"Wait a minute. So you're saying that your bodyguard Alexander, is THE Alexander?"

"Yes"

"Your childhood best friend Alexander"

"Yes"

"The one who died"

"Yes"

"The one who was your first-"

"YES!"

The woman who sat infront of me wearing nurse's scrubs with her black hair tied back into a neat bun, just stared at me wide eyed as I told her everything that had transpired yesterday. I seriously needed someone to talk to after my talk with Alexander and Catarina was the only person who could have a partial judgement. I couldn't exactly talk to Ragnor about how awkward this situation could get and my other best friend Raphael is not who one goes to for advice like this.

"Wow. I did not see that coming"

"Trust me Catarina, I don't think anyone would have."

"How are you feeling about all of this?"

"I suddenly feel like I'm in a movie where the Oscar nominated plot twist has just happened!" I joke trying to lighten the mood. "Honestly? I'm still processing. I thought I had lost him for good Cat. He was my best friend, my first crush, my first… everything." I sigh as I slump backwards on the sofa we're currently sitting on in my living room, with a wineglass in my hand.

"It sounds like someone up there has decided that you two need another chance." Cat grins at me

"Oh come on. You know that I don't believe in all that 'stars aligned', 'fated person' mumbo jumbo bullshit."

"Only because you thought you had lost the love of your life. Who else can say that they have been given this opportunity again?"

"I know. But I can't just forgive him instantly Cat. I need to get to know him again. He is so… different. More mature. He has seen and done things I wouldn't even comprehend. He is not the Alexander that I know anymore but I believe him when he says that he is sorry. Sadly, ten years of heartache is not something you can forget overnight."

Cat places her hand on mine as she takes a sip from her wineglass. "I know my friend. You have both grown up. You both need to reconnect and find that common ground that you had all of those years ago. Think of it this way. If Alec didn't want to see you again, he would have stayed under the radar and you two would never have met again. He has been incognito for 10 years, I'm sure he would have been able to keep that up if he wanted to. But he wants to get to know you again. He wants to be there for you. Being your security guard is the best way he can do that."

I stare at Catarina as my head starts to shake and I shrug my shoulders in defeat. "I'm scared Cat. I don't want to lose him again."

Cat placed a hand on my cheek in support. "You won't. It's like you said before, having Alec as your security guard is purely a way of placating Ragnor for the tour and as much as I love you, no one is going to want to do anything to you. You are just a fashion designer. You don't own millions, you are not royalty, you are not that famous yet."

"Oh geez thanks" I scoff mildly offended

"My point is, that like you have said a thousand times before, Alec is not really needed. Think of him as another PA if you really must. Alec will probably be so bored on the journey since from what you told me over the years, he's not exactly into his fashion anyway. It means you basically get to spend the next few weeks with your old best friend from your childhood. Oh the horror!"

I laugh "I guess you're right. What harm can it do? Plus if it gets Ragnor off my back so I can work, I think I can manage this."

"That's the spirit! Now" She says as she pours herself another glass of red wine. "What does he look like now? Is he still hot?"

I groan "Hot does not even describe it Cat. He's tall, slim but muscular, has that stubbled beard and natural bed head look. I don't understand how someone can be that good looking. I can't believe that could have all been mine if he hadn't gone into the army in the first place!"

"Well now, you get that opportunity again"

I shake my head "I can't go there with him again. He works for me. It will be a major clash of interest"

"Who says people need to know"

"Oh you know me when I get with someone. I'm beyond obvious, I can't do the secret relationship thing."

"You are the boss. You can do what you like! Plus, when have you ever cared about what people think?"

"It's not that. I need to stay professional. I can not make Alexander a distraction. I need to focus and network for the next few weeks. Afterwards I can maybe think about having a life again"

Cat sighs. "Okay Magnus. But you need to let yourself be happy one of these days and not focus purely on work. Promise me when you come back, we will go out for drinks."

I smile "I promise"

For the rest of the night, Catarina and I discuss all of the places and events I am going to for the next few weeks. When she leaves, I head to bed after my usual night time routine of showering and removing my makeup. As I get under the golden silk sheets, I turn to look at a photo frame on the side of my bed. It has two pictures of Alexander and myself from the night before he left for the army in it. One was when we had just told each other that we loved each other and someone (Clary later confessed it was her) managed to sneak a picture of us kissing under the large tree in his back garden and next to it was another picture where Alexander's arm is around my shoulders, with my arms is around his waist curled into him. We were laughing about something (what it was escapes me now. Probably something Jace or Simon did) but they are my favourite pictures. Alexander looked so happy and the pictures seemed so natural. My stomach leaps at the idea that I could possible have this again. We never really got an opportunity to start what could have been.

I chuckle as I close my eyes at the thought that maybe Cat was right.

Maybe this is the universe giving us our second chance.

Hey all

Just a little side chapter for now but I hope you liked it. I promise I'll try and upload something soon.