"Your not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness."

-Anonymous

The next morning I wake up in a soft and cozy place. It's… warm? I opened my eyes to see a face full of blonde hair. I slowly sit up and look around. Where am I? I give it some thought before last night suddenly becomes very clear. I'm in Adrien's house… I'm in Adrien's room… I'm sharing a bed with ADRIEN?! I scramble out of the bed and then realize I'm only wearing a shirt that doesn't quite hide everything since it had ridden up throughout the night. I squeak and run to the bathroom. I find my clothes from yesterday and change into them, poking my head out I see that Adrien is still asleep. Slowly I walk out of his room and to the kitchen, I find a pen and paper writing a little note for Adrien and grab an apple and some camembert for Plagg. Now dear readers I think I should explain a little as to what is happening and how I now Tikki. You see, I met Tikki when I was younger, after my parents abandoned me. She explained that we would be getting our miraculous soon, I originally was supposed to get the Ladybug miraculous but I had changed in the time I was away from her, so I instead got the Black Cat miraculous. Plagg's energy is negative and Tikki's is positive. I wasn't positive enough for my original position so I got the opposite one. Alright now back to what is happening. I sneakily walked out the front door and started walking back home. On my way there Plagg had climbed up and sat on my shoulder.

"Are you okay, Mari?"

"I'm fine." I say while tears are slowly streaming down my face. "I can take so much, till I've had enough. Why am I this way Plagg, why can't I be normal." I sob into my hands. Shaking uncontrollably.

Back With Adrien

I wake up to an empty bed. At first I thought she would just be in the bathroom taking a shower or something but I didn't hear the shower running so I decided to check the kitchen. As soon as I had gotten downstairs I see Tikki staring at a piece of paper on the counter. I walk over to her.

"Tikki, what's wrong?"

"She left."

"What?"

"Marinette left, and she wrote this note." I look over at Tikki then finally noticed some writing on the piece of paper, with neatly handwriting, it said:

Dear Adrien,

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry but I don't really think it's a good idea to be crashing at your place when I could go home. I'm sorry I left without waking you, but you looked so peaceful so I just let you sleep. I hope your not mad but I'm on my way home as you read this letter.

With Love,

Marinette

I put the paper down and go back to my room. I get dressed then walk out my front door. Following the path to Marinette's house I close my eyes and breath in the fresh air.

With Marinette

I got home about an hour ago. I had instantly climbed into bed and fell asleep, but first I locked my trap door. I was woken up by Adrien. I sat up quickly, feeling light headed I groaned.

"What do you want?"

"I wanted to make sure you were okay." I smile my fake smile.

"I'm fine, now can I sleep peacefully."

"Please stop pretending in front of me. Besides we have school in like an hour. We've already missed all of our morning classes."

"WHAT?! What day is it!"

"Uh Monday. September 21st."

"I'll get ready for school then, you can leave now."

"I'll wait for you downstairs."

"Do whatever." I say with a little smile. I quickly change clothes and head down stairs. "So we ready to go?"

"Definetly." As we head downstairs, I lock my door and head outside, towards the school. "Why are we going when we already missed half the day?"

"Because it's the right thing to do."

"Look Adrien, I don't care about school. All that happens is getting bullied for being the messed up girl. They stare at my arms when i have to roll up my sleeves. I can't bring myself to do this, again why are we doing this?"

"Look Mari, you can't keep avoiding people, you're going to have to deal with it, but this time you won't be alone."

"No matter how many people I surround myself with, I'll always be alone. People often judge how someone is dealing with a pain you have never experienced. So please don't judge how I am dealing with this pain that you have never experienced. You don't know me. You aren't going to know me, unless I trust you. I'm so tired of being taken for granted. I'm tired of being used. You don't know my past. You don't know what I went through. I'm tired of living. What's stopping me from taking my life? I'm scared of dying, but I'm also scared of living! I'm scared of never being enough. I'm scared that the friends I make are going to leave me. I'm afraid of getting too close. The last time I got to close I ended up getting hurt. Goddammit! I'm afraid of being around people! Of making friends! Of having a family! Of falling in love!" My breathing has come to shallow gasps of air. Sobs rack my body and I let the tears that are about to fall, just fall. I feel arms encasing me and holding me.

"I'm scared Adrien. I don't know what to do." We slide down until we are sitting on the ground. He just holds me and tells me everything is going to be okay. It just makes me sob harder because, no everything is not going to be okay. Everything is fucked up and I don't know how to fix it. I've tried by staying closed off, but look how that turned out. I'm broken, and there is no way to fix me. There's nothing, that anybody can do to help me come back to being the Marinette I used to be. There's nothing. I'm nothing. I'm worthless. I'm ugly. I can't do anything right. Why can't I do anything right. Why can't I be prettier, skinnier? Why can't I be the old Marinette. Why do I have to be so...

BROKEN

" Yeah, she's smiling but don't let that fool you, look in her eyes. She's breaking inside."

-Anonymous

(A/N: So sorry about the wait, I've been busy and have picked up so more shifts at work because bills are sky rocketing. And it was my birthday last month… I'm officially 16! Dang I feel so old. So let me clarify about the last scene of this chapter… so Mari feels she's not really worth having around and Adrien is trying to help her, but it isn't really working with the way her mind works. They were just about to walk into school when she finally broke down into sobs. So yeah. I kinda put what I've been feeling lately into my writing. I'll get another chapter out within the month, but I make no promises. Bye!)