I lied on cold ground watching Emmett and two guys from Volturi, Demetri and Felix I believe, prepare everything for prefect evening around camping fire. I just can't help it, I mean I am happy I found my mate but this altogether causes me so much depressive mood that Jasper and his gift don't make any difference. I looked up at glass wall of the house and there were Jane and Alec standing right next to it, I could barely see Caius, actually I could only see top of his head. And then I saw Marcus pacing around. He is nervous. I could feel it, but why? What is so scary for him to be nervous. Edward went behind him and just motioned me into house. I walked in but I didn't plan on going upstairs with all of them in one place. Then I heard footsteps from room, to hall then down the stairs until I saw figures. First Jane then Alec and then Caius who was grimacing at something. When he saw me he rolled his eyes at me and mumbled something before speaking.

- You will need a lot of luck to understand what are those two lunatics talking about or you will need to be as insane as them to know it.

I shook my head and went upstairs making Caius stumble in process. I looked around me memorizing everything around me like I was going to gallows and it's last time I see this house. I am freaking out and I have no idea why. As I was nearing the room I could hear them more and more.

- ... and if not?

- There is nothing that can go wrong, it just can take time and that is it. Because this is strongest mate bond ever, and you after all are the one who should know it.

- Yes,yes indeed I see it. But as I understood it was not her choice.

- It was not, but...

- She has every right to not accept this, to not accept me as her mate.

I felt bad now. Do I really walk around giving of vibe that I don't want this or that I hate him or not accept it. This is no good. I wanted to run out and be alone. Then I saw Edward on doorway. 'Please leave, I need to make this right.' He looked at me and nodded.

- I will leave you now, just remember this is no big deal it just need some care and time.

He turned to me and in a blink of an eye he was gone I just felt wind pass beside me. I dragged myself over to room, I just didn't know what to do now. How to act now, to look like human and mess up something talking or to stay like this when he could think I don't want to speak to him. How troublesome. I peaked my head through door and saw him sitting on bed turned with his back facing me. I transformed back hoping he didn't noticed me. I speeded over to bed and sat behind him. We were so close, it felt nice and warm. Slowly he turned to face me, look on his face wasn't his usual "I'm bored" look, it was soft and caring and so worried. I really felt bad by putting him in this position. I seriously wasn't that "I will hug you till you die" type of person and I could tell it was same for him. For some time neither of us moved we just sat there looking at each other. He looked at my face and I could swear I saw his lips curl up a little bit. I chuckled at him and smiled.

- I don't have Edwards gift, I can't tell what are you thinking.

He was so surprised and taken aback but not in negative way. Then I realized as well, this is first time I spoke to him. I didn't let myself show anxiety I felt right now and I tried to stay positive with him.

- Do you believe in second chances?

- Yeah, kind of. Why?

- Did you know that I already had mate before?

- Wha... No.

- My wife was Aros sister...

- Wait, had, was?

- Yes. She was killed long long ago. Maybe few years after we met and just then when I saw her body burning I myself wanted to die. I tried killing myself but Aro stopped me. And all my life I believed in second chances unlike my brothers. But they believed in one type of second chances that I didn't. Aro and Caius have already faced those who found thier mates for second time. For sometime I didn't believe it or more likely I didn't want to believe it. After many years I hopped that at least one of my wishes will come true. Or that I die or get killed, just to be free of burden and sorrow I was carrying with me. Or to find someone to help me be happy again to find my true mate.

I was speechless. I just stared at him wondering if I actually imagined his speech. I felt painfully cold touch on my cheek I looked at Marcus who was caressing my cheek and seemed to be lost in his thoughts. I thought about this a little more, he had mate before me. For someone it would be shocking,disturbing, disgusting and more but I didn't give it much thought. I moved and sat closer to him and leaned my head on his chest while warping my arms loosely around him. Nothing, he was still as rock. I just went to pull away when I felt his hand being placed on my back and other one brushing my messy hair softly. It was nice, it felt so right to be held like this. I felt like I was in heaven and I felt so blessed to be so close to someone who is caring like him. Position I was sitting in was quite painful and I gave my best to ignore it but...

- Are you uncomfortable?

- Ah, just a little, my back is starting to hurt.

