Chapter 11

Torin was ready for them. With a blast of power, He used the force and Saya was thrown back several feet while Kylo reached him and the battle between the two men began. Saya looked up and remembered just how ruthless Kylo can be in battle. He wasn't holding back in the slightest. Every swing he made was with the intention of killing Torin.

She jumped back up and ignored the pain she felt from being dragged across the ground. She charged again, trying to help Kylo in battle. Before she could make contact, Torin tried to surprise her with a swing going right to her chest. Kylo lunged out, grabbed Saya by the arm, and swung her out of the way.

She felt herself fall to the ground again.

"Saya, Get back!" Kylo screamed at her.

She gritted her teeth. She wanted to fight! This was her battle, not his!

As she stood, preparing to try again, she saw Torin finally get the upper hand and watched his lightsaber strike Kylo across his chest.

He fell to the ground and Torin had a triumphant smile across his face.

NO! DON'T TOUCH HIM!

She used a blast of power and Torin was thrown several feet back.

Saya ran right for Kylo and looked at his would He was trying to breath and stand up but he was losing a lot of blood. Saya felt pure rage run through her. She placed her hand on his chest and easily healed the wound.

Kylo looked up at her and was shocked at her angry face. Now HE felt the rage rolling off of her.

Saya stood and faced Torin who was now standing and walking back to her with his lightsaber in hand.

She slowly began taking steps towards him, rage boiling inside her. As she stepped closer and closer to him, the ground around her began to shake and crack. Torin suddenly stopped and even looked afraid.

Good. He should be afraid.

Saya stopped and felt her rage roll off of her. The ground around her was shaking and for the first time in her life, she wanted to take a life.

How dare you… HOW DARE YOU HURT MY BEN!

Saya lunged and this time, Torin was caught off guard. He has just barely able to block her attacks while trying to keep his footing as the ground continued shaking. She did not hold back in the slightest.

She wanted him dead.

"Good… he should die…"

A dark and deep voice began whispering to her.

YOU TRIED TO KILL HIM! YOU TRIED TO KILL MY BEN!

Torin was suddenly looking panicked and was trying desperately to get away from her. She didn't let up at all. She continued swinging and tried to give a killing blow.

"USE YOUR ANGER! KILL HIM!"

Saya finally caught him off guard. Torin tripped and she easily swung at him, taking off his left hand.

Torin was on the ground screaming in pain, trying to crawl away from her.

I guess we'll see if our kind can regrow limbs!

Torin looked up at Saya in fear.

"That's it! KILL HIM!"

Saya had never heard this dark voice inside her before. But she wanted to listen. She wanted to kill him.

Torin raised his uninjured arm up.

"SAYA, PLEASE!"

"SAYA, STOP!"

She froze with the lightsaber right above her head. This was a voice she recognized. It was the voice of her master.

"Saya, this isn't you… Don't give in to the darkness…"

Saya slowly lowered her lightsaber and she wanted to cry. He was right. This wasn't her.

Torin took advantage of her hesitation. He grabbed his lightsaber and ran right for his ship, leaving his amputated hand on the ground. Saya froze and watched him run, still shaking from the dark intentions inside of her. She suddenly felt a rush of wind as Kylo ran past her. He still wanted Torin dead.

Ben, Don't!

He was too late anyway. Just as Kylo's soldiers finally descended down to the planet, Torin had closed the door to his ship and was taking off.

Kylo grabbed his communicator.

"ALL TIE FIGHTERS TAKE DOWN THAT SHIP!"

Torin was taking off into the air as several TIE fighters began following him.

Saya watched him take off, unsure if he would get away or not. She can't imagine it was easy flying a ship with one hand.

"Saya"

Kylo's voice brought her out of her thoughts. He was several feet away from her and they both stared at each other. Saya felt like the tension could be cut with a knife.

She now was in another awkward situation and she had no idea what to do. Does she run from him? Does she run TO him? She began shaking, scared and confused. She still loved him but she was still a member of the Resistance trying to stop him.

Kylo turned off his lightsaber and she turned hers off as well.

He glanced down at the handle in her hand.

