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Pacing. Back and forth, back and forth. The walls constantly moving around me. No matter how hard I tried, the boiling anger would not stifle inside me. I growled, kicking my already broken nightstand a couple more times. The fucking pieces of shit short ass was the one behind torturing my brother, and he acted like he wanted me to trust him. TRUST HIM? I could fuckin filet him like a fish right now. Why, Levi? Getting me to trust you after such a short time and then pulling this kind of shit.

Panting heavily I sat down thinking about the amount of shit I was already in coming to the Survey Corps. If my brother found me, who's to say my father wasn't on his way already? My skin crawled at the thought. He'd send me back for 'training' for sure. He would keep breaking me until I was a good little sheep. I couldn't help but think about how volatile my father was. The way he beat Jason and I repeatedly, starved us for weeks. That was before I learned to kill and torture. Now…

Who am I?

I sat up for a moment looking down at my hands. These hands that kill. These hands that have ripped flesh, carved flesh, broken bones, torn people completely apart…these hands that felt compassion for the first time from Petra, from Hange, from…him. Levi. My heart clenched tight in my chest making it hard to breathe. In such a short time I enjoyed my time here, through all the bullshit they put me through. Did I truly enjoy my time with the MP's? I remember laughing and smiling a lot, but its easy to do that when you're dead inside. No care in the world.

I need to get back to my old self. I need to give up on these people who believe there is hope at every turn. I need to give up on letting myself roll wild and start being the Alessa they have yet to see. The real Alessa. Heartless, cold, vindictive. Filled with poison, ready to claw my way out of this hell hole I let myself come to.

In a fit of self-awareness and hyper-focus, I stood quickly, cleaning diligently as the soldiers weren't going to let me break out of here, I might as well make use of my time. It took a little while but the room was finally clean. All I could do from there was sit. Sit and think. My brain running 1,000 miles a minute. I could only hope that the plan in my head would go off without a hitch. Please, father, do not find me.

My door swung open in an instant, but I didn't turn to look. I knew who was standing there. Those intense grey eyes piercing into me as he made his way to Petra's bed, sitting across from me. My eyes finally made their way up to his, though his expressionless face gave no indication to how he was feeling. I stared back, emotionless and empty. I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction this time.

"Alessa, you have to understand.." My eyebrow twitched slightly. "Alessa this is my job. I may be a Captain of the Survey Corps but I too have my fucking demons. I torture and handle information. I was going to tell you about it but you explode so fucking quickly."

"Quickly? I'd say you had about 48 hours to tell me…instead you pity fucked me and pretended that there was some sort of connection? Save it Levi, I get it." He scowled now, shaking his head.

"Fucking get over it Alessa I had to do my fucking job just like you've had to do yours. Sucks it was your brother but shit happens. Quit bitching about shit neither of us can control." He wasn't wrong. Neither of us could control what orders we get. If the roles were reversed I would've easily tortured someone he cared about. "But whether you believe me or not, to me there was a fucking connection. Why do I have to keep explaining that to you?"

"Because I don't trust you. You had plenty of time to tell me Levi. Had you told me immediately I would've understood, but instead you hid it from me and I found out while you were literally instigating my brother. How the fuck did you think that was going to go for you?" He sighed, letting his frustrations stay visible for once.

"Look, Alessa, you're not my girlfriend, you're someone I like enough to deal with your bullshit and fuck, hopefully more than once. I'm not going to pretend any different, but I do want the trust there, so if it means I have to tell you right away then so be it." I stared at him relatively surprised. Mainly at his latter statement.

"You really want us to trust each other?"

"Are you deaf…" I rolled my eyes and scoffed. "Look all I'm saying is give me a break, I'm fuckin new at this sort of shit too." I clenched my jaw staring at him for a few minutes. The room was quiet, only for the faint sounds of soldiers outside the window.

"Fuck…fine. Why are you such a pain in the ass?" I growled kicking his boot. He smirked standing up and reaching his hand out towards me, beckoning to stand with him. I stared at him quizzically for a moment before his hands grabbed my face, pulling our lips together gently. This was nothing like a couple nights ago. It was sweet and soft and so not like Levi.

