AN: Before we start, to answer some quick questions…
"..." is just a moment of silence b/w characters that can either be taken as awkward, tense, strange, weird, etc…
Katara is a bitch who doesn't care about ppl's feelings cause duh, she blatantly ignores Asami's feelings and countless no's.
Asami wasn't able to push away Katara to begin with b/c she reminded her of Korra, who, had been absent recently from the entire family for a very long time. Since she was too focused on her case, Asami was lonely and extremely stressed at work. She was overwhelmed by pressure amongst other things and Korra's absence affected her deeply.
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Any other questions could be answered if you read carefully/use context clues… lol. I'm not gonna answer all the questions cause the list will just go on and on… especially cause y'all send me freaking paragraphs asking for explanations, why? I suffer enough as it is to write this so things might not be completely coherent. Like I've said, I've given up so shoot me now and idk what i'm writing any more. Some details just literally don't matter and exist to move the plot forward. But, if you are actually confused by any main point(s), please leave a comment! I am not trying to be mean or anything but I am not a believer in that saying where there aren't any stupid questions…
Hell no, stupid questions exist and I am a bitter soul.
Ch 5: Asami Alone
June 12th, 188AG - *Korra's POV*
I feel like shit.
Turning on the faucet, I cupped my hands for some water. When there was enough, I splashed my face before looking at my reflection. "Damn… I look like shit..." my voice was unusually more hoarse than usual. Not a surprise though. I ended up not sleeping at all after a long, long day. Asami and I slept separately too…
It was lonely.
I sigh before cleaning up and started brushing my teeth. This sucks. I thought I was gonna be on cloud nine after proving Kuvira's innocence yet here I am, trying to believe that my wife… that Asami slept with a woman other than me. I spent most of the night putting together my thoughts. Trying to see it from her point of view and even trying to see it from Han's. Things… made sense. But still…
It makes me mad.
I set down my brush on the sink probably harder than needed. A part of me knows that it's my fault… Asami wouldn't do this. She's not that type of person. I drove her there. But still… that doesn't ease my anger. Like what the hell? I angrily spit out some toothpaste before rinsing my mouth.
Taking a deep breath, "Remember it's not Asami's fault." I crack my neck before rubbing it, "I just need some time and space. That should ease my anger… I hope."
I pat down my face with a towel and walk down the stairs. I immediately noticed that Asami's awake and she looks like a mess. Her eyes are extremely puffy and red and I haven't seen such dark bags under her eyes in a long time.
Just like when her dad passed…
"..."
"..."
Rustling my hair I sigh again before walking towards Asami and sat across her on the couch. After a weird and tense pause, I started first. "Asami..." Be cool… be cool… I'm looking her straight in the eyes but she won't face me so I cup her (adorable and sad) face, bringing it up.
"Asami I know that you're feeling guilty" as you should be "and I know you wouldn't do something like this without reason..." Asami gives me a confused look like she doesn't know what I'm going to say next. Just like me… "like I said before I just… need space okay?"
I stand up not trying to lash out on my wife and cause more anguish than needed.
"We'll have a proper talk some other time…"
"Korra… I-I know you need space but we should to talk now-"
"I'll go—" I raised my voice on accident before rubbing my neck, "wake up Han and then make us some breakfast okay. Can you make some pancake batter for me?"
After a silent pause, I hear a weak, "O-Okay…"
"Thanks…" I continued walking with my head held down, "After we eat, I'm going to pack up then stay at a hotel for a bit."
I felt like Asami probably opened her mouth to say something but she didn't as I walked up the stairs. It was hard to not look back but I felt like I shouldn't. Then after I made it to Han's room, I softly cracked the door open. He was still sleeping. Thank the spirits... I went over and sat on the edge of his bed. I frowned when I saw his puffy eyes.
Taking a deep breath, I forced a smile before rocking his shoulder, "Hey bud… it's time to wake up."
He grumbles before rubbing his eyes looks at me, "M-Mom…? I-Is it time for school? I-I don't feel so good…"
"It's okay buddy," I cup his cheek and kiss his forehead, "I'll call the school later so how about we have some breakfast first?"
"O-Okay…"
I lifted him up and held him to the bathroom. Once we were there, I set him down and put some toothpaste on his toothbrush. Glancing down, he looks a bit fidgety. I frown before taking a deep breath, "Well come on! Brush your teeth kiddo! Mommy's waiting on us and we're gonna have some pancakes!"
He reluctantly grabs his toothbrush.
"Come on, I'll make you your favorite mini pancakes with mini chocolate chips! You can even have a scoop of vanilla ice cream if you want?"
I smirk slightly when I see him swallow.
Got him. I pat his back before saying, "Well hurry up! I'll have a plate waiting for you. Ah- make you brush for two minutes though!"
*Asami's POV*
As I mix the flour and milk together, I keep repeating Korra's words in my head.
"I need space..."
I-I…
I tensed up when I felt some arms snaking around my waist. Turning my head slightly, Korra has this anguished face before saying, "Hey… I know it's awkward around us and all but can you fake it for Han? He's… he's feeling down and I think he blames himself for this."
My mouth drops, "W-What? Why would he? Han didn't do anything wrong, I did. I-"
Korra flicks my forehead making me scrunch my face, "Hey. Stop blaming yourself okay? I know we'll be fine… I just..." she sighs before letting my waist go, "We'll talk later okay?"
"Korra I-"
"Babe."
My heart squeezes. Korra's still willing to call me affectionately…
"Just stop okay?"
That warm feeling I felt immediately died. Korra sounded cold. She's angry at me and I know it. I need to say something. Anything. Even if I don't know what to say, I have to say something. I have to at least try to help our situation before it's too late. I opened my mouth but I was too late. Han finished getting ready and was heading down the stairs.
Korra leaned next to my face and whispers, "Play it cool okay?" She kisses me loudly on the cheek and turns around, "Sorry buddy! The pan is still heating up but I'll have you a plate in no time!"
Korra finishes up what I started and starts making some pancakes. I am speechless before I make eye contact with Korra who nodded towards Han. Glancing over my shoulder at Han, my baby boy looks tense and devastated.
Ahh… what have I done?
