He never expected to see her again. She left and shattered his heart but he didn't know why. He didn't know if it was her choice to leave or if something was dangled in front of her that made leaving look like her only option. Nevertheless, there she stood in the room looking as stoic as ever. Al had just been arrested and charged with murder. Hank didn't say a word and as Jay looked on, Erin Lindsay stood before him.
Jay Halstead can remember the day Erin Lindsay left the Chicago Police Department. The day before she had been called before the review board over the incident that had occurred in the interrogation room. A 10 year old boy had been kidnapped, molested and left for dead and it all pushed Erin to her limits. True, it was probably a bad idea to put her gun into the suspect's mouth but it did give them the address of where he has stashed the boy, so Jay knew she had the right intentions. Being a former Army Ranger, Jay has seen a lot of tough deaths in his mind and when they pulled 10 year old Derek Robbins from the trunk of that car, Jay did chest compressions until the team pulled him off. He didn't want to go back and admit to Erin that they hadn't gotten there in time. Jay remembered the look on her face when they got back to Intelligence. Her face fell when she saw him shake his head. She told Hank she was taking the rest of the day off and he let her go home without question.
Jay had gone over there that night, a bottle of scotch in his hand and looking to numb his mind. She had answered the door, eyes glazed over and whiskey on her breath. She stepped aside and let him in. He went to her kitchen, poured himself a glass and downed it. He turned to face her and took in her appearance. Oversized sweatshirt and leggings, her rich brown hair in a messy bun and those gorgeous hazel eyes hiding behind the alcohol. Jay remembered the last time he was in this apartment with her, when he had left.
His (almost) ex-wife had shown up and Jay had been forced to tell Erin about her. He wished he had gone his whole life without having to tell her about Abby but it needed to come out. Jay wanted to do the right thing, give Erin some space and he moved out to stay with his brother Will.
Now that he was back in this apartment with the woman he loved more than life itself, all he wanted was one thing: her. Jay approached her, his eyes filled with lust and passion for Erin. His mouth crashed into hers as he feasted on her soul. Erin wound her arms around his neck as Jay's went around her back and he lifted her up. Erin wrapped her legs around him and he led the way to the bedroom they once shared.
The next morning, he awoke to her getting dressed in her service blues to meet with the review board. She kissed him, smiled and headed out the door. Jay shook the sleep from his eyes and proceeded to get dressed and head into work. He didn't see her for the rest of that day. He debated calling her after the night they had spent together but he figured she needed her space after the meeting with the board.
The last he had heard from her was the day after her review. She sent him a text message. It was simple and to the point, just like Erin. He will never forget those words "I'm leaving Chicago. The FBI has asked me to join a task force in New York. Please don't try to change my mind, I'm going. I love you Jay".
All that seemed like a lifetime ago until it all came crashing back when Erin Lindsay stood before him.