All the Words Written

by The-Missing-Paige

Years after the events of Brotherhood, Edward and Roy have given into romance and are now living together. While trying to make the place a little tidier, Ed finds some letters from Roy to him that he's never seen before…and they remind him that he has some unsent letters of his own. Slow burn.

43. Chapter 43

Roy,

I screwed up.

Somehow, I managed not to think about the fact that we'd have to kill Kimblee until it came right down to it. I've never killed anyone before…and I didn't want to change that. I wanted to be able to render him useless, but I never wanted to take his life.

Stupid of me, as it turns out. I hesitated when I had the opportunity to end it all, and Kimblee got away. What's more, I got myself fucking impaled when he blew up a building to escape.

It…how am I even supposed to describe that kind of pain? I guess you know, though, from what Lust did to you. Luckily for me, some of Kimblee's ex-henchmen were with me, and they helped me out. Just like you, I had to use alchemy to heal myself. But I don't know fire alchemy, so I couldn't just cauterize my wounds. Instead I drew on my own life force like a Philosopher's Stone, using that as energy to stop the bleeding.

I was weak, and I couldn't kill Kimblee. Because of that, I had to take desperate measures to make sure I didn't die. I still don't want to kill people, and if it's avoidable then I won't. But if there's no other choice, I can't hesitate next time.

Me and Al got separated, too. Now I'm being treated by a doctor, and because of the conflict with Kimblee I'll have to lie low for a while. They're bound to be looking for me. I don't know when I'll see Al again, or when I'll see you again.

I hope it's not too long.

-Ed