"Saya, where did you-"

The blasts came out of nowhere. No one had been paying the proper attention. Saya felt a blast from right in front of her and she was sent flying back.

Saya's back slammed hard into a boulder and she felt several bones in her back break. She flopped down to the ground, desperately trying to heal herself and end the pain she was in. She was able to force herself flat onto her back and she watched as Torin's ship took off into the sky with several TIE fighters still trying to take him out.

Despite her pain, she couldn't help but be amazed at how he could fly a ship so well with only one hand.

Saya had to fight to stay awake. The pain made her want to sleep. She needed to concentrate and heal herself.

She suddenly had a huge shadow over her. It was Kylo.

He tried to wrap his arms around her but she stopped him.

Stop! My back is broken! I can't move!

Kylo sat up and began screaming.

"MEDIC! I WANT A MEDIC HERE, NOW!"

He looked back down to her, his expression clearly worried. He clutched her hand in his.

She couldn't help but give him a small smile.

Are you proud of me Ben? I trained so hard for so long… are you proud of me?

Saya was losing the fight. She heard Kylo calling her name while she drifted off to sleep, letting the pain drift away.

-!-!-!

The medic was quick to arrive. They got Saya loaded onto a medical stretcher and hurried her onto the ship. Kylo quickly followed, picking up his helmet and placing it back over his face along the way.

The ride up to their main ship was quick and he followed Saya the entire way into the medical bay. Doctors surrounded her and carefully removed her armor, leaving her in her black pants, white tunic, and small leather vest. They worked to be careful as her back was still healing.

Kylo stood beside her for what must have been hours. The doctors gave her a sedative to help her sleep. X-Rays showed the broken bones but Kylo knew it made no difference if they knew what was broken. Saya was healing just fine on her own. It would just take time. When her back was finally healed, she would be changed into clean clothes and taken to his room to properly sleep.

After another hour, the medical bay door opened and a General rushed in.

"Please excuse me Supreme Leader, but the Superior Mother from the Healers Order is here and demands an audience. She says she has more information for you."

The old woman had the nerve to DEMAND an audience!?

He was angry but did not want to waste time on the matter. He wanted to be here when Saya woke up. He waved his hand at the man.

"Get the information from her yourself."

The man nodded and turned to leave. Just as the doors opened, the old woman suddenly pushed back the General and entered the room.

"Supreme Leader, I have-"

The woman froze as her eyes landed on Saya.

"SAYA!? WHAT HAPPENED!?"

Kylo clenched his fists, trying to fight the urge to strangle the woman. He was trying so hard not to let his temper get the better of him in front of Saya. She had seen enough of that for a lifetime.

The doctor cleared his throat. "She was brought in with a broken back but seems to be healing fine. She will be just fine with more rest."

"Good! We need to get her back to the Order! Get her ready to-"

He had enough.

"SHE ISN'T GOING ANYWHERE!"

Everyone in the room jumped and the room went quiet.

Kylo slowly turned to the woman, shaking in rage.

"She isn't going anywhere. Saya is my wife! She belongs here with me!"

The Superior Mother was clearly afraid but tried to stand tall.

"We had a deal! Information about the Resistance for the return of Saya and the other girls! You promised-"

"I promised that the girls she took from you would be returned. I NEVER said you could have Saya."

She now glared at him. "Saya has made vows to the Healers Order before EVER being with you! She-"

Kylo saw red and the next thing he remembered was the old woman's throat was suddenly in his hand while he began draining her of breath. She was struggling, trying to get away and breathe.

With his other hand, he swiftly removed his helmet. He needed to look her directly in her eyes.

"You don't know me… But I know YOU! I remember every tear she shed because of you! I watched the lashes you gave her on her hands heal! Saya made the vow to be with me before she EVER SAID HER VOWS TO YOU!"

The Superior Mother's eyes went wide as she suddenly realized who he was. He brought her closer to his face.

"Do you know who I am NOW!?"

The woman had small tears fall from her eyes and she tried to speak.

A small touch on his arm brought him out of his rage for a moment.

