I'm so sorry this is late. I was so sick yesterday and today I'm not that much better. So please be patient with me. This chapter is a little short, but I don't want to lose the momentum I've gotten so far. Anyways, thanks to everyone who's been reviewing. They mean so much to me!

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October 2007: School Cafeteria

"Hold up," Angela says leaning across the table. "You kissed him!"

Shit! Could you be any louder!

My hand immediately covers her mouth.

"Shh! Why not just announce it to the whole school then!" I hiss.

She smiles a little. "Sorry, you just nearly gave me a heart attack."

I fall back in my chair and fiddle with my crappy ramen.

"So what happened?" Angela whispers.

Besides making out on the bed before he stormed out? I let out a sigh at the memory of his body pressed against mine.

"Well, he certainly seemed into it, but he just got mad and left," I say before taking a bite.

Angela looks at me with sympathy.

"Look Bella," she starts and I already know where this going. "I know you like him and all, but he's right. This can't happen, I mean what would your dad do? And what happens if you guys try and it ends badly? I mean, could you two fully recover from something like that?"

It's a valid question. I hate it. I don't want to be logical. She's right though. If things were to end badly, it could ruin our family. I push my ramen cup from me, no longer hungry.

"Yeah I know, it's just that," I start then pause. "But we kind of already went there, I don't things will be the same again regardless of what we do."

Images of Edward in the shower slam into me, and my own hands catapulting me into my release. How do I ignore that? Forget it happened? Shaking my head some, I laugh a little.

"We've already crossed a line, so I fail to see why denying this would be more problematic," I defend.

It's weak, even to me and Angela's eyes narrow.

"That's stupid and you know it," she hisses at me. "Look, you both can act like nothing happened. Go date other people, and get over each other," she continues harshly before leaning back. "I don't get this Bella, you're normally so rational. I mean, you're the queen of not letting your emotions dictate your choices, but this-" she says waving her hand in the air.

It's like a slap to the face. Damn, what the hell is wrong with me? When have I ever allowed my feelings start calling the shots? My fists clench. It's his fault, he lulled you into slowly letting those walls down only to throw back at you.

"I hate feeling like this, out of control. I don't know how to handle what he started," I say.

"Look, what Edward did was wrong, he started something he had no real intention of following through with. My guess, he didn't know just how much he'd get caught up in it himself. But try to cut him some slack, boys are stupid. He didn't think about the consequences until you reciprocated and he couldn't ignore it anymore." Angela says.

But I do blame him.

'What a wicked game you play, to make me feel this way.'

"I refuse to be the little girl who walks around heartbroken because some stupid boy didn't want her," - or want her enough- "I'll just act like I got over it quickly," I finish.

Shouldn't be too hard. I'm the queen of pretending.

And besides, what exactly is about him that you like so much anyways? He dared to give you some attention? Jesus Christ, I'm just like every typical, cliché teenager girl that has ever lived.

"Good plan," Angela says smiling. "Look, you'll be over it and besides, he's graduating in the spring. So it's not as if it was going to work out anyways."

There's so many reasons why it shouldn't, wouldn't or just plain can't work out. My brain knows this. I just wish my heart did.

Oh Angela, the voice of reason. I don't like the voice of reason. Bella and Edward is the next chapter- FINALLY! These two needed a little time apart though to think about what they want. So definitely stay tuned! Also, the 'what a wicked game you play, to make me feel this way' is a lyrical reference to those who don't know- I wish I had written it.

I'm thinking of writing the next chapter in Edward's POV, so if that's something you guys would like- please let me know!