Chapter 12: True Friendship

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I enjoyed being in the company of both Kagura and Sesshomaru. I thought they were both unbelievably beautiful as individuals but seeing them together as a couple was such a breath taking sight. They were truly meant for each other and I could see that. I felt like such a home wrecker getting involved with not just one but now both of them behind their backs. I felt so awful about it but I couldn't control how they made me feel and how drawn I was to them both in different ways. They were my flowers and I was their bee, so I couldn't help but be attracted. But now I was in too deep. One day I would have to tell them or I could remove myself from their lives completely and forget it ever happened. There was no reversing what I did but I could at least back out, if I even had the emotional strength to do so. I doubt it and that made me feel worse.

I stared at Kagura's lovely face with its intoxicated expression. She was just so cute! Then I looked at Sesshomaru. He had just taken a sip of his drink and when he looked up his eyes shone. I was a helpless deer caught in the bright headlights that were his eyes. I felt so lucky just being beside two such stunning people.

Kagura and I held a conversation about everything and nothing while her husband sat, drank and watched. I could tell he was a bit drunk to. He was silent and so sexy to me right now. My eyes shifted from one beauty to the other triggering an increase in my heart rate that couldn't be healthy. Somewhere in the middle of our conversation Sesshomaru cut in. "I never would've thought you'd both get along so well." His gaze was very scrutinizing. Was he on to us? I mean Kagura and I were openly flirting right in front of him but that could easily be blamed on the alcohol. Girls were always extra friendly when drunk. He knew that right? Only our flirting was real and not just some drunken experience we'd never remember.

"What can I say? Kagome is such a pleasure…" Her voice sounded heavy with lust and I just wanted desperately to satisfy her. I wanted her even more when she put her hand on my leg.

"Sesshomaru, you better be careful I just might steal her!" I said staring at her rosy red lips. I knew if she kept making comments like that I was going to do her right there on her husbands lap and that would just fuck up everything we worked hard to hide. I was beyond tipsy, and in my state of mind I could actually see myself doing it. I had to get out of there now. I started laughing to show that I was only kidding around and hoping that I wasn't over doing it. "Ohhh no! I can't believe I jus' said that! I think s'time I go home." I stood up and he offered to take me home and leave my car over night. Wow… I didn't know he had such a gentlemanly side.

As always, I hated leaving Kagura and it pained me that I couldn't kiss her before I left. We spent as much time as possible saying goodbye and giving each other long tight embraces. She whispered in my ear. "When I bring your car tomorrow we'll go shopping just you and me ok?" I nodded and smiled until it hurt. We could finally go out in public without the fear of being caught together by her husband. Sesshomaru and I began walking towards my house but then he told me to get on his back and the thought of him giving me a piggy back ride was strangely hilarious to me. The big ice hearted boss giving his little secretary a piggy back ride. I couldn't see it happening! The next thing I knew, I was scooped up from the ground and held close to his big warm chest. I felt so safe there like nothing could harm me. Not even bullets. I almost burst out laughing again from having such a silly thought. When he started running it startled the shit out of me. He was fast, and I mean really fast! I shut my eyes tight and he slowed down a little.

"Are you alright? Would you like me to slow down?" He asked and my eyes snapped open in surprise. He spoke with such a soft voice as if he really cared. When I looked in his eyes, I could tell he did. My heart did a flutter and it warmed me all over. Was I hearing things? I had to be because he was running but speaking to me with such ease. Almost as if he were just sitting down having a normal conversation. I didn't want him to slow down though, because suddenly running with him like this gave me such a rush. So, I urged him to go faster. Unfortunately, his going faster made the trip much shorter. When he set me down, we said goodnight but our departure was brief. Once I got in the house and attempted to kick the door shut behind me it swung back open and banged hard against the wall. I was terrified until I was grabbed around the waist, turned around and picked up. I quickly recovered from my shock realizing it was him and wrapped my legs tightly around his strong muscular waist.

