Summary: I've been quiet. I NO longer ship my OTP Spock/Uhura but it's not why you think. It's due to "Vulcan" like men and their personality disorders.
Notes: Be nice. This is a personal post. Going through a lot.
Part 1/3 - The condensed version
I don't ship it. What? After writing countless fics of them. WHAT?
I've had 3 separate guys, THREE, (HIM, David, and Jason. Probably Frank if I were into Trek in the 90s) in my life describe themselves as being Spock or Spock like. Cold. Robotic. Numb. Dead inside. Guys who choose not to feel, guys who are unaccustomed to feeling, guys who don't know how to deal with their feelings, express their feelings, show their feelings, communicate and so on. And of course I'm always their Uhura.
The guys always knew how much I loved this couple thanks to the nu!Trek Abrams Verse reboots, how they were my OTP and how I "shipped" them. I guess they thought being the Spock to my Uhura would make me happy considering how much fanfic I wrote for them, read about them, the fan art communities I was in dedicated to them, the forums about them and so on. They were an interracial couple that reflected the dynamics of my relationships which was a black woman to non black male.
Maybe I don't want to be Uhura anymore. I don't know how she did it. Even in the second movie she got tired of the Vulcan not showing emotion and not expressing emotion. Because of that he gave off the impression that he didn't care, care about her, them and their relationship, she felt like he didn't and she voiced that. Thus in that movie their relationship was strained, on the rocks and on the verge of ending.
In my fanfic stories and in the fan fic I've read, my Spock was always more expressive or at least to her. She was the one who always saw his more human side. In my stories that's what made her fall for him. He was always more human with her than he was with anyone else. He was different with her, around her. Many considered my Spock's to be OOC, out of character.
I'm tired of Spock's. Where's my Ash Tyler (Star Trek Discovery) with emotions, with feelings, with expression? HUMAN. I don't want to be the Uhura to another Spock. ? ﾟﾏﾽ? ﾟﾘﾢ Where's my Ash Tyler to my Michael Burnham.
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