I mentally slap myself before clearing my throat and walk over to my son. "Hey good morning sweetie," I obnoxiously start kissing him, getting him to giggle. "I um, I'm sorry about last night… I uh, what you saw yesterday wasn't…"
I hear a sizzle (from the pancakes) before Korra says, "Some bad lady kissed your mommy without her permission." I hear a few more sizzles, "I'll be talking with that lady later. We have some… things to sort out."
My body unconscious tensed upon hearing how… how dominating Korra sounds. I bit my lip but immediately mentally slapped myself again. This is not the time to be turned on by your wife!
Korra flips a few pancakes, "How many would you like Han? I think I want three jumbos…"
I see that Han looks a bit excited, "U-Um uh… s-seven minis? With extra chocolate chips and one scoop of ice cream!"
I couldn't help but smile now. It's been a long time since we've had breakfast together. Getting myself together, I gasp dramatically. "Extra chocolate chips and ice cream?! For breakfast?"
Han slumps down and looks at me guiltily, "I-I can't…?"
I grin before rustling his hair, "You sure you want just one scoop? Don't you want two?"
He's practically glowing now, "Can I? Can I?!"
"Of course!" I went over to the fridge and pulled out the tub of vanilla ice cream. When I turned around, Korra was smiling at me as she set down a plate of mini chocolate chip pancakes in front of Han. I smiled back before grabbing a spoon and scooped some ice cream for my son. "No chocolate syrup or normal syrup okay? I don't want you to get a sugar rush and crash later."
"Okay okay, deal!"
I didn't realize how much I missed this. Han, happily eating his pancakes. Korra, being a sexy mom like usual, cooking up a storm. I love my family so much… this normality is what I missed so, so much.
"M-Mommy? Are you crying?"
"H-Huh?"
I touched my cheek and felt some wetness. "O-Oh y-yeah… I guess I am," I chuckled while wiping away my tears, "It's nothing sweetie, I just got some dirt in my eyes." I sniffled, "I'm just so happy that we're having breakfast together..."
"Asami…"
I can tell that Han is forcing himself to be extra cheerful. He feels different and he must've been crying since his eyes are a little puffy too. Not to mention he's extra cheery despite not being such a morning person (which is usually a hit or a miss). "Me too mommy! It's been such a long time!"
Korra sets down our plates before grabbing my hand. She gave me a weak smile and I smiled back.
"Come on mom, mommy let's eat before it gets cold!"
*Han's POV*
Breakfast was more or less okay. It's been such a long, longgg time since we've all had breakfast together. It was good. It was good but weird. Things felt funny and mom and mommy weren't as lovey dovey as they usually were. So does that mean… After we finished breakfast and cleaned up, mom was rubbing her neck.
"Han can you come here for a second."
Oh no. "O-okay…"
Mom gets down onto her knee and rustles my hair. "Hey, I know things are kind of weird between me and mommy but don't worry too much, okay? I promise you we're okay. We just…" she looked over her shoulder at mommy, "we just need some time apart, to think. I'll probably just be gone for maybe two weeks or so…"
I frowned and started fiddling with my shirt. "I-I see…"
"What's up buddy?"
I blinked before looking at the floor. I… I don't know how to act in front of mommy. I made them fight. It's my fault. "C-Can I stay with you?"
Mom seemed a little surprised.
"I-It's just I haven't seen you in forever and I um j-just missed you..." flicking my thumb on my finger while I clutching my shirt, I feel really nervous. I don't know how to face mommy but that quickly disappears when mom hugs me.
"Sure of course buddy… let's go pack your things then we can worry about your school project later okay? We can come back later whenever you want alright? Does that sound good?"
"Y-Yeah…"
I took a peak at mommy and she looked a bit hurt. Feeling scared, I quickly ran up the stairs to my room. I quickly grabbed my backpack and then shoved my schoolwork and homework inside before grabbing some clothes.
"I'm so sorry mommy! Please don't be mad!"
*Asami's POV*
I'm not sure how to react when I heard Han say he wanted to go with Korra. He must hate me now… running my finger along the rim of my coffee cup, I couldn't help but sigh. I wallowed in depression before Korra came down the stairs with a suitcase and Han with his travel pack.
The two people I need and love are leaving me…
I walked them to the door and watched as Korra and Han went inside our Jeep. I picked at my finger before grabbing my elbow. Korra started the car before looking at me through the window one last time. I didn't know what to say but the honest truth.
"P-Please come home soon okay…" my voice barely came out and I wasn't sure if Korra even heard me but I guess she did since she mumbled, "I'll try…"
I grip my elbow harder before leaning forward to look inside. "Be good okay Han? Don't play around with things that don't belong to you and be sure to listen to Korra okay?"
He's tightly holding onto his seat belt as he says, "I will…"
There was this tense silence before we exchanged our last goodbyes and they drove off. I waited until the car was completely out of sight. I just stood there. Alone. I hoped that this wasn't reality. That this was all just a dream and that they'd drive back. But I waited for nothing. This was the truth. They didn't come back so I turned around and went back inside my house.
I was welcomed with an eerie silence.
It was cold. For once in my life, my home felt like a cold prison. Tears welled up and I fell onto my knees. I feel so numb. My heart aches so, so, so much. It hurts. It felt like a thousand needles were stabbing me through every pore in my body. I cried. I sobbed and wailed into nothingness. I wanted someone, anyone, to tell me that it was okay. But it wasn't.
I ruined everything.
Several days became a week. A week became a few. I was alone. I felt hollow. If Korra was wondering how I was doing, I wasn't living. I can hardly recall anything of what I've done at work.
As for Katara.
I forbade her stepping in my line of sight, let alone talk to me. I knew my coworkers would be gossiping about us but I couldn't care any less. It's my company so I dare them to talk back. I warned everyone that if they even mentioned her damned name in front of me, I'd demote them or even worse, fire them.
I am not taking any more shit from this woman.
It's over. I don't care if this cost me millions, it's over.
We all can do this peacefully in my terms or nothing at all. It's their choice. I don't even care that my blueprints have been already shown to their company. This is nothing. All that matters to me is my family. As I sat in my office in silence, I stared out the window. Eventually I grabbed my phone before looking at my long log of texts.
