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The two days after receiving my new squad were filled with nothing but rigorous training. The burns on my back mixed with my still healing broken hand made maneuvering with my 3DMG far too difficult, though not impossible. This morning was a rainy morning, it was cold and gloomy and made the upcoming secret mission feel ominous. I stood outside watching my soldiers train, sipping my hot coffee; thankfully with some help from Levi's squad again. Jason really didn't need the training, but keeping him busy meant keeping him tired, and keeping him tired meant no bullshit. Who knows what would happen once we left for our mission? It would be my luck that Jason would backstab me once I was out of sight. Then again, thinking back on our childhood and upbringing, we've always been as thick as thieves. Even when things looked like they'd never get better, he was always right by my side. A part of me hoped he would see what I see here in the Survey Corps. Maybe he could see and understand why I wanted to stay far, far away from the life I once had.

I wanted my soldiers to learn from each other as much as they could; building that trust along side each other the only way soldiers really could. Something the MPs couldn't give a shit about. There was no trust in the walls, only ever-changing loyalties and alignments. Not all of the MPs were that corrupt, but far too many were, and I had been one of them. The two soldiers I had minor concerns for the most seemed to be adapting and improving rather quickly, but that may be because Jason didn't handle anything less than perfection very well. I almost never had to step in as he made it a point to keep Rani focused and helped Benjamin realize his potential. As a whole, if this team could build on their trust the way Levi's did, they'd be just as unstoppable. But Levi's team had an advantage of time on their side, having grown up together, face death and brutality together, Levi had a team who already trusted each other. And it was not hard for his team to eventually place their trust in him. They didn't follow him blindly, which he liked. They had their own minds and made their own decisions, only relying on their squad leader to tweak their improvements or step in when needed.

The familiar 'tch' sounded beside me as Levi stared out into the training yard, staying next to me under the awning that blocked the heavy rain. I smirked as he watched the mud kick up all over the place in disgust, knowing full well how much cleaning his soldiers were going to be doing before they stepped past the doorway later on. His presence was off today, at least for me. I had gotten quite used to a less cold Levi recently, but today it felt like his aura was back to the one he had when I first had met him. Needless to say, the coming of Jason, a horny little recruit and a lot of other stressful factors, the man was sleeping less than his normal few hours. I barely seen him at all since the recruits came, always sitting in his desk chair or up doing whatever it was he needed to do. I stared over at him, the dark bags under his eyes more pronounced than ever. Between our two injuries, neither of us were going to be very much use on this upcoming mission and leaving everything physical in the hands of surprisingly capable teenagers was still stressful enough.

"He still hasn't made a move yet." His eyes were on Jason, the deep seething hatred emanating off of him as he watched my brother laugh at Rani for something. He was amazing at keeping his composure back when we went against my family, but now that Jason was on his turf and not locked behind a cage, Levi was extremely wary and observant of his presence.

"He very well may not." I noted, sipping my coffee. "I still don't know where he stands right now, he hasn't so much as said more than two sentences to me. Not that I really have had the time either." Levi nodded, leaning against the pillar of the awning and crossing his arms.

"Hange has been keeping an eye on your family. They've been quite public and active lately since that night and I'm betting we're about to see a damn shit storm one of these days." It was my turn to nod.

"They're not going to stop unless every one of them is dead and gone. They're going to keep coming at us now. We provoked the sleeping giant and it's fucking angry." Levi sighed as I turned to face him. "I told you it's only going to get harder from here." He finally broke his gaze from the soldiers and met my eyes.

"I still don't regret it. We will keep fighting, no matter what it takes." I bit my lip as the intensity currently in his eyes was sorely missed by me recently. "I'll make sure those fucks can feel what real wrath is like, their torture was nothing compared to what I plan to do." I giggled, feeling that spark I felt the moment I first saw Levi.

"And I'll be right there with you enjoying every second of it." A faint smirk appeared as fast as it disappeared on his face.

