Author's Note
I know I am not the best writer or the best at having constant chapters. I know the chapters are short but I will try more. I try to update regularly but life happens. Once again I am sorry. Please leave reviews so I can improve. Thank you and enjoy. ;)
Barry's POV
I feel myself slowly waking up. At first it is pleasant then I feel stinging in my shoulder. I am slapped fully awake by the memories of what happened. The first emotion I feel is betrayal. How could Ollie do this to me? Or Joe? Well I guess they were right when they said Karma will get you. Yay! I hear a mechanical noise. I look to see the second door open. I turn around already knowing who it is. I can't face them. The betrayal is still fresh in my mind. They will not see me. Not once.
"Barry…" Oliver says. I don't respond. I can't respond.
"It had to be done." Harry says. Yep it had too to make sure I don't kill anyone.
"We all agreed." I hear Joe say. They all agreed to lock me up. Because I am just as bad as Thawne. I am the monster. Not Zoom. It is me.
I tense up. I don't listen. They continue to talk to me and I continue to not respond. Why should I? Why do I try? I have not been Barry for awhile. Just Sebastian. Always. I want to respond but I am afraid of what I will say. Will it hurt them? Oh wait they hurt me time to act back.
"What do you want me to say?" I growl at them. "That I am sorry for wishing for revenge? I am sorry for having ill intent? Why should I apologize? You are the ones that have done wrong. I mean I get it. Even though you hurt me I still am worried about you guys. Out there without me you have NO protection. I can't save you. Ha maybe he was right. All I do is bring death. Who knew I would become what I raced against."
I knew I hurt them. All I know is that I hate two things Zoom and myself. I know it is true. I don't deserve the world. I don't deserve anything.
" Go ahead lock me up. Don't say I did not warn you. Just leave me alone. I can't face betrayal as well as Blaine or Kurt. I give up." I do give up. I turned away from them and layed down. I soon fell sweetly asleep.
Oliver's POV
I don't know what hurt worse. The fact that Barry just gave up or the look on his face. That face was his face of acceptance. He realized we were not letting him out. I watch everyone else leave but I stay back to talk to Barry. I frown. Barry is falling back into depression. It is not the first time I have dealt with his depression and sadly it won't be the last.
"Barry?" I say questionly. He moves as he wakes up.
"What do you want Oliver?" I am not surprised by his tone." I asked you to leave me alone please do. I am dangerous."
"Why are you doing this to yourself? Don't you see we are trying to help you?! You can not become the murderer I am!" I say these words to get a reaction. He laughs. Not his usual laugh this laugh is one that reminds me of Zoom himself.
" Don't you see it. I have killed. Everyone I haven't saved technically I killed!" He turns to me and walks to the glass wall facing me. " I can't save anyone!" He continues. " I didn't save mom and dad! I won't be able to save you." He starts crying."I hurt everyone. I hurt Kurt and Blaine and they forgave me. I don't deserve any forgiveness. I couldn't steer Hunter from drugs. I couldn't do anything and I still can't."
" Barry this isn't you." I say.
" It is now." Barry said this and turned around. "No matter what happens always know I love you."
I am confused by his words but I shut the pipeline. All I can think about the rest of the day was his words. And I wondered who the hell are Blaine, Kurt, and Hunter.