I'm so sorry about the wait. I'm a student and I work. That's all I can say to defend myself. There is also the fact that I was confused for a while about where to exactly go with this story. I know what I want to happen but I couldn't decide how to get there. I think I know now. I actually wrote this chapter a few weeks ago but I was still deciding where to go with the rest of the story so I didn't publish it. I really hope you all enjoy it.

I'm awake, dressed and out the hotel long before Andrew has woken up. I needed to get out of there and away from him. It took me a while to cover the bruise on my cheek and there is a pain down my abdomen but I can pretend everything's normal. I've been doing it our whole relationship.

I can't stay here, I can't stay with him. He's a monster, a murderer. If I stay with him then I'll die. I'll be his perfect wife this weekend for Donna and Eric's wedding but then I need to get away from him. I don't care where I have to go. I don't care if I'm homeless and penniless, as long as he's nowhere near me.

I climb out of my cab and onto the pavement outside the Forman's house. Just being here, I feel safer. I walk down the drive and through the back door to see Steven at the kitchen table. "Where is everyone?" I ask him.

He looks up from his cereal. "Some last-minute wedding things. You wanna sit?"

I nod and sit in one of the chairs across from him. "I thought you had your own apartment?"

He nods "I do but I hang out here a lot cause they're my family. Plus, Mrs. Foreman likes to feel like she has a kid to fuss over"

I smile at him "you've always been surprisingly thoughtful"

Hyde shrugs "the Forman's have been like my parents" he pushes his empty bowl away from him and sighs "So your husband seems like an interesting guy"

I tense at the mention of Andrew. This could be my chance. I just need to get the words out. I open my mouth, prepared to tell him everything "He's okay I guess."

"It's kind of weird that you turned up here without him. Especially after what happened"

"I needed a break. I needed to go somewhere to clear my head." This isn't technically a lie. I just don't mention the fact that I was running for my life not going on vacation.

"Jackie, I'm really sorry." He's looking right at me with genuine concern in his eyes and I know that he truly is sorry. I really wish I could tell him everything but the words just won't come out. "You would've been a really good mom."

I look down and starts messing with my hands "I was so scared that I'd have kids and be just like my mom. That I'd care more about my appearance and having fun than my kid. Then I was pregnant and I could feel myself falling in love with the baby inside me and I knew that I would do anything I could to protect it." There are tears forming in my eyes as I think about it but I don't stop. I look back up at him "She was a girl"

Steven reaches his hand across the table and clutches mine "shit Jackie. I'm so sorry."

I look at our hands, feeling an immediate comfort from him. "It's fine. These things happen, right?"

"It's not fine. I was an ass to you yesterday, I just assumed I knew your whole life. That little girl would've been the luckiest kid to have you as a mom."

I smile at him. He knows exactly how to make me feel better. "Thank you."

"So where is the husband?"

I tense up again, moving my hands away from Stephens "Probably still at the motel"

"You know, he probably feels crappy about this too."

I clench my fist at the thought "I know exactly what he's thinking and he's not sitting around crying over my baby." I snap.

His eyes widen at my words "woah. He seemed like an okay guy"

I roll my eyes, thinking about Donna saying something similar the previous day. All I can bring myself to say is the same sarcastic comment I had said to her "And Mr Foreman is a people person" I stand up "it's funny how you all met him for about 5 minutes and immediately assumed he was an amazing guy. You would probably all believe him over me wouldn't you?"

Hyde stands up and moves towards me "What the hell are you talking about? We were all just trying to be nice to the guy. He's your husband. What happened between you? Did you have a fight?"

I sigh, running a hand through my hair "I was leaving him. I took off in the middle of the night and came here."

His eyes widen "What? Why?"

"Because….." I can feel the pain on my body from last nights beating. My body is covered In bruises from when he pushed me down the stairs. Why can't I just tell him this? Why am I so scared? I could tell him and then what? I don't have anything left. I look down "I just don't love him anymore"

There's a knock at the back door and when I turn to look, my body freezes to see Andrew standing there, knocking on the glass. He puts on his perfect smile as he slides open the door and walks inside "Hi sweetie, I was worried when I woke up"

I force a smile, feeling Stephens eyes on me "I just came to help with preparation for tonight. I didn't want to wake you"

Andrew looks at both Stephen and I. "Am I interrupting something?" His perfect 'Andrew' voice is gone for a moment and there's anger in his tone.

Hyde raises an eyebrow at Andrews tone "Just old friends catching up"

Andrew walks to my side and puts an arm around my waist, pulling me towards him "It's not really old friends is it? You're the reason my wife left. well you and that baby."

I feel sick. I can't believe he just said that. I look at Stephen who's just frowning at me in confusion "Stephen.."

"What baby?"

Andrew groans "Damn, I thought you were all caught up. Guess you didn't get to the part with the abortion."

I might faint. Why is he doing this to me? Stephen looks like he's been punched in the stomach "Please just let me explain."

He shakes his head "I think I'll just wait for Foreman downstairs" he then turns and walks down to the basement.

