Warning: Lemon and Angst
Atem didn't know when he fell in love with Yugi.
Maybe it was there from the moment he saw him and yet did not notice or it was from the months they had spent together. Atem never figured that out, letting those feelings bloon quitely and welcoming them like a warm hug, until he could barely contain it anymore.
He still didn't feel attracted to other people, men or women alike, finding himself distancing when someone would try initiating any sexual or flirty contacts. However, sweet and mysterious Yugi, he wouldn't mind letting the court musician and personal bodyguard, A.K.A his friend, touch him in that way.
In fact, he basked in it and absorbed it like a sponge. He knew he held deep affections for the other male, borderline worshipping the ground Yugi walked on. It terrified and yet exhilarated Atem, to experience this new feelings, so foreign and so warm.
Currently, the Pharaoh was in his private garden, sun kissed legs dipped in the water of the small artificial pond while sitting underneath the cool shade of a palm tree. It was a lazy day, no meetings, no complains, just a day to relax. Atem enjoyed this days, simply content to lay and bask in the little time he had to have a day to himself.
"Something on your mind, my Pharaoh?" A silky voice asked.
Atem was startled out of his half-asleep state, glancing over to Yugi, who had a small smile gracing his porcelain features, the wind blowing and the sun making his skin glow with a hazy light.
Atem smiled brightly at the other, his eyes shining. "Hello there, Yugi." He then frowned at the formality. "How many times have I told you to call me by my name when we are alone?"
Yugi shrugged, chuckling at the disdain in Atem's voice, a pretty smirk crossing his red lips. "Too many times to count since the past year I arrived and met you."
The musician sat down besides Atem, slipping off his shoes and dipping his feet in the cool waters. Atem siddled closer to Yugi, snatching his hand and giving it a comforting squeeze. Atem didn't mind it, nor did Yugi, they just embraced that touching each other was a part of their routine.
Yugi had been disappearing every once in a while, Atem often wondering where the fair male even went. The pharaoh feared that if Yugi kept this up, he would not return to the palace anymore and would leave him forever.
"I have a question for you, Yugi."
"Oh? Be careful with that, young pharaoh, you might not get the answers you wish to hear."
"I told you to call me Atem..."
Yugi giggled, a sound that Atem loved and basked in. "I apologise, Atem but yes, you may ask a question from me, choose your words wisely."
Yugi had a habit of speaking in strange patterns but Atem paid no attention to that, in fact, he also loved that about the man in front of him.
Atem let out a hum, running his thumb across Yugi's pallid hand. "Where do you go to when you leave the palace?"
Yugi blinked, eyes softening but letting his guard down. He didn't want Atem to know who he was. "Oh, is that it?" He asked teasingly, earning a timid nodded from Atem, who ran a hand through his hair with obvious anxiety.
"Yes." Atem replied.
Yugi smiled and intertwined their hands, marveling at the differences between their skin, Atem's cheeks flushed as the musician reciprocated the initiated contact. "You don't have to worry about me, Atem. I'm just going out to take care of something and run errands." He said, telling half the truth.
Atem had the huge urge to pout, holding himself back at the last minute. A pharaoh wasn't allowed to pout in front of others. Steeling himself, he didn't push the issue, respecting Yugi's privacy. If Yugi didn't want to talk about it then he'll gladly let it slide.
"If you say so, Yugi. If it gets too much of a burden for you, just tell me. Alright?"
Yugi chuckled, scooting closer until he and Atem were hip to hip, plopping his head on the broad shoulder of the pharaoh. Atem shyly returned the gesture, playing with their interlocked digits as he rested his head on top of Yugi's own.
"I won't promise, but I'll try."
"Okay.."
XxXx
He had known Yugi for more than a year now so it was no surprise he found himself falling harder for the enigmatic male, and surprisingly, catching his lips with his own.
They had just been teasing each other, their playful banter borderline flirting after the pharaoh finished his duty. Atem and Yugi were in the private chambers of the king, Atem halfway done in removing his jewelry.
When Yugi had laughed at something that Atem said, he was star struck at how beautiful Yugi's voice sounded, abruptly standing up and walking over to the fair skinned male. The pharaoh took Yugi in his arms, embracing him, the latter stiffening at the obvious affection yet Atem was too far gone in his haze induced state.
"Atem?"
And then, Atem bended down and claimed Yugi's mouth, kissing him full on the lips.
Yugi's eyes widened, shock making him freeze at the obvious touch that the pharaoh started. He was caught off guard so it seemed.
When Atem realized what he had done, he immediately pulled away and took a huge step back, eyes wide with horror as he covered his mouth. There was pain and guilt in there, it made Yugi's heart ache.
"I-I..." Atem stammered.
