday only wanted you around because you make her more powerful"

You're lying! She's my friend! They all are! And I have someone who loves me!

Saya regretted the words as soon as they came out of her mouth. No, she had someone who LOVED her. Someone who doesn't anymore.

In a flash, a sudden pain seared through her head and she opened her eyes to see Torin with a hand in front of her face. He was probing her mind.

Stop! Get out of my head!

He lowered his hand and gave her an evil smile.

"You're talking about Ben Solo. Sorry, I should say Kylo Ren. You think he ever loved you?" Torin dropped down again and leaned his face close to hers. She could feel his breath on her face. It made her feel sick.

"He's exactly the same as the scavenger. You increased his power, so he kept you around. The bonus for him was being able to fuck you when he wanted."

Saya slapped him. Hard. Torin glared down at her and slapped her back, much harder. She tasted blood in her mouth. Her bottom lip was bleeding.

"You stupid bitch! Didn't your little piolet friend tell you about the bounty on your head?! Your precious Ben Solo wants you dead! He doesn't love you! Now that you're in the hands of the enemy, he wants you dead so they can't use your power for themselves!"

Saya couldn't stop the tears from falling from her eyes. Maybe it was true. Maybe all they did was use her.

Torin leaned down close to her again.

"If the Resistance really cared for you, why didn't they stop me from taking you? I watched so many of them just let me take you into my ship and fly off. They didn't care. Not one of them cares about you."

Saya turned her head and sobbed. A moment later, she felt in horror as he kissed her on the neck.

"I've done nothing but tell the truth, Saya. You and I can be so much greater than all of them. Our people are so much greater than all of them! Help me. Help me bring them back, Saya…"

His hands slowly made their way to the front of her tunic and she felt him begin to pull away the fabric.

She panicked and tried pushing him away again.

Even if all of that is true, I won't let you use me! I WONT LET YOU RAPE ME!

Torin sneered and grabbed her tunic in his fist.

"I'm done being fucking nice!"

She grabbed his wrist with both hands, trying to stop his from ripping her shirt. It didn't help, the tunic was torn in half. A cold rush came over her chest and his hand roughly grabbed her breast.

Stop it!

He ignored her and his hands flew down to her trousers, clearly attempting to drag them off of her.

A sudden thought went through her head. She glared up at him and met his crazed eyes.

Even if you rape me now, I won't get pregnant! I still have an infertility chip in my arm!

He froze and looked down at her.

"You're lying"

She raised her arm.

I'm not lying! It's still there!

Torin roughly grabbed her arm and pressed into her skin. She winced but she knew when he felt it because a look of rage overcame his face. He felt the small bump inside of her arm.

He tossed her arm down as if it was garbage and finally got off of her. He stormed back to the piolets seat and dropped into it.

"It makes no difference. It will be removed once we get to the temple."

Saya stood and glared at him from behind.

What temple? Where are we going?

He ignored her and seemed to press several buttons again, sending the ship back into motion. Saya looked around, desperate for something to defend herself with. He could easily overpower her and even kill her if he wanted to. But he clearly wanted her alive to use her body.

Saya couldn't help but feel disappointed. She finally learned she was not alone in the world and this was the man that was left. She had so many questions that maybe he could have answered. But no. She had to get away from him. She needed to run from him.

She closed her eyes and prayed.

Someone, please help me!

She backed away until she felt herself press against the wall and silently cried.

Finally, she heard the voice in her head again.

"You can escape… use your feelings… breathe and think…"

Saya looked around. Torin was completely ignoring her, concentrating on the ship. She finally noticed a small hallway across from the bedroom door. She felt stupid for not seeing it before now.

She took a step in the direction of it, but jumped at Torin's voice.

"Your welcome to try and run but you won't succeed. Every door and escape ship requires my own personal code. Good luck"

His voice was dripping with arrogance and sarcasm.

She ignored him and slowly made her way down the small hall. It wasn't a very big ship so there wasn't much to see.

The voice inside her returned.