June 13th, 188AG
Asami (10:33): Hey Kor, I just wanted to let you know that I've completely cut off my ties with Ms. Waters… we won't be in each others presence or else that will be the end of the contract.
Asami (12:46): Oh, just in case Han forgets, his school project has to be at school at 9am sharp. I had Sebastian double check it and he said it seemed safe.
Asami (15:31): How is Han doing?
Asami (17:27): I just got home, are you doing okay…
June 14th, 188AG
Asami (12:33): Hey baby… how was Han's science project? I know you're still mad but please respond.
Korra (14:53): Don't worry, it went well
Asami (14:54): That's great!
Asami (14:54): Oh and before I forget, I had one of my assistants leave Han's phone on the kitchen counter. Can you give it to him so I can check up on him?
Korra (14:56): Yeah
June 15th, 188AG
Asami (08:12): Morning Kor
Asami (08:13): I'm sorry for texting so much so I'll try not to bother you so much okay?
Asami (20:32): Hey, I just got home. Good night and rest well okay?
June 16th, 188AG
Asami (08:09): Morning Korra, I hope your injuries are okay...
Asami (21:52): Good night, rest well.
June 17th, 188AG
Asami (07:54): Morning Kor
Asami (22:32): Good night, I love you… sleep tight.
June 18th, 188AG
Asami (07:35): Morning Kor
Asami (22:59): Just got home, good night. Rest well.
June 19th, 188AG
Asami (07:22): Hey… morning. It's been a week since you've left. How are you doing, have you been treating your wounds properly? I miss you a lot…
Asami (23:15): I'm back home now, good night.
June 23rd, 188AG
With each growing day, my sanity just grew worse and worse. Those same repeating texts remained unanswered and I had never felt so alone, so isolated in my life before. I always had someone by my side. Whether it was my close friends or even my son, I had someone. I always had Korra. From when we were best friends in high school to dating in college, Korra always had, without a doubt, been there for me.
Except this time.
Coming home at my normal routine made me numb so I gradually took up more hours and came home later and later. I even started going to work early as well. In reality, I purposely did overtime everyday at work and at home to distract myself. To focus on ending this project as quickly as possible, it had to end or else I don't think I can retain what little sanity I have.
Korra was mad. Of course she would be but what I wasn't expecting was for Korra to just… not return or contact me at all. Is this her way of punishing me? I'd rather have her be mad. Yell at me. Hit me even. But just silence? It hurt. It ached so much and having no sort of contact made everything feel so empty and cold.
It was another lonely night, and I had just showered off my sorrows before hopping on my bed. I clenched my fist, promising myself I wouldn't cry anymore. For my own sake and for Korra's sake. I knew that my wife wouldn't want that… I sighed before flopping down and opened my phone. I stared at it for a second before dialing Korra. It kept on ringing. And ringing. And ringing. She didn't pick up.
I sigh once again before lazily hitting the redial button.
It began ringing again.
Whispering to myself as I curled into a fetal position, "Please pick up. Please pick up. Please pick up…"
June 14th, 188AG - *Korra's POV*
"Mom, is mommy going to come to my science fair…"
I blinked before looking down at my son.
Just a second ago, we had come back home between the hours where Asami had left for work and just before school started. We were planning to bring his science project to class before nine o'clock and then have him excused for the day.
Unpacking his mini car from my Jeep, I draped a tarp over his invention before going down on my knee and said, "I think mommy's really busy bud. We'll just have to show your project to her after you win okay?" I grin and throw him a wink trying to comfort him.
It didn't work the way I hoped it would tough, he was still troubled. I sigh before glancing over at the campus grounds, the light was green so I carefully placed his invention over my shoulder. I twitched feeling a sharp pain, which ran through my shoulder, before grabbing his hand and crossing the street.
Han was dragging his feet with his head held low before he mumbled, "It's not the same though…"
I look down at him before quietly saying, "Han…"
He sighs once again and we quickly made it to his classroom. I dropped off his project with his teacher and I briefly explained our "situation" before thanking him for understanding. Now, we're currently on our way to the main office before unfortunately running into Amber and Kazu. Of course we would. Why wouldn't we?
"Han and Auntie Kor!"
"It's Han!"
They both ran up to us and Han gripped my hand even firmer. "Mom…" seeing his plea for help, I went down onto my knee to talk to them.
"Heya kiddos! How's it going!" I couldn't help but smile though because they were somehow wearing matching green coats. Well that's rare, Kazuki usually doesn't wear that much green.
Kazuki twiddled his fingers together, "Auntie Kor what are you doing here?"
Amber quickly interrupted before I could answer, "Oh oh! Mom told me that you finally helped Aunt Kuvira and she's a free woman nowww."
I blink before laughing by her choice of words. "'Free woman' where'd you learn that phrase from Ambie?"
She stuck her arms out and started spinning in a circle, "Dad was spinning me around while saying 'Kuvira's a free woman yaaahhh!' before he almost dropped me and mom got mad at him."
I laughed, "Classic Bo… but anyways, we ought to go. Han's actually a bit sick today so I don't want him out too long," I turned around and rubbed his head.
"You okay?" Kazuki tilts his head and tries to look Han in the eyes.
Han grabs my pants and sticks close to me, "Y-yeah sorry guys… I really wanted to show off Sato Jr. but I don't feel so hot..."
Kazuki looks like he's debating something internally before he beams up and says, "Well you just gotta show us when you're then better okay! I won't be looking at your project until you're here! No spoilers! That's a promise!" He ends his declaration with a great big grin.
Han looked happy, "Okay! It's a promise!"
The kids were all grinning at each other and I waved them off before going into the main office. Then after I explained my situation (minus the personal details) with the principle, he was kind enough to have the teachers send me a copy of his school work so Han wouldn't fall behind. But by the time we were back inside our car, he was still mopping making me want to mope too.
We sat there for a moment before I thought about it. Hmmm… what if we… I unlocked my phone and checked the weather real quick. Seems like it'll be more or less warm. Glancing down at Han, "Hey buddy, what do you say? You wanna go camping for a week? Just you and me and the wilds!"
He looks up at me with his sad pout, "C-Camping?"
"Yeah camping! What do you say? We can even bring our camera and film a video so we can show it to mommy later!" I don't know how he is coping with seeing Asami… geez, how should I explain this to him?