Yugi looked away, caressing his lips and wetting it with his tongue, his eyes glazing over in contemplation. "...You kissed me.." he whispered. It was a statement, not a question, yet Atem found himself flinching as if he had been slapped.
"I-I... Y-yes I did... I apologise.." Atem whispered, voice heavy with torment and guilt at his action. He wanted to drown himself, or maybe expect Yugi to yell at him. No, scratch that, he'd rather drown that hearing Yugi raise his voice at him.
If Yugi asked him to jump on the balcony and die he'd gladly throw himself to make Yugi happy and live in peace even at the cost of him suffering.
"Why?" A simple one worded question, Yugi's brows furrowing as he glanced at Atem.
Atem didn't answer for a while, not speaking and staying silent, thinking over on what had made him act like that. Finally, he spit out the words, voice heavy with barely suppressed emotions that threatened to overwhelm him.
"Because I adore you, Yugi." His cheeks turned red, Atem fiddling with his fingers at the confession he spoke.
Pharaoh Atem adored Yugi? He was actually nervous and sorry that he had kissed the fair skinned man? Yugi had to fight back a smile at the adorable display.
"In what sense, Atem?" He stepped closer to the pharaoh, tilting the chiseled jaw of the male with a finger to meet his face. "Tell me,"
Atem fidgeted, feeling wrecked at Yugi's strong gaze, stripping his soul bare. He closed his eyes and looked away, his nervous fidgeting not seizing. "I adore you so badly, I would do anything for you if you so asked. What would you want? The moon? The stars? Tell me and you'll get them on a silver platter. I would even give up my crown for you and lay down my life even with a snap of your finger, a word, or simply with your stare." Atem took a deep breath.
"You scare me Yugi, I fear this new feelings that I harbor for you, and yet I adore you to no end. I would follow you to the ends of the Earth and it scares me on how much you affect me."
Yugi did not reply, awed at the words Atem spoke, he was a slave of love, he was a servant to him, but Yugi did not see Atem like that, he saw him as an equal. The grin on the porcelain skinned male's lips lightened up his whole physique, putting Atem's fears at ease.
That smile was answer enough, Yugi's eyes had ignited with that passionate fire that Atem all but adored and sealed him into a willing prison.
And in the darkness of Atem's private chambers, Yugi returned his kiss, the latter grabbing Yugi's shoulders and pressing them together closer than ever.
This was enough for now.
XxXx
Atem wasn't aware of his desire that grew, the desire to be claimed and be loved by Yugi. It had also grown quitely just like his adoration for the mysterious man grew.
It was the dead of night, everything was silent, calm, and peaceful. No raids, no assassinations, and no complains through out the day. It was all so still and calm.
Yugi and Atem had been talking in the chambers, hushed whispers of devotion and love spilling past their lips.
And then something changed in the air, when Atem uttered out the words, for how many months he had been holding, something in him telling that he was ready to take things a step up, to be able to conquer what he always fantasized and desired.
"Akhu?" (Light)
Yugi hummed, combing Atem's hair with his fingers, the pharaoh letting out a contented sigh at the affection his lover was giving him.
"Will you make love to me?"
Yugi's fingers stilled, Atem practically feeling his whole body catch on fire at the words he had let go, something was stirring within him that was hard to restrain.
Atem had given his word, and gave Yugi permission to do as he pleased. For the first time that night, Atem felt scared and unsure.
"Akhu, was I too rash?" He asked, hurt evident in his baritone voice.
Yugi shook his head and cupped Atem's cheeks, violet meeting crimson in a serious gaze. "Atem, my love. I would do anything for you," he whispered. "But are you sure you're ready for this step? No regrets will come after you gave your words when I make love to you?"
Yugi was concerned for Atem, he knew Atem had barely suppressed desires for him, but Yugi loved Atem and was giving him a way out if the pharaoh was not ready. He wasn't that cruel, nor was he one to take advantage. Yugi was considerate so he waited for Atem's answer with a patient stare, resuming his petting on Atem's hair.
Atem made a noise between a purr and a moan, lifting his arms and trailing Yugi's cheekbones with his slim digits, his eyes holding nothing but pure adoration.
"Yes, Akhu.. I am giving you my permission. Hold me and love me? Don't let me go." Atem whispered.
Yugi's eyes watered at the strong words that Atem spoke, his voice filled with so much conviction it made Yugi keen.
Yugi lowered his head and captured Atem's lips in an earth shattering kiss, his form quaking as Atem wrapped his arms around Yugi's neck, pulling him flush against him, chest to chest and hip to hip.
"Ari.." (Partner) Yugi whispered between their kisses, Atem shivering as Yugi's warm breath pattered against his lips, they were so close their breaths mingled in the middle, breathing each other's air.
