All the Words Written

by The-Missing-Paige

Years after the events of Brotherhood, Edward and Roy have given into romance and are now living together. While trying to make the place a little tidier, Ed finds some letters from Roy to him that he's never seen before…and they remind him that he has some unsent letters of his own. Slow burn.

49. Chapter 49

Dear Roy,

I've been a dog for so long, I forgot what it was like to be a teenager. I mean, I guess I hadn't actually experienced that, being a teen. Just a normal fucking kid.

I used to have a lot of nightmares. To be fair, I still do—but I'm having other dreams as well.

Would you believe me if I said I'd literally never thought about sex before? Like, I just didn't have the damn time. Now I do. And there's so much I want.

Biggest surprise is…I don't think it's girls. Not that I care, I have enough on my plate without worrying what I'm into, but I didn't expect it. Instead I want to kiss the guy who handed me a newspaper today, the guy with soft looking lips and a crooked smile. I saw a girl in an alley going down on some dude, and I want to try it. Both ways, fuck it. I want to know what it's like to have someone else's hand on me (though my own touch is new enough). And…I think I want you.

You're in my dreams more than I care to admit. What does that mean? What…is happening to me? I'm sure as hell not gonna ask Lion and Gorilla. But like…why you? Why couldn't I pick someone, anyone else?

What would you do if you knew?

Time to stop thinking. Fucking hell, I'm glad these letters never get further than my pocket.

-Ed