Ben… please don't…

He quickly turned. Saya was on her side in the bed, gently reaching up to him. She was grabbing at his arm, panting and trying to stay awake. Her back must have healed and she was fighting the sedatives.

Please Ben… No more death… She isn't worth it…

He looked back to the old woman, gave one final squeeze, and then dropped her to the floor. She was panting and coughing, desperately trying to catch her breath.

Kylo placed his helmet back over his head and turned to Saya who was still fighting to stay awake. He gently slid his arms underneath her and picked her up. He looked down at the weak old woman for the last time.

"Get off my ship. If I ever see you near Saya again, you won't live to see another day."

He casually walked around her as if she was nothing but trash on the ground and made his way to the door with Saya in his arms.

"I-I have-have the Resistances location! If you don't give me-"

"I HAVE OTHER WAYS TO GET THE INFORMATION I NEED! NOW GET OFF MY SHIP!"

He left the room with the old woman sobbing on the floor. He quickly made his way to his room to let Saya sleep properly in his bed. He swiftly opened the door and placed her in the middle of the large bed. She had already fallen back asleep. As much as he wanted to stay, he needed to check on some things first.

As soon as his rounds were done, he was giving the orders for him not to be disturbed for quite a while. The Resistance would know of the trap and would need to be quiet for a while or risk being found. He also now knew that one of his newest Generals was the spy for the Resistance. He would be found soon enough. As long as his Generals were smart enough to keep things under control, he could be with Saya undisturbed.

They had much to talk about.

-!-!-!

Outside the medical bay and in the hallway, Lilith seethed with anger as she watched the Supreme Leader carry the healer in his arms on the way to his room. She heard the nasty rumor that his wife had returned to him.

Lilith spent the last year getting information for him in the hopes that he would cast Saya aside and see how much she was truly committed to the First Order. Committed to him!

She ground her teeth together in rage and hate.

Lilith no longer cared if she got the throne or not. She just wanted the little bitch healer dead.

-!-!-!

Poe was still pacing in the ship while Rey and Chewbacca flew them away from the planet. Everyone was tired, hurt, and angry. They had fallen for a stupid trap and because of it, they lost Saya.

Rey and Chewie were able to sneak onto the planet to retrieve everyone. But with the forces of the First Order close by, it was impossible for them to go back for Saya. Especially if she was facing Kylo Ren.

Poe couldn't take it anymore and punched a wall.

"We have to do something! We can't just leave her there!"

Chewie was navigating the ship while Rey, Finn, and Poe were together in a smaller room. The other men had huddled off together in another room, trying to wrap their heads around what had happened.

Rey sighed. "There was nothing we could do. Once we get everyone back to the Resistance, we can form a plan. We're going to get her back!"

Her words didn't help Poe's anger.

"What if she isn't even with them? What if she's dead!?"

"Kylo Ren would never hurt her! He still loved her!"

Poe looked to the ground. "That's not what she thinks…."

Finn looked up and Rey looked confused.

"What did you say?" Rey asked him.

Poe looked startled and realized he said too much.

"Nothing. Its nothing-"

Rey walked over and stood in front of him.

"No, what did you say?"

Poe suddenly had a guilty look on his face.

"She thinks he hates her… She thinks he wants her dead…"

Rey took a step back.

"Why? How do you know this?"

Poe took a breath and kept looking at the floor.

"I… I told her the Bounty Hunters were trying to kill her. I told her Kylo Ren wanted her dead."

Rey felt a rush of anger.

"Why would you do that!? Why would you lie to her!?"

Poe finally looked up to face Rey.

"I thought she would get over him! I thought it would help her move on!"

Finn stood and stepped between the two bickering people.

"Guys, not now! This isn't the time to fight about this!"

Rey didn't back down.

"She thinks she's going to die! You have no idea what can happen down there now! Because of you she may be dead!"

"That's not true! Saya is alive! She's been captured and we need to go save her!"

"WHY WOULD YOU DO IT, POE!? WHY DID YOU LIE TO HER!?"

"BECAUSE I LOVE HER, OK!?"

Rey and Finn froze, both staring at Poe. Poe took a step back and walked around them and out of the room, his head hanging in shame.