"Akhu.. Yugi, please take me.."
Yugi closed his eyes and kissed Atem again and again, feeling their bodies warm slowly and the temperature rise in the room. "If that is what you want, Ari..." He whispered and trailed his fingers down to Atem's chest, caressing the naked upper torso of his lover who purred at the touch of those heavenly digits. "Then I will gladly do so."
Atem nodded, Yugi climbed on top of him, straddling his waist and kissing him with a fiery passion, their tongues love battling, as Atem let his fingers wander and seek for Yugi's skin, craving more contact, he found and opening on Yugi's tunic, the one where it parted to reveal his chest, shyly slipping his hands on the parted garment and seeking the skin underneath.
The two continued petting and kissing each other, their whispers and quite moans filling the room, the air around them all but filled with their devotion.
Atem gasped as Yugi rocked his hips against his, a startled moan, sending molten lava through his core assaulting him as he scrunched his eyes shut, cheeks flushing red in the dim moonlight, as he clenched the bedsheets. "A-Akhu..." he moaned timidly, voice cracking.
Yugi found that he liked making his pharaoh moan, he let out a groan and picked up his pace, feeling their erections strain in the measly confines called clothes.
They barely had time to think before both of their minds shut down, Yugi and Atem finding themselves naked and bare against one another, their eyes roaming and admiring the physique they held.
Yugi smiled and trailed his fingers on Atem's defined lines, causing the male underneath him to squirm. "You're beautiful, Ari." Yugi complimented.
Atem flushed and grinned shakily, feeling like a newborn, he covered his face to try and will away his embarrassment, not used to the scrutiny and admiration his dear heart held, he felt his chest pound with vigor at the weight of Yugi's words. "You are referring to yourself, Akhu. You are absolutely divine." Atem managed to say with a straight voice, trying not to waver.
Yugi chuckled and plucked away Atem's fingers that was hiding the handsome face, he grinned at his lover and chuckled. "Don't be shy, Ari. It's just us... I would never hurt you." He assured.
Atem nodded and took a deep breath, his face flushing more as Yugi got off of him and snatched the bottle of oil that was on the table beside his bed.
Atem was nervous, he had never done this before, simply because he didn't think it was worth it. But now... Now someone was showing him, someone who loved him and cherished him.
Atem did not see the tears shimmering in Yugi's eyes, as he stuck his fingers in the bottle of oil.
The pharaoh tensed as a digit was pressed against his virgin entrance, clutching the bedsheets with wide eyes, trying to seek and see the face of his partner. "Akhu.. I'm... I'm scared.." he admitted.
Yugi's face came in to view, kissing away his fears and trying to soothe it. "Don't worry, Ari... I'm here.. You don't have to be scared, I would never hurt you." He whispered, being the gentle lover he was.
And then, Yugi slipped in the first finger, Atem cramping up like he had been stung, tears gathering in the corner of his eyes. It hurt. It hurts so much, Atem bit his lips to prevent himself from crying.
Yugi, sweet Yugi, peppered kissed on Atem's face and neck, trying to distract him from the pain, he gently wiggled and pushed his finger deeper, trying to soothe Atem who was making love for the first time. "Relax, Ari... Please, it will hurt less if you do that."
"I-I'm trying... Nngghh..." Atem answered, shutting his eyes tightly, willing his body to relax, trying to focus on the kissed that Yugi was showering his mortal body.
When Yugi had felt Atem's walls unclench, he added another finger, this time the pressure wasn't so bad anymore, Atem was still obviously trying to get used to it but Yugi showered him with more kisses on the lips, neck, and his chest.
"Ahhnn..." Atem moaned out, his hips unconsciously thrusting back on Yugi's fingers. "Yugi, please.."
Yugi smiled slightly as he stretched Atem and added a third finger, striking something within the pharaoh that made him release a breathless scream, it made Yugi flush as well.
"Ah!"
Atem felt his nerves ignite and flame, stars dancing at the edge of his vision from the immense pleasure that struck his very core like a lightning bolt. Atem shuddered and continued rocking his hips back on Yugi's fingers, wordless pleas and soft moans escaping his lips.
"Akhu..please.."
Who was Yugi to deny what his lover asked? He slowly (and regretfully) took away his fingers, Atem immediately whining and seeking out the fingers that brought him to the edge of his climax.
Yugi pecked Atem's lips, grabbing the bottle of oil and pouring it unto his pallid hand, then slathering the oil on his aching need.
Yugi parted Atem's thighs, kissing them and then positioning himself on the pharaoh's virgin passage. He peered at Atem through sweaty bangs, the man nodding and smiling at him shyly as he looked away. Yugi bended down and met his face, kissing him and slowly sliding his erection into the tight walls of the pharaoh's entrance.
