I'm ALIVE!

I'M ALIVE! Hahaha

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Hello, first of all, I would like to say that I'm Ret Conning the story so it's one, though it won't be the only one, pararel sequel to "Death and Rebirth".

Second, things start getting M in this chapter.

Third, I feel the need to point out that one of the main inspirations for this fic was "Final Poke-Fantasy" from Phoenix Champion, which itself is based on another story, "Clash of light and dark" from the youtuber nikkolasko/envoyofthesword among others. Go check it out because it's a good read.

Review please, I'm hardly getting reviews for this story.

After that French kissing session, which lasted longer than I thought it would and felt surprisingly really good, we separated to breathe, a string of saliva connecting our mouths.

Celebi broke the silence.

"So, my hero, where did you come from? I think I would remember a black Victini if I had met them"

"Yes, well, that does have quite the story behind it. You see…" I giggled and started explaining stuff, though only very superficially.

"… And when I woke up I was in fetal position as a Victini"

Celebi made a very good audience in my opinion, she gasped at the right moments and when I mentioned the explosion that killed me, she let go an Eeep of panic, and looked at me gently and with compassion, and while I didn't want any worthless pity, she strangely made me feel better.

I knew she believed me because I could feel her mind lightly touching mine and scanning and verifying my memories as my story brought them up.

"My, that was quite the story, I never would have thought that you would be a reborn soul, much less that you would be reincarnated as a god like myself, so there are other worlds, hmnn…" She paused, looking pensive, with a hand in her chin.

"And then, Lord Arceus explained to me everything, or, at least, everything HE wanted me to know and, not that I had that much of a choice, I went down to get to work and save the world."

Celebi nodded "You know, I'm the one who made the prophecy, one of my jobs in the pantheon is the oracle and a goddess of prophecy, I knew you would come for me, though I didn't expect your backstory"

"No offense, but how did you survive being in there, It looked like you had been in there for a while" I asked her.

"I don't know anything about what a human is, but you and I are gods, we don't die very easily" She didn't know what a human was, but hadn't she read my memories, then again, it was very, very superficial and in a sense not even in that 'part' of my mind, so I guess that makes sense, there was another thing I wanted to ask her, what was it? Oh yeah!

"What does the prophecy say exactly? I think I need to know"

She smiled at me "It just describes someone who could be turned into a Victini to help"

I got even more serious "But something I have long since learned from my previous life is that when it comes to stuff like say, prophecies, the exact words matter, a lot."

Celebi gave me a joyless smile that didn't reach her eyes, bitterness rising the forefront of her mind "I know, I learned that a long time ago too, however Dark Arceus could be spying on us, and there are eyes and ears everywhere that I don't want them hearing the prophecy, for the exact reasons why you want to do so, I'll tell you later more in private after we've rescued more legendaries." She said in the same serious tone.

I nodded accepting her reasons, I then looked around at all the death trees, probably dead because of her capture, directly or indirectly.

"You said "we", are you going to go back to the Hall or are you coming with me" I asked her in a polite way, offering my paw to her.

"I'm joining your party, you're saying you're new to this world and body, so you'll need my help."

"Thank you, it's appreciated." I was grateful, but then I started to feel a bit hungry, which is something I had been dreading. To make matters worse, Celebi's powers immediately picked it up.

"Looks like you're hungry, to be fair I am plenty too but we have different diets." Celebi said, then she looked somewhere behind me.

"And look, right there is your meal" she said, pointing somewhere behind me.

I look in the direction she was pointing and see a lone Rattata wondering around by themselves.

I felt something in my stomach as I considered my choices, but the two of us approached silently, quietly, and in my case nervous.

When we were near, the rattata turned to look at us.

"Hey, what are you two doing here?" The pokemon asked, there was a suffocating sense of guilt, but an even greater sense of dread.

Celebi put both her hands on my shoulders and leaned close to my ear, whispering "It's alright."

I took a couple steps forward, the rattata took one back and said in a panicked tone "Hey, what are you doing, and what's with that weird expression?"

I took another step forward and spoke in a sorrowful tone "I'm sorry."

Then I breathed in heavily and breathed out a Flamethrower attack.