"Saya… feel it within yourself… Where is the exit?"

She turned her head and noticed a door. It was a door to a small escape ship.

It takes a code. I don't know it! She told the voice

"Breathe… trust your feelings… you know what to do…"

Saya stood in front of the door and closed her eyes, breathing deep.

"That's it… trust your feelings…"

Saya opened her eyes and her hand was extended in front of the coded lock. She could feel it, the proper combination. Slowly, she reached out and pressed a combination of numbers.

A green light flashed, and the door opened.

Saya rushed inside and jumped into the small ship when a cold feeling overcame her. Footsteps were rushing over to her.

"SAYA! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?"

She didn't hesitate. She quickly closed the opening to the very small ship and pressed the eject button. She felt the ship fall and she cursed herself for not at least strapping herself in first. Once she was settled enough, she did everything she could to remember Poe's training on flying.

The little ship was very similar to the X-Wing she was taught how to fly. Good. She could do this.

"Destroy the tracking device…"

She looked around frantically and saw a small red light flickering on and off. Next to it was a small speaker. Torin's voice suddenly filled the small space.

"Saya, come back now! Come back or I swear-"

She had enough. She swiftly lifted her foot and slammed her boot into the speaker. Next, she slammed her foot down on the tracking mechanism. She prayed it was completely destroyed.

Without any more hesitation, she sent the ship into light speed and sped away from Torin and his ship.

-!-!-!

Rey sat on a large rock with her face in her hands, silently crying. The Resistance had made their escape, but they lost Saya. Everyone quickly retreated to the small planet of Beha. They used the woods as shelter and to hide. Several of their ships had been destroyed and they lost so many resources that could have helped them.

But what hurt Rey the most was losing Saya. No one had seen her. It's possible she was captured by the First Order. Or she could have been hit by one of the blasts from the TIE fighters. She could be dead.

Rey, Finn, Poe and Rose all sat around a small fire together while many others slept.

"Rey… there was nothing we could do…" Rose said softly.

Rey wiped the tears from her eyes and looked up to the fire.

"She was our friend. She loved him but left him to help us. She left him to do what was right for the galaxy. And we abandoned her!"

All of them had looks of shame as Leia approached the fire.

"I know things seem dark now, but we will recover from this. We can't give up now or everything will have been for nothing."

Poe looked up into her face. "We know… but we lost Saya! She's gone and we couldn't save her!"

Leia looked up into the stars.

"Saya is alive. I can feel it. I would know if she was dead."

Everyone looked up.

"You really think she's still alive?" Poe asked.

"No… I KNOW she is alive. And if she's in the hands of the First Order, she will be safe. My son could never hurt her"

Rey stood. "Then we need to go and save her! If she's with the First Order, we owe it to her to get her back!"

Leia smiled at Rey. "I agree. But if she is with the First Order, then she is safe for now. We need to recover. At the first opportunity, we will go and find her."

Poe didn't like that answer. "No, we need to go now!"

"What do you want to do, Poe? Jump in our damaged ships and try to take on the First Order with hardly any fuel and try to take her back? You all would be dead before you could even get close to her"

Poe clenched his fists but sat back down, knowing she was right.

Leia took a breath.

"And she may not be with the First Order. We don't know. Allies are going to assist us with supplies and once we are able to, we will do whatever we can to find Saya and bring her home."

Leia walked away to check on the other Resistance members while the small group continued to stare at the fire, hoping that Leia was right and Saya was alright.

-!-!-!

Saya felt completely lost. She had been flying the ship for several days, scared and alone. She had no idea where the Resistance was and landing on some random planet wasn't an option. Navigation was not something she was trained in and she had no idea who was an ally of the Resistance and who worked for the First Order.

Her stomach growled from hunger and she was desperate for some water. She could heal injuries and even save those on the verge of death, but she couldn't cure starvation and dehydration.

Saya had no choice. She had to take the risk and land somewhere or she would die.

She jumped what a sudden alarm started going off. She frantically looked around and saw that the engine was failing.