"S-Sure… that sounds fun…"
I shifted in reverse, "Well come on then! Let's go snack shopping before we pack our camping bags!"
He weakly raises his arm,"Y-Yayy…"
Okay well this should be fun. I need to focus on making Han feel better before I sort things out with Asami. Why does life hate me so much?
June 21st, 188AG
Well it's been a week since Han and I have been in the wild. The other day when we were watching the late night sky around a campfire, I had a serious talk with Han and I tried my best to explain things to him. He seemed to take it more or less well and understood the situation (at least that was what I hoped). However, I could tell that something was clearly bugging him so I had another talk. I reassured him to tell me his concerns with no hesitation. I told him to not be afraid and pretend as if nothing wasn't wrong between Asami and I.
And so, he asked.
He asked me many of the obvious questions. Were we going to get divorced? Do we not love each other anymore? Does Asami not love him anymore? Who was that woman? Questions like this. Frankly… it hurt. I figured as much that he'd ask ones like these but actually hearing it come from his mouth hurt. It even hurt me even more than hearing it come from Asami's mouth. The fact that our son, that Han, would even think for a second that Asami and I didn't love him? That we didn't want him or each other anymore?
No.
No matter what happens between us that will never change. We love him. We will always love our beloved son even if the world were to go against him. As for Asami… I told Han that I loved her. That I still loved her very dearly. Of course, I told him that we still needed to talk but even so, I still trust my wife. I told him that I knew Asami had her reasons and that everything was going to be okay. We have been together for well over a decade now.
That wasn't going to change.
I think talking to Han and telling him about our favorite past time stories helped soothe my heart a bit. Looking back at it now as I drive us home, it seemed a bit ridiculous. I love Asami and that won't ever change. I'm starting to wonder why I'm isolated and away from everybody. Maybe taking Han camping was just an excuse for me to take a breather.
Well, I had my fill.
My heart is still aching but, I'm starting to realize that it's because I miss Asami so much. So, so much that I want to run into her arms right now. To tell her that it's okay. To tell her that it's my fault as well. But somehow… my pride isn't allowing it. I was surprised that my phone had some (crappy) service. Asami seemed to have been texting me day and night but I couldn't bring myself to answer back (well I tried once at some point but the reception was horrible).
When did I become such a coward?
We made it back to our hotel safely and we immediately hopped into the bathtub. Of course, I had to wrestle him a bit to properly clean and shampoo him but after that was over, we both relaxed in the hot tub for a good amount of time. Han almost fell asleep in the tub so I called it a night and cleaned him up before tucking him. He was sound asleep and I made some tea before watching the night sky.
June 22nd, 188AG
Well, I took Han to class today. He seemed better and I'm surprised he managed to finish all the homework on time. Like when did he manage to do that? But still, as expected of my smart son… he's so responsible. As for me? I don't know what I'm doing. I'm just lazing around in my hotel room watching trashy dramas. I'm also a moping idiot. I keep staring at my phone, wondering what Asami is doing and how she's doing but I don't have the guts to call or text her.
June 23rd, 188AG
It's a Saturday and Han is over at Amber's place. As for me? I'm still moping in my hotel room. Specifically, I'm lying on my bed staring at my phone again. Asami is the only thing on my mind. Asami. Asami Asami Asami. Is she okay? I've thought about a lot of things… I tried to see things from her point of view and as for my conclusion?
I'm the worst.
What have I done? Time is slipping away and it's becoming harder and harder to talk to her. What's wrong with me? Am I scared? Am I scared that that slight point zero one percent chance that Asami actually doesn't love me anymore? I'm filled with anxiety now. What if she actually doesn't love me anymore? I practically abandoned her for like several months for spirits sakes. What the hell am I doing? I'm shocked out of my trance when my phone goes off.
It was Asami.
I froze. I let my phone ring until it went to voicemail. I sighed with some relief when it stopped ringing. "What am I doing…"
It started going off again.
"..."
By the time I was going to pick up the phone, it was dead. Thinking I missed my opportunity, I decided that if she called one more time, I would answer. So I waited. I waited. I waited thinking that Asami gave up. Do I call back? I don't know what's the right answer.
*Asami's POV*
Korra isn't picking up… is she still furious at me? I'm scared… what if Korra never wants to give me an opportunity again? I rolled over onto my other side and stared at my phone. Being separated from my family for so long is so isolating. I didn't know that it would feel this empty… this, this void. At this point, nothingness seems to be worse than death itself. I'm just staring at my phone as my finger hovers over the dial button.
"Korra…"
I decided that if she doesn't pick up my call, I won't bother her again. At least, until she's ready. Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath. After another one or two or maybe some more… I opened my eyes and then hit the button. It started ringing.
"..." the silence was deafening. I just want to hear Korra's voice. "Please please please pick up baby…" my heart drops as my phone reaches the last ring. I let my phone slide out of my hand. Ahh… life sucks.
"...lo..."
My eyes widened out of shock.
"Hello? Asami?"
"K-Korra!" I bolted up right and scrambled to grab my phone, "H-Hello? B-Babe can you hear me?"
I heard Korra chuckle, "Yeah of course I can hear you silly…what's up? Everything…okay?"
I opened my mouth and hesitated. I don't know how long it took for me to say something but Korra stayed on the line and waited patiently, "I'm going to be honest."
I can picture Korra nodding her head.
"I messed up. I messed up big time but please, just know that I never wanted it. I… I don't know what got into me. I just-" I sighed while pushing my hair out of my face, "I don't know why but I couldn't push Kata- ….. Miss Waters away. It's just… she reminded me so much of you Korra."
I fell onto my back and stared at my blank and lonely ceiling, "Hey eyes reminded me so much of you and I missed you so, so, so much."
My voice cracked.
"So please… can we talk? We need to talk. We need help. Can we please just have a sincere conversation or even see a therapist at least? Please?" I pleaded with all my heart, "For us. For Han. I, I miss you so much. I miss my son. I miss my wife. I miss my best friend. I miss you Korra, I miss you more than you'll ever know." I prayed with all of my heart that Korra will give me a chance.