"Will you be able to swing your blade even if it meant killing your own family?" I paused for a moment, thinking seriously about that statement. I had no issue torturing and killing other people, but I had never been made to do it to my own family. It had me wondering if I was able to do it as well. I glanced over at Jason and thought about what it would be like if I had to, feeling a small pang of guilt.

"In all honesty I might hesitate. But not for nothing, I can't give you an accurate answer to that. I will have to be put in the position to do so to see what I might do." Levi's eyes tightened slightly.

"If you hesitate for a moment, it could mean your life. I hope for your sake you don't." I nodded, knowing full well the risks involved.

"You hesitated with me not long ago. I vividly remember a death threat if you found out I was a spy and here to do horrible shit." I joked, though we both knew he could've killed me at any time the moment he found out.

"I didn't want to admit it then, but your drunken ass was too tempting to kill right away." I laughed quietly. "I wanted to know if the reputation for Sina's most fucked up soldier was true."

"You wanted to see if I was ruthless and would follow through." He nodded.

"That and you also have another reputation." I arched an eyebrow, curious now as to what else spread about me. "Your selfishness was something a lot of people mentioned. You took whatever it was you wanted regardless of the consequence. I wanted to see if you'd do it here too."

"Well I got you, didn't I?" I joked. "I must still got it." He smirked over at me now, not concealing his emotions purposefully.

"You know you're going to have to really make that choice when your family comes back around. They're not going to let you do whatever you want." The smile on my face faded. He meant I would have to choose him or them, again. That was easily done when not faced by both of them, but both of my worlds were going to clash hard. I had to decide which of these worlds were more important to me. If I swayed even slightly, it could ruin every ounce of trust between Levi and I. He still didn't fully trust me, but the more he opened up, the more I could see the want in his eyes. I wanted it too, to finally have someone on my level, my same page, who wasn't going to turn around and fuck me the way I didn't like. Life in the Survey Corps on top of that was far too precious to take any of it for granted, so jumping into this was meant to be a strong commitment. Maybe not a serious relationship in the aspects of marriage and bullshit, but we needed to be strong together to face whatever life had in store for us as it could be snuffed out in an instant.

"I'll choose you every single time." I stated confidently, although as I watched my brother, I felt myself falter slightly. Part of me even prayed he wouldn't betray me. Having my brother, my partner in crime stick with me through such an event would be amazing, then again…he never was put in a position like this. It was always family first. You stick with your family; you protect your family no matter how fucked up your family was. In a sense, it was admirable the strong loyalty our father instilled in us. But, then again, having to face conditioning or other forms of severe punishment at the slightest falter of that loyalty meant that it wasn't real family you were loyal to. It was the image of that family. It was the foundations of everything they had built that needed to stay in-tact, no matter what they had to do to keep it so.

The fact that Jason barely spoke to me in these couple of days and didn't mention family once was the big red alert for me. He always spoke highly of family, even if it was just about the two of us. Now, I couldn't read him. He's here in the Survey Corps with me abandoning family supposedly, and there's no mention of threats from the family like there was for me. No sign of the betrayal rocking the family like there was with me. Every part of me wanted to trust Jason completely, but this was a huge red flag and one that I was very unlikely to ignore. Both Erwin and Levi knew this as well, as I made it a point for them to understand my concerns as soon as I thought about them. I couldn't help but gnaw on my lip thinking about the situation at hand. On one hand I had an incredible new life that I had to put my life and limb on the line for, which I feel I would be able to do now without hesitation. However, the thought of my old life, the old sense of belonging and acceptance I had was always going to be in the back of my mind. I was untouchable there, no vulnerability to speak of. Nothing could hurt me, and I had nothing to lose. I glanced over at Levi whose face never wavered from mine. Now I was vulnerable. Now I had everything to lose.

