"But you can not just leave like that! Your parents have no right to do this to you!" I shout at the tall dark haired man across from me

"They can and they will apparently Mags. There is nothing I can do. I've been told that I leave at the end of the week"

"But it's the army Alexander! You've almost 18! If they had waitied a few more months then you don't have to go! It would be your choice not theirs! You are not a fighter! Don't they realise that they are setting you up practically for slaughter! I don't want to be seeing your name on the news saying that you have been killed in some attack gone wrong!" My hands were shaking as I was pacing the floor trying to make sense of why my best friend's parents think that it is a good idea to send their son off to the army. "Did they even say why they are sending you? There's no just reason"

Alec sighs "Well. I guess there is no reason to lie to you since I am going to away soon. You're my best friend Magnus and I've been trying to find a way to tell you this for some time now but I guess I'm out of time."

My heart jolts in surprise. Alexander Lightwood is not one to be shaken and right now his hands were shaking, he was refusing to look at me, instead moving his eyes to anywhere but me. It's like he is toying with something in his mind. Like he really wants to tell me something but he is doubting himself. I decide to take action to calm him down. "Hey" I say placing both of my hands on either side of his face forcing him to look at me "What's wrong. You can tell me anything you know that right?"

I watch as Alexander's features relax in my hands and almost melt into my hands as our eyes meet. I smile at him trying to silently encourage him.

"I…I wanted to tell you that….I have wanted to sign up to the army for a while and I knew this was how you were going to react. I didn't want to upset you and I've been trying to find a way to tell you that this is what I have wanted for while."

My face falls. I can tell when Alexander is lying and he is definitely lying to me right now. I sigh as I nod and accept the cock and bull excuse he has just given me. Alexander has always been against joining the army. His adoptive brother Jace joined the army as soon as he could legally sign up and Alec was always going on how the army is dangerous and how he was worried about Jace being deployed and not returning. Joining the army made sense for Jace. He was a fighter, a born soldier. He needed that form of stability in his life that the army gave and you could see that it suited him well when he came home for the holidays. Alexander was not one of those people. He wanted to be a writer. He already had a few manuscripts to publish but he never found the courage to send them off. He was against using guns and was never really one for following rules. He lived by his own rules and I happily was by his side encouraging him all the way to embrace the individual he was.

I sigh resolute in the fact that there was nothing that I could do to change things. "Fine. If you are going, then we need to throw you a big going away party."

Alec smiles as if he was relieved "This is you. Of course there would be a leaving party"

"Hey!" I protest "I love a good party and this is a good excuse as any to have one"

"It's not like I'm going away forever Mags. It will probably for a few years before I find something else to do anyway. I know some friends who had the army help them move off to different career paths after a few years of service"

"I bet none of them wanted to be a writer though did they?"

Alec shakes his head "No. But you never know. It might do me good. I'm not exactly good in a fight. You've always had to bail me out when someone's tried to punch me"

I nod and smile, trying my best to hide the hurt in my chest. "That's true. But this time I'm guessing it will be Jace that will be helping you out, not me" My heart tugs at the idea of anyone hurting Alexander but that small silver lining of Jace probably being in the same regiment as Alec makes me feel slightly better. It just means that someone will be there to have his back even when I can't.

Alec nods "Yeah. Maybe."

"Just promise me that we will always keep in touch. Don't leave me for your new army buddies right? I mean, I'm a little jealous that you get to see all of those fit looking bodies every day" I joke making him laugh. I came out as bisexual to Alexander a few months ago and he took it really well. He apparently said that he always knew that I had a thing for men and women and was waiting for me to tell him. Alec was at least half right.

"I promise that if i meet any good looking men that are worthy of my best friend then I will send them your way" He joked

I grin in response because what else can I do? Yes I am into men and women but Alec doesn't know the whole truth.

My type was women…..

and Alexander

Hey everyone!

Welcome to my new fanfic!

This chapter is a trial to see if you all like it and see if I should continue with it. I have about 6 chapters written so far so I can always see what happens. I'm a big Shadowhunters fan (Malec is officially my OTP!) and I hope you all enjoy this new direction that I have gone with my writing. I apologise to those of you who have subscribed to follow me, I haven't released anything in a very long time. Life just caught up with me (marriage, babies etc) so I didn't really have time to write until now. This will not be weekly update thing so please be patient and I will try and write and upload as soon as I can.

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