Dear Roy,
I…did something embarrassing yesterday.
See, as little as I like to remember, when I was in hiding after attacking Kimblee I had some time to myself, and you featured heavily in my thoughts back then. Now that I once again find myself with an abundance of time, you've been creeping more and more into the forefront of my mind. In more than one way. Ahem.
Alchemy may have been easy for me to understand, but these kinds of thoughts sure aren't. I'm in no way equipped to sort this shit out. Both of my parents are gone, and I sure as hell won't be talking these things through with Granny. Winry—I think she might beat me senseless if she knew. She's got a little bit of a thing for me, and I kindly (awkwardly) explained that she was more of a sister to me.
Sooooo…I told Al.
Why is it that he's the younger brother, yet I'm going to him for advice!? As it turns out, though, he was pretty helpful. Not to spill all his personal business, but having just gotten a body back, he's also experiencing a lot of these things for the first time.
Anyway, he reckons I'm gay. Okay, duh, that much I could figure out myself. Al says I think you're hot—also something I already knew. But he also says I'm attracted to you, like, as a person.
Is that what this feeling is? I suppose it makes sense, given the fact that I literally can't keep you off my mind. Having an explanation doesn't make anything better, though. You were my boss, you're older than me, you're probably straight, you live miles and miles away…should I go on? I couldn't have picked a worse person to have a crush on.
How do I make it stop?
-Ed