I stepped over to him, leaning into his chest and resting my head on his shoulder. It wasn't often I showed genuine affection and the same was for him, especially outside of the bedroom. But this time, it was warranted and much needed. His arms wrapped around me and I immediately relaxed, taking him in, his scent, his calm breathing; all of it making me feel safe. I didn't like being vulnerable and I especially didn't like needing to lean on anyone else for anything. But Levi was different, he made it so easy for me to relax and be a new kind of person. His hand came up to meet my face, pulling me to face him. Our faces inches away as his grey eyes pierced my soul, his thumb caressing my cheek. This was a side of Levi I had cherished, especially since I saw it only a handful of times. Not often enough in my opinion. Our lips met in one of the sweetest kisses I had ever had from him. His lips were soft and inviting, not forceful and eager like usual. He never had to ask for permission with me as the feelings flowed and our kiss became deeper. This kiss was sensory overload as I couldn't stop the blush across my face, feeling like a little schoolgirl getting her first real kiss. Every bit of me tingled, all the way down to my toes.

"I know I said I'd accept this, but can we make it a point not to do this shit where I can see it." I pulled away glaring over at the blond giant angrily for ruining my moment.

"Then don't look." Levi's retort made me laugh and made Erwin's eyes narrow. I understood how close Levi and Erwin really were, but sometimes their relationship surprised even myself. Levi normally just stayed quiet or voiced his opinion at everyone else. It was rare for him to talk back to Erwin.

"I think it's adorable!" The extra creepy peeking face of Hange from the door made me cringe.

"Were you spying or something?" I asked, though her manic laugh gave me my answer. I chuckled and shook my head as Levi rolled his eyes.

"Quit being a nuisance." He growled, glaring over at her.

"It's for research I promise." She lazily defended herself, and for the first time I heard a chuckle out of Erwin.

"Oh my god, Levi look, it knows how to laugh." I joked, tugging on Levi's shirt like a little kid, getting granted a glare from Erwin.

"He's normally quite a mellow person," Hange finally emerged from her not so great hiding spot, "you just brought out the worst in him is all." That made me feel totally better, I thought sarcastically. Hange stared at Levi and I just smiling from ear to ear making me realize I stayed in his arms. It was a comfortable spot I must admit. I finally pulled away, turning back to the soldiers, though they were now gone doing some other bit of training I assumed.

"So, this wasn't a farce…you two really are together…" Erwin stated, staring over at us almost disappointingly.

"I've never been dishonest with you." Levi stated, slightly annoyed. Erwin nodded, disbelief still over his face.

"If Levi trusts you then I will try to as well." Erwin's statement surprised me a bit making me crack a smile.

"Awe, blondie I think you're warming up to me!" He glared at me and shook his head in annoyance. He didn't argue though so that was a start.

The day seemed to be dragging on and on, mostly because the rain outside made it nearly impossible to get anything done. I sighed, gritting my teeth at the pain of the hot water bath I decided to take. I shouldn't be soaking in a hot water bath with these burns, but it was cold and gross outside, so I opted to just deal with the pain. I finally adjusted after a few moments to the hot water, easing back against the back of the tub. My eyes shut as I listened to the relaxing drumming of the rain on the roof. The door creaked slightly, and I peeked through one eye up at Levi who smirked down at me.

"I had a feeling you'd be hiding out." I giggled quietly closing my eyes again.

"I'm a Captain now, I can hide out without the wrath of you." He took a few steps forward towards the bath.

"Who says you don't get to still encounter my wrath?" My eyes opened, staring into his with humor all over my face.

"I say so." He narrowed his eyes, letting them trail over my submerged body.

"You don't get that kind of authority with me." I laughed but he was definitely serious. He grabbed my throat, his grip tightening slowly making me bite my lip. His thumb dug harder, bringing me closer to a mindless euphoria. Just one touch and not even in the real sensitive spots and I was already wiggling my thighs in anticipation. His lips met mine eagerly, sliding his tongue against mine dominantly. A small whimper escaped my throat and he pressed down hard making it hard to breathe as we kissed. He finally let go as I could feel the tingle in my cheeks from the lack of air. A moan erupted from my throat as his hand left my throat and made its way down to my chest, grabbing and squeezing roughly. His fingertips pinching and digging as he abused my breast. My hands made their way up to his hair, but he stopped, grabbing them and removing them. I watched, rather frustrated as he stood up removing his belt from his pants. Rather than pull his pants down, he grabbed my hands, wrapping the belt tightly around my wrists, using the end strap as a grip for himself.

