Author's Note

I am sorry for the shortness of the first chapter. I am still trying to figure out how this works. Enjoy ( I will use parentheses to say things:})

Oliver's POV

Barry keeps screaming. It feels as if I just got him to sleep.

"No, no, no, no." Barry mutters.

"Barry! Wake up! It is just a nightmare." I even shake him to try and wake him up. When he does he cries.

"Barry," I whisper soothingly. "It was just a nightmare. You are safe. I am safe."

"Ollie?" Barry says as he wakes up all the way. I sigh in relief.

" Barry?" He looks at me. " What was the nightmare about?" I want to help him. I want to so bad but emotions are not my thing.

" It was… Nothing. It was nothing. I am fine." Barry somewhat angrily responds.

" You are not fine Barry. You wake up screaming. You go on rants about murdering people. Barry. Please just tell me." I almost beg for honesty. I look at Barry hoping for a response. Tears are let free from his eyes. He hides his face with his arms. A true sign of discomfort. Then Barry finally lets go of his troubles.

Barry's POV

" I- I saw my mom die and then d-dad die. I can't stop seeing it. I want to give up. I c-can't though. Zoom is still out there. I have t-to beat him." I say. It is cold in our house. Star City is quiet tonight.

Oliver looks down at me. I still wonder how he loves me. I still wonder why he is wasting his time on me. He reminds me of Hunter a lot. At least he won't break my heart though. In some ways a see Kurt and Blaine in him too. I miss messing with Kurt by flirting with Blaine. Only if they could see the mess I am now. Or the mess I will always be. While I was thinking I finally heard what Oliver was saying.

"Barry, Barry."

"Sorry I just got lost in my thoughts." I respond.

" I don't want your to Flash away from me." (my puns are lacking today). I smile at Oliver's attempt to make me smile.

" I am tired." I whine.

"Then sleep ." He states bluntly.

" Hold me?" I ask.

"Always. Always Barry. Just for you."

I fall asleep knowing I am safe in Oliver's arms.

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I will never forget how amazing waking up to the smell of bacon is. Especially when Oliver cooks it. I throw on some sweats and run into the kitchen. Just to see Joe, Iris, Eddie( He's not dead), Cisco, Caitlin, Harry, and Wally here. SO I run back to my room and threw on a shirt. Then I proceed to walk back to the kitchen.

"Hello?" I question. They all look at each other worryingly.

" We need to talk." Oliver speaks up.

" About what?" I ask even though I already know whats happening.

" We are worried about you. We know that you are angry but you should not kill. It isn't you. You can't let your emotions get the best of." Joe responds.

I can feel my expression darken. Sometimes I wish I could be who I really am but we don't always get what we want. This reminds me too much of what happened form the slushie incident. All the Warblers confronted me. Evern Hunter when he transferred to Dalton. After that he try to drug me and did drug others. Apparently The "Once a Warbler always a Warbler" did not stick when it came to Hunter. I kinda miss a lot of things and people but I have Oliver. I respond before I think through what I am saying.

" You're worried. Thats cute. I am fine. Yeah I want to kill Zoom. Yeah I want to make him suffer. Wouldn't everyone want justice for who they have lost. You all sound like a bunch of Kurts." I smirk when I say this." You all gang up on me tell ask me to not do something. But I will KILL ZOOM! Nothing can change it. Nothing. Not even if you bribe me. It won't work I am going to make him pay. For everything he has done. I know you think I am some sweet person that can't hate." I let out a dark laugh and find myself being the true me. Sebastian Smythe. There is no going back." You might think I can't hurt people but you are wrong. Ask Blaine, Kurt,Hunter, Nick, Jeff, Santana, and everyone else. They probably have a whole entire file about it. So in the end I think we all know I am not a puppy. I will make sure Zoom pays. Even if it is the last thing I do." I am left breathless at the end of this. I look at everyone. Some are shocked. Some are worried. Then Joe speaks.

" Well Barry. I am sorry." Joe says. Then I turn my back to look at him. Just to feel a sharp pain in my shoulder. A tranquilizer. Harry had a tranquilizer gun in his hand. Everyone looks guilty.

" Why?!" I ask before I am greeted with darkness.

Oliver's POV

It has been an hour since we threw Barry in a pipeline cell and all I can think on is Barry"s betrayed face. It was for the best they said. I am rethinking my decision. I try to think of other things like who is Hunter. I feel some jealousy. A lot of it. We are all outside of Barry's cell.

" How do you think he is going to be when he wakes up?" Joe asks Caitlin.

" He will be fine. A bit mad yes but health wise he will be okay." She responds quickly.

" Lets just hope he forgives us." I begin. " I made him a promise that I would not hurt him but I did. I hurt him."

" It was for the best. In the end it will help." Harry says.

Then Barry wakes up.