He let go of me so I can stretch out. Then loud yell was heard from outside. I jumped up just to see Paul rubbing his head, Jacob and Emmett laughing and Felix being chased by wolf Embry. I rubbed my temple and turned to face Marcus.

- They are such pain sometimes.

- It's nothing to worry about now.

- You are right I will have an eternity to worry about it.

Something flashed in his eyes. I saw hesitation on his face.

- Go ahead, what is bothering you?

I again sat beside him. No answer he just looked at me so deeply that I thought that will get lost in his eye. I actually collected myself together and took some courage to put my hand on his cheek. Never breaking eye contact with him I rubbed my thumb over his soft skin and inch by inch moved him closer to me.

- Tell me.

Nothing just sad look

- Please?

- At some point you will leave me as well.

I was so shocked and taken aback that my hand fell from his face and hung limp by my side. After some moments of silence I managed to choke out.

- What?...

- I can't turn you. It would kill you the moment venom gets to your blood.

- So...

- You aren't immortal, at some point you are going...

I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and put my hands on my face. Marcus froze thinking I was having an attack. I was surprised that I didn't have attack by now. He knelt down in front of me and took my face with his hands. Soon confusion replaced worry as he saw me smiling. I moved to him and kissed his forehead.

- I will not leave you, ever. I maybe am not immortal in a way that bullet can't kill me and that sort of thing but I am immortal in aging. I don't age, I will stay frozen as an 20 something years old forever.

- So...

- So it means I will spend an eternity with you.

I don't know what took over me. Why do I care so much? I mean he is my mate but I am not sure what caused me to be so happy and cheerful with him. I barely ever spoke to him and I barely knew him. Why was he like this, I understand that he is happy to find mate as well as am I but sill. I just don't understand. And yet with no reason at all, every word I spoke I spoke with care and worry about him. Now watching his face and looking at his smile made me so happy that no words can describe it. And his smile, that smile was everything. It was so pure like child that had no burdens and sins. Just happy life ahead of him. Maybe it is indeed that. To Marcus finding mate again was like starting a completely new chapter of story or starting new life. His gaze moved from my face to our hands placed on my lap. His grip on my hands was tight but not in a way to hurt but in a way just to be sure I am there and he is holding and not letting go of me. I smiled and leaned over to place my forehead against his.

- What do you think, is this going to be hard to adjust to?

- Me, new life or something third?

- Both, you and new life.

- I don't know but you understand that I am here for you at any time, no matter what.

- Yeah.

- I mean Aro already knows about us, and he was pretty optimistic about it not that he isn't optimistic about everything but, this time I think he truly cares. That is one person out, then your brother knows he is quite stressed I can tell but I am sure he will calm down in day or two. Another person down, then that Alpha he seems to have no problem with this at all. Yes he doesn't like vampires but he accepted this very well. If I am not wrong that is three of them now. About Edward and Carlisle I don't need to speak...

- yeah, that is five. And how many of them are left? Dozen and more. Carlisle is going to tell this to Denali coven, Denali sisters got pretty close to me last time they were here and Kate is going to freak out I am sure. Then I can assume that Amun and his coven will be informed as well. And they, well I don't know how they will react, I am sure that Benjamin will support me in this but I am still nervous.

- You don't have to be. That is not so scary.

- Actually I know that is not scary, the scary duo I left for end.

- Hm?

- I don't know what to say to my father. He will be outraged, disgusted, he will simply hate me when I tell him.

- I am sure he won't. You are his child, his blood and flesh. He will always love you and I am sure he will be proud of you for growing up completely and maturing enough to start family of your own. I assure you. And scariest one is?

- Caius. He hates, werewolves, wolves and everything and everyone associated with them. I am some kind of werewolf after all. He is grumpy always but I can feel hate oozing from him whenever he is near one of us. It scares me, it really does but that's not the point. I don't want him to hate me, I want him to give me a chance to show that I am no monster he sees in me. And when he hears that I am your mate and that he will spend a lot of time with me he will intentionally avoid me and try to get rid or me and...

- Stop. Breath. That is not going to happen, alright?

- How can you be sure? Can you guarantee that?

- Yes. He will get used to you being around pretty quick.

- Fine. I hope it will go like that

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