"Did you think I would let you off that easily when you look the way you do?" His voice was low and husky and I could smell the alcohol on his breath. I had never been rough handled quite like this before and somehow it really turned me on. Especially how he pushed his thickness between my legs using all his weight to hold me in place on the wall. Our clothes were a bothersome barrier and still I melted into the feeling of him. It felt so good, the moan was caught in my throat and made me light headed. His lips crashed into mine and we made out with such a ferocious intensity it sent heat to every part of my body and built the wetness in my panties. His hands gripped me hard and I knew it should've hurt me. I usually didn't like that sort of thing and maybe it was the alcohol but he just made me want more. I wanted him to grab hold of my body for dear life and never let go.

My own hands roamed and searched his hard body. He felt so much better through this shirt than the stiff pressed business suit he wore at his office. His chest and abs were such a delicious feeling beneath my hands. Then they traveled elsewhere, and I dug my nails into his back and ran my fingers through the impossibly silky feeling of his hair. I felt my shirt tearing in his grip but I didn't care. I felt the buttons popping slowly exposing more of my skin and it felt so good to feel his hand on my breast. He squeezed it and my butt hard and my moans were swallowed by his mouth moving over mine. Then without warning he pulled away and I whimpered not wanting it to end. I noticed he was looking somewhere else and I turned to see what he was looking at. Oh shit! "Sa… Sango?" I had to be imagining things. She couldn't really be standing there could she? Sure enough she confirmed that she wasn't just a figment of my imagination.

"Uhh… good evening Mr. Shotai." She said gripping her bag on her shoulder. She looked from him to me and back again. This was so embarrassing and what made it worse was that she knew about his wife to. God what must she think of me now? Sesshomaru said something before he left, but I couldn't hear what he said. Sango was staring at me with a look of horror. Suddenly, I was dizzy and my legs were weak. I fell to the floor as she closed the door. She opened her mouth to say something but closed it. I pulled my ripped shirt over my half bare chest suddenly feeling cold. Was this really happening? We stared at each other for what seemed like hours before she walked past me and into the kitchen and opening the fridge. My jaw dropped. Was she seriously not going to say anything? She wasn't going to call me a slut or… something like that? I stood on my wobbly legs and walked towards her.

"Sango… I…" But I stopped there because the truth was, I didn't know where I was going with that. Sango pulled out a water bottle and finished the entire thing without stopping to breathe. She looked at me catching her breath and a smile slowly crept up on her face, which really confused me.

"Holy shit Kagome! I can't believe you fucking scored with Mr. Shotai! You lucky bitch, I'm so jealous!" She grabbed my arm and pulled me to the sofa in the living room. "Tell me everything!" Now I was really confused.

"Sango… you don't think I'm-"

"No of course not! Come on Kagome, I've known you my whole life and I've never seen you with a man. But whether you are a lesbian or not anyone can see that Mr. Shotai is a complete babe! If I were you, I'd do him the first chance I got to!" Her face held a look of pure excitement.

"But Sango, I'm also involved with his wife remember?" I didn't deserve this slap on the wrist she was giving me. My buzz was gone and all I felt now was woozy.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm as straight as a pencil but I'd probably do her to. That woman just oozes sex just as much as her husband." I couldn't believe this was coming out of her mouth!

"But you do understand that I've gotten involved with them both and they are both married! To each other!" She pursed her lips when she remembered that part.

"I suggest you get out of it while you still can, kiddo." She said simply. I sighed giving up. Her reaction wasn't what I expected at all. In fact, a reaction like that to a situation like mine wasn't normal, but that was Sango for you.

"I wish it were that simple." I said it so low I wasn't really sure she heard me. Apparently, she did because her facial expression turned into a look of sympathy.

"It's that bad huh?" She asked. The look on her face almost made me want to cry. I could feel the lump in my throat growing by the second, but I tried my best to swallow it back.

"I really do care about Kagura. She's so much more than her looks you know? Then Sesshomaru… I don't know what I feel for him other than this raging lust. I'm not sure if it's anything more than that but I can't deny that I'm attracted to him." It felt strange to actually admit it out loud.