*Korra's POV*
I opened my mouth but nothing came out. After a moment, I smiled from the irony. "I… I miss you too Asami. I miss waking up with you in my arms. I miss kissing you like an obnoxious child, I… I miss you more than you'll ever know."
I can hear Asami giggling from her end, "Let's do it… let's talk or even attend therapy or whatever it takes…" I feel more calm now. It's ironic how Asami was the cause of my suffering yet hearing her voice makes me feel better. "You know, between the two of us I actually don't know what to feel now in all honesty. I'm mad of course. But, I'm also confused. I don't know what to say or how our conversation might turn up but maybe a therapist can help guide us back to what we were." I know what to say. But I can't say it now. Not right now. Not like this. I want Asami back more than anything.
"Okay… okay… we're okay. We'll be okay… right?"
"Yeah… we'll be okay. I'll come back home on Monday okay? I just have to pack my things and tell Han we're coming back home."
A few seconds of silence pass before Asami says, "H…How is he?"
"Mmh… he's… he's okay. He's coping the best he can and I know he's strong. I've explained things to him, I explained to him that things like this can happen to even the strongest people out there." I can picture Asami's remorseful yet beautiful face. "I told him accidents like this can happen but, I also told him that this is just another hurdle we have to surpass. What makes a relationship isn't what happened but it's what you do that makes it work."
"That's… thank you Korra. Thank you for being there for our son when I couldn't be."
"Mhh… yeah I'll be back soon okay."
"Okay, I'll be waiting for you."
July 7th 188AG
Well… it turns out going to therapy helps. Who would've known? The irony of recommending my clients to therapy if they seemed like they needed it. I never would've thought I'd be needing a shrink myself and that they are such wonderful people. In all honesty, I still feel kind of numb on the inside but we are doing better. The therapist listened to our stories. She heard each of our sides without being biased and guided us down the right path. She asked us many questions that made the both of us reflect on what we had done and why. I smiled as I recall one of our therapy appointments:
"Asami I… I'm sorry. I've always had a bad habit of getting obsessed with my cases and I thought I had fixed that but I guess not. I was just so obsessed with helping Kuvira that I didn't see that you were in pain. That you were crying out for my help and I ignored it."
"Korra, it's not your fault. It's because I was too weak to-"
I grabbed Asami's hand, "Stop… baby please listen to me. You said it yourself. I left you alone and you tried to get my help but I didn't listen." I brought her hand to my lips and kissed it, "I'm sorry. It's not your fault to bear alone. I couldn't be there for you and just because you slept with someone else doesn't make me any less guilty than you are."
"Korra… I-"
I cut her off. "I drove you there. If I'd just listen the first time you called out to me instead of being a blind bull head, I could've handled Waters myself. I could've helped you. I should've done better and listened to the one I love. I love you. You are my best friend and you make me feel whole. I forgive you," I started chuckling at the thought that crossed my mind getting Asami to make a funny face.
"What? What's so funny?"
I kissed her hand again, "No it's nothing. It's just…" I smiled to myself, "I just realized that I'm so lucky."
She scrunched her face even further, "What do you mean?"
"I mean come on," I wiggled my brows at her, "I have the most beautiful woman in Republic City to myself." She blushes from the sudden compliment, "Asami. Asami Sato. Republic City's most attractive and once desired bachelorette."
Her eyes snapped open, "K-Korra! NooOOoo, stop! Don't quote that! That was in that gossip magazine from like fifteen years ago!"
I laughed out loud, "Sorry folks of Republic City, too bad for all those bachelors and bachelorettes out there but Asami Sato is mine! I scored big time in college and swept the most desired woman off the market."
"Korra!" She cracked a smile herself, "I thought you promised you wouldn't bring that up anymore! T-That paper was-"
Smirking smugly, "Sexy."
Our therapist seemed confused and Asami blushed even further, "Korra!"
She slapped my shoulder out of embarrassment. I almost forgot how scandalous that front page cover was. Asami was… let's just say she was at a college party wearing a lack of clothes and was caught by the paparazzi at a bad (perfect) time. She had to stay low and indoors for the longest time because of that. Everyone on campus, including some trespassers, were trying to take a perverted shots of her.
This was around the time I realized I loved Asami romantically. Then, after this and that happened, I accidentally kissed her at a party. She was shocked at first but it turned out she felt the same too and the rest is history. Going from being rivals to best friends to lovers, I remembered that Asami was one of the few people there for me my entire life. We fought a lot at first as kids but it turns out that we were just trying to impress one another. In the end, we became inseparable friends during high school and after our romantic start, I can't imagine my time spent with anyone else but her.
People can call me stupid and say that I shouldn't forgive her but Asami is the one. She has always been and will always be the one for me. I wouldn't be me if she wasn't there so it doesn't matter. I know Asami and she isn't that type of person.
July 14th 188AG - *Asami's POV*
It's been a few weeks since we've started therapy and I have to say, I'm glad that we did look for help. It turns out, therapists can be that little push you need to say what needs to be done. Ignoring some embarrassing moments, we mostly discussed our feelings through most of our appointments. Korra and I did most of the talking of course and the therapist simply guided us through the conversations. I haven't felt this relieved in a long time. We're working things out. Korra has forgiven me and I have forgiven her. However, I'm still working on forgiving myself though.
"Korra… I forgive you. I know the way you are and how focused you can get when you truly believe in what's right. It's one of the charming points I love about you," I held her hand firmly, "You're wasted on me…"
"Asami, what are you saying? I'm the one who is-"
I shushed her, "Korra… you're kidding me. You're one of the most selfless, pure, and bravest people I know. You're my wife and best friend before anything else. I respect you and you respect me. There are no titles or facades between us."
I bring her hand up to my lips and kiss it.
"It's hard to breathe without you. You make me feel whole. You make me feel like I'm worth something. That I'm not just the CEO of Future Industries. Not just some woman with an attractive face and money. You treat me fairly like any other human being and not like some title or trophy to show off. Around you, I feel normal. You give me what others can't and I, I can't thank you enough."
"Asami…"
"I'm sorry that I allowed Miss Waters to blind me into thinking that she was anything like you. She's not. She's a coward who took advantage of me during a time I was vulnerable from stress and isolation. You're the only one for me. Korra, you are my everything and I can't thank you enough for giving me a second chance." I hold her hand against my cheek as if it was a plea for the world to forgive me for doing this to Korra.