I couldn't help the tingle that shot through me, my hands instinctively grabbing the front of his shirt as we kissed. His hands slid slowly to my hips, squeezing gently, as our tongues rolled together in harmony. He finally pulled away, staring down at me, both of us breathing a little faster.

"You really know how to get a girl lost for words, don't you Captain." He smirked still holding me close.

"HOLY SHIT I KNEW IT." Hange's voice range from the door making me jump out of my skin.

"Jesus woman knock!" I yelled making her laugh.

"You better keep your mouth shut if you know what's good for you." Levi glared, finally letting me go and moving towards the door. I smirked as he walked out visibly upset that he got caught. Both Hange and I immediately started laughing.

"Don't worry, your secret is safe with me." She winked at me. "I knew it though, I had a damn feeling there was something up between you two." I rolled my eyes sitting back on my bed.

"It's not what you think, it's just….for fun really." Hange's eyes widened a bit.

"Ohhhhh the hooking up type, I totally pegged you for it." I couldn't help but laugh. This woman was out of her mind.

"Was there something you needed?"

"Nope, was literally just passing through to my room and the door was open and I happened to catch a glimpse. I'll let you do whatever it is you want to do now!" She giggled half running out of the room. I sighed loudly before smirking mischievously. Step 1, complete.

Jason was still not released from our cells the next day, no surprise there. I had strict instructions NOT to go near them. That's okay, my plans can keep going without much worry so long as I keep practicing my techniques. Heartless. No cares. No stress. Breathe. I have to get back to my old self, it'll only be a matter of time.

The air the next day was calm with no breeze. Not too warm. Sitting in the grass, I watched out over the field, watching the clouds pass through the sky. This was the sort of day omens were made of. Something is too calm and it was making me incredibly restless. I made my way back inside the HQ clenching my teeth, not being able to shake the feeling.

"Hey Alessa! There's a letter here for you." I looked curiously at Hange as she handed me a neat and crisp envelope. Only my full name was written on it. I flipped it over and about had a heart attack. My family's wax seal stamped to hold the envelope shut was clear as day. FUCK did they find me?

"Hange, who brought this letter?"

"Oh one of our officers made a trip inside to see if anything had arrived and picked up a few things. This was there along with a couple more recruits." I sighed with relief. Hopefully, no one followed that officer. I slowly tore the envelope open, dread hanging off every inch of me like 20-ton weights. The letter was very short.

"Alessa,

We heard from Jason. Fix it now. Greg will make sure you do.

-Dad"

My stomach dropped. Greg? Greg was a ruthless asshole who had nothing but hate for women. Greg scared the living shit out of me on occasion due to how quick he is to react without emotion or thought. My eyes darted around the room and yep, there he was. The new recruit. Greg sat directly next to Jean, staring hard right at me. I clenched my jaw and rolled my eyes. Great, you're exactly what I need around here.

Fingers snapping in front of my face brought me back to reality and I turned to look at Levi who was apparently talking to me.

"You alright?" I laughed crumpling up the paper quickly.

"Yea fine just off in another world." He stared at me for a moment before looking at the crumpled papers in my hands. "It's nothing just a worthless letter. I'll be back in a bit." I moved past him quickly and out of the food hall before practically running to my room. If the Corps finds out Greg is a spy it's going to turn this whole thing on its head. I needed to keep Greg a complete secret. As soon as I go to the bedroom, I quickly grabbed a match and lit the paper on fire, letting it turn to ash in the trash. I sighed sitting on my bed. I am in so much shit right now.

I made my way slowly back to the food hall, taking as much time as I could to avoid anyone and everyone.

"Alessa…." A cold chilling voice came from beside me.

"Shit Greg wear a damn bell or something." I grabbed my chest panicked. He smirked. Not for nothing, Greg was incredibly good looking. If I didn't know he was a complete psychopath I would totally find him attractive. His green eyes watched me for a moment.

"I'll always be watching Alessa. Your father is very, very angry with you."

"Yea I know, but what I am doing is for a reason, I need it all as believable as possible." He chuckled.