Finn looked to Rey.

"Did you know?"

Rey shook her hear. "No. But I had a feeling he felt that way."

Finn sighed and sat back down. "What do we do?"

Rey took a breath and looked over to Finn.

"We get the rest of the men home and form a plan. We're going to get Saya back."

Finn nodded as Rey exited the room.

-!-!-!

Saya groaned and slowly opened her eyes. Her back was now fully healed but she now felt stiff from laying down for so long. She slowly sat up and took in her surroundings. She was in a very large bedroom and she was sitting on a large bed with black sheets. There were books against the far side of the room along with a desk and several papers all over it. Her lightsaber was also sitting on the desk. The wall across from the bed was actually a large window letting Saya see the stars and planets in the area.

She knew exactly whose room this was.

Saya stood and walked over to the large window. She couldn't help but admire the view outside. It was beautiful.

After a couple of minutes, she heard the door open then close with the lock clicking in place.

"Saya."

She couldn't help but smile sadly.

Why is it every time something happens, I wake up alone in your room?

She turned to see him removing his helmet and gloves. He walked forward and stopped in front of his desk, dropping his cape over the chair. They stared at each other for several minutes, his eyes taking her in. Neither could quite believe this was real.

He slowly and gently took the handle of her lightsaber off the desk and rolled in in his hands, looking over the craftsmanship.

"Saya, where did you get this?"

I made it. It's mine.

Saya couldn't help but take pride when she said it. Her Lightsaber took quite some time for her to make and she put a lot of hard work into it.

He continued rolling it around in his hands. "So… you are a Jedi now…"

I don't know… I've trained for the last year becoming one. I don't know how to tell if I am one yet or not.

She actually felt a flare of anger and even… jealousy?

"You were training with the scavenger…"

No. I trained on my ancestral planet Bulvengard. With my Master Qui-Gon Jinn.

Saya immediately regretted telling him that. Perhaps she said too much.

He looked as If he didn't believe her. "Qui-Gon Jinn was a Jedi Master who died a long time ago."

I know…

He continued looking into her eyes as he gently placed her lightsaber back onto the desk. He began taking small steps towards her and Saya felt her heart begin to pound hard in her chest.

How do you not hate me Ben? After all this time and everything that's happened, how can you not hate me?

She was shaking when he finally stopped right in front of her.

"Do you want me to hate you?"

She closed her eyes and she lowered her head. She was shaking and she didn't know why.

Kylo's arms very slowly made their way around her.

"Do you want me to, Saya?"

…No. Never…

His arms slowly began to tighten around her.

"Have you missed me at all Saya?"

She felt small tears fall from her eyes.

Of course I did

He was holding her close and she leaned against him, listening to his heart beat in his chest.

After a couple of minutes, his hand went to the back of her head and he forced her to look up at him.

"Do you still love me Saya?"

She couldn't stop the tears from falling now.

I always have Ben. And I always will…

He couldn't resist anymore. He leaned down and he captured her in a kiss.

This wasn't like before. It was hard or rushed. This was gentle. This was the true reunion for them.

In that moment, time melted away for them. They forgot about the rest of the galaxy. They forgot everything and everyone else around them.

Saya's hands quickly ran up his chest and clutched the sides of his face. Kylo's arms were still holding her tightly against him. She felt his tongue trace across her lips and she opened hers, giving him entry into her mouth.

This wasn't like before. Saya didn't feel like a nervous virgin who didn't know what she wanted or didn't know what to do.

Saya knew exactly what she wanted. She wanted him.

She used her tongue against his and he moaned. His hands suddenly went to her thighs and Saya felt herself lifted up and pressed against the large window. She wrapped her arms around his neck and wrapped her legs around his waist.

As soon as she was secured against the wall with her arms around his shoulders and legs around his waist, his hands began roaming her body as he trailed kisses from her lips to her neck. He leaned her head back against the glass with her eyes closed, enjoying the feeling of his hands on her again.

When his hands finally returned to hold her legs, her hands fumbled to try and take his jacket off. She wished she knew where the damn buttons were on it.