Korra chuckles, "Oh come on Sami, you know I am smitten for you. You understand me more than I do myself sometimes."
I smile from the utter truth, "I told you… you messed up by falling in love with me because I will do everything and anything to keep you mine. I warned you that my possessive side can be dangerous. This is what happens when you don't stay within my sight, I…" my eyes narrow down on the floor.
As if Korra understood my innuendo, "Then I guess I have to be the one to chain you up next time now."
Shocked by her choice of words, I gave Korra a look of horror. Our therapist is sitting right here!
"Mmh, that's right. I plan on making the world know loud and clear that Asami Sato is my wife and that if anyone dares to even give you a look funny, they'll have to go through me."
But I conceded in defeat. She was right. "If that's what it takes to make things right." I smile seeing the reassurance in her eyes, "What we're willing to do defines our love, not what some petty woman says right?"
"Right."
I almost forgot.
I respect Korra as an equal and more. She is the same and I couldn't help but feel lucky. It's hard to find someone that will respect and love you for just being you. Not because of your wealth or status… the world is large and I'm glad I found my soulmate. We're slowly but surely working things out. Korra keeps on telling me to stop blaming myself or, at least, blame her too if I can't stop but how can I do so so easily? It's difficult but I've barely managed to get where we are now. However, my main concern has been my son.
I have to patch things up with Han…
I still don't know what to say to him. I'm surprised he hasn't asked or even lashed out at me or even cry in front of me. I suppose I have to thank Korra for that since she smoothed things out with him. But still, he has to hear it from my mouth. From me. From the bottom of my heart. I may not know what to say but I feel like the words will come naturally like they did with Korra. So, with that being said, I finished my cup of tea in the kitchen before calling out for my son.
"Han… honey can you come here please."
After a moment, I hear him respond. "Yes mommy?"
I smile when he's in front of me before pulling him into a hug getting a quizzical face.
"Baby… I… we need to talk."
I squish him in my arms and he's crushed against my chest before he looked me in the eyes. He frowns before saying, "What's wrong mommy? Are you okay?"
I sigh before hugging him even tighter, "Mmh I'm okay but, I'm the one who should be asking that. Are you okay Han?"
He twitched in my arms, "W-What do you mean…"
I started stroking his choppy hair, "Mom and I have patched things up so we're okay. We're not fighting anymore okay? I'm sorry if we hurt or surprised you."
He quickly understood what I meant judging by his body posture.
"I… Korra said she explained everything to you but you haven't heard what happened from my point of view."
He remains silent as he settles into my hug.
"I… I was in a dark place sweetie. I'm not sure what came up with me but Korra was… she wasn't there. I guess I was so used to having her by my side that I forgot the most important thing."
I wrapped him closely and breathed in his scent. I felt calm breathing in his boyish smell. I'm not sure how long I was hugging him but he eventually mumbled into my chest.
"W-What did you forget?"
I smiled softly before stating with all of my heart, "I love Korra more than I love myself. I was frustrated that she didn't give me time and that made me lose my strength to push away someone's…" how should I phrase this? "...advances."
I squeezed Han and kissed his head.
"Han, I am so sorry you had to see what you saw. I promise you, it will never, ever happen again. You shouldn't have seen that. You shouldn't have seen my weak side. You should be mad at me. You should yell at me for doing this to your mom."
Han had been shaking a bit but he seemed to have stopped. He finally hugs me back.
"But… you didn't, you didn't cry or yell at me. When I think about what you're going through, what you saw that day, that-that your mommy was kissing a stranger I-" my voice choked, "I am so sorry baby. I am so so sorry. I didn't want it. I didn't want it but she ignored me. She forced me and I felt helpless." Tears are building up in my eyes again.
For the last time, tears are spilling from my eyes for Han. I don't know how Han is going to react or what he is going to say but he needs to hear the truth.
"I love your mom. I love Korra so, so much. She's the only one for me. She's my other half. She makes me feel whole and I can't live a day without her." I sniffled a bit, "When… when you two were gone, I didn't feel alive. I wasn't living without Korra, without you. Han, the thought of disappointing and losing you breaks my heart. I know that you're only eleven and that this might be too much for you to take in, but you need to hear this."
I nuzzled my son, "I love Korra. I love you. I would never abandon you. You are the proof of my love with Korra. We…we always dreamed of having a family. A family not just bonded by ties but by blood. The truth is… you shouldn't have been able to be born."
Han peaked up with a confused yet shocked look. But, I quickly continued my thoughts before he could get any wrong ideas.
"Two women can't make a baby. That's just human nature but Korra and I… we actually took a gamble."
He finally spoke up again, "A-A gamble…?"
I hummed from his curiosity, "Yes I… Korra and I decided to take a gamble. The method itself is actually still under research due to its low success rate but we decided we wanted to conceive a child of our own blood. As you know, I don't have any blood relatives and Korra was an only child. So… we talked to a lot of specialists and scientists. We invested a lot of money and time and agreed to be one of their test subjects."
"H-Huh…" I can tell he's confused by the look on his face. It's as if some bolts are cranking inside of his brain.
I giggled before kissing his adorable cheek, "It's probably too complicated for you to understand but basically, Korra let some doctors take some her bone marrow and did sciency things to it and when they were done, they gave it to me. It failed at first… and time and time again but Korra and I wanted a child so, so badly that we didn't give up. So… after trying for quite a long time, I was…"
I smiled warmly and hugged Han tightly again, "I was pregnant. I was pregnant with Korra's child. I was pregnant with you Han." He seems intrigued since he giggles before he squeezes me back. "That year, the year you were born, that was the happiest year of my life. Of our lives. That was the happiest moment in my life."
I pinched his cheeks, "You are my everything. You are without a doubt, Korra and mine. You are the proof of our undying love."
Han seemed content as he hugged me back. I smiled with him before picking him up and spun him around.
"You and Korra are the only things that matter to me! The meaning for my life and the proof of our love! I wouldn't trade it for the world, I love you so much!"
I start kissing him obnoxiously.
"M-Mommy!" He laughs happily which I haven't heard in such a long time, "You're tickling me!"
