Author's Note

Sorry it took me so long to update. My life has been chaotic. I hope you like it and please review. I don't write well sorry. I will be going on a trip and I won't be able to write. I know my writing sucks and I am sorry.

Seb's POV

I take a deep breath and calmly think of what to do about this. All the people I used to trust and still do. I do not want to do this. Well here I go.

" You can all ask questions just give me a minute to answer and one question at a time." I state. They nod in agreement. " Okay well these people are from my High School and rival High School. Iris this is Blaine, Kurt, and Santana. They are from the rival school. These weirdos are Nick and Jeff from my school. They managed to deal with me for four years. Iris this is Hunter." I say slightly angrily. " Next question." I wait for the question.

" Whos Barry?" Kurt asked.

" I am Barry." I say confusing the others. " Well might as well give you my story. Let's go to a better place to talk. Do you guys know where Star Labs is?" I ask. They nod. " It's a short walk so we'll be fine."

" Why are we going to Star Labs? Isn't it broken down?" Nick questions.

" Well it is broken down and I own it." I Say trying not to think of how I got it.

" How did you get this place?" Hunter asked as we approached Star Labs.

I paused trying to find the right thing to say. I feel Oliver's hand on my back and I slightly flushed. He noticed but stayed there. Slowly I gathered the confidence to speak.

" It is a very long story and… We can just say it was a parting gift from someone I thought I could trust." I lead them through the lobby and make sure to stay away from headquarters. I take them to a sitting room full of couches. Everyone sits down. I sit on a chair next to the back wall. Everyone is facing me. Except Oliver he is sitting next to me. I grab his hand before I speak.

" It is a long story. First off my name is Bartholemelow Henry Sebastian Smythe Allen. It is a mouthful. My story is long. It mainly started on the day my mother was murdered." I hold onto Oliver tighter. " My father was convicted of the crime but he was innocent. After that Joe took me in. I was bullied at school for being a murderer's son. I was beat up constantly and at the end of Jr High it turned worse. I figured out I was gay and some bullies found out. I ended up with a punctured lung and trauma. After that Joe wants me to be safe so I moved. My Uncle adopted me and I lived with him. I went to Dalton since it had a no bullying rule." I look around to see their pity. I laugh darkly." I became what I wanted to escape, a bully. I hurt people and messed up. I was a jerk. I couldn't keep my best friend from falling farther into drugs. I couldn't see I had people to talk too. My actions tore people apart. I was selfish, arrogant jerk and I still am. I have had people I trust betray me. Someone who I got helped from so many times. I trusted someone blindly and it backfired. He was my mother's killer. Isn't that funny. Then not two hours after I accept her death my father is killed in the same spot? Right in front of me. You know what makes it even better?" I look around and grimace." The murderer was someone I trusted. Funny how history repeats itself." I finish with that. I noticed that I had a death grip on Oliver's hand. " Sorry." I whisper to him.

" Your life sucks." Nick says plainly.

" Yes it does but I won't throw away my shot." I say. (He He He I made a Hamilton reference. If you have a request for a fan fic I might write one.)

" Isn't that from a musical?" Hunter asks. I nod.

" Any more questions?" I ask even though I hope not.

" Why won't you forgive me?" Hunter asks. I glare at him and say" Not here Hunter." But Hunter is a stubborn jerk.

" Yes here. Can't we just get it over with?" Hunter responds.

" Fine." I fire off. " You took drugs again and again and never got off of them. You promised me and then broke that promise repeatedly. I was hurt and then you hurt me worse. Broke my heart and my arm. Or did you forget that? Huh?" I stand up as he does. My voice slowly raises." You forced our club to do it too. Even though they used once the withdrawal hurt them. I have seen too many people suffer! I won't forgive or forget! I couldn't help you." I slowly quetnted. " I can't help anyone. Not you not my parents. I can't save myself from myself. I am just a poison slowly killing everyone. If I don't forgive you can't get hurt. Everyone else doesn't know what's best for them. I am the thing that hurts everyone." I end it there knowing I might reveal too much. I sit down. I get hugged by a lot of people. It feels nice.

" I'm sorry." I repeat over and over again. The hug gets even harder. I let myself cry I deserve it. We break from the hug. I quickly wipe my tears.

A smile spreads on my face.

" All of you are getting soft." I hear a voice say. I turn and see…the man that Zoom captured.

" This mask was uncomfortable." My father's doppelganger says.

" You look just like Barry's dad." Cisco says.

" I um.. I … excuse me." I walk out of the room. I realize that I can't breathe.

( I am sorry for the chapter's shortness. I am half awake at 3:00 am. I wish I could do more but life.) Thanks for reading.