Oh God! I screwed up big time. I don't even know how I thought that was a good idea! I wasn't even thinking, after what they said I was just lost. Lets recap what happened in the last 24 hours.

I was having dinner with my family at my parents house. Since Trina and I moved out after graduation we come every week here to have dinner with them and talk about what happened through the week.

"Yesterday two lesbians and a gay guy came in the station to report some group of men who have been harassing them" My dad said which captured all of our attention.

"Oh my god what happened?" Trina asked.

"They were just calling them names and stuff like that because they are not normal" Dad replied as if because they don't think they are normal gives them the right to harass them.

"What do you mean by not normal?" I asked

" Your dad means that they are abnormal. What they do are not normal. Women and men belong to each other. That's how God created us. Thank the lord you and your sister weren't infected with this disease" Mom said and I wish she didn't.

Trina and I kind of lost the ability to speak after that. We were still processing what they just said. We knew they are old school and go to church and all but they weren't that religious and they never talked about the LGBTQ+ community at all.

After a while we left and Trina were driving me to my apartment. There was total silent until Trina decided to break it." Are you okay?"

"No I am not. I had hope that when I come out they will accept me. Now if I ever came out they will hate me guts." I said while crying.

I have known that I am gay since freshman year in highschool and started dating a girl in my junior year we have been together since then. I have been with Jade for 4 years now. We are sharing an apartment. My parents think that she is just my " Roommate " but obviously she is more than that.

We are not out yet because of me. Jade wants to tell the whole world but I am still scared. No one knows except the gang and Trina and they all accept us.

"Don't worry Tor when they know you are gay, you might open their eyes to things they can't see"

"Well atleast one of us is optimistic" I get out of the car and tell her that I will see her later. I watch her drive off and instead of going up to my apartment, I decide to go to the bar near our college. The gang and I attend UCLA . Our apartment is near the uni. So it's easy and we are never stuck in traffic especially that we can go by foot.

I have arrived at the bar in less than 10 minutes and started drinking right away. A classmate of mine was there. He came and sat with me. I knew that he liked me because he always flirted with me and he is always there when I need him and ofcourse since I wasn't out as gay he thinks that I am straight and single.

I had a few drinks but I wasn't drunk although the buzz was there. He was flirting as always and all I could think about is the words that my parents said "not normal" next thing I know we are on his bed having sex and you know what is the worst part? The worst part is that I initiated it. I kissed him at the bar and told him " let's go somewhere more private" I have cheated on Jade. I have cheated on the woman that I love the most and there is no one to blame but me because I let my parents words affect me.

You know what's ironic? The guy is called Jesus and I am not even less gay, if anything now I am even more gay than ever. I told him that I am sorry and that that was a mistake and left. Now I am on my way home and I don't know what I am going to tell Jade or if I am going to tell her at all.

I am home and Jade is here. Its now or never. I don't want to tell her but have to, I won't be able to live like that.

"Jade babe I need to tell you something" I choked out while crying

She looked worried and held my hands in hers " What's wrong Tori? Did something go wrong at your parent's?"

" No Yes I don't know. They talked about how being gay isn't normal and when I left that is all I could think about I went to the bar to get drunk and Jesus was there and I don't know I guess I wanted to feel "normal" so one thing led to another and I slept with him. I am so sorry I don't know what got over me."

She let go of my hand like it was on fire. She was crying but she was also angry and all of a sudden she slapped me hard. " YOU CHEATING WHORE. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?" she bellowed.

"Jade I di.."

"NO don't you tell me that you didn't mean it. You cheated Tori. You are fucking normal even if some people don't believe that . Our love is normal and you threw all of it in the trash once your lips crashed in his. We are over I never want to see you again get the fuck out"

"Come on we can work it out. I didn't feel anything towards him. I swear you are the only one I want"

"You have ruined everything we have built. I can never trust you again. So leave and come when I am not here to get your shit or I will burn them"

She opened the door for me to leave and after I passed the door frame the last thing she told me was " Fuck You"