*Han's POV*
As I'm dangling off the floor, I kinda don't get what mommy is saying but then again I think I do? I never thought about how I was born since they've been with me my whole life. Well whatever the case, she still loves mom and me! Mom was right, some bad lady really forced mommy and she was feeling too sick to fight her off!
"I love you too mommy!" I peck her cheek, "Please don't be mad at mom. She didn't do anything wrong… it's because I told her about the misunderstanding. I made you two fight… I'm sorry."
Mommy set me down, "No honey, it's okay. It's not your fault. I was planning to talk to Korra anyways so it was only a matter of time that this fight of ours would happen."
"... you sure?"
Mommy smiles as she looks me in the eyes, "Yes I'm sure. It is not your fault Han. You were doing the right thing. If there is ever anything you can't tell me, please promise you'll tell Korra? I don't want you bearing something all alone. We're here for you okay?" She pats my head again.
"O-Okay… I promise."
Mommy pecks my cheek, "That's my boy. Now baby I have to go to work to grab some documents. Korra should be home soon so let's order some take out and watch some movers. What do you say?"
"Yeah!" I grinned, "Can we have some pizza?"
Mommy is smiling at me, "BBQ chicken with pineapples on the side?"
"Yes please!"
Mommy grabbed her purse and car keys, "What movie do you want to watch? Something funny or actiony?"
I scrunch my face, "Mmm…" after racking my a bit, there's only one to watch, "Nuktuk's newest movie!"
Mommy laughs, "Again with Bolin's movie."
"It's the best! We have to watch it again!"
"Okay okay, you win kiddo!" Mommy rustles my hair again, "Tell Korra I might be home a bit late. I think I had to check in with one of the maintenance crew's staff in the factories as well."
"Ooookayyyy!"
"I love you buddy," Mommy pecks my lips.
I grinned back before saying, "Love you too mommy! Good luck!"
"Thanks, I'll try to be back as soon as possible."
"Okay bye!" With that mommy went to work and I'm just chilling in the living room. I started sketching on some paper before mom came home.
"Hey bud," she took her shoes off, "where's Sami?"
"She went to go get some papers at work and check in with the factory!"
Mom hums before setting down some folders.
"Oh mom mom mom!"
"What's up buddy?"
"Mommy said we're gonna get some pizza for dinner and watch a mover!"
Mom grinned before she rustled my head (Why do they always rub my head?), "Oh? Is that so? In that case we should run to the supermarket to grab some snacks. What do you say, you wanna come to?"
"Yeah! Of course!"
"Alright let's go!"
*Korra's POV*
"..."
I started driving to the supermarket just like that but I'm struggling on the inside. I'm debating whether or not to take Han with me but there's someone I need to speak to at Future Industries. Well here goes nothing. "Hey buddy, you mind if we take a minor detour?"
Han looks at me while kicking his feet up and down, "Not really where to?"
"Future Industries." I can tell his face is scrunched without having to look at him. "You see, I have to talk to… the lady who forced herself on Asami. We still haven't talked and I heard her company's leaving in about two weeks."
"Ohhhh…"
"Yeah…"
"..."
"..."
Clearing my throat, "Any who, it won't take long. Why don't you call Amber and Kazuki to see if they want to join us for our mover night?"
"Can I?"
"Yeah of course, I'm sure Asami won't mind."
"Yay!" He pulled out his phone and started texting them. By the time we made it to Future Industries, I saw Asami's car. It's parked in her usual spot and I parked in my spot, which is next to hers.
I got the car first, "Alright why don't you wait here while—" he's already next to me. When'd he?
"I wanna come to!"
I frown, "Han. I'm not here to play, I came to talk to—"
"She kissed mommy! She's a bad lady and I wanna give her a piece of my mind too!"
"Han…"
"I wanna come!"
"..." we're both glaring at each other but I give in, "Fine but I call the shots okay?" Dang why is he so stubborn. Who does he get that from? Me? Asami?
"Yes!"
I sigh before grabbing his hand. We started walking inside in silence before he spoke up first, "Mom…"
"Yeah bud?"
"Can you punch that lady!"
We stopped in our tracks and I looked down at him with a shocked face. "W-What'd you just say bud?"
"I said, punch that lady! She hurt mommy and hurt us so it's only fair to hurt her too!"
I cringe. Where in the… Sighing, I got down on my knee. "Han, bud… we've raised you better than that. We can't just hurt people if they're not hurting others."
"But she hurt mommy!"
Ugh… how do I explain this… "That's… that's true but it's different."
Han's pouting, "How is it different?"
I scratch my head, "Ughh how do I explain this… hah…" I rustle his head, "you'll understand one day okay? When you're older, you'll understand."
"What but I wanna understand now!"
"Too bad you have to wait till you're older!" I started laughing while he was whining my name.
"Mommmmm!"
We made it to the reception with no trouble. "Oh Missus Seaton, Han," the receptionist stood up and bowed, "Missus Sato is in the east factory. She should be done with her inspections in about an hour or so."
I raised my hand up, "No worries, I'm actually looking for Waters."
She practically gasped as she covered her mouth. I smiled kindly before she snapped out of it, "Oh yes! My apologies," she quickly bows again, "her office is at the lowest level in the south wing."
My brow went up, "Oh… I see." That's far. "Thanks, I'll catch you later then Blake."
"T-Take care Missus Korra! Take your time!"
The moment I turn around I hear Blake catching it up with Lee. I guess Asami did make a point. Blake's not the type of gal to gossip yet she's talking about this `gossip' with such excitement. Hmm… oh well.
Anyways… back to my earlier thought as I held onto Han's hand, I'm shocked that Han told me to punch Waters. Did I mess up raising him somehow? I'll have to have a chat with Asami later… well whatever, taking this moment to collect my thoughts I'm surprised Waters still works here. You know...I was kind of expecting her to be shipped off to the Southern Tribes or something. But then again, that's not realist and it'd hurt Future Industries' name so it makes sense I guess.
Of course, sure, I have forgiven Asami. Sure, I still love her very much and on the outside, I may seem normal and composed but on the inside, I'm angry. Like very pissed with Waters, how dare she fuck my-
"Mom, I think we're here."