Within seconds, she found herself going from against the window to the middle of the bed with Kylo on top of her. As soon as her hands were free, she finally got his uniform top up and over his head. Kylo's hands reached for her vest and he froze for a moment.

She looked down and he noticed the small patch on her vest. The symbol of the Resistance.

She swore she heard him growl and she felt a spike of anger from him. His hand closed around her vest and he ripped the patch clean off. He quickly threw it across the room and continued ripping her vest open and taking the shredded remains off her shoulders.

Saya was almost afraid for a moment but another kiss from him took away her fear. He quickly lifted the tunic up and over her head. Her hands were now trying to remove his pants but he was already on his knees and in one swift movement, her pants and panties were gone.

Kylo took a moment to see her body for the first time in two years. Saya no longer looked underfed and skinny. She gained a healthy amount of weight and she finally had feminine curves. Even her breasts were bigger. He groaned and crashed back on top of her, his lips finding hers. Her hands opened his pants and she fought to take them off him. He sat up and finished the deed himself.

As soon as he was back on top of her, she wrapped her legs around his waist and felt his erection against her. She was ready. She wanted him inside her.

Saya tried lifting her hips and guiding him into her, but he grabbed her hands and held them over her head. He continued kissing her neck and she moaned, trying to free her hands.

Ben, please! I don't want to wait anymore!

She felt his smile in her neck.

"I've been waiting two years for this. Don't make me rush to finish."

He released one of his hands and held her hands together over her head with the other one. His lips trailed down to her breasts while his free hand brushed over them. She shuttered and gasped when his mouth covered one breast while his hand brushed over the other one.

She moaned and bucked her hips into the air.

BEN, PLEASE!

His mouth stayed at her breasts while his free hand trailed down her body and began stroking her sensitive core. She could almost feel tears of frustration in her eyes. He was enjoying teasing her while she was desperate for release. Desperate for him to be inside of her.

Before she could beg some more, she gasped. Kylo was using his finger to pump inside of her. She moaned as his lips found hers again and she enjoyed the sensation of his fingers pumping into her. He let her hands go and she quickly wrapped her arms around his shoulders. She gasped and moaned again when a second finger entered her.

She was so focused on his fingers that she didn't notice him slowly trailing kisses down her body. Her hands were tangled in his hair and after a few moments, she finally noticed how far down he was on her body.

Ben, what are you-

Saya felt like lightning went through her and she felt her hips jerk into the air. His mouth was on her. His fingers continued pumping into her but he was now using his mouth as well.

Her body was on fire. Wave after wave was taking over and she didn't even realize she was grabbing his hair and thrusting her hips up.

She was close. She was so close to shattering completely.

YES! BEN, PLEASE!

Another pump of his fingers and flick of his tongue was all it took. Saya flung her head back and orgasmed around his pumping fingers. Her body tightened and she rode out her climax while his fingers pumped inside her.

As she was gasping for breath, Kylo quickly fell back completely on top of her and was kissing her neck again.

"I love you Saya"

His hand quickly guided himself into her and she moaned again. She wrapped her arms back around him as he moaned and found a steady rhythm of thrusting inside her.

"Tight… You're so tight!" He hissed through his teeth.

She was still riding from the pleasure of her last climax as he pumped himself inside her. She felt selfish but she wanted another one. This time she wanted to share one with him.

Saya began kissing his neck and he groaned and began pumping faster. They both needed to finish.

Kylo rose to his knees and used his hands to hold her hips up while he continued thrusting into her. He felt deeper inside of her and her head was thrown back. He loved watching her writhe underneath him and watched her breasts sway as he thrust into her.

He was thrusting harder and harder until neither of them could hold back anymore.

BEN! OH GOD, BEN PLEASE!

She climaxed again and he could feel her whole body tighten around him. A couple more thrusts and he threw his head back, yelling her name.

After a few more moments of them both riding out their climax, he collapsed on top of her. Both were desperate to catch their breath and Saya slowly ran her hands up his back and into his hair. He groaned again as she began stroking his hair, feeling happy for the first time in years. They both did.

Saya and Kylo both slowly drifted off to sleep, holding each other in their arms.