"I sure hope so, I'd hate to have a girl of your talents in my toy room back home." And by toy room, he meant torture room, filled with plenty of sharp and painful objects.

"Look, Greg, feel free to watch all you want, but don't interfere here. You know I am great at every job I do, this one needs a certain finesse, so let me do my job and I'll let you do yours." He smiled, pushing me towards the side of the hall against the wall.

"I will certainly enjoy watching a master in action." His closeness gave me the creeps.

"You need something?" Levi stood staring at Greg cautiously and curiously.

"No sir, just meeting a legend from back home." He smiled "The Evans family is famous in the city, I wanted to just introduce myself." He turned towards me, stepping back a little and bowing. "It's a pleasure to finally meet you Alessa." Welp games on now.

"You too, Greg." His eyes met mine before he turned and walked out of the hall, leaving me with a deep gut-wrenching feeling. My eyes met Levi's as he continued to stare curiously. "Guess I'm more popular than I thought huh?" I joked trying to move past the subject.

The day was long and the work grind was not much better. Tedious and menial tasks every which way and not to mention Greg always had eyes on me. It was infuriating. I sighed ready to call it quits and bribe Levi with sexual satisfaction over working. I don't really think he'd go for it but a girl can try, right? I made my way slowly up the stairs grabbing a change of clothes, desperate for a shower before anyone else could stop me.

"Want a private one instead?" I stopped in my tracks and stared back at Levi who had a smirk on his face staring at my clothes and towel in hand. The hallway was empty, otherwise, I doubt this conversation would even be happening.

"Are you saying you have a private shower in your room?" He smirked and nodded. "Well shit, why didn't you say this days ago?" I joked following him towards his room. This dirty little shit…I giggled to myself. We stepped into his room and I almost wanted to go jump on his bed right then and there. "Man your room is almost nicer than the one I had back at the MP's."

"Almost? It is better." He rolled his eyes.

"How?"

"It's got me." He grabbed me tight, pushing me up against his bathroom wall. I couldn't help but bite my lip.

"You have an incredibly persuasive argument there Captain." He nodded, tugging at the buttons on my shirt.

"I'm always right Alessa. You'll learn this eventually." I laughed pushing him back once my shirt was fully unbuttoned.

"Maybe so, but I need to get clean before you try these advances. You work me far too hard out there for me not to." He laughed, undressing behind me as I started the shower.

"Don't think you're getting out of any work, little weasel." It didn't take long for us to jump in and start lathering each other in soap. Never have I had such fun hooking up with someone before. I couldn't deny the sexual hold this man had on me. The one thing he's already broken in me. The one thing I can't change back. His grip tightening on me as we went from playful to carnal made every inch of me extra sensitive. There wasn't a single touch that I didn't like from him. His hands slipping every which way, especially south as he pinned me to the wall. There was no stifling the sounds that erupted from me as he bit hard at my neck, forcing me louder. My arms wrapped around his shoulders, fingers running up through his hair. Many minutes of his teasing passed, bringing me back and forth from the edge over and over.

"God, Levi please….I can't…" I shuddered as he let his hand free before turning me around to face the wall. He pushed hard against my back, making my chest as flat as he could against the wall before slipping deep inside in one hard thrust. I cried out, my hands clenching against the shower wall. My body roared in pleasure feeling every inch of him in such a new angle. His hand slipped up my back, grabbing my hair and pulling me back slightly, his other hand firmly pushing against my hip. He was hitting it, that one wonderful spot that sent chills throughout my body with every single thrust. I didn't even care if anyone could hear as my screams of pleasure rang through Levi's bathroom. Over and over again he sent me diving off the edge, my legs shaking and numb, but somehow still holding on as he thrust. There was no such thing as holding back with him, not like this. I needed this in a way only he could give, and he knew it as he sent me reeling. I couldn't tell you what number I was on before he finally gave in and let me feel the intense heat and last few thrusts as he let loose.

We stood like that for a while, letting the now cold water roll over us and bring us back to reality. I sprawled out on his bed, not even caring to change into clothes at this point. There was no point. He had me in the one place he knew I couldn't say no. Scratch that, wouldn't. I was fully prepared to not sleep at all the moment I entered his room, and so was he.