"So, you like men now? Are you bisexual?" She asked. I thought about that. I pictured being intimate with other men. Even the most popular male celebrities. Though some of them were good looking, I was no where near attracted. I mean they weren't ugly to me, but they weren't all that great either. Sesshomaru is the only man I have been sexually interested in in a very, very long time. So maybe I wasn't attracted to men, maybe I was just attracted to Sesshomaru. He was all man but I adored the androgynous features he had. How many men do you see these days with soft, long, flowing hair down their back and long lush lashes, high cheek bones and pink, full lips? I closed my eyes picturing every detail. "Hello! Kagome you still in there?" Sango knocked on my forehead like a door. I shook my head, but it didn't empty my mind of my thoughts.

"Sorry. But honestly? I really don't know anymore." I replied. I explained my thoughts to her as well as every detail from the first day I met Kagura, to when I began to notice Sesshomaru, to when she caught us not too long ago. I told her everything there was to know. She's my best friend and I could tell her absolutely anything without fear of judgement. She brought me into her arms patting my hair as I lay my head on her chest. It reminded me of the day I told her I was gay. I thought she would've been afraid to be near me when I told her but she wasn't. She always listened with an open mind and that was one of the many things I loved about her. She was the sister I never had.

"Jeez kiddo, when you put it like that, I really don't know what to tell you. Although I can't say that I agree with the situation you've put yourself in…" I felt her chest rise and fall as she sighed and continued. "Do what you feel is right. I know this sounds cheesy, but follow your heart." I felt tears start to fill my eyes.

"Thanks Sango." I whispered right before I exploded, soaking her shirt with tears. It was the first time I had cried in years.

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So today was finally the day of the party and I was less than a half hour away from finishing work. Everyone had a shortened day of work today because of that reason. I hadn't seen Sesshomaru all day. He didn't call for me and I didn't enter his office. I was sort of afraid to see him after last night. I wanted to come clean about me and Kagura but I was terrified of what his reaction would be. Most guys love a little lesbian action, but this was different. I was with his wife behind his back when he could've been having sex with her. Kagura told me once that if she hadn't met me, she would've cracked a long time ago. I took that opportunity from him. How do I explain that to him? I couldn't, which was the reason I haven't talked to him yet. There was a problem though. This morning, he left another assignment on my desk this morning that needed to be done by the end of the day. That meant at some point I would have to face him. I had already finished the assignment before lunch and now it was just a matter of gathering up the courage to hand it in.

I looked up just realizing someone was standing right in front of my desk. I zoned out for so long I hadn't realized someone had walked in. I wonder how long they were standing there. It was Kikyo. I had only caught a glimpse of her once before and all I knew about her was that she was the Vice President of this company. Her arms were crossed and the bland expression on her pale and perfectly smooth face reminded me of a porcelain doll. "I've heard many great things about you Ms. Higurashi." She said and instantly I recognized her monotone voice. She was the one that almost caught Sesshomaru and I together that day in his office.

"Thank you." I told her. There was something very off about this woman. Her presence alone gave me chills.

"Don't thank me, I didn't say it to give you a compliment." She said. I raised a brow. Then why say it at all? I wanted to ask but I kept it inside. "I've heard these great things and yet I don't see what everyone could possibly be talking about now that I get a good look at you." She placed both hands on my desk and leaned forward her eyes traveling a slow route from my lap to the top of my head then back to my eyes. Her cold gaze made me very uncomfortable, but I made sure not to show it. "They all talk of how much of a dedicated, hard worker you are but I walk in and see you staring off in space. They say you're the friendliest person they've ever met, yet you're glaring daggers at me." I hadn't realized I was glaring but what else could I do? Already I didn't like this woman, but I had to play nice because she was ranked much higher than me. "But most of all," She continued. "I hear so much about what a knock out you are." She tilted her head to the side slightly. "But you look very ordinary to me. Nothing special at all." This bitch has the nerve to walk in here and insult me? What for? I felt my temper rising but I tried my best to calm down. If I lashed out at her, she would have won and I was better than that. I remembered thinking something similar about Kouga once before. It's like everyone is out to get me here.