I blink. I look down at Han before looking forward. It took me a moment to process where I was. We made it here quicker than I thought and I never knew a place like this existed in Future Industries. It's so… so far from the top floor where Asami's office is.
"Hmm…"
I eyed the door and note that this is the shabbiest part of Future Industries I've seen. Everything here is pretty high class but this place, it looks like storage… my lips twitched into a smile when I saw a piece of paper taped on the name plaque saying: Waters Corp
The funniest thing about this is that the paper is obviously some recycled scrap paper (which was torn here and there) and that it was written in pen. I have never seen any name plaques, no matter how temporary they were, be made with just pen and paper. That's just…
Cheap as fuck.
Asami has more class than this but I guess this is how she sees Waters now. That makes me smile with a smug face before I see Han staring at me. I cleared my throat before getting down to eye level and patted his shoulder.
"Okay little man, do you mind watching my back while I go inside to talk to Miss Waters? I have some very important things to say to her."
"Whatttt but I wanna go in too!"
I smile, "Thanks I really appreciate it but I think I got this," I stand up and flex my muscles, "let your mom go show this woman a thing or two. She has a lot of explaining to do for forcing mommy to do something she doesn't like."
He's still pouting.
I crouched down again, "Come on… you know you're my right hand man and I need you to be on the lookout! I'ma give Waters the rundown to not mess with my family so I need you to watch my back!"
I leaned in close to his ear, "You know how I can get when I'm talking business."
He gulps.
"O-Okay! I gotchu mom!"
I grin, "Good." I patted his back and turned to the door. "I'll be back okay, wish me luck."
"G-Good luck mom!"
He sounded a bit nervous. Maybe I should take it easy with my… 'assertive' voice. Anyways, I cleared my throat before knocking on the door. It wasn't long before I heard a muffled, "Come in."
I crack my neck trying to ease my irritation before walking in. When my eyes laid on her, my eyebrow immediately went up and my face twitched. So this is the bitch who pushed herself on Asami…
She looked at me not knowing who I was, "How may I help you?"
I smiled bitterly as I walked closer to her, "I don't think there's much you can do to help me."
She looks confused, "Excuse me?"
I stood tall in front of her desk, "I believe you're the one whose been keeping my wife… company."
"Ahh…" she smirked, "so you're Asami's wife," she stands up and slowly walks around the desk while eyeing me up and down, "hmm…"
I think I'm shooting daggers at her now, "That's all you have to say?" I clenched my fist, "I think you know why I'm here."
She starts chuckling and something about it feels off. My gut feeling is screaming at me to get her locked up in prison. "Please do tell me why you're here, I'd love to know."
This bitch!
I smiled, "Well, I'll keep it simple."
I took one step closer to her, "I know Asami shoved you down here so there might not be a point but… back the fuck off. Don't you dare talk to her ever again, let alone make eye contact. She's my wife so if I hear anything, you'll be talking to me."
My fist clenched as I narrowed my eyes at her, "How dare you touch someone's wife, especially after she has repeatedly rejected you again and again."
She scoffs, "Oh please, rejected? Asami was practically begging me to fuck her! She never actually pushed me away you know. Some wife you are," her tone is mocking me. "I would never leave someone like her alone. She's so beautiful and rich… she's wasted on someone like you!"
Why you- I grab her collar and bring her close to my face. I raised my fist out of anger and was about to sock her before freezing. Han's outside… "Tch!" I let Waters go before straightening my shirt. I took a deep breath and replayed her words in my mind.
"Yeah… you're right. Asami is wasted on someone like me."
She gives me a smug look as if she's won.
"But." I glare at her, "But, she's the one who chose me. She chose me and I can't believe how lucky I am for that."
I get close to her face again, "Asami is the most wonderful person I know. She is hard working, proud, intelligent and the best mom there is. She isn't some prize for you. She is her own person and she isn't some easy woman that you can ever hope to seduce and win over."
Waters seems surprised by my sudden 'police/authoritative' tone making her take a step back. You can be sure as hell be damned that I've mastered my intimidation voice. You know how many thugs I've chased down in the past?
I chased after her. "Listen up. I'll only say this once. Asami chose me. She isn't an object of fame or fortune. Asami is Asami. She is my wife and you will back the fuck off or I will sue you for raping my wife."
Her back hit the wall, "Do. You. Understand."
She was speechless. Seeing my victory, I glanced down at her desk and noticed a certain report that caught my eye. Smirking in complete domination, I get up close and personal in her space. Giving her my most intimidating pressure, I leaned in close to her face.
"Oh… excuse me, it seems like I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Korra S. Sato, Asami Sato's one and only wife but before I was wedded to the most beautiful person out there, my name was Korra Seaton… born and raised in the Southern Water Tribe."
Her face grew pale.
"Now… I understand that your company resides in the south so I don't know whether you're brave or foolish but..." I slowly leaned in closer to her ear, "I'm sure my father would be pleased to know that one of his people forced herself on his daughter's wife."
With that, she looked like a ghost as she slid down onto the floor. So, without looking back, I turned around and began walking back to my son. Cowards like her are always all talk and no bite.
"By the way, you can be sure as hell be assured that I know the best prosecutors out there. I am the best lawyer out there so I know plenty of people in law enforcement."
I pause at the door.
"If I were you, I'd hurry and finish your business quickly before Asami's patience runs out. I'm surprised you're still located in the building but then again… I guess she'd have to clean out the storage to make room for your… office. She is a busy person after all."
I shut the door and immediately saw Han beaming at me excitedly, "How'd it go mom! How'd it go!"
My face softened but I grinned at him and threw him a wink, "Perfect. Let's go," I grab his hand and start walking back to the entrance. "So what snacks do you want?"
"Um… fire flakes?"
I rub his head, "Sure."
"Awww mom! Not the hair again!"
I laughed in triumph. Honestly, I feel better now. Waters' really wasn't much of anything so I'm surprised she managed to corner Asami… maybe I should make it my routine to visit her at work more often. I dislike that the moment I don't visit her, people think they can make a move on my wife. Get out of here… but the fact that her "office" was located there, hah!
Now that was priceless.
AN: Idk how to angst. Idk how to resolve things. I hope I did justice.