She panicked and realized she needed to land. NOW.

Ahead she saw a large planet and quickly aimed the ship for it. It was hurtling at the ground fast and Saya knew this landing was not going to be easy. It could very well kill her.

Within seconds, the ship slammed into the ground and rolled several times before finally stopping. Saya groaned and slowly lifted the opening of the ship. She was lucky it didn't roll over again or she would be trapped inside.

Saya crawled out of the ship and was met with the harsh rays of the sun and burning sand. Saya fumbled to tie her tunic closed as it was still ripped open from Torin's grip. Very slowly, she stood and took in her surroundings.

There seemed to be no life on the planet. Nothing but sand and rocks. She began to walk and hope to find some clue as to where she was. After walking for what seemed like forever, she finally saw a large structure in the distance. She hurried over to it will all the strength she had, praying someone was there and that they would help her.

However, when she finally approached the building she saw it was completely rotting out. No one was living in it. Upon a closer look, the rotting building seemed familiar to her.

No… it can't be…

She walked closer to it and realized what it was. Her training temple from when she was in the Healers Order.

She looked in the distance and realized what else was here. Saya used the last of her strength and began running. She knew the way. It was imbedded into her memory and would be there for the rest of her life.

After crawling up several sand dunes, she finally reached it. The tree. It was still standing there. But there was no longer any life in it. The leafs were gone and all color drained from it.

Saya sobbed and crawled over to it and leaned against the trunk, wrapping her arms around her knees. If this was where she was going to die, it was fitting. This was where it all began for her. Perhaps this was the best place for it to end.

"This is not the end…"

Saya scoffed at the voice.

I have no food or water and this planet has no other life on it. The ship has been destroyed. What am I supposed to do?

"You can reach out. You have the power. Reach out and they will hear you…"

Saya blinked.

Who will hear me?

There was no response. The voice was gone.

Saya sighed and dropped her head down into her arms, exhausted.

What else did she have to lose besides her life?

If anyone can hear me… if anyone even cares… I'm stranded on the desert planet that once had the Jedi training temple and the Healers Order training temple… please help me…

She was ashamed that she couldn't even remember the name of the planet.

Saya sighed and sat under the tree with the sun glaring down at her.

-!-!-!

Several pieces of equipment were destroyed in his rage and for several days he locked himself in his room. He didn't eat and hardly slept.

He was SO CLOSE to getting her back only to be taken away from him again. No one could confirm if the man was with the Resistance. If he was, then all he had to do was find the Resistance again. However, she was unconscious and begging for help. If she was dead, he would tear apart every member of the Resistance and the man who took her.

But he couldn't hide away in his room anymore. He put on his helmet and finally exited his room. It was time to set new plans into motion. He entered his conference room where all his maps were still laid out. Everyone knew not to touch his things until he confirmed he was done with them.

Before he could remove his helmet to get a better look at the maps, a chill suddenly went down his spine. He felt a connection he hadn't felt in a long time.

He turned and was face to face with the scavenger. However, he knew this connection wasn't her doing. She looked as confused as he did.

They each glared at each other before something on the corner of his eye caught his attention. He whipped his head around and his breath stopped. His heart beat loudly in his chest.

It was Saya. A few feet away he could see her clear as day. She was clearly leaning against something on the ground with her arms wrapped around her legs and her face in her lap. Without even seeing her face, he knew she was in danger. Her clothes were torn, the skin he could see was sunburnt and she had several cuts on her arms. She was too weak to even heal herself.

He took a step in her direction but her voice stopped him.

If anyone can hear me… if anyone even cares … I'm stranded on the desert planet that once had the Jedi training temple and the Healers Order training temple… please help me…

Kylo whipped his head to look at the scavenger who was also turned to look back at him. The scavenger hadn't connected them. Saya had. Probably unintentionally. She was begging for help, reaching out to anyone with the force who could listen.

Kylo looked back over but Saya was gone. So was the scavenger. He knew exactly where he needed to go. And now, so did the girl. Both were going after Saya.

The race had begun.