"Wanting to be happy is not the worst thing in the world, but wanting it badly enough to make us depressed is."

-Anonymous

I wake up a couple hours later. Sitting up, I look around and notice that everything is cleaner than it was earlier. I swing my feet over the side of the bed, then the door swings open, I whip my head around and see that it's only Adrien.

"Oh hey." I say with a small wave.

"Hey, you okay."

"I'm fine." I say with a little smile, that definitely shows I'm lying.

"Tell me again how you really feel when your ready. Now let's get going. I'm taking you to my house tonight."

"Ok." And with that we left the hospital.

" I feel like I don't belong here, like I'm messed up, defective." I say after some time. I'm currently sitting in Adriens car, he's giving me a ride home.

"You are allowed to feel messed up and inside out. It doesn't mean you're defective, it just means you're human." Adrien says to me.

"Then why do I feel so bad, why do I feel so broken."

"That's because you haven't had the right people to show you just how much you mean to the world, whether it be just being there for someone or spreading happiness with the people around you. Mari, life would be so boring without you. You just need hope that you can work through this with the right people to surround you by."

"Living with hope is like rubbing up against a cheese grater. It keeps taking slices off you until there's so little left you just crumble."

"Mari, think about how others would feel with you gone. They would be devastated."

"Then why do I feel worthless and a waste of space why do I cut myse-"

"Hold on! You cut yourself?"

I let out a deep breath. "Yes I did. I haven't in a few days. And it feels weird to not since I have been cutting for 3 years."

"3 years?! Why?"

"Life. Pain. Everything."

"Wow, there's so much I don't know about you."

"There's so much you don't want to know. I have… lets just say I have a rough past and I tend to guard myself from everyone. I hide away and live my life in fear every single day. I don't feel safe anywhere. Honestly I don't know what to do. Its like this saying I know, she can paint a pretty picture but this story has a twist. The paintbrush is a razor and her canvas is her wrist. It's dark and deep but it's so… me. It's hard to understand when you don't know me."

"But I want to know you. You just won't let me in."

"Adrien…" I say, turning to look at him, "It's going to take months god maybe years for me to open up to you."

"I'll wait as long as you need me to."

"What if you leave too?" I whisper, already being reminded of a memory that I've tried to forget.

FLASHBACK

"Dad! Mom! " little five-year-old me screamed. "Please don't go!" They turned to me and frowned, turning back around and walking away. I ran after them and jumped on them but was thrown to the side. I hit the side of a building and instantly blacked out. I woke up in the hospital 3 months later. Turned out the impact damaged a part of my brain ultimately putting me in a coma and forgetting who I was but not my past, just my name and how old I was and my favorite things like that. I gained my memory back after a few months, those months were not great.

FLASHBACK ENDS

I shudder and take a deep breath. "Adrien… when I was a child, I lost my memory for a few months."

"Why?"

"My parents abandoned me and when I wouldn't let go they threw me into the side of a building."
"Oh my god, Marinette how come you haven't told me this?"

"Because I'm slowly opening up, you'll be finding out about a lot of things."

He sighed, "We're here." I look out the window and see a beautiful mansion in front of me. I get out of the car and follow Adrien into the mansion. He brings me to his room, gives me one of his shirts and points in the direction of the bathroom. After I'm done with my shower I put the shirt I was given on, it goes down to my knees so I walk out and crawl into the bed. As soon as my head hits the pillow I fall asleep.

" You know the thing is, people who don't have a mental disorder just doesn't get it."

-Anonymous

(A/N:Wow, school is starting soon and I have a trip coming up in just TWO DAYS! Oh my gosh I can't wait, sorry that I've been inactive I was in the hospital for a reason that I'm not saying to the world but if you know me then you would know why. Anyways I will try my hardest to keep updating this story and finish all of my stories before I start anymore stories. I'm sorry it's short... bye!)