"Is there a point you'd like to make, ma'am?" I broke eye contact with her and looked over my completed assignment and kept my voice even and polite when I spoke. "I have work to do and I have no time for idle chit chat. Being the Vice President, I'd think you'd know better than that." I winked at her and turned my focus to my computer monitor. It read 3:37pm in the corner of the screen. There was a moment of dead silence interrupted when she slammed a red manicured hand over my desk. I looked up at her. "Do you mind?"

"Watch it… because your so-called looks won't get you very far. I can make sure of that. It won't take much to convince Mr. Shotai how worthless you really are." She said, and for the first time since I've laid eyes on her, her bland expression changed into that of anger. She was pissed and I knew it because I could feel it in waves radiating off her. I couldn't explain it but for some reason I could literally feel what she was feeling in the moment. She pushed my name plate off my desk, walked around it and towards Sesshomaru's office. She knocked on the door and once she turned the doorknob and began to push the door open, I said one last thing.

"That's a shame. I'm so disappointed in you." She froze once the door was halfway open and she couldn't turn back now. "You may want to change your tone for someone that is supposed to be a leader of this company." I watched as the tension in her neck and back became so visible she was practically shaking. She entered the office without even glancing back. I sat back in my chair smiling victoriously. It felt good to put a bitch in her place. I just couldn't understand why she felt the need to verbally attack me. Something felt wrong about that. I made a mental note to see if I could somehow get to the bottom of it.

After a few minutes she exited Sesshomaru's office with a package tucked under her arm. Once she got on the elevator she glared at me and flipped me off just as the doors were closing. Yea, fuck you to! I didn't bother to waste my energy to tell her that though. I have a feeling this won't be the last time I see her. I sighed and picked up my assignment and made my way towards Sesshomaru's office. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. When he told me to enter, I opened the door but I wasn't prepared to see him again. He looked me straight in the eye with those piercing eyes of his and I longed for his touch again. I placed the assignment on his desk and smiled. "I'm done for the day, so I'll see you at the party. " I hoped I sounded as casual as possible.

"Kagome…" My heart raced when he called my name.

"Yes?" My voice came out a little breathy.

"Is there anything you would like to tell me?" He asked. I didn't move a muscle. Oh god no… please don't tell me he found out about Kagura and I!

"N-no!" I replied.

"Are you sure?"

"Um yes I'm sure." I assured him. I wasn't ready to tell him yet. I decided I'd speak with Kagura first before I confessed to anything. He waited a long agonizing moment to say anything else.

"Just so you know Kikyo is in no position to threaten you. She may be of higher rank than you but let's just say you're important to me. Don't you forget that." I was so touched by his words that I almost didn't know what to say.

"Thank you, sir." I said.

"No need to call me that. We're on a first name basis now remember?" He said while I stared at those lips almost without blinking.

"No, we're on so much more than that now. " I said before leaning forward over his desk and kissed him gently on the lips. I don't think I will ever get over how soft his lips are. Before I could fully pull away, he grabbed my face with both hands, pressed his lips to mine and kissed me more passionately. I felt my legs begin to give out so I pulled away before I could collapse.

"I'll see you tonight, Kagome." He told me without opening his eyes. I wasn't able to find any words to say so I nodded even though he couldn't see me.

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When I got outside, I saw my car parked at the front entrance with Kagura in the drivers' seat. I got into the car and threw my bag in the back seat before planting a kiss on Kagura's lips. When we pulled apart, she licked her lips and stared at me with wide eyes.

"What? Is there something on my face?" I asked putting a hand on my cheek. She shook her head and started the car.

"No, it's nothing." She answered. As we drove off, I noticed her knuckles were white from gripping the wheel too hard. Something was bothering her.

"Kagura are you alright?" I asked squeezing her thigh in an attempt to comfort her. She relaxed and smiled at me.

"Yea, I'm fine." She assured me.

"Good." I kissed her again. This time she just pursed her lips. Yea something was definitely on her mind but hopefully tonight's party would take her mind off her troubles. I couldn't wait to see what our night had in store.

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