The rattata jumped to the side in an attempt to evade it, but didn't quite manage and as a result got his right side and tail burned.

I made a dash with my flight and grabbed the rodent by the neck.

But then he looked at me with such primal fear in his eyes that I slowly found my eyes averting his own, I turned to the ground, unable to hold his gaze, feeling disgusted with myself.

He took profit of my distraction by clawing at my arm, making me let go of him enough that he yanked himself free and ran away.

Celebi approached "What went wrong?"

I shocked my head "I couldn't do it, I just came to this world and I'm a rookie who's never actually killed anybody before AND NOW THAT THE MOMENT HAD COME TO GIVE THE RATTATA THE COUP DE GRACE, I COULDN'T MAKE MYSELF SNAP HIS NECK!"

This was horrible, not because I didn't like the fact that I had basic morals, but because I was fully aware that I was in the middle of a freaking, fucking WORLD WAR where those very same morals would get me, and probably a lot more people killed, thanks to the Resets, probably repeatedly.

Feeling me falling into despair, she hugged me from behind she cooed, shooting me.

I wanted to cry, how could I fight in a war or even live here without killing people.

We stayed that way for a while more, I didn't complain.

We had to find shelter for the night, guided by Celebi I flew us to a cave in a small mountain that rose in the middle of the forest, I say us because she insisted that I carry her while she gave direction pointers, but considering that I had to carry her in my short arms and the way she clinged and rubbed her body to mine as well as the plucky energy she displayed before made me severely doubt the "I'm weakened by my imprisonment" bullshit story she gave me.

That night I would sleep quite well actually, to be honest I kinda had a wet dream.

I thought that was more or less fine until I noticed Celebi giving me a blowjob.

It didn't quite sink in until I was finished waking up.

"There" Celebi said in her angelical voice and at that moment my mind went 'click'.

Nanana na

fully loaded

Finishing processing short term memory.

ERROR!

Mind exe has encountered an error and needs to reboot.

ERROR!

Celebi, a legendary, a goddess, the Voice of the Forest... Has just given me a blowjob.

I screamed (Don't you dare say it sounded like a little girl, I'm denying it) and flew to the edge of the cave shacking like a leaf in the wind.

"Oh, no! God, no, Celebi, you don't just do THAT!"

Celebi looked at me hurt and confused at my panic attack.

"What's wrong? Why did you run away like that?"

I was going to yell more when I noticed her face, she looked genuinely hurt and about to cry, my powers were picking up the heartbreak she was giving off.

I immediately felt like complete and utter shit, I never meant to make her cry.

"Fuck!" I muttered under my breath, then thought about how to make her feel better "Please, don't cry Celebi, I really appreciate what you did with me, it's just, this is the first time ever, in either life that someone has done this for me, and I just didn't know how to respond. It's such a special and unknown occasion I didn't know how to react, so I reacted with fear. It's not your fault." I said very carefully and to my relief she stopped looking like she was going to cry.

She looked at me with still teary eyes "Can I have a hug?" She asked so softly it made my heart melt.

"Yes, of course" I hugged her, rubbing her back softly with one of my paws "Don't worry, I will never react like that again, you have my word." I then kissed her in the chin, then the check and then a few in the neck, she leaned into me, still sniffing but looking better.

"Look Celebi, you've got to tell me more about what being someone's mate, because I'm very much a beginner, an amateur if you will, hehe" I told her, saying amateur at the end as a sex joke mostly, I've never really liked sex jokes, considering them dirty, but just this once it felt like it fit.

Celebi sighed "Well, I… I never had to explain what being someone's mate implies, I…" She blinked, then rubbed her eyes again to clean them of the remains of tears. "Well, on a very superficial level a mate is supposed to keep their partner satisfied, sexually or otherwise, and they provide each other with descendants, but there's just so much more to it than just that. And it's something that, unfortunately many pokemon just don't get. Mates are also supposed to be emotional and psychological pillars for each other, they are there for each other."

Celebi then grumbled "For many, including many legendaries, they are only seeking one trait in who they mate with: Power. They don't care for love, sexual pleasure, personality (except as it relates to their genetic suitability), money or social status."

My lips twitched slightly in amusement "Sounds to me that you are one of the romantic types."

