Kurt was having a hard time fully grasping what exactly was happening in his life right now. For starters, he never had to go back to McKinley and was going to get to attend this amazing school, free from bullies. He had just realized who his soulmate was, and now, said soulmate was singing one of his favorite songs, seemingly right to him.
"Let the bough break, let it come down crashin'
Let the sun fade out to a dark sky
I can't say I'd even notice it was absent
'Cause I could live by the light in your eyes
I'll unfold before you
Would have strung together
The very first words
Of a lifelong love letter"
He can really sing, Kurt thought. His voice is beautiful! I wonder if he knows who I am, too? He keeps staring at me. Did he see the writing on my hand and just not say anything? I didn't have a chance to mention the handwriting before he had to join the group. Does my dad notice anything?
With that thought, Kurt tore his eyes off of Blaine and looked toward his dad. He seemed to be enjoying the performance and was awestruck at the support the group was receiving from the student body and the headmaster. The kids at McKinley would never willingly sway or sing along with The New Directions when they performed.
When Kurt turned his attention back to his soulmateā¦Damn, he's my fucking soulmate...his mind melted a little at the thought that he, Kurt Hummel, got to spend the rest of his life with this beautiful boy. There was something about him, too, that Kurt could tell was natural and pure. He could sense that Blaine was a good guy and not just some spoiled rich kid whose parents sent him to boarding school to get them out of their hair like how some of the movies and television shows portrayed pre-school boys. He had an aura about him that was gentle and kind and just plain...good.
"Tell the world that we finally got it all right
I choose you
I will become yours and you will become mine
I choose you
I choose you
(Yeah)"
Was he looking at me when he sang that? I think he was. It still makes me wonder if he knows who I am. If he doesn't, how can I let him know? Kurt thought throughout the chorus, his mind beginning to race and his heartbeat quickening.
"There was a time when I would have believed them
If they told me you could not come true
Just love's illusion
But then you found me and everything changed
And I believe in something again
My whole heart
Will be yours forever
This is a beautiful start
To a lifelong love letter"
Before this very moment, those lyrics had always bothered Kurt for the simple fact that he had actually believed all of the negativity and taunting from the bullies at school. When he didn't get his soulmark on his sixteenth birthday, he was relentlessly teased by the jocks. "Looks like Fate actually forgot about you," one would say. Another would add, "Well, no shit, Sherlock. Of course, there's nobody that would love you. I'd feel sorry for anyone who did." The worst thing of all? He was starting to believe them. He'd asked himself many times, "What if I'm the exception? What if I never get a soulmate? What if Fate forgot about me?"
Now, though, now after meeting his soulmate and being in his presence, he knew better. He believed in love and Fate and soulmates again. His emotions had been gradually getting better since he first got his mark a few days ago. He'd still worried a little about not ever meeting his soulmate. It had never happened before, that soulmates didn't meet. Kurt worried, though, that he would be the exception. It was hard not to believe something that had been ingrained in his brain for so long.
Kurt knew that he and his soulmate would be with each other forever. That knowledge went a long way toward making him feel better. Now...if he could only figure out how to broach the topic with the beautiful singer in front of him.
"Tell the world that we finally got it all right
I choose you (I choose you, I do)
I will become yours and you will become mine
I choose you (I choose you, I choose)
I choose you (I choose you)
We are not perfect
We'll learn from our mistakes
And as long as it takes
I will prove my love to you
I am not scared of the elements
I am underprepared, but I am willing
And even better
I get to be the other half of you"
I'm going to ask him if he knows who I am, Kurt thought. I have to. I have to know if he saw the writing on my hand and recognized it as his own. And if he didn't, I need to show him. I guess I could try to write to him, but I do not want to make the same mistakes Rachel did. I don't want to severe something so precious. There was a time I'd be terrified of rejection. But, everything in my being is telling me that he won't be disappointed that I'm his soulmate. He can't freaking take his eyes off of me.
Out of the corner of his eye, Kurt noticed his dad looking between the two boys like he was watching a tennis match. At that minute, he knew that his dad knew something was up between the two.
"Tell the world that we finally got it all right
I choose you (I choose you, I do)
I will become yours and you will become mine
I choose you (I choose you, I do)
I choose you (I choose you, I do)
I choose you (I choose you)"
Lost in a haze of emotions and thoughts, Kurt sang the rest of the song with the Warblers, harmonizing perfectly with them. He wasn't even conscious of what he was doing, and he wasn't singing quietly either. He believed in this song and anyone who could hear him could tell that it meant something to him. The meaning was coming out in the clarity and volume of his voice. As the song finished, all of the Warblers' eyes, not just Blaine's, were on him.
He was curious as to why everyone was looking at him and replayed the last 30 seconds or so in his mind. Oh shit! Kurt thought. They heard me singing and it pissed them off somehow. Without another thought in his head, he turned and bolted out of the common room toward what he hoped was the way out. He knew this scenario. A room full of eyes on him was never, ever a good thing. The fact that his dad and the headmaster were in the room did not occur to Kurt as he ran. He was so lost in his head, he didn't hear the familiar voice behind him telling him to wait.
A/N: The song in this chapter is "I Choose You" by Sara Bareilles. My muse ran away from where I thought it would...again. I technically didn't lie though. The boys DID meet. Hopefully tomorrow my brain will do what my heart wants it to and let them talk for more than just a moment.
