I wrote this poem when I was struggling with deciding whether or not to marry my now husband. I was young and afraid I was "jumping the gun". After some prayer and reflection, this is what appeared on the page. This is from about 9 years ago when I had just turned 20 and was self-aware enough to know that I might not be old enough to be making a decision about who to marry. A few months later he proposed, and we've been married for 7 years now! I was going through my documents and came across this, and realized I hadn't posted it all those years ago. Hope you like it; my heart and deepest thoughts and fears went into this.
As I sit on grassy plains
And feel the wind across my face
The tender whispers that I hear
Add to the perfection of Your embrace.
Like a babe with eyes just opened,
And ears of innocence,
The light shines on the darkness,
The gate opens on the fence.
Curious now, my tread is slow
As my journey brings me near,
Excitement coursing through my veins,
Which are also tinted by fear.
I have never seen this door before,
Though many have stepped through.
Some have been hurt, and shunned and forgotten,
But others found happiness too.
Carefully now, I can just reach the handle,
If only I stretch out my hand,
But a heartstring well worn tugs on my soul,
Asking, "Is this in your Father's plan?"
My fingers draw back slightly as I contemplate
The step that I would take.
My mind whispers, "It would be monumental.
A risky choice to make."
I recognize the lingering doubt
That had kept me from other doors,
But there was another in this company,
At the center of its core.
A ray of hope was shining
Through the clouds of hesitation
Telling me it was okay
To seek that destination.
Still unsure, I looked around wildly,
Searching for some aid.
My eyes caught sight of the welcome figure
On the horizon He so wonderfully made.
He came to me quickly,
Looking into my eyes,
He saw the confusion,
The hope,
And the silent cries.
"My daughter, do not worry,
What you seek is not wrong.
It is a gift I have given,
To help you sing your life's song.
But do not let your values
Be swept away like dust.
For inside this door,
It is I you must trust.
There may come a time
When you must make a choice.
While you decide,
Listen to My voice.
I will always be with you
As I have been from the start.
All you must do
Is look into your heart."
It was then I cried with joy,
Tears cascading like streams.
A happiness so great,
That I'd only felt in my dreams.
I took my Father's hand,
And opened the gate,
And as I walked through,
I saw another hand to take.
Leading me gently,
I grasped both hands firmly.
And together we walked
On this new journey.