Colonel,
I…saw my father today. I don't even remember how many years its been since I saw his face. And I wanted to be happy, but all I felt was resentment. It's dumb, but I feel like if he had stuck around, maybe my mom wouldn't have died. Maybe he could have helped her, or maybe even just having him there would have given her a little more strength. Like I said, dumb. Still, I can't help feeling that way.
He didn't even really try to explain or apologize or…anything. Obviously, he's still alive, but he's so fucking useless I feel like me and Al would be better off if he was dead, too. Then we wouldn't have this stupid hope that maybe he can really be a dad to us.
Fuck me. Figures that on top of everything else I would have goddamn Daddy issues.
Whatever, I just wanted to vent about it.
-Ed