It didn't hurt like the preparation did, it was a tad bit uncomfortable but Atem welcomed the pressure and tried not to think about it, feeling unexplainable joy course through his veins as Yugi and him became one. It was heaven and Atem could not ask for anything more as he kissed Yugi harder, hands clawing at Yugi's back and legs encasing his lover's hips.
They were one. And Atem didn't give a damn anymore, lost in the sea of euphoria that he was finally one with Yugi, spiritually, physically, and emotionally.
He felt Yugi stop, guessing that he was already buried inside him fully. Atem peeked through one closed eye and pulled away from their kiss, saliva dribbling from both their chins at their messy kiss. Yugi waited for Atem to adjust, showering him with affectionate kisses.
Atem giggled and pecked Yugi on the forehead. "I'm fine, Akhu.. You are so gentle with me.." he whispered lovingly. "I love you."
Yugi felt the lump on his throat build, threatening to make him sob, the forbidden words that would seal his fate was spoken. And Yugi kissed him, not saying anything more as he waited for Atem's signal.
As if his lover heard, Atem moved his hips slightly and that was all Yugi needed.
He slowly pulled back, watching Atem's expression, only to thrust back in, seeing the wide eyed expression of his lover and the groan that escaped his lips.
They moved as one, Yugi thrusting in and out, again and again inside his lover, his staccato moans and sighs joining that of his lover. The baritone voice had cracked and lost it's deep quality, the cries of pleasure from Atem causing Yugi to go faster each time, the pharaoh called out for him and craved him.
Yugi began to move faster and faster, his thrust going rougher and harder, Atem's moans turning into broken yelps and screams, as Yugi assaulted him with unexplainable pleasure, as his sweet spot was struck over and over again. Atem threw his arm up to cover his eyes, one hand clutching the sheets above his head, back arching at the force of Yugi's thrust that sent stars flying behind his lids.
"Ah! Ah! Yugi! Please! Right there! Aahhh!" Atem cried out, voice all but shrill, lost in the sea of pleasure.
Yugi moaned, tears falling down his face as he held Atem's hips in place. If it was even possible, Yugi's thrust went faster, causing Atem to let out another cry. "Atem... Atem..." Yugi chanted the man's name like a mantra, a prayer it seemed.
Atem let out a moan, form glistening with sweat, cheeks extremely flushed from their activity, his legs tightening around Yugi's hips. "Y-Yugi! I-I'm--Ah! Nngh--c-close! Ah!"
Sweat covered every inch of Yugi's frame, the perspiration dribbling down his chin as the wet sound of skin slapping against skin gyrated I'm his ears and energized his form. Atem's moans and pleas were.music to his ears. His thrust turned brutal, a pretty smirk made itself known on Yugi's bruise kissed lips. "Come for me Atem--Nngh-- I-I'll follow you to completion." Yugi whispered seductively, voice heavy with lust and passion, the sound of their lovemaking reaching his hazed mind, galvanizing him.
"YUGI!!"
Atem let out a weak cry, his form freezing and then arching as he let our a broken cry, his climax approaching him and blinding him with it's bright hot light. His release shot out and coated his and Yugi's stomach, the pharaoh floating in bliss at the unimaginable pleasure his orgasm brought him.
Yugi followed not long after, his hips loosing their rhythm as he froze and released, the pharaoh's tight walls being his undoing.
"Atem!" Yugi cried out, his climax also hitting him, feeling his seed shot and coat Atem's insides.
Yugi caught himself before he could collapse and crush Atem, both of them panting from their activity.
Atem, once he had recovered enough, looked up at Yugi with deep love and affection, smiling at him tiredly.
"I love you, Yugi... Stay with me."
Yugi bit his lips and suppressed the urge to cry, watching as Atem's eyes drifted shut and the pharaoh fall asleep.
Yugi pulled away from Atem and stood up, cleaning the mess they had made as best as he could, he looked down at Atem one last time and bended down to place a chaste kiss on his lips, the tears breaking free and falling down his eyes.
"I'm so sorry, Atem..." He whispered as he turned away, dressing himself as quick as possible, the tears not seizing from their fall.
He turned to the sleeping king once again and spoke, deep agony and a broken light shining in those proud strong eyes.
"I am not Yugi..." He said and sat down, pulling the blankets up to cover Atem's naked form. He sobbed and kissed him for the last time and spoke.
"My name... Is Hathor... And I'm sorry for leaving you, my love... Forgive me for I cannot stay by your side."
And with that Yugi stood up, closing his eyes and disappearing in a flash of bright light, leaving behind the lotus pin he always adorned on his hair.