Above my head both my arms went, and I about squealed in excitement as he latched the other end to the clawfoot of the tub, not allowing my arms to come down at all. He let out a low chuckle, enjoying the squirming view below him. He didn't move to continue though, just watched with a mischievous smirk as I rubbed my thighs together.

"God damnit, Levi, don't you fucking do this to me." I groaned, trying to get my arms free. He shook his head, crossing his arms over his chest.

"You're cute when you get all mad." I glared daggers at his unwavering stance, pouting angrily.

"I swear to God if you don't untie me now…" He chuckled, stepping forward a bit. Excitement erupting through my body as I ached for attention.

"Nope." I growled. "I'm gonna let you reflect for a bit about how much authority you seem to think you have with me." I wiggled my legs in frustration.

"You are such an asshole right now." He continued to smirk, using one hand to reach into the tub. My heart nearly stopped in the hopes he'd give in, but alas, he didn't. His fingers gripped my upper thigh hard, digging into my skin, hell bent on leaving bruises. I yelped biting my lip in frustration. He began to move his hand slowly, squeezing hard in different spots, rubbing softly at others. Always skipping the one place I wanted him most.

"There's so many ways to torture someone…." I whined tossing my head back. I swear, I'm going to kill him. "So many ways to control…." His fingers grazed across, making me gasp, though he grabbed my other thigh instead. Every time he had me thinking I'd get something; he'd change it up. "I like seeing you so vulnerable. You're almost begging for it." Fucking. Jesus. Fuck.

"Levi, please, God…." I growled.

"Oh…almost." He laughed, hands leaving my thighs. I whimpered angrily as he slid his fingertips across my skin as softly as humanly possible. Avoiding every spot, I wanted him to touch.

"Please, please, please…" I begged, grinding my teeth in immense frustration. He stopped. No movement, expressionless, just full on stopped while I panted, dying in front of him. He stood up, a mischievous gleam in his eye. I didn't like where this was going, immediately getting a gut-wrenching feeling.

"Have a good bath…" He turned on his hell stepping out of the bath. I'm pretty sure the entire headquarters could hear the yell I let out from Levi's bathroom so utterly angry. The bastard tied me up and left me to soak, literally. I growled and cussed every profanity I could repeatedly, splashing around desperately trying to get my hands free. Having a broken hand made weaseling out of a tight belt buckle incredibly painful and difficult. Eventually, I gave up, panting heavily completely exhausted. Why'd he have to try and make a point like this? He was right, this was certainly torture.

It felt like an eternity before he finally strolled back into the bathroom. It must not have been as long as I had thought, though, since the bath water was still quite warm. I death glared him the entire time he walked in, stepping over to the tub, staring down at me with his usual expressionless face.

"So, are you ready to be a good girl?" I clenched my teeth, holding back every horrible sentence I wanted to blurt out right then, solely because the way he said it gave me that tingle all the way down. I wouldn't admit that though. He nodded and smirked. "Now you know who's really in charge around here." I just stared blankly at him, refusing to admit how ridiculously hot this was yet again. He stepped to the side, grabbing the belt of the tub and letting me loose finally, just not from around the wrists. I arched an eyebrow as he tugged hard, yanking me through the bathroom quickly once I was out of the bath. He really, really liked his control…. where was this side of him before? The cold air hit my soaked skin and I couldn't stop the shivers as I stood in the middle of his room, waiting as patiently as I could. He watched as my lips trembled and every bit of me shook. "Knees." He demanded, tugging the belt until I was in front of him. I kneeled a little too fast than I anticipated, looking up at the very pleased look on his face. I couldn't help it, he had me in a position no man has ever dared, and I was enjoying it as much as I was hating it.