In that moment, watching Stephen leave, I do the bravest thing I've done the whole time I've known Andrew. I step away from him and follow Stephen. I know I'll pay for it later. He knows I'll pay for it later which is why he doesn't follow.

As soon as we're both in the basement, Hyde turns to me "is it true?"

I nod "Yes"

"When?"

"Five years ago, after that night on the couch."

He runs a hand through his curls "I can't believe this"

I step towards him but he steps back "I was heartbroken and lonely. I had no one and I was living in a motel. I didn't feel like I had any other choice."

"So, you killed it?"

"I've regretted it every day since"

"How could you do this?! Without even telling me!"

"You had just told me that I was random meaningless sex and that everyone hated me. I had never felt so alone. I was living in a motel with barely any money. Did you expect me to just have the baby and hope you'd one day realize it was a mistake and you were just protecting your feelings? I was protecting my feelings. I was so sick of being heartbroken by you. I was sick of being the butt of your jokes. I did the only thing I thought was right and then I moved to New York to start a new life. I was 19 and scared so the idea of having a baby seemed impossible to me."

Hyde sits on the couch and puts his face in his hands "I can't believe this. I can't believe this happened and I can't believe your asshole husband just told me like that" he looks up at me "Were you ever going to tell me?"

I sit down next to him "I honestly don't know. When I found out, I was so angry and hurt at how you'd treated me but I was also terrified. Then when I did it, I realized what I'd done and I've carried that guilt around ever since. Part of me didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to have that guilt. If I didn't tell you, then I'd just be your ex-girlfriend and you could move on and meet someone new. I guess that sounds pretty stupid."

He looks at me "No its pretty selfless, something I definitely didn't deserve."

"aren't you angry at me? What I did was awful."

Stephen sighs "What I did was awful too. I don't even know if I have a right to be angry. I kind of understand. I'm sorry for what I said to you that day 5 years ago. I didn't mean any of it"

I look down at the memory "it's okay. I read too much into it."

He shakes his head "No, I was just trying to be Zen because I didn't want to admit I still loved you"

"You still loved me?" I can't help but think about how different things would've been if he'd had the courage to tell me that 5 years ago. Would we still be together? would we have had our baby? would we be married? "I guess It's all in the past now."

"Maybe we should go back upstairs to your husband?" he suggests.

I sigh "Yeah I guess." Really, I just want us to stay right here in the basement and forget Andrew even exists. But I can't.

We both stand up and make our way back up the stairs to see Andrew sitting at the table, reading the paper. He looks up at us and smirks "Nice chat?"

I watch as Hyde clenches his fists "You knew exactly what you were doing telling me that" He points out. I've never heard him sound so angry.

Andrew frowns "I honestly thought my wife had you all caught up"

"Don't lie" the words have left my mouth before I can stop them. My hand immediately goes over my mouth and I can feel the glare of my husband on me.

"Jackie, why don't we forget this little incident and you can show me all around your town?" He asks me even though I know It's not up for discussion.

For some reason though, I feel safer because I'm at the Foreman's house. He can't hurt me here and he definitely can't hurt me with Stephen here. "I'm sorry Andrew, we don't really have time for that. Mrs. Foreman will be back soon and I promised I'd help her prepare for tonight."

I can see him clench his fists. It's not like him to show his anger in front of people but its also not like me to say no to him.

"I don't think Mrs. Foreman will mind us having an hour or 2 for ourselves." His act is wavering now and the anger is clear in his voice.

"Mrs. Foreman will need all hands-on deck to prepare all the food for tonight." Hyde insists.

Andrew turns to him "Well I guess Jackie is useless then because she can't cook" he puts his arm around my waist and I know it's no use arguing any more.

"Don't call her useless."

I look at Hyde, feeling a last bit of hope that he would be able to save me.

"The thing is Heidi, I can call her whatever I want. She's my wife. You're just the trailer trash who kept her entertained in high school. I'm the one she married and who's given her the life that you would never have been able to give her" he then turns and pulls me out the house with him.

I shoot Hyde a look of apology as I leave but I barely get the chance because I'm pulled out the room so quick.

Andrew is dragging me down the driveway and towards his car "How dare you?! How dare you talk to me like that?! I've been perfectly pleasant to your friends. I didn't even say anything when I arrived to find you having a moment with your ex-boyfriend."

As he's talking I'm realizing that I don't care anymore. There's nothing more he can do to me because I have nothing left. I don't care what happens to me anymore. I stop walking and yank my arm away "you had no right to tell Stephen about the baby."

He freezes in shock "What?"

"And you had no right to even speak of my poor baby girl last night when you're the one killed her. You murdered her to control me but it failed because she was the last bit of hope I had. That's gone so I don't care what happens to me anymore. You've broken every part of me now. "

"How dare you talk to me like that! Who the hell do you think you are?!" He goes to grab my arm again but I yank it away.

"I'm Jackie Burkhart and I want a divorce" That sounded good in my head but in reality, it ends with me being punched and then darkness.