Celebi gave me a half angry glare, or at least what I think was a half angry glare but didn't say anything, just "Hmpt".

I hugged her again "Don't worry, I'll try to be a good mate, now then, next question, when exactly is it time and place to well, mate with your mate?"

"Well, depends, whenever and wherever you want, really, so long of course, there aren't more important things to be done, of which there can be many depending on the situation."

Well, that was certainly fascinating, though thankfully, with a war going on there probably aren't gonna be appropriate times until it's over, all right, next question:

"What exactly do you need to do to become someone's mate, 'cause I really don't know how I ended up as your mate, not that I'm complaining."

Celebi looked at me carefully, and one didn't need to have psychic powers to know that she didn't like at all the implications of what I just said, me and my big mouth.

"All that is required is the approval of the parties involved" She said in a more wintery tone, yup, she didn't like the implications at all.

"Huh, well in that case…" I got near her and peeked her in the lips "I gladly accept becoming your mate."

She smiled widely, then closing her eyes, she hugged me tightly "Oh, thank you, thank you, thank you…"

I hugged her back awkwardly and rubbed my paws on her back telling her that it was no problem, that I was glad that she had chosen me.

"We should get out of the cave already, do you know where the other legendaries are or at least an idea on how to find them?"

She hummed "I think the best course of action would be to go to the Hall to ask Arceus for help. While He admittedly can't tell us the exact location but we can get a general idea of the area"

To this all I had to say was "If you have the general area, how the hell are legendaries still captured, shouldn't you have rescued them all already."

It was frustrating, despite what my future self said, which I still have no idea how I grow up to become.

Okay, I'm starting to understand how I become like that a bit, after all, first day in, I die and get eaten.

Then I revive and have to fight for my life.

Then I have to kill a kaiju.

Then, THAT with Celebi.

Looks like I will be changing a lot after all.

This so far seemed to be the plot of some adult pokemon game.

Seriously, they can't mount a rescue, I suppose it might make sense if all the legendaries were captured but that kaiju was weak.

Even a lesser legendary should be an avatar of inescapable death to the giants, and Arceus, the mightiest one, was most definitely not captured.

"It's not so much that we don't know where they are, so much as that they're heavily guarded, it's not as easy as you make it sound." Celebi responded with a neutral expression.

"Well, you sure as hell weren't "heavily guarded", if you asked me. That giant blob of slime was alone, and so damn weak I literally can't understand how, not why, HOW you were trapped in there and couldn't escape."

Celebi sighed.

"First of all, the monster had properties that nullified much of my power and second, I don't know if you're aware of things in what you implied was a very short time in the world but do you know who's at the top of the dark one's army?"

Now that was an interesting question.

"No, who, or what?"

"I'm afraid the dark one created dark and evil versions of the legendaries to act as his generals and wardens to keep us trapped."

I whistled, interesting, I never mastered that, I pulled it off on accident.

"Yeah, that's going to be trouble." It was really going to be, it appears I'm going to have to have to fight an entire army of dark gods, well, at least now I'm a god myself, lucky me.

Whoa! I sure hope that part about calling myself a god wasn't blasphemy, mind you, I always wanted to be a god.

When asked as a child what I wanted to be when growing up, one of my possible answers would be a god.

And I'll tell you another thing…

A snap drew my attention.

"Hey, Earth to Victini, anybody there?" Celebi said, snapping her fingers again. "Sorry, just thinking about what you said."

I paused for a moment

"Celebi, could I ask you a small favor?"

"Yes, of course."

"I think of the context of my origins, to be a bit of a sensitive issue, I would appreciate it if you didn't go around revealing and kept it as a secret for me to reveal or to not."

Celebi smiled.

My stomach chose that moment to growl.

Celebi looked at my belly with a frown,

"Sure, but you've also gonna have to do something for me"

"What?"

"The rattata is just out there, you're going to go to him, and you're going to kill him, and then you'll eat him right in front of me."

I took a step back, a horrified whisper came out "No."