He stood in front of me, holding the belt up rather high so my hands were above my head. His other hand undid his pants and I realized immediately where he wanted to go with this. I could feel my mouth water as I anticipated the upcoming situation. He really was serious when he told Hange what he wanted me to do. I should've expected it, but I had gotten quite complacent to the regular rough sex we usually had. He sprang to life before my eyes and for the first time in my life, I obeyed the silent demand, opening my mouth and beginning my own teasing. My tongue twirling and playing with my new treat. Watching his face was exciting from this angle. His head tilting back, eyes closing, and jaw clenched. Yea…you may think you're in control, but don't forget whose making you act that way… I almost giggled at the thought.

His other hand grabbed my hair, pulling it back, forcing my head back roughly. In an instant he slammed into my mouth causing me to immediately gag, eyes watering. He did this repeatedly, slow but with enough force for me to feel the soreness in my throat. I felt like a hot mess, and I'm sure I was, as he picked up pace, forcing as much of himself into my throat as possible. I concentrated hard to ensure my gags were minimal. I wanted him to feel as good as possible. The cold air of the room no longer bothered me as my body was burning up, aching yet again for this incredible man. His soft grunts came through and I was ready. My mouth filled up quickly as he made it incredibly difficult to keep much in my mouth while he still thrusted. I was going to definitely need another bath. I choked slightly on the sheer amount that filled my throat, swallowing whatever I could.

He let go of my hair and the belt finally letting my arms rest in my lap. I licked my lips as those steel grey eyes came back to me from their pleasure, a new sort of desire flickering through him. He grabbed my still tied wrists, throwing me to the floor. The pain on my back made me hiss, but I didn't fight it. He grabbed the belt, tying it to the foot of the bed post. He was so very serious about his control. If he leaves me here, I'm for sure killing him. I didn't have a chance to really think about it as his hands gripped my thighs, spreading me wide enough for me to cry out. His tongue danced down south, my reward for being so very good. I wanted nothing more than to grab his hair and buck my hips to his face, but he held me down so hard I could feel the tendons in my inner thighs stretching painfully. Jesus Christ where has this side of him been hiding? Over and over again he sent me reeling, begging for him to stop every time I got extra sensitive. He ignored, pushing me through my almost never-ending orgasms.

By the time he felt he was satisfied with the job he had done, I was numb all over, pins and needles in my fingers down to my toes. I panted heavily, the mere look on his face the moment he rose, glancing up at me like he was ready to devour his prey nearly making me keel over at the sight. In a swift motion he was inside, giving me no time to wind down. He lifted my hips up, leaving my whole upper body still on the floor, fingers digging into my ass roughly as he showed the power he had over me. I was lost in every thrust, mind completely blank as all I could do was scream and slip out the occasional profanity. Every thrust hit at such an angle that I had no issue hurdling over every rolling orgasm like a star athlete. He won. He knew it. The look on my face, the pure desire I had for him, he knew it and I knew it and I never wanted to stop.

What felt like hours of my heavenly euphoria finally came to an end, both of us exhausted and panting heavily. There was no way I was moving after the number he did. I didn't even have the energy to say a word to him. His hands reached for the belt, loosening it off my wrists but I couldn't even put my arms down. I was convinced I was forever going to be stuck in this position. If it came with more sex like that, I was quite ok with it.

He finally stood up, refastening his pants, holding his hand out to help me up. I let out a chuckle, as if to say, right I can get up right now. He bent down picking me up with ease and throwing me onto the bed roughly. I hissed at the pain of my back hitting a new texture but again, refused to move.

"I think I'm broken." I finally huffed, barely even able to close my legs. He chuckled, fixing his shirt and throwing the rest of his uniform back on.

"Well fix yourself quickly, we gotta go meet the squad for the last mission briefing." I glared at him.

"You fix me. You're this one who did this."

"I'm better at breaking you." He grabbed his cloak, smirking at me before he left the room. Asshole. I sighed. I'm never leaving. Nope, not ever.