Someone in a Star Trek group on FB asked: What Star Trek character do you most identify with and why?
My reply: Uhura. Why? Because I keep seemingly attracting unemotional , robotic, narcissistic personality disorder Vulcans. They are all so Spocklike. I had three exes identify with Spock. Now, can't stand Vulcans. Need me an empath or something. "What if I don't want to be your Uhura anymore!" I said to one. I want someone that shows emotion. Human. Not someone I have to pry it out of. So many of my ex is related to Spock and called m e their a Uhura due to reboot movies. I'm tired of being her.
Now, can't stand Vulcans. Need me an empath or something. "What if I don't want to be your Uhura anymore!" I said to one.
Adding: Spock a Uhura used to be my OTP. But now when I watch the Star Trek movies, when I see the couple, I think of my exes. I look at Spock in anger now. I can't stand the character now. I also feel sorry for Uhura.
I wonder how she did it. How she put up with it. How she put up with him. In the movie he was half human and I imagine him being more human in private. That he showed her his more human side in private to her.
But if he's anything like my exes which I imagine he is, it was probably like pulling teeth just to get an emotional response out of him which was draining. The whole Mr. mysterious and not knowing what they're thinking, them withholding, the silence treatments and all of that. I just got tired of it.
I want somebody that expresses freely, where it doesn't always have to be an argument just to find out what they were really thinking. I want someone that actually talks about themselves and I don't have to ask 1 million questions. Or them not telling me an answer because I didn't ask the right question.
I've had a Exes go, you're the only one that really knows me. I'm tired of it. They were all so Vulcan like
And it's not like I saw a guy and went, oh he acts like Spock I want that one. No.
Just tired of Spocks
It's hard to ship it when it reminds you of toxic/abusive relationships.
Notes:
Comments welcomed. I've been dealing with abusive/toxic men and toxic abusive relationships. Psychopaths, sociopaths, guys with NPD (narcissistic personality disorder) and so on. These antisocial, introverted, nerdy men, all identifying with Spock. All Spock like. It's been hard and it's not like I "look" for Spocks. I just wanted to update you all on why I don't ship it.