Celebi continued "Blacky, I know you don't want to and to some extent, I do applaud your love for life, but you need to understand that you have to, whatever you were before, you're a predator now, and a warrior, among many other things, and because of this, your first kill is crucial, I understand that the first kill will always be the hardest, it usually is for most pokemon, to the point a proverb for it is famous. I understand, my first murders were very hard on me too, so I'm no exception, and I know what I'm talking about."

I alternated between nodding and shaking my head, still nervous.

"Teleport us there" I wasn't going to be able to bring myself to walk there.

She grabbed my hand I felt myself being covered in Psi before a strange sensation happened, something started mixing within the Psi, something that almost felt natural, as in, like nature itself, definitely, not something I was used to feel, it certainly felt alien, and anathema.

Celebi glowed brightly and I got swallowed in the light.

When the light faded I was outside the cave with Celebi holding my paw-hand and I noticed it was afternoon again, it dawned on me that we had travelled back in time.

I say back because from here I could see the fire I had created when I killed the giant.

Which I am quite certain went out through the night, assuming of course, it didn't spread.

I sniffed the air, catching the smell of fire but I could also smell the rattata.

I flew in that direction with Celebi following me, and I saw him in the distance, I flew upwards so he didn't see me and Celebi followed.

"And remember, this time, you mustn't fail" Celebi reminded me, a bit too coldly in my opinion but that could just be a matter of context.

Was it me or was the air a bit more chocking now, is this what it feels like to get ready to kill someone?

The rattata was just below us now.

I descended at great speeds, like an eagle, covering myself in fire.

He turned to me with a squeal of fear and surprise just before I hit him with a scream, breaking his spine with a crack and setting him on fire.

The next seconds were an utter hell, the fire burning, the rat screaming, I couldn't stand it.

I wanted to end it, badly, I tried the sword-hand trick again, but because of the stress it came out as more of a spike.

Grabbing the thing's head with one hand I drove the spike directly into his head, it trashed one more time before going limb.

"Huh, huh" I breathed heavily, I could no longer feel a mind in there. I had killed him. I had committed murder.

But why was I breathing so heavily, I hadn't have that big of a work out.

"Heh, heh" I was a murderer now, a predator just like what Celebi had said.

"Hah, hah, hah" Why was I laughing? I didn't know, all I knew was that I had to laugh.

"Hahhahaahahhahahaaahaaahahaaaa?" So I laughed.

"HAHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAHHAAAAHHAAH!" And kept laughing, it's SO funny, I couldn't stop. Tears ran down my face.

"Well done" Celebi said coming down, huh, I had forgotten she was there.

Something cold, from the bottom of my stomach, froze my joy at seeing her.

It's all her fault. Something in my mind whispers, echoing in the corners of my consciousness.

She smiled tentatively at me and moved to touch me, but I slapped her hand and did a gesture to threaten her, or shoo her away.

"Blacky?" She asked shakily

"It's your fault, YOU made ME do THIS!" My rage was breaking at this point. My flames gathering around me. I lifted myself to the air at her level.

Realizing what I was about to do Celebi readied herself.

"Searing Shot" I screamed as an inferno of flames spread around me.

Celebi blocked that with a Psi shield but I was too taken by emotion to do another attack so instead I screamed, lunged at her…

And hugged her like my life depended on it, then again, my life wasn't at risk, "only" my sanity.

We just stood there for a while, with her whispering words of comfort in my ears.

After a while she said "Alright then, It's time for you to eat."

I didn't want to eat him, but the scent of burning flesh surprised even me with how much it drew me in.

I started hearing Celebi's mind voice in my head saying:

Eat. Eat. Eat. Eat. Eat. Eat.

I approached a patch of burnt flesh in the corpse back and sniffed it.

At this point I would be repulsed, if only because as I said earlier I was a very picky eater, but Celebi constantly repeating the word "eat" in my head took up that required mental space needed for that.

I opened my mouth with an Aww and started chewing.

Wow, 10 pages and 4323 words, this is hands down, the largest chapter in the story yet.

Next chapter will see a change to Celebi's POV as we learn more about the war and the lore of the story's pokemonverse.

Including the role of several of the gods.

We'll also go to Arceus for more information about the next legendary that my little Self Insert has to rescue.

And, of course, explore the Hall of Origins